the flesh and blood of love

Sunday, August 26, 2012

Weeee!!

Weee!! Random appearance!! =D Been so tired and busy and tired I have no freaking energy to bring myself to do certain things, blogging obviously being one of them.. I don't know why i'm so tired, i just am! =P Well, i doubt any people come here anyways so... =P hello me! =)

Well, most most recent happening, which just happened like 10 mins ago? i was locked in the kitchen with the boyfee's dog. They always lock the kitchen cos Doodle somehow learnt to open the freaking door with his paws, and came out few times to pee all over the place.. just my luck someone walk pass while i was in the toitoi and decides to lock it! =P i love Doodle, but i'm scared of him too! he did bite me twice! =P stupid silly cutie doggy.. anyways, finally bf's bro and wife saved me from the kitchen, after knocking on kitchen door for quite long weeee!! =D they thought the knocking came from Doodle's tail hitting the door haha!

and that was my exciting morning =)

And one other thing is pretty exciting: HK trip with Meow and princess Karkar! =P First trip without family or love! =P Hope I buy more stuff; i always end my trips in regret! Cos i always think so much before buying things that i always just end up not buying anything =(

XJH IN HONGKONG!!

ROAST GOOSE AND PIGEONS COME TO ME!

I'm so excited i can't wait to have all the nice hk goodies!! =) i'm so hungry now its not helping!! =P

Wanna do something to my hair but dunno what!! =( maybe i should go to a salon and just let them do whatever they wan? =P hahahaha!!

Okay im hungry and i need food. Hope i don't get locked in again! =P gonna bring a phone with me! =P hahahaha!!

puii- tummy growl!

11:18 AM

Friday, July 06, 2012

time of the month..

Always makes me feel like blogging.. It's prolly some weird lady emo bug that come once a month to try and screw me over.. Lucky for me, everything's been good and sweet, nothing to pull the trigger on my inner machine gun of evilness.. I love my baby.. I see him doing his best to change for me. And I for him too! As much as I can.. I know I'm not the same person as I was, just hoping that I am a better person now, and a better person for him..

I love the Harry potter exhibition together, and the sweet movie date we just went on, and random baja fresh surprises.. Everything just feels surreal and sugar sugar sweet..

Maybe the hormonal fairy decided to be nice and gave me the happy bug this month.. Hope it stays this way for just a bit longer.. :) I really just wanna cherish what I have now.. Knowing I don't usually thing of how much I already have.. And right now, I know I have plenty and thats good for me..

Sudden waves of headache is kinda pissing me off a bit tho.. As well as restless sleeps, carrying dreams after dreams of the most vivid random things..

I wanna fall asleep happy tonight :)

Puii-

11:54 PM

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

heavy, heavy heart

I tripped and fell to a dark, dark place, and I need somebody to rescue me, or just tell me things are going to be alright...

Feel like I want to crumple up and break down into a million little pieces, and let me feel less heavy again..

I feel like giving every single damn thing up and start all over again, every bloody thing that matters. Every every thing.

I feel so tired...............

Puii- what a lousy way to end the day :(

12:05 AM

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Finally took the time..

Gave up on the previous skin, very nice but not iphone friendly.. Hahahaha.. still, simpler is better.

Lazy to update all the random happenings.. But my faded memories seem pretty happy for the past month =) Happy at work, happy with friends, happy with my baby. especially his birthday lebanese buffet =) loved it.

i really really really want to start dancing again.

lamb on repeat recently. always make me gaze out of the window and into space. makes me think too much and feel too much. makes me close my eyes and the goosebumps rise.

i feel like cooking something. anything.

i'm feeling dreamy but stagnant, like still water that you'd want to disturb with a rock or a touch. feel like a pillow that needs fluffing. need some "freshness" in my life.

i have no idea what i want to say. so here's a song and goodnight world! =)




puii-

10:14 PM

Sunday, May 06, 2012

I don't know what I'm thinking, randomly deciding to change my blogskin in the middle of the night, now its almost morning and i need to be working in a few hours' time. There are still so many things i wanna change, and i'm cold and tired and hungry.. talk about bad judgment, what was i thinking?!

anyways, i just got tired of the previous skin, hope this one works well, its already making me a bit impatience cos of the 9 navigations squares, kinda forcing me to have 9 different things to feature, against my will! =P i never really liked navigation type blog skins, i don't know what impulse i went with. i reactivated my cbox and twitter already cos of it.. and i'm too tired to care now that the bloody cbox is not working properly. and i still have on more box(navigation) to fill.

oh no, please not you now headache.

