the flesh and blood of love

Thursday, March 29, 2007

I tot i recovered well enough to go school. so i attempted to appear in class today. nope, didnt succeed. and i got myself in for a BIG scare.

i was eager to go out of house. SUPER eager. trapped at home, lying around, sleeping. ROAR i was bored like B-O-R-E-D. so happily i packed my bag the night before(see how eager i was) and got up EARLY. very early.

everything went well. i even got myself on the train! wow achievement.

and i almost fainted on the train -_-

i guess i didnt look sick enough, so some guy actually snatched seats with me. *hrmp* so i thought i could do with some standing till dhoby ghaut. i was wrong. Yishun, and i couldnt take it. My vision was blurred. I was giddy. It was black in front. I didnt faint only because i forced myself not to(i guess). It was scary. I tot i might just drop there and the next thing i know i'm in the hospital. Luckily i got enough strength to pull me out of the train.

You know what's the best part of the whole thing? I know nuts of what's wrong with me. Totally. My fever's gone. My throat's healed. Blah blah blah. And its not getting better. ROAR. I havent been to school all week! Gosh. I wanna get well. i'm missing school terribly now.

A thousand and one things ran through my mind. No i'm serious. I cant remember what, but it was scary. My world's closing in on me, and i'm there thinking, no! you cant faint! hahaha~ i'm so talking to myself back there, its funnie to think of now.

I got out of the station, for whatever reason. Until i'm feeling better i'm not gonna take another train ride. Not for today at least. So i got out, called home, and tried to find the taxi stand. Hahaha i think i was too blur to think, i actually walked AROUND THE WHOLE STATION before finding the taxi stand, which by normal human understanding you would know that you need not walk such a big round. Nvm, i was very sick...

Nice attempt to go to school huh? Goodness. Imagine what more of an adventure it would be if i realli fainted. Gagaga.

So i dont know if i should try goin to school again. If not, i'll be absent from school the WHOLE week already. Great...=(

Puii- sick; very very sick.

3:05 PM

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Thank God. =)

at least i got well enough to go service. all my fever was gone, only left a lil bit of sore throat. after that still can dance at Easter prac.

and it all came back on sunday night, very very very badly. i didnt eat the whole day, i couldn't. even swallowing saliva was a torture =(

Record setting : I took one minute to eat one grape. ONE okay.

i've been sleeping in the living room for days now, cos i cant sleep with my die-die-must-have-aircon sister. i totally faint through my day. haha~~

so i went to see doc. gave me two days MC. and this SUPER HUGE antibiotics, expecting me to swallow it, when i cant even drink water. Very clever.

Oh no, i dun even know if i'll recover enough to pull myself to school tmr. and as the days goes by, my marks are being deducted. Gosh what am i to do tmr la~

And i cant make it for Easter prac later. =( Shucks, this whole thing is ROAR la.

*Kick kick kick* all the virus away.

Let me be well.
Let me be well.
Let me be well.
*throw coin down a wishing well*

puii- swallow pills. swallow pills.

10:17 AM

Saturday, March 24, 2007

fever fever.

yes and i fell sick again =( very very sick. i seriously tot i was going to die. hahahahahaha.. my fever went over the moutains. my throat was like volcano. flu like Bugis Junction's fountain. weak like grass jelly. my whole body's aching, worse than after-ballet-class. bones cracking. yes i couldnt move a finger. =(

and i'm totally not exaggerating.

and to add to that, mum fed me some stuff that i'm totally sure is some vitamins. she claims its medicine. so i didnt feel any better after i head home, after a torturous day of watching-class.

oh btw, my classmates are all so sweet =) so nice of em with their care.

got back my results. now i know their expectation. i'll work hard. very hard.i'll try my best to reach THERE =)))

two jumps two jumps.

went back W16 for cg meeting. think i'll probably just DIE(seriously) if i went Osch for cg. i was lke dying before cg meeting starts. i couldnt even laugh at Adrian's joke. But it was totally different when we started to sing. i was like normal. singing louder than usual. i believe i was healed, just that moment. my fever must have went down. i must have been healed =)

