God i want to know You. even if it cost , i want to know You. cost my time, my effort, my money, my everything. even if it kills me, i want to know Your heart, Your thoughts, Your ways, Your joy.
i want to know Your mind, Your love, Your wisdom. i want to see Your face. even if it kills me, i want to see Your face.
if i should die today, that one thing i want is You oh God.
if i die right now, all i want is to see Your face. oh God You are better, way way way better than life itself.
i want to love You.
even if i must be just a doorkeeper of Your house. i just want to be with You.
Lord. there is a place in Your heart i am longing to find, wont You show me? there is a place i know i can run to and hide, wont You show me?
* * *
i want to dance in the rain. a different kind of rain. the Rain of the Holy Spirit =) Trickling. Refreshing.
Captivating. is Your beauty.
Wow God. what perfect love. what awesome glory.
what monstrous love that engulfs me! oh i was so in the sea. drowning in that overflowing river. River of life. River of joy. River of love =) Who else would love me enough to die for me? You did. and I'm amazed.
You alone stop the universe from crumbling to dust. Yet you choose to live in me.
yes i am very amazed oh God
puii- i love You Holy Spirit. =)
5:37 AM
Saturday, July 28, 2007
i love!
Okay i finally got time to sit and write something. in th middle of the night, and i cant sleep any longer. must be that wine chicken thing my mum cooked. hahahahha~
now.. i'm suppose to rem what i did the whole few days. =P
got a kelefare job on thursday. was pretty funnie la. had fun hanging out with the rest of em.. mostly choir mates. and Ivonn that mai ya tang. she showed me tpy delights! =P
dance after that! saw VAL! =) haiya, if i had known she's alone in school i'd have went to meet her instead.
okay. tat was thursday.
friday was the love, with project O finally graduating. we got our certs and awards! what a fun time at Settlers'. with all that laughter and coke, the world is a better place!
DN1 i love!
cookies with love, from project O to the instructors. hope they like it =P
daniel's was the joker of the day please. His nonsense YEE----HAH! *red indian mouth thingy* made me and chewie laughed like MAD! hahaahhahaa~
Will load pics soon (when i find the discipline to). Coming to think of it. i still have TONS of pics from the HK trip. i think you all also wait until dun wan see liao la. HAHA!
i regret the lack of wisdom(common sense) and thank God that friendship spells f-o-r-g-i-v-e-n-e-s-s. =)
congrats to CHEWIE! cos she's the first to blog about it. hahaa~ random..
okay. friday done.
midnight chat with daddy is dope. i just feel i havent (and cant) love him enough. God really blessed me with such a capable dad, so full of wisdom. He never fails teach me something in our every conversation.
every.
perhaps today i can (try to) understand him a lil more, to be there for him in the middle of the night to the the solution and relief to empty stomachs and mind-so-full. perhaps this was just so much more important that just singing em songs. thats why.. thats why.
SATURDAY! woke up early to go choir prac. was dead tired the whole day cos didnt manage to sleep much the previous night.
choir prac was =)))
nanananana was so cute. haha~ i was in a disturbing people mode that day, so.. hahaha~ she got kinda IRRITATED! (yay~) hahahaaha =P
served choir! =) *and i felt very ugly that day =( dang!*
p&w ended earlier than i thought. after that i tried to figure my way to Hougang central.
and i lost my way 0_0
luckily i was able to get myself back to HG in the end. tho a bit late ah~ MET UP WITH MAI YA TANG! Hahahaha~ and we went swimming.
the most slack swimming trip ever. obviously we didnt get tan (duh~ in the moon?) we only swam awhile and we got tempted by the meesiam there =PPP! by the time we finished eating, the pool was closing already -_-. well, we did swim. not as much as we're suppose to! =P hahahaha!!
that with-degree goggles works not bad! =) its anti-fog too! =P
sunday with mike connell spells SPRING CLEANING! the whole cellgroup was down there i think. haha~ and ryan was commenting "haiyo why our cellgroup so dirty one ah huh?! hahahahahaha" and dunno who was saying.. "must be easter service la.. we all act demon act until too into it ah. "
HAHA funnie people.
anyways. the preaching was good =) so was ministry. after cleansing, was refreshing. i just heard one sentence, "I love you, and I want you to be happy. I've created you to be happy."