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i have other things i wanna talk about, but i'm tired.. shall try to go and sleep and resist the temptation to start letting words flow. i'm just glad i got through yet another emo monster period with minimal damage. it might have something to do with me wearing my charlie chaplin shirt =D

and les ballet trockadero de monte carlo was awesome. i was damn pissed, but the show was awesome and hilarious. i'll tell you another time.

i just finish reading red riding hood. i miss reading.

i wish there's a sausage mcmuffin for me now to eat while i lie down trying to sleep. i wish i would instantly fall asleep after i finished the mcmuffin so i won't waste time 'trying to fall asleep'. okay, maybe a warm milo before the fall asleep part. hahahahaha..

okay enough of my rubbish. =D

puii-  last day for woodpecker.

4:35 AM

Wednesday, May 02, 2012

what?

Woke up late, and had a weird dream of me shouting the name of micheal buble and there were cartoon skull faced zombies....what?!

Anyways the point is.. I'm late and on a cab to work. Bummer :(

Puii- need a haircut

8:40 AM

Saturday, April 28, 2012

Haha i realize nobody blog anymore, maybe they don't need any form of verbal relief? =P

I just had awesome breakfast of garlic bread, slices of jap cucumber and a tin of sardines with chili and olive oil =P yes i know its noon but its still breakfast! =P Hehehehe.. love the chilled cucumbers with a bit of the salty chili olive oil =P 

Suddenly feel like cooking Alfredo/Carbonara again.. must find one day when the stars align =P

What's with me and food!

Speaking of food, i super super miss Bangkok and its street yummies.. like super.. those random mystery fried meat and sausages, fried rice, sweet pancakes.. gahhhhh... feel like going again!! =P and omggg the random phadthai near khao san road! =P

i wanna go taiwan too.. to try the mee sua and weird stuffs on skewers and stuff =P

Omg! suddenly hungry!! =( food mongster go away! =P

Shall stop blogging before i REALLY become hungry.. Back to gmarket! (EH?!)

puii-

1:16 PM

Sunday, April 22, 2012

no more wicked

Saw a post on Facebook about the execution of two gay guys in some country that i don't remember.. Its just terrible, (I would say almost criminal if it wont get me in trouble!) I don't believe anyone should die just for being themselves; who they choose to be. You can disagree with their choices, but to take away their lives just for that is just barbaric :( feel so sad to see that.. How I wish and wish it won't happen to anyone anymore. but the world is so.. ...so sad.

 So.. I officially missed Wicked, despite it's long residency in MBS theatre.. Let's hope I won't miss Trockadero! :)

 On another note: Thanks baby! For bringing for curry rice just because I want to, when I know you won't have much choice as to what to eat.. Thanks for making me feel special, and that I'm your priority. Thanks for bearing with the hungry mongster within me :) thanks for all the love tonight :) I love you mian~

 Haven't felt this tired in a long time; the fatigue is so strangely familiar and alluring :) let's have a good rest and kick start into a brand new week, 5am in the morning!! Nighty night world!

 Puii- I wanna spread love, and butter! :)

10:52 PM

Sunday, April 08, 2012

Weee!! The pouch/wallet/handphone holder i've been eyeing have available stocks again! I got excited and ordered two, hahaha.. oh no online shopping makes it too easy to spend money! =P can't browse for too long or i'll keep seeing nice things i wanna get! =P Hahahaha..

Which reminds me.. i raelly gotta get down to getting rid of clothes that i dun wear.. its taking up the space of what could be new clothes. HAHAHA!