He touched me, and made me whole~

But after that it all came back la. i was starting to feel cold again. very very cold. i couldnt even take notes. i was hugging myself instead. haha. it was like, pathetic. i was sick to the core la pls. hahaha.

straight after cg meeting i escaped from the aircon and wrapped myself. sinman should have taken a picture. i looked like a rice dumpling. hahaha in all that green blanket. =P

all night. fever. i was thinking, will i wake up like an idiot? will my brains be okay? will it just burn out and fail on me? haahahahaha..the fever was so high it got to my head, i tot i was gonna die. i must have been an idiot that moment. phew that was close.

thank God for His healing power. i'm sure it was Him that cured me. i was totally well in the morning (though it came back in the evening..) and i sang before i sleep. that made me sure, it was Him =)

He touched me
oh He touched me
and oh the joy that floods my soul

something happen
and now i know
He touched me
and made me whole

then sings my soul
my Saviour, God, to Thee
how great Thou art
how great Thou art

then sings my soul
my Saviour, God, to Thee
how great Thou art
how great Thou art

you know how you wont sweat when you have fever? amazingly, just now i was home alone, so i sang and sang to my heart's content. and i kept sweating and sweating. in three hours i changed 6 shirts. and my fever was sweated away. wow talk about amazing. it continued till my fever's totally gone. wow amazing amazing.

i watched Casey Treats online. filled with expectancy for service tmr =)

and i dl-ed the whole of Giselle. was soooo wow =)))

SLP PUIMAN.

okay nites! =)

Puii- dancedancedance.

11:02 PM

Friday, March 23, 2007

DANCE FOR HIM.

so i realised i havent been doing it. that's why i wrote somewhere.

"dance to express, not to impress. something that i know of, but dont know how to do"

i finally got to see a glimspe of it. something like an answer. something like that. it was like a click inside, a swtich. it was like walking into a room. tadah~ you're here, if only just a lil.

mayb dancing like that realli will make someone zou huo ru mo, as khye said. HAHAHAHA.

but it was different la, dancing with something within, compared to just doing the steps. today i can literally sense a difference. it was not the same, putting something of yourself in, realli realli dancing for someone. realli realli being inside, actually dancing out something. it was a wow.

and looking at my marks, i suppose i could really give ALOT ALOT more.

puii-

9:48 PM

Sunday, March 18, 2007

Had a random gig in the morning. Was pretty okay~ we all thought it was pretty funnie. haahha~its some walkathon thing organized by CASE. all our audiences are ah gongs ah mahs and some malay aunties. Hee~ so cute pls. they cheered when bgirl chewie did a freeze. haha pure cuteness.the whole performance was so funnie we cant even dance with "feel" pls. Aaron can actually turn around and look at me and laugh, to "Ride For You." imagine how funnie it was. haha!!

we literally nua-ed the whole day. and my day was totally spoilt by this nonsense gastric thing. never had it this bad before. i ate and it didnt go away. =((( it tormented me all the way till dinner time pls. roar.

anyways. read about Giselle @ Esplanade library. its such a sad sad beautiful story. gosh i might really be a sadist. Stuff like Giselle and Butterfly lovers, sad and tears and all. i just LOVE it. =)

Pst Phil came! and was sooo blessed by the word. just something that hit me.

what do you conceive inside?

School tommorow. I'm excited. I'm ready. C'mon, lets rock some ballet music =))) *wink at God*

oh one more thing. thank God for sweetie sugars like GER =) she's a perfect listening device and always-available encouragement vending machine! =) someone i feel totally free to share with. she's a gift from heaven in times of need! =)

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Nites!



Puii- You ask me who do i.

9:36 PM

Saturday, March 17, 2007

this is a note from me to You.
a promise untold.
twice over. all over.
an offering to You.

*touched*

cellgroup meeting was o-some. Andrea led worship, and Serina preached again =) the whole room..filled. It was like a bathtub of warm water. It was like warm sand poured over our head. It was like the summer breeze. It was like eating chocolate. Even better. it was a wow la~ =)))

tears.
smiles.
nods.
for You.

