haha i still feel kinda bad for making my dancers and collaborator come to school on deepavali for rehearsal. but thats two days ago so.. =PP its okayyyy~~ =P hahahaha..
hai i'm so tired of trying to change things in the choreo now. i feel like just leaving it as it is and just show ah.. like i change it every week.. and every week there'll be more comments to change more stuffs.. and then i end up with like sooooo many tiny changes alll around the whole dance that's probably confusing my dancers, and myself. hahahahahahaha.. jia lat man =PP
and its already like week 13, and still must change the music stuffs too.
hai~ like.. so no time to finish collab nicely la. dangggg..
and that's just collab ah!
pray pray pray that everything will be fine! seriously this sem i'm not even so concern about technique exams la.. not that i will do well or whatever; i prob wont, but cos there's so many other stuffs to worry about la. soooo many journals and essays and other nonsense stuffs...
almighty performance theory -_-
anyways.. ministry prac yst was fun! =)) miss dancing with em darls!! really so so so so so so so long never dance and prac together with them already! hahah and also all the DM people ah =))) missesss!!
heh~~ 鱼片米粉 fellowship with calynne tay kai ning after that was dope. cos i got an extra bowl of soup. hahahahahhahaha =PP i miss chatting with that dumb dumb ah!! =PP hahahaha..
i didnt dance today(wed) and i feel kinda weird.. but its kinda shiok too cos suddenly felt kinda relaxed for the whole day.. actually i'm supposed to be dancing in the morning but... ahhhhh lets move on =P
(officially) dun have technique class today, cos we had to go and attend this jazz concert at the SIA theatre. danggg that place's quite pretty la! i just dont get the lights on the wall thing.. hahahahahaha..
the orchestra was dope! =)) hahahaha there's this cute cute old uncle playing the saxophone. ivonn and june was sayng they very gan dong cos he was like soooo 卖力 in whatever he was doing. hahaha so cute.
superrrr long break was shiok =))) till 4pm la! =P
anyways.. tmr's albert. =PPP i think i will totally die la. got a new combi that i'm not familiar with, and another one i havent learn! plus, tmr must teach them albert's perf lab.
i wish there's no informal showing this semester =P
haha i was like, watching ms swan again today at the school library. she's like, the classic la. hahahahahaha =PP
*i not cute, i sexy*
HAAHHAHAHAH!! nonsense!! =PP
i'm getting veryyyy tired of all the songs in my phone. i've been replaying all of it for like foreverrr, and i dun even listen to all of them. hahahahaha =PP but i cant find nice songs to put in. hai~ so sad =PP
rain rain rain tmr!!!!! =PPPP
puii- youyouyou make me happy
12:36 AM
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
What is just is.
there should be more deepavalis, just so that there'll be more public holidays. hahahahaha~~ =PP
here and now is all that matters.
i feel like eating chicken rice. =P
okayy slp. class early tmr.
ohh acting assesement.
collab showing.
asia conf reh starts tmr! =) cant wait to dance again with my darls =))
puii- +)
2:38 AM
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Danggggg.. i woke up with a washing machine in my stomach =((
a running washing machine..
hate it la =((
pour que tu m'aimes encore is a nice song =)
come back.
milo O
my muscles are very tight =PP
puii- tummy get well soon!!
7:09 AM
it cant be something that i ate la... this bad tummy thing's been lasting for soooo long =(( few days know!! how can!! hai~~ it feels like i ate a running washing machine or something, and now its at the spinning mode. its not pain or anything, just, very uncomfortable.
and prob from today's swim (and tan) thing at ally's house, i feel feverish now.. but i'm not having a fever, so thats kinda weird.. dunno izzit from the sun(a lil)burn. hahahahaha..
anyways, thanks ally girl!! =))) your fried ice cream was great! =)) tho, technically i'm not suppose to eat that but, you cook so must support! =))) thanks for having us over at your place today!! =))) appreciate it man! =))
heh.. havent swam in ages =))
hee it was fun hanging out with the girls! =) it was pretty cool, like some girlfriend meeting. hahahahaha.. such a bimbotic idea righttt =PP then again we went to Alison's house so.. heeee!