Sometimes i just hate myself a lil too much. =P
So i answered "i love You too, Holy Spirit =)" it was awesome. and i really really wondered who am i? who am i that He would know my name? who am i to call Him so dearly, to call Him Father? who am i to deserve such great Love?
I am loved. so loved. =) so blessed.
Sunday was <333
after so many sleepless nights, monday became asjdkljgasjeijusj. i totally slept my day away. NOW i feel like sleeping again. tata!
puii- to love; live loved.
3:53 AM
Friday, July 27, 2007
dn1
OKAY! i need to go out soon!! =P
okay... i forgot what i wanted to blog about before i head off..
OKAY first! project o is graduating today!! going settlers' cafe later for our "grad night" HAHA! =P lovelovelove! =)))
my timetable's only coming out on 6th august. like it'll kill them to issue it earlier to us. hahaha~
i've decided. i've decided! =) i want to work uber hard this semester.
"why you gotta be anonymous" 's been stuck in my brains.
oh and i've decided.
puii- yes. that.
3:33 PM
Thursday, July 26, 2007
that dream
wake up. wake up. wake up.
wake up from that dream. wake up those sleeping muscles. wake up to reality. wake up a new love. wake up a new heart.
wake up. wake up from that dream.
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my day was fun. and kinda wasted. i ended up not doing anything much.
i finally get to see darlings like ger and val!!! =) soooo long never see them pls. especially VAL! hee! she's so sweet la! =)))
suntec dance's good. going a lil slow..but yea its good! =)
and, this is why i loveJJ. =))))))
puii- sleep laughing. dream waking.
4:57 AM
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
stickman told me
i really really wish i could be out on a wide field right now, dancing in the rain. it doesnt matter how i look, or if i'd fall down. i wanna be in em rubber boots and be kicking water. i wanna run faster then em wind. i wanna be drenched.
i just feel like dancing.
You are the one, there's no one else Who lifts me up and gives me water from the well. But there's a hole that seems to drain it all away. And once again I'm left in fear and doubt When all my strength is crying out.
So, here I am again Willing to be opened up and broken like a flower in the rain. Tell me what have I to do to die and then be raised, To reach beyond the pain like a flower in the rain? The evil wind, it blows a storm to rock my world Just when think I'm safe and warm. I'm led astray far too easily. It's always hard for me to say I'm wrong, Until I know I can't go on.
So, here I am again Willing to be opened up and broken like a flower in the rain. Tell me what have I to do to die and then be raised, To reach beyond the pain like a flower in the rain?
Lord, You have searched me and know When I sleep and when I rise. You're familiar with all my ways. Even the darkness will shine Like the day When You look into my heart.
So, here I am again Willing to be opened up and broken like a flower in the rain. Tell me what have I to do to die and then be raised, To reach beyond the pain like a flower in the rain, Like a flower in the rain?
i guess i'm that sort you cant leave alone for too long. i'll start doing stupid things. and then i'll make myself cry. okay it's dumb.
thank God i'm heading outta house tommorow.
and i need salad. it makes me feel better.
puii- ellen degeneres and theresa yee made me laugh! =P hahhah~
1:20 AM
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
past few days.