Thank You Lord. for renewing that vision. the very reason why i started this race altogether. the strongest motivation for me to take that step. the biggest force that moved my arms. i lost sight. i totally forgotten. why i danced at all in the first place. thank You Lord. Your reminder was timely. VERY. =)




























and offering message hit me like a ton of bricks. what treasure will i choose to hold? it is You. what seed will i sow? that i shall reap.. that i shall see a harvest..

twice over. all over.

i wan to be someone with a different spirit. something within. that substance. because i wan to enter the promised land. i wan to see His hands moving. i wan to be a part of what He is doing. i wan to be someone different.

lamp unto my feet
light unto my path
it is You
Jesus it is You

this Treasure that i hold
more than finest gold
it is You
Jesus it is You

with all my heart
with all my soul
i live to worship You
and praise forevermore
praise forevermore

Lord everyday
i need You more
on wings of heaven
i will soar
with You.

wherever that is. i wont ask. just take me. just lead me. take my hands and run. i'll follow You.

Puii- without reserve. without retreat. without regret.

1:14 AM

Friday, March 16, 2007

Thank God for Represent Crew.



Puii- i'm livin for this cause. Your cause.

ps. vid's a bit blur and stuff. =P

12:57 AM

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

i'm so tired =( med's got me totally knocked out la. it was a whole day of pigging around the house cos my tummy's feeling weird all day, like its hungry and stuff.

oh yea, and thank God for Mums =)

Got a sore throat and those nonsense stuffs. Got em orange and pink pills. They sorta forced me into Lala land the whole day. I went my mum's room, concussed. I went to my dad's room, knocked out. Haha i dont seem to be able to stay awake. =P

Oh and, i got my hair cut~ =) YES no more swan head. =)))

Tmr's talentime audition. Pray i'll recover to be well enough to dance =( so sad la, couldnt see my projo darls all today.

Dynamix Crew! Haha~ Lets all jia you tmr yea? Lets all keep our team in prayer, and lets go flame the floor tmr =)))

Okie, i'm tired already -_- when i just woke up from hours of sleep. Off to pop pills again. Nites world! =)

puii- the fear of the Lord.

11:24 PM

I guess it'll have to end up this way somehow. excessive dancing indeed *look at Chewie* haha~ and yes~ i fall sick again.

Its irritating not to be able to have strength to do a tendu and stuff. Early morning. Yup gonna see doc later.

Puii-

10:31 AM

Letters to God. Letters to God...

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Lord there must be more than this. More, alot more. There must be more than life than all these. Mae. I've had enough. Its irritating. I hate this. I hate this. Cos its so in between us. i've left Ur and set on this journey with You. i've left Haran; no one is or ever will be more important than You. i leave lot. the veil. so i can see the promises and move of God upon my life. i leave ishmael. i need to leave ishmael. Mae. I need to.

Lord asof me, and teach me to say yes. Take all the Issac in my life. In all circumstances, whatever You ask for. i want to say yes to You. i want to place You as number 1 in my life.

i love You. i need You.

Pls Lord i pray. Never let me go. Holy Spirit i want to leave this world and cleave to You. This is a covenant relationhip. Let nothing separate what is joined today, now that we're one. No i never want a divorce. I am forever a bride of Christ. Theres no fullstop in ths love. Lord its a covenant. It a commitment. I want to be a part of all that You are Lord. I give You all of me in exchange of all of You.

4th March 11.33pm

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God. I truly appreciate the sentence.

" It don't have to be perfect for me to love it"

Father. i know that i know. i dont need to prove anything to make You proud; You already are, by the fact that i am Yours. i dont need to do anything else to gain Your love, its already been poured upon me overflowing in abundance. i dont have to search far and wide, cos You'll always be right here beside me. Ready with Your comforting hands when i'm down. Ready with a nod when i'm happie. Ready to pat my back and say "well done". Ready to pat my shoulders and say "its okay". Those lips never cease to announce one fact, that You love me so. More than i can ever imagine. More than i can ever comprehend.

