stupid once-in-a-month thing's making me a wreck. i dun understand why its making me so negative about everything, making me bloody emotional for super random reasons and i genuinely feel super sucky about it. GAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!

them (un)lucky boys, dun have to go thru this themselves (but they get affected by it one way or another anyways =P)

its not like i want to be like that. i always try to consciously refuse to be like this, but it just doesn't work sometimes. its like flu, it just comes. and once in a while the monster inside me comes out and devours all reasons and refuse to be happy (and refuse to be full too! hungry monster!)

anyways.. its true i see things(problems) thru magnifying glasses during these times, but it bothers me too, even tho i get cranky over random reasons, those reasons do still exist when i'm in my happy place. i know i can't make descisions when i'm angry so... on the other hand i should ignore them because i'm happy??

bahhhhh.. i just feel sucky right now... i just wanna watch some random funny movie and munch on something fattening. thank goodness its an off day! =P

puii- imsorryiloveyou