Friday is FUN DAY! cos it's cellgroup day, and its DANCE WITH SUN day!! =) hahahaha we had a filming thingy with Sun. she taught around an eight of chinawine. so cute la she. =) oh and she's real real real pretty. =)
cellgroup was =))!!! calynne i love! we always end up praying together for some reason. hahah! =P had a prayer meeting. with the Lord's prayer. was good! very good!! =)
oh~ cellgroup game was fun!! hahah King Kenny. woah~~
went out with mabel that dumb thing on saturday. she's still dumb as ever. hahahahahahah~ =P
sunday sunday!! my first service in two weeks! =P like finally la! oh pst Kong i love too! again it was on the Lord's prayer. i need to pray. alot alot alot alot more.
works.
ministry meeting was =)
SENTOSA after that. kinda dissapointing school gang gathering. so many people never come and stuff. hai~ but its okay. we had our fill of fun anyways! saw em irritants that i've missed plenty. hahahaha~
YES we threw that dumb thing into the water. erm.. correction. we kinda dropped her down into the waves cos she was TOO HEAVY. anyways. me and huiyu's plan went well. and she got bullied. we rule. dumb things dont! =P muahahahaahhaah~
to mabel: dun shy ah.. =P AHHAhAHAH!
supper with shushu after that. edifying as always. he always got tons to share. and after all his psychoing. I WANNA GO BIBLE SCHOOL TOO! =P hahahahaha~
oh chicken rice! =)
was vid spamming myself today. and i tell you. i love Ellen DeGeneres. she rocks a million times more than mr bean and jim carey. she's a total genius with words and humour. she's the ultimte joker and she just rock la okay?! hahahahahahaha!!
here's proof. she's funnie.
a funnie vid that cracked me up plenty. okay i'm gonna go back for more of ellen!! =)
sooooo... those were past few days =)
puii- oh, and a diet coke. HAHAHA!
2:39 AM
Thursday, July 19, 2007
beloved beloved Israel.
i want to jian fei.
really.
dance was fun! saw my favs today~~ hahahaha so happie la. havent seen them in a week.(more than that) had fun joking and laughing(at theresa) hee!! =P i love em dancing peeps!! =)
suntec dance prac was fun too! great time abusing and laughing at each other. doing nonsense stuffs together. oh i missed em!!! hahahahhaa~ so fun so fun!
xian was so cute. hahaahaha i love her lil pouty face la~! so cute! hahahaha..dun worry xian, i'm straight. HAHA! she was uber freaked out when i (jokingly) tried to kiss her. hahaahahah~ so funnie.
i landed myself with all em muscle aches and cramps. super painful morning it'll be i guess. but YES i feel tummy waving bye bye, and em flabby flabs and jiggles. all all BEGONE!
oh before you leave, take this irrtating block nose with you =) *smile at fats*
oh ya ya YA!!!! i can cut my hair already!!!! =)) omgosh the hugest good news(apart from the gospel. haha) the must-tie-bun teacher aint teaching me next year so yup!!! faster jio me out go cut hair!! cal, on arh!! mohawk! =))) hahahahahahahaah~
okay that stewpid penguin got me real excited. SENTOSA!!! *pray dun rain~~*
puii- soup craving. jews loving.
2:13 AM
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
random stuffs
dun tell me the rainy season's gonna start like right NOW please!! because of that uber huge rain today, I CANT GO SWIM! yea yea i know you still can swim in the rain and stuff..
..but i havent kick off that hong kong flu bug.
Well.. thank God for the cooling wind and refreshing air. i almost can forget how cruel the sun can get on us. i feel like going jogging la~ jogging in the rain~~*sing*
okay shut up puiman.
then again i better dont. my knees hurt even when i was WALKING in hongkong. hahahahaa~ i think i need em med stuff my aunts and uncles are eating, for em lousy bones and cracking joints. hahaahahaahahaa~~
my days back to singapore are slack and tired. finally found the discipline to do some splits and crunches just now. and YES i will use my theraband. really. FINALLY use my theraband. haha~
stuffs to get excited about : -i'm seeing my fav dance peeps later! -DANCE! -i will swim tomorrow, if it doesnt rains -pants!! *look at val* hurhur~ -cellgroup!! =) -service~! -SENTOSA with my gang of weirdos(girlfrens) hahahaha~
okay that about spells my week.
oh yesterday. yesterday! went over to dad's for lunch. saw that jdfaskaskwe. was kinda kjdahkjawfdfdas. but then again. God says love one another. love your enemy. i'll pray for skjfaelrjled, i promise =))
i pray akjdakjheakjds finds God. =))) and know that whatever dsjsdklf doing is not right~
ndsfsljfs, God bless you.
that was.. just a random rant.
okay i was suppose to blog about my hk trip. now i'm lazy. next time la~! =P
puii- milo face!