Lord, look what love has done to me. The Puiman yesterday and now is totally different. I know i can stand before You with faith and boldness. I dont need to bring a bunch of achievement to hide behind of.Just as i am. i know You're still gonna love me. Just as i am. Your love that is without boundaries, sweeten my days like lolly

12th March 12.46am

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Lord. Just one thing, can i ask You? can You teach me? I want to learn to love more each day. wont You teach me, how did You love childish people? Really i cant stand childishness. Maybe i'm the childish on here, picking on things like that. But its like how people cant take spring onions, no matter how little. its like, the same.

God. How did You not roll Your eyes? How did You not back away? What made You see pass this hurdle that i find so hard to cross?

A new commandment
I give unto you
That you love one another
As I have loved you
That you love one another
As I have loved you

By this shall all men
Know you are my disciples
If you have love one for another

By this shall all men
Know you are my disciples
If you have love one for another

Lord You wont give a task we cannot do. You wont give a task that You wont teach us how to. So Lord teach me. How? How to have a bigger heart for people like that? Its like a high wall i cant climb. If theres a secret code to it, wont You just teach it to me.

Christlikeness. when i got tons of attitude problems. Talk about going onto perfection. -_-

13th March 12.56am

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i'm a flower quickly fading. still You hear me when i'm calling.

Puii- antelope.

1:03 AM

Saturday, March 10, 2007

You are holy
holy
Lord there is none like You

You are holy
holy
glory to You alone

i'll sing Your praises forever
deeper in love with You
here in Your courts where i'm close to Your throne
i've found where i belong

i found myself singing a medley of songs. results of home alone. it was refreshing. like drops of rain to my soul. cooling. cleansing. refreshing. i took a deep drink from His river. i needed that.

a day spent resting. am sick =( and very tired phsically. spent the day photo hunting. found some INTERESTING pictures =)))



























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THERESA YEE CHUN LI's personal photo from NDP 06. HAHA! You so gotta thank me now FISH. HAHAA! =P

and also, other than that, i spent the day taking in extra calories.

tmr's plan-packed. and yet again i got a million things i couldnt finish in a day. service. choir prac. makeup cg. give sara bs. meetup with Marta. talentime prac. girl gang dinner. sending Marta off. howhowhow. how can i ever cramp all those in a day?!

i am a flower quickly fading. still You hear me when i'm calling.

what else can i ask for? even to die, i'm willing. say the word, and i will sing for You. just that one place in Your heart i'm longing to find. wont You show me? Holy Spirit. pour down like water upon me. flow through me soul. i need You here. i'm desperate for You. i'm lost without You.

songs touches people, sang or spoken. music heals. words edifies. songs are a perfect blend of both. am so blessed and encourage. i feel i'm ready to stand up again. against all these storms and waves. come Holy Spirit, lets continue this race again. this walk down the path of life. passing a restpoint, we move on. stronger, better.

like fine sand slipping between fingers, Your river washes over me.

oh ya and one more thing. thank God for darlings like plankie. she never fails to make me smile and anti-emo me. Floods with me hugs and encouragement. Ever willing to announce a "love joo!" and "oh plankie!". Always there to "orh lor lor lor lor" my tiredness away. being irritating and dumb and nerdish with me. laughing like a witch together is so destressing. the nonsense things that she do like spamming my tagboard and rofloling at me.(now she's thinkin : NO~ that's not true~) HAHA! you're truly a walk-through-the-valley-tgt kinda fren =) million loves!!

Loh Yong Chye! You've found a treasure!! So better cherish her okay! If not you'll geddit from me. Muahahahahahaha~~
























My tra la la. My orh lor lor. Hee! =)




















This is yours truly. Her Kenny-from-Southpark. Okay say it. i look toad-ly like a terrorist. Hahahah! She even suggested i tot this pic again with that orange Adidas Jacket cos Kenny from Southpark wore orange jacket too. -_-. Okay~~ HAHA!

Off to bed. Service tmr =)))

Nites world.

Puii- orh lor lor-ing all the bad things away on earth.