Her niece and nephew all so cute =)
Oh oh! Watched Juno, and that movie's good! I mean.. its kinda wrong.. but its cute la =) hahahaha..
i got a HUGE pimple =(( i'm so saddddd..
dangggg.. i hope this running-to-toitoi thing will stop soon =((
*
sometimes i wish i could follow the kid inside of me. whining.. falling.. wanting.. kicking.. but that's pretty irritating aint it?
puii- zzzzzzz. sleep =)
1:01 AM
Thursday, October 23, 2008
ahh i love her voice la =)
think i ate something that disagree with my tummy =((
hopefully tmr's class wont be so xiong. but i highly highly doubt so. =PP plus perf lab! hahahaha jia lat man..
dang.. i totally forgot about returning one of the library books, which is due today =PPP hahahaha.. man, my Silk Road travel guide book that i used to write about Dunhuang dance. hahaha..
speaking of which, i really think its very pretty =))) hai~ if only i got chance to learn back chinese dance. =P and all the other nonsense dances that i wanna learn too =PP
i feel like eating prawn salad =PPP
puii-
11:53 PM
I must be madddd.. i slept with my contact lens in =PPPP hahahahaha i just got it out la. =P
oh Ivonn gave me a new pair. its blue now. =P hahahahahaahah i can hear hsien fa alreadyyyy =P when it was grey he said i lack of vitamin. hahaha maybe now i'll be eating the wrong vitamins ah =P hahhahahaahahaha..
puii- heh~
6:50 AM
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
i'm sorry, it seems to be all my fault. its just one of those times where i feel like i'm a bar of wet soap, slipping through between your fingers. i cant hold myself, so, can you? will you?
i don't know what is true anymore.
and i only know right and wrong by definition.
i don't know. i don't know. i don't know.
*
on a lighter note. i enjoyed myself at the Biennale exhibition thing we went for perf theory class. well, not like it made me understand anything any better, but i really love watching instillation art and videography stuffs. i think its so nice la =)) not so much into photography though. hmmmmmm..
i love the instillations stuffs =)
i've been very tired these two days, just cos of lack of sleep. so i'm gonna go sleep right now, and maybe wake up a lil earlier to get some work done =PP hahhahahaha..
i'm still trying to do change to my choreo, movement quality wise, and also the relationship between dancers. and dangggg we gotta write two more journals. but thats okay. i pretty like collab journals =))
actually. i love it secretly. haha....
took many many many many many many photos from the Biennale today. maybe will load it later when i wake up =P or something.. Alison took alot of my emo photos today! i havent got to see any one em yet. hahahah she's so cute la =P tried to "repay" her by taking her emo pics too, but not as many as she took for me ah =P hhahahahaha..
oh oh oh!!! i saw saw saga seeds today!!! =))) i love picking saga seeds man, i think they're the prettiest thing ever =)))
okay i'm dozing off already.... =P talk to yall later =)
puii- saga seeds love! =))
11:10 PM
i dunno why i'm still in random bad moods and emoness nowadays. womanhood should be a long way away..
i dun understand.
actually i'm very tired.. and sleepy.. but.....
=P
hahahaha i wanna apologize to my dancers, cos i keep having tiny changes ALL over the choreo. and guess what! i got new stuffs from that bus ride home just now =P hahahahahah.. i think they will feel like killing me.. but there's some stuffs i saw already then must change one la. =P hahahaha so, bear with me =P just three more weeks! =P
i'm hungry. i need breakfast. i need sugar.
milo: the power drink. =PP
puii- ha ha ha ha.
6:45 AM
Saturday, October 18, 2008
speak in Your whispers and let me hear
the voice of the Shepard calling clear
let me come to You today like lil Samuel in the Bible. let me hear Your voice in the night. let me hear Your soft whispers. Father You know i long to see Your face. You know i love You in such a speacial way. Oh my Lord, my Shepard, speak and call me away, to come away with You, to the greens and waters, to the shelter of Your wings.
Daddy God i love You, i want to dance for You.
Who else can i dance for, but Someone so true? Who can i call upon, but Someone like You? Please know, today, my first Love is You. Tonight, in Your presence, i want to stand still.
Still, and feel.. Your Love is true, and real, and true..
*
i miss my dancing darls. cant wait to see them soon soon soon to give each of them a big big big hug each =))) i really really miss them so much!
this is really random, but ah hua is really so cute =P hahahahahaha.. she always got the blur look on her face =P hahahaha..
never seen so much food for cellgroup refreshment before. i was soooooo full i didnt feel like eating anymore when i got home =P hahahahha..
yay saw val today! tho its just for a while. hahaa but got to see her dance ah, when she was at reh with Ann's recital people =P hahahahahah dance well ah val! =))) nicenice! =)
just saw the vid of fredy's choreo, which we're suppose to learn by sunday. hahahaaha only one thing to say.. khye will have a hardddd time man =PPP heee! omg its all soooo fredy la. =P songs still okay, but its all the movements that is soooo fredy la =P hahahaa..
but i like =))
haiya, basically i just want to dance back some street jazz or hiphop stuffs. so i'm just thrilled =)))
i want to choreograph something random. =P not with all the "headache" concepts and stuff. just dance, and enjoying it. hahhhhahahaa.. i miss la. =P
okay, i feel so dumb right now, but by the end of this post, i'm hungry alreadyyyy.. so i gotta find food again. so much for feeling fat and wanting to eat lesser. hahahaha!! =PP
puii- b line
12:46 AM
Thursday, October 16, 2008
i don't know. i don't know. i don't know.