ANYWAYS, just a short post on that.. gotta go to work already, but i havent eaten anything yet today (not a meal at least.. just two biscuits and one mouth of chocs =( ...) Tata~

puii- life's good when i dun have mood swings =)

3:25 PM

Wednesday, April 04, 2012

FOOD =)

I would like to think of myself as an adventurous foodie, and yes i would like to try food as exotic as i can take.. and YAY to my first balut today! It was really really quite nice, a very full egg yolk taste that still lingers in my mouth a bit, its just the thought and look of it that you really must get pass haha.. my fav part was prolly the juice/soup you had to suck out before eating the egg. quite nice! like instant broth!

can't wait till my next food adventure. man! singapore food is too boring! =P

(and i can't wait till my first tarantula and mini scorpion, deep fried please!)

which leads to the next thing, i wanna travel somewhere! =P

okay, not really a next thing.. since there's really nothing much to say about that.. Okay, shall enjoy remains of my little adrenaline rush and excitement, and go about the rest of my off day~

puii- the balut made me hungry now =P

3:26 PM

Sunday, April 01, 2012

Hate it when things get complicated, hate it when everything feels fake and awkward, hate it when i wish there's an "unfriend" button in real life =P (sound so mean), hate it when i can't always be comfortable with people i hang around..

hate it when i get kick in the face by my own "friendliness" =P

bad energies, bad feelings, bad attitudes: go far far far away from me pleasessssss~~~~~

GOSH.

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I suddenly really feel like taking a break and going somewhere.. just me and baby, somewhere nice and peaceful =) i miss that..

Haha and i suddenly rem what ivonn said.. oh no, really not 潇洒 anymore! =P

i miss my flowers.. i hope there'll be a xjh soon.. maybe if i can go away for a while i can go hk with vonn hahahahaha.. (haiya fat hopes) FIRST THING i'd do is take a picture =)))) Hehehe!!

and i miss the girls at work =) they always makes me laugh and feel comfortable.. and ya, laughing at each other too.. Hahahaha.. (Powerpuff and Mojo Jojo??) =P

Eeeee! why the entry suddenly become so clingy and needy and missing everyone? HAHAHAHA!! But i really do! People appear in front of me soon! All of you! =) Chase away all the bad energies!! =P

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i suddenly feel like eating curry chicken noodle again! again!!!

work later, gotta eat something soon.. HMMMMM... =P

kay bye! ttyl~

puii-

2:13 PM

Monday, March 26, 2012

Scumbag comment... seriously!!!

Scumbag comment from le acquaintance spoil my self expression on Facebook.. Pissed off and deleted the post.

Not even that close to you for you to start commenting on my wall like that. Thanks for ruining my style.

Geez!! Some people really...

Puii- I would say "no offense", but i feel offended so too bad for you

2:10 PM

Saturday, March 24, 2012

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Burn like a good bonfire, burn with a little more passion, burn with a bit more heat and fire within, burn a slow long burn, at least, start to light it up now...

1:34 AM

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

hello!

Hmmm.. This has become a ranting ground, where I keep all my frustrations. Why don't I wanna share joy anymore, but just bad monents in life? Hmmm.. It's like a dear diary thing.. Only dear diary have the patience and "ears" to hear all my naggy nag nag nag.....

I am happy. In life I am. Right now maybe not very much, but in life, I think I am happy. But life sure knows how to throw shit at us to bring us down, we all have our moments.. it just sucks that I can't get out of mine, thus all the angsty posts.. It just appear out of nowhere, Haha..

"guess you still keep hate in your heart. I don't feel any better, but I don't want to hate, not anymore.. My heart is too tired for that, and for (memories of) you(r doings) and your hate.. Just don't hate, just be happy, everyone.. Okay?"

Maybe in learning to put things down, I'll never learn anything.. The rocks I thought I put down, they actually just hid themselves somewhere deeper, I just couldn't see them..

Yeah, life sucks like that.. all our lives..

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That's that. On a brighter note, I wanna watch wicked before it closes, and trockadero when they come. Like REALLY want to :) and I'm hungry now, at like 1 plus in the morning haha.. And yay!! Baby to save the day with trip to fridge! :D

But baby... Why Harry potter become GR-55?

Puii-

1:39 AM

Sunday, February 12, 2012

So...

So, what do we do with feelings no one will understand? No one to hear your story, no one to confide, no one there to speak comforting words. What do we do with feelings that doesn't go away? Bad feelings; that kind that eats you away slowly on the inside...

What CAN I do about it?

Sometimes, I hate this sad bubble I put myself into, trapping myself from the outside(happy) world... when can I truly (and finally) get these thorns out of my heart?

I hate it when I'm not happy.

So cliche but.. Really wish I could turn back time.. I would have done everything differently; better.

Puii-

12:41 AM