9:16 PM

it just opened my eyes to one fact. how imperfect we all really are. how little i can only do. how small i really am. perhaps i'm just like this...

can life ever be easier on us? things running towards us one after another, hardly giving us any time to breathe.

these past weeks are probably the busiest i've ever seen. most tiring too. so many times to do. so little time to make sure everything gets done. i didnt have time to reply smses. i didnt have time to get enough rest. come to think of it, i havent have time to finish up my homework. =( even if i had time, i cant find the energy to do anything productive.

it just gets me like a tsunami, drowning the last bit of life in me. I feel like a dancing machine. cos that's all i do all day. tiny slots in between the days, i got to thinking how sad this is. i got to thinking wouldnt it be much better if only i could be in His house instead. if dance is gonna get me this way, i'd much much rather not dance at all really.

so i prayed a prayer "Lord, wont you stretch my hours, and my strength?" at the end of the day. i only feel i'm gaining in tiredness. is this how its meant to be? with fingers and arrows pointing, worries crashing down, body failing, mind wasting, faces of dissapointment, faces, green and red all over. staring. In the midst of it all, with people who still expects me to be that happie and chirpy Puiman that cracks not-funnie jokes and a reliable source of entertainment. i've got a life. and its tiring right now. i dun have the extra energy to make an effort to make you laugh. its my fault. i'm sorry.

People gets ignored. People gets left out. People gets nothing but blank faces. Sorry its my fault. Its all my fault.

I dont geddit. Why dont anyone else seem to get tired of life altogether? Why nobody seem to ever reach a point where even talking and walking's like a chore?

*to bear my cross everyday, and walk this path on with Jesus.*

so i reasoned with myself again. Jesus took the hardest path any human can take, Via Dolorosa. pick up your cross, bite the tree roots, wipe the sweat. move on girl.

what comfort do i find in all these? what's all this hardwork about? just so that one day i can go to heaven and see His face. just so that one day, i can see that smile of Yours. just so that i can truly stand before You, with something in my hands, that You'll be proud of.

Nobody said life was going to be easy. in fact it'll never be. how am i to live? i was a dissapointment. i was a flop. i was eveything i didnt want to be. i want to change it. i want to change it. can i take a brand new step this day? can i stop living a life i hate?

i want to change. i want to be a better woman. i want to move on to perfection. sorry to all that i've hurt and offended. i'll be different. somehow i know with Christ i wont be the same. i'm learning each day to be a nicer Puiman. i'm learning each day to be more accepting, more enduring, more forgiving, more attentive, more sensitive, more productive, more like Jesus.

i want to stop whinning all day.

*the joy of the Lord, let it be my strength*




Les Miserables - Bring Him Home.























Lord wherever You wan me to be, let me go. Your directions are my focus in life.


Those low at heart, He lifts up.
Those dissapointed, He encourages.
He loves. He loves. He adores.


can i?
can i?
i know.
with You. i can.

Puii- the love that we share. that no one else can. thank You Jesus.

9:58 AM

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

grow up.

you know, no one listens well enough to understand what others are saying. we're always too eager to make our stand known. to announce to the whole world what's on our mind. no one listens.

indeed our words are like arrows, fast to shoot, and fast to hurt.

kids fight are for kids. only children will fight over toys and be unreasonable. they dont have patience to listen. they just scream and shout and demand their needs to be met.

we need to put aside childish ways. and be bigger at heart. to listen. tolerate. understand. encourage. speak words of kindness. bring understanding. lets all grow up together, and speak and listen as Jesus would.

i guess that's why people get hurt by words. word shoots. like how you wont give a child a gun to play with. dun shoot em words like a child. cos it'll hurt someone real bad.

oh and, do something different today. be a listener for a change. you'll see what i mean.

puii- as iron sharpens iron. let us be.

12:37 AM

Sunday, March 04, 2007

Some would have known. I was selected for the external choreographer's piece in school. Feeling very privilleged already, even though i only got an understudy role.

But things turned for the better =)

I got into the main cast. And got the same role with the guy in the other cast that dance not bad. Cos got 8 dancers, we were named A B C dancers and women 1 2 3 4 5. So i got the A cast =))) Its suppose to be a senior's piece i think, but i got to dance in a role in it, i'm v happie la~ and though everyone in the piece have a solo piece, mine is like one of the first few. So am real happie la~ Like from understudy to here. Its like a greater recognition and responsibility.