2:58 PM
Monday, July 16, 2007
back excited; and sickly. hahah~
yup yup yup yup yup! i am BACK! hhahaahha.. whether yall missed me or not, i missed you allll!! REALLY!
if you're gonna ask how's the trip, i was sickly most the time. but it was still fun. =) yea~ aahhahahahaa
walked ALOT. like really uber ALOTTTT haahhahaha.. i think we walked to all the corners of hongkong and shenzhen. okay shenzhen not la.. but mayb hongkong. we walked like mad. literally to everywhere. to the seaside, the countryside, we saw mountains and cows and cars and sky scrapers. hahahahah hongkong's a very interesting place
i love!
but the food there is still ^^ but i better hope my teacher dun see this. hahahaha, i ate alot lesser than last time already. REALLY! =P
the house thingy's done, so is our IC. the rest of the time was spent walking, eating, and taking pictures. hahahahaaha.
okay the next question you're gonna ask me...sinman did ALL the shopping =)
well. i came back tired and sick and DYING to play Sims 2. hahahaha. now i'm gonna go sleep. picture spam when i have time! =))) took like 100 plus pictures. hahahahaha~
oh plankie~ i went paris tower ^^
nightnight singapore. i love you very much cause you're so much more cooler than china. hahahahahahahaha~
puii- i need richard robert la~~~~~~
1:30 AM
Sunday, July 08, 2007
off to my LOVE! =)
service was good!
KFC session with Thes was good!
Talk crap session with penguin was good too!
Now i'm home packing clothes and stuff -_- not good not good.
in a few more hours it's hello airport again!! PLANE FOOD! hahahahahaah~
byebye Singapore! *waves*
puii- will blog more when i'm back. TATA!
10:58 PM
Saturday, July 07, 2007
take it away
i should shut up about em stuffs before evilness fills my 'dear diary'
suppose to be at choir. =(
suppose to be happy and cheery. argh life.
there is a longing only You can fill a ragin tempest only You can still
my soul is thirsty Lord to know You as i'm known drink from the river that flows before Your throne
take me deeper deeper in love with You Jesus hold me close in Your embrace
take me deeper deeper than i've ever been before i just want to love You more and more how i long to be deeper in love
sunrise to sunrise i will seek Your face drawn by the spirit to the promise of Your grace
my heart is found in You a hope that will abide here in Your presence forever satisfied
i got a ton of anger today. but im gonna swallow it. and give it to Daddy. one day i will tell you. i promise.
never mind, leave em anger at the "tree" first.
talk about the good things!! =))) Cellgroup was aaaaaaaawesome today~ =) hahaha had fun with pictionary. guys vs girls. guess what's our group name? PANDAN BABES. Omg theresa is totally funnie. haha! =P (and she deny shouting the name very loudly. hahaha~ cal can echo with me =) HEE! =P)
and Kenny's pictionary is like KILLER! hahahaha~ siao one all the movie and books dunno what lai de. hahaha okay okay ching chong la ching chong la. =P ask me stuff like journey to the west la~ hahahahahahaha =P
praise was good!! *look at thes and wink* really good! it felt like last week's choir stage. hahaha we were soooo high. we were like siao one. hahaha. just now was good! =) wasnt just a routine thing. but we praised because we want to. and we enjoy it!
worship was =))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) i tell you the peace and rest of God. was so...... ryan even came to the centre to dance while serina played the guitar. wah~~~~ *rivers*
the word was good too. really missed kenny's preaching. hahaha funnie as ever. but in the midst of jokes we all caught something. we want to be like the paralytic's friends =)
three names. three names.