i want mushroom soup.
i'm sleepy.
oh oh, rehearsal for jess tmr.
fat.
i'm lazy to load pics to facebook. =P
you're trying so hard. it makes me feel sad.
when will. where will.
what.
i'm gonna do many crunches before i sleep today.
waiting seed.
i need to find red balloons. dark red, metallic red, whatever red; just not the bright red i'm using now =P
i'm missing alot alot of people. you you you you you.
i serious want to finish my choreo by next rehearsal. so it'll be easier for everyone. i should stop procrastinating about it.
and also, my essayssss and journalssss
i am.
you're so observant, its scary.
hahaha new episode on pro at cooking =P
i'll go slp now. nights~
b line.
puii- i go ba da ba da ba da ba da ba da ba da..
9:24 PM
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Random talk:
I dun like flu bug. and apparently, they dun like me either =(
i suddenly feel like watching phantom of the opera again.
i dunno how to do my choreo anymore =( i dunno how to be clear in showing what i want to show. =P mayb i should really talk more to the dancers about what i want. mayb i should rethink all the steps. i think i needa cut stuff. i think i need more motifs to be more clear. mayb i should start having some idea what on earth i'm actually doing =P
...okay its not THAT bad. but i'm emoing so its okay =P
green bean soup from mummy =)))
i need to recover very soon, to catch up on every everything in school. especially ballet =(
i feel fat.
rewatching walter and peanut =))
i miss morning walks. cant wait for those during holidays =P
its already week 11 into school term. so fasttttt..
i miss dancing with my cg peeps =((( cant wait for asia conference trainings to start.
Thank you for forgiving Hurtful things I've done As a child, adolescent or woman Thank you for embracing a flaxen-haired baby Although I'm aware you had doubts
I guess anybody'd have had doubts
Please be at peace father I'm at peace with you Bitterness isn't worth cling to After all the anguish we've all been through
Thank you for the mountains The lake of the clouds I'm picturing you and me there right now As the crystal cascades showered down
Strange to feel that proud, strong man Grip tightly to my hand Hard to see the life inside Wane as the days went by Trying to preserve each word He murmured in my ear Watch part of my life Disappear...
Father, thanks for reaching out and lovingly Saying that you've always been proud of me I needed to feel that so desperately You're always alive inside of me
Now you're shining like A sunflower up in the sky Way up high
-Sunflower for Alfred Roy-
i'm picturing You and me there right now..
* * *
i've been emoing quite alot randomly these few days. well, i'm trying not to show it but, just give me the liberty to speak in my own blog. =P
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i'm de-emoing watching jeff dunham and nonsense old school batman vids! =P hahahahhahaha serious dang funny =P i think i wont be able to sleep tonight without having nightmares cos i laughed so hardddd =P HAHA!!
this is ultimate. classic nonsense, dope stuff =P HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!! old school batman =P
puii- celine dion <3
11:03 PM
Sunday, October 12, 2008
i give up updating accordingly. i'll just do a birthday entry soon, and yea thats it =P
i'm at my second box of Ricola for the week already. i'm totally spamming lozenges. not good ahhhh..
and i realised on the way home, about 9 plus 10 at night? that i totally forgot about my medicine. the whole day i never eat my med!! wtp!! =P
not good ahhhh..
last two shows tmr!! =))) finally man. cant wait for production week to be over! =P
i'm totally excited, and totally stressed about Omar's piece tmr =S i hope and pray and pray and hope i wont be sooooo nervous that i trip over my own foot or something =P and HOPEFULLY my face will say something tmr =P hopefully i'll be emo enough
*judging from these few days, i'll definitely be emo enough. womanhood at work. BEST LA*
two more times of Vacant House!! actually i really love doing Vacant House man.. its really so nice to dance/act in. i mean, there's so many emotions in VH that we won't normally even show to others in real life. so i feel that makes it really real for me..
and, yes, back to my stupid choreo idea.. all about the "balloons" in our lifes. =P
two more times of Melissa's piece also! =P heh~ i still love letting go of the huge balloons la =P haha.. but i'm not a fan of greens and greenish blues so.. =P
i love red.
i love taking pictures with those dancers =)) they are all so cute =)))
fall in love with da:ns tomorrow!! =))
puii- baguette butter love!
12:08 AM
Wednesday, October 08, 2008
i got many things to blog about! like the MOS trip. and school. and my birthday. and many other things!
but i'm totally sick. so very sick. i'll go slp now =P
PRAY FOR ME!! its like the worst time to fall sick la =P
puii- Esplanade show. 11th 12th October.
9:33 PM
Saturday, October 04, 2008
What is more important in our lives?