Really thankful for this chance to dance in this whole thing la. Cos its not like everyday you have someone from overseas coming to teach. So the whole last week was spent dancing from 9am-6pm. It was sooooooooo draining. I was soo tired that i broke to tears la. Its really beyond what i've experienced. Its all added onto the tiring week of Chingay. So there wasnt realli enough rest.

But the whole thing was beautiful la. It expose me to how choreographers work with dancers outside. How they can get so many dance steps from a set of basic choreo. I tell you its amazing. For the whole 17 min dance we only learned 3 sets of choreo. That's how amazing it is.

I still dunno the title and meaning of this dance. So yea. Hahaha~ but its fun working with Marta, the Spanish lady. We're learning everyday to listen to her accent. Hahahah~

Thank God for this chance to shine. despite my young age i can dance with people with so much more experience and skills that me. Its realli a prvillege to be in this.

Then again. Its already a privillege to be able to dance for Him =)))

Puii- Elohim. our Creator God.

9:29 PM

*there must be more than this, who is to show?*

Yay i finally got time to sit and write about my busy-two-weeks!

CHINGAY! Was quite okay la. It was quite boring actually, now thinking back.

First day, met em Irish people. got the role of a fairy -_-. So we're just suppose to dance around and jump and stuff. you know. like in some fairy story, we're like happie and joyful and stuffs. He said something about us guiding some flowers in.. haiya~ dunno what is that.

It was so self-entertaining. Me Ivonn and June started "acting" around, and play around la. ahhaha~ it was, kinda lame.

Second day, we got to try the costumes, and it look totally like ice kachang. HAHA. Got to know the music all. Thought we could leave at 5(the agreed time with shiny head) but still... we got held back, whether we like it or not(where got lidat one?!) Did some nonsense jumping thing at the field behind my school. a bumpy ride you can call it. the field's got enough dents and holes to fill a summer. i almost got my feet planted there for eternity. hahahaha.

and there was a freaking orange caterpillar that dropped down from the tree. Goodness how freaky can a school field gets? HAHA!!

Friday~ the pre-parade showing/rehearsal thingy. Early morning went people's assosiation for prac. Tiring tiring. And to add on to that, the UBER hot weather. Wore those like-microwave costumes and wondered around the place, looking at all the hua ches.

Went back school. Had a very very very long break before night comes, so we walked all the way to eat KFC. =P

Went back school sleep. Doesnt sound all that fun eh? Yea it isnt. HAHA~

Bused down to Orchard. Left our bags on the bus. I took my phone with me and took pictures. hahahah~

Changed into the fairy costume like just outside Wheelock place la. Hahahahaha~ on the way we saw alot of the excitement on Orchard road. Well, feeling kinda excited about the whole thing la~ =P Was slacking around.. waiting for the whole thing to get moving..

once it starts moving, it didnt stop. So the whole parade was quite fast. Danced at four stations, that was enough to kill. =P We were jumping around like nobody's business. and stuffs. haha~

So after that whole thing, is the real drama of the day. we went to change out at this park behind somerset. and was talking to em Irish for a while. when we decided to head home, we walked over to the main road to find the buses with our bags and stuff gone.

Shocked.

We ran back to ask Matt Grey how. he also shocked why the bus uncle just drived off like that. then keep saying, dun worry we'll try to get in contact with the driver.

So now, us, tired and sweaty, are sitting along the road, being watched by passing vehicles like some monkeys in the zoo. hahaha~ imagine, trapped at orchard road without your bag, sitting in the wind at night, with creeping ants and stuffs around, plus, VERY hungry. Hahahahaha~ sooo drama right?

To add on to it, at this point in time, an ambulance made a sudden appearance. Wah was shocked! Tot what happened. Apparently, Alison had some breathing probs, and her inhaler is in her bag, which is on the bus. Hhahaaha~ that's all that confusion that day. Like chingay wasnt drama enough.