they should have a prize thingy for creativity. and it'll surely go to Andrea and Theresa. they didnt have candles for wenzhi's bdae cake, they actually broke a chopstick and burn it. hahahahahaha look kinda like josstick when the flame went out. hahahahaa so cute. Happie bdae wenzhi!
i love em peeps =)
wah i realise i very long never chat with Thes already! we only talk crap only. haha finally got a chance to talk normal (if only a lil) just now. ahahahahah~
oh. we(she) took a bimbotic vid. will load it up soon! *muahahahahahaha*
BETTER HEAD OFF TO BED! choir prac tmr! plus, i'm servin! =) yayness. i hearts choir.
puii- you are deserving.
2:46 AM
Friday, July 06, 2007
Funnie stuff
Hahah read this from a friend's blog. funnie stuffs =)
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Professor at SIM was explaining marketing concepts:
1. You see a gorgeous girl at a party.You go up to her and say, "I am very rich. Marry me!"That's Direct Marketing.
2. You're at a party with a bunch of friends and see a gorgeous girl.One of your friends goes up to her and pointing at you says,"He's very rich. Marry him."That's Advertising.
3. You see a gorgeous girl at a party.You go up to her and get her telephone number.The next day you call and say "Hi, I'm very rich. Marry me."That's Telemarketing.
4. You're at a party and see a gorgeous girl. You get up and straighten your tie,You walk up to her and pour her a drink. You open the door for her,pick up her bag after she drops it, offer her a ride,and then say, "By the way, I'm very rich. Will you marry me?" That's Public Relations.
5. You're at a party and see a gorgeous girl. She walks up to you andsays, "You are very rich?"That's Brand Recognition.
6. You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and say,"I'm rich. Marry me"She gives you a nice hard slap on your face.That's Customer Feedback!!!!!
7. You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and say, "I am very rich. Marry me!"And she introduces you to her husbandThat's demand and supply gap.
8. You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and before you say,"I am very rich. Marry me!"she turns her face towards you ------------ she is your wife!That's competition eating into your market share.
Hope you learnt marketing =)
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puii-
3:47 PM
Thursday, July 05, 2007
JJ JJ JJ~!!!!
*edited*
i made myself very happie!!! =))) haiya~ should have waited a lil longer =P hee!! *wink at man*
Went SP open house to watch Val sweetie dance! =))) nice job girl!! so proud of you! =))) hahahahaa~ so cute la she. dance hip hop then keep smiling. hee~ like cal and chewie sia. =P and she did GREAT! =) so proud so proud of val!! =)
poor thing sia. still needa dance two more days. sure she can do it =)))
haha poor penguin (mabel) accompanied me to watch tho she was like uber hungry. haiya dun care her la. machiam she will die for not eating. so much fatssssss =P wahahahaha. (dun kill me ah~~!)
chatted like uber long before the show starts. waiting for em sec sch kids to settle in la~~ hahahaha~ wait soooo long. =P meanwhile we were watching that dumb SP welcoming vid. hahahaahah so funnie =P they koped the HP commercial idea.
haha i didnt even dare scream when the dance started. alllllllll em sec sch kids there pls. me and penguin was feeling like UBERRRRR old. hahahahaahahah~
after that we went orchard la-coke.
la-coke session with mabel was fun~ =) we sat in front of that big big TV thingy in Lido and watched trailers while eating. that penguin's still so IRRITATING as ever. hhahahahahahahah~ =P thanks la old penguin. made you stay with me watch the performance. hee! =P still needa find so much stuff to crap (actually you also no need find one. its soooo in you to crap =))) miss catching up sessions la! (haha reminds me of..... nvm) =P
I WAN WATCH HARRY POTTER! when it's out someone pls tell me and call me out to watch!!! ^^ omgosh the trailer looks so good! =)
YES to kfc! forever it'll still rock my shopping trips like shopping bags (not that i really shop..)
walked around. depressed by all the fugly clothes i saw. hahahahaha~ nothing nice pls. i think if i ever want to BUY anything i need to go out with business people. like sinman, theresa and mabel. i realised they are super good at psycho-ing people. mayb thats what business school teaches. HAAHAAAHAAH!! =P
came back Causeway point to buy MY LOVE! =) wahahahahahahaahaaaaha~~~
and i came home drowning myself in it.