5:19 PM
i'm sorry i'm not a feet washer. not today.
if my trying to buy a lil more time to spend with you is not even worth 5 freaking dollars, man how freaking cheap am i in your eyes. i must be like, next to nothing. Hey, maybe i shouldnt bother anymore, since you don't even want a freaking thing to do with me, and i'll never be among all the freaking things that you think about anymore. You'd rather spend stupid money buying nonsense stuffs for other people than spend a meal's worth to travel with me together.
i ate a KFC meal for $6.40
maybe i shouldn't bother anymore. i'm sorry i couldn't reach for the towel and basin today. i'm the bad person. i'm the bad person.
*
on a totally different note. i love my cellgroup! =) the cutest people ever =) like ah hua!! she invented a game by herself, and we've been playing it these two weeks! hahahaha so cute man she, serious cute! =)
they celebrated my birthday too! =)) heh~ shall leave it for the birthday blog entry. love the shirt and the cake!
the cake is serious nice!! there's a layer of crispy stuffs near the bottom! =)) just like that choc hazelnut cake thingy i ate with ivonn at a cafe near school. hahahhaha. should bring june there sometime soon to try the new cakes =)
i'm feeling totally lazy today, and i totally dun feel like going out, or doing anything. but i should be out of the house soon, heading to dad' store. and oh man tonight... i dun even want to think about it. i think i'll totally die tmr =(
fredy's rehearsal!! =P
Loretta's coming coming on monday! =P Can't wait to see that mighty lady again =)
puii- worth
2:33 PM
Thursday, October 02, 2008
Maybe i need to ask myself, why i dance in the first place. why i dun want to do something else. why i chose this, the path less taken.
if not, i'm afraid i'll lose the flame. i dun want to end up not liking dance anymore. i dun want to end up not dancing anymore. i dun want to face a day where dance is impossible.
i hope singapore will never ban dance, like they did in other countries in dance history. hahahahahahahha..
anyways. had a GREAT time with hua and val yesterday at town!! =))) so cute of them! =)) celebrated an early birthday for me~ and they bot me presents!! shall blog more about that after my birthday, but i was serious so touched =)) especially val's pressie for me!! omg so touched =) thanks girls!! love photo-hunting and playing memory test games with yall!! =)))
helped at my daddy's store after that, cos public hol, and the other zhu chao store never open, so had crazy amount of people. crazy amount of table to serve. crazy amount of food and rice to take. crazy amount of on-the-spot money counting. crazy amount of orders to write, in chinese.
crazy amount of weird looks at my hair. hahahahahahahahahahha...
speaking of which, i'm beginning to love alot! =)) Well, biggest reason, my sweet daddyyyy cut it for me =)) and its kinda cool, cos its irritating =))) heeee!!
okay, i over use the word "irritating". like everything is "irritating". hahah..
so that was my hari raya holiday =)
oh oh, i was browsing through facebook, and saw something SHOCKING. hahaha i almost fainted (from laughing too hard, and also severe SHOCK). hahahahaha.. but i shall not write it here cos its overwhelming.
well, it kinda emo-ed me for a while. but i guess its okay =) Daddy in heaven have better plans for me =P heee!
OKAY i'm going slp alreadyy. soooo sleepy. stupid ivonn say wanna come online chat about laptops one. irritating. dun wan wait for her already la. hahahahaha! =P
puii- WHY?!??!?!? HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH!!! (roll on floor laughingggg)
11:02 PM
Wednesday, October 01, 2008
i cant believe i'm up so early on a public holiday. i'm still sleepy, but i cant sleep anymore! =P how! lidat! hahahahahahah..
cant wait to go meet val and hua later =)
oh and, sorry for being random, i dont know how my brain runs. but i just remembered something that is so funny! =P
Chewyee sent me this via sms the other day. i almost LAUGH out loud on the crowded crowded bus:
(you probably feel like killing me right now.. but hey! this is my fav joke now k! =P)
thanks Chewwwww!! =)
i shouldnt have ate mutton soup yesterday, tho i totally love it ta bits. i'm feeling so heaty now, like i'm gonna fall sick. then again, it might have been that stupid aircon last night. haha!
sometimes, people just like to act pro. like they know everything. like you cant fight them on it, they are the know-it-alls in whatever subject you're talking about. when something is obviously bad, and you try to laugh at it with them, they come and act pro, and explain how it is actually very good. that they UNDERSTAND it. that they CAN APPRECIATE it. that they are the PRO, thus they'd know better.
whatever la okay. if you're telling me that is good stuff, then, you're probably missing out on so so so much good stuffs. i dun wanna talk anymore good stuffs with you already. like, not everything packed nicely is good. so...
okay okay, breakfast and tv!
puii- ha ha ha ha
8:17 AM
me
searching meanings
with dreams, with dance
with love