This lady from PA that is suppose to hire the bus driver was super pissed off, cos the uncle was suppose to be hired till midnight, but he told her before he had to leave at 11. She told him he cant. But at 11, he left anyway. with our bags and all, yes. Hahahhaha~ and the lady totally cannot get him, cos he simply refused to pick up the phone. Actually, shortly after he left Orchard he was still in touched. Said he was turning back already. Yea right, took him a tour around Singapore before heading back to Orchard, or something lidat. Hhahahah~

When they still wasnt able to contact him, the lady was desperate. she suggested she gave us all some money to cab home, without our bags, and she'll return our bags the next day. Some of them almost blast at her, which i feel is unfair, cos its not her fault, and she's stressed up enough already. With all that bags missing, imagine the money she needa compensate it if they were gone. She was sooo gan jiong pls. But we insisted on staying around and wait a lil while longer.

Finally the uncle picked up the call, like afte 1 whole hour. hahah~ go back our bags, matt rushed over to the bus like he's gonna whack the uncle. everyone was so pissed. thank God i decided to bring along my phone, some of them were able to contact their bf/gf. If not, think they all would have quarreled.

After the whole drama mama night, me ivonn and james decided to head for some supper before heading home, since its already too late to catch any train.

Wanted to take NR, dumb dumb me dunno where to, so took cab with Ja-mez instead. Like in the middle of the night i'm still outside. Wtp..

Actual DAY!
Nothing much actually. Surprisingly the actual day isnt as drama as the rehearsal. haha~

Sweet mummy!!! She came all the way down to Orchard to support me. Poor her, got a not-so-good seat. So cant see much. I was walking walking, then i saw her!! And waved vigorously. Hahaha~ then i told june i saw my mum, she got real excited too and started to wave together with me. So cute la June, also dunno she excited what. hahahah~ =P

It was a total self-high session. We were waving to all them strangers machiam the whole world know us, and posing for every camera we saw facing us. hahahhah~

So that's Chingay for you. I learnt how to self-high. Trust me. Its pretty fun. =P and of cos, the plus point of this whole thing. i can jay-walk Orchard Road for once like nobody's biz. Hee~ =P

Pics are up. Click Here to see!

Puii- miss em Irish darls.

5:55 PM

Spent too much time loading pictures.. now i got no time to blog =(

tis' been the busy-busiest VERYVERYVERY busiest few weeks of my LaSalle life.. and to think that it was my supposed-holiday. Great =(

but well, i learnt alot. so i should just shut up and not complain. but it's really draining and tiring.

I doubt i have time to say anything much. ROAR when will i ever be free enough to blog? Nowadays, its just dance sleep dance sleep for me. I got soo tired one day it took just a group of ppl on train to get me burstin in tears.

i was sooo drained. i dun feel like doing anything literally. i cant walk properly cos my legs was hurting. it was sooo late at night. and i still need to dance early next day.. and this was after that Chingay week, double tiredness. so i was on the train. trying to get some rest for my poor legs and brain, when this group of PEOPLE came in, sat on the floor, and begin playing this GAME, hitting each other. GOODNESS it was sooo loud i cant even cover it when i on my music to fullblast. I seriously felt lke slapping them pls. take my big ba and seh them or somethng..

by the time i reach home i bth ah.. i complained and whinned, and i think i shocked sinman. hahahaha~ first time i was driven to such tiredness. and NO i dun want to try it again thank you.

God is my strength =)

So blessed by CG last night. Serina preached =) She's so cute too. Hahahaha~ heard this sermon before. Hearing it again brings something new into my spirit. we sang at the end of the CG "take all of me". I know i meant it with all my being. I was to leave Ur. I wan to leave Haran. I wan to let go of Lot. I wan to let go of Ishmael. I wan also Lord, to let go of the Isacc of my life. Everything Lord, take it all. i place You as number one in my life. Take all of me. Take all of me. Take all of me.

*Lord take all of me*

And a shoutout to all bugging ppls who, out of good or bad intentions, are asking me to drop dance. I wont. =)

*mei you Ni*

Puii- running after You =)

12:33 AM