WAH~ REALLY VERY HAPPIE =))))))))))
***by the way. i just gave and got a new nickname. Theresa is now the evil clownfish named PUMBA. and i.... you ask her yourself =) hahahaa..
puii- ignore my wishlist =))
10:44 PM
killer
i need change. big big big big change.
i'm hungry! =P
oh! did i mention i FINALLY can get myself outta the house? hahah tho havent fully recover. figured a lil walk(or dance) will do me good =P
ee ching's class almost killed me today. i seriously thought i was gonna die of heart attack or something. shouldn't have danced. SEE LA PUIMAN! hahahahahahahahaha~~
okay i'm suppose to sleep early. gonna go SP see Val sweetie dance tmr!!! =) starts 2. if you wanna go SMS me alright?! =) gonna go and scream VAL!!!! =) hee~
puii- believe believing.
2:10 AM
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
cartoon's gotten in
changed a new blogskin. cos i was sooooooooo utterly BORED to the bones and bone marrows. kinda like it cute like this. cartoon and stuffs. mind you i almost used a spongebob one. be glad spongebob haters =P (my sis' one of em) hahahahahaha~~
great. now that i'm done i dont know what else is there to do. prolly did everything i could think of. anyways all i could think of now is food. not that i'm hungry but... ya just random cravings.
home spells b-o-r-i-n-g. thank God for cute mummy who's always there to watch boring TV with me =))) ahahhahahahhahaha
okay. i figure i should spoil myself a lil and make bread and cheese. =)
puii- stickman dance
10:08 PM
anointing oil
my 500th post!!!!
okay, i'm like soooo bored.
took the new cam and was taking random snaps around the house. omg i can actually take a pic of the expressway, innova JC, and sports school from my house, and SEE it like uber clearly. -_- this cam is sick.
so am i. literally sick. med's not doing any good =( am feeling better but that running nose just wont stop. no not even with a finishing line thing(okay lame)
i feel like talking to myself (which i guess i am doin now). i feel like eating bread and cheese. i need someone to take me outta this boredom. just TALK TO ME or something
internet's getting boring. yes very boring. but i dun feel like reading and stuff either. this is not the weather to be reading.
i need tissue. i need air con. nope mayb the fan.
puii- take. eat.
5:48 PM
yelling "patience!!"
i've wasted time. alot of time. and i always thought i could catch up with it.
haha kinda funnie, but i'm starting to feel old. like time is soooo running out. and i better get up and start doing something. doing something useful, more useful then lazing around all day sneezing and trying not to die. (okay not literally)
*if there's something i could do to make the world a better place*
okay, i shall go off and continue my emo session. chat with Daddy! =)))
nites people! and hello medicine -_-
puii- love never fails
2:12 AM
Monday, July 02, 2007
doctor doctor go away!
as much as i hate barley drinks, i hate being sick.
ROAR.
and as much as i hate eating bittergourd, i hate seeing David Ow( that doc that knows my name.. hahahaha~) always giving me em many many pills, not only torturing to my tongue, but also to the brain. i must REMEMBER what time to eat what -_-
i hate being sick.
and YES i'll be having my mum nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag at me. who call you everytime so late come back, tell you dont eat all those junk food already.. blah blah blah.. when i didnt -_-
ARGH! i want to go to sleep, knowing i wont' die. hahahaahahaah~
puii- craving for bread and cheese.
6:09 PM
i got a pushpop from plankie! =)
lets just leave it as it is.
i'm tired
puii- i love my peeps =)
4:21 AM
me
searching meanings
with dreams, with dance
with love