the flesh and blood of love

Monday, April 30, 2007

songs that speaks.

I wonder how it must have felt
When David stood to face Goliath on a hill
I imagine that he shook with all his might
Until You took his hand, and held on tight

'Cause You were there,
You were there
In the midst of danger's snare
You were there,
You were there always

You were there when the hardest fight
Seemed so out of reach
Oh, You were there,
You were always there
You were always there

So there he stood upon that hill
Abraham with knife in hand was poised to kill
But God in all his sovereignty had bigger plans
And just in time,
You brought a lamb

'Cause You were there,
You were there
In the midst of the unclear
You were there,
You were there always

You were there when obedience
Seemed to not make sense
You were there,
You were always there
You were always there

So haven't I learned that my ways
Aren't as high as Yours are
And You alone keep the universe
From crumbling into dust
You are God and though we would
Not have understood You

There You were

Hanging blameless on a cross
You would rather die than leave us in the dark
Every moment, every planned coincidence
Just all makes sense
With Your last breath

You were there,
You were there
During history's darkest hour
You were there,
You were there always

You were the Victor and the King
You were the power in David's swing
You were the calm in Abraham
You are the God who understands
You are the strength when we have none
You are the living, Holy one

You were, You are and You will always be
The Risen Lamb of God

You were, You are and You will always be
The Risen Lamb of God

So touched by this song. The calm in Abraham. The God who understands. Wow.

and i just got a question for you. why?

One more. One more song. It brought tears to my eyes. and it brought knees to bow. it got hearts to melt. it cause a thirsty heart to drink.

You'll never find her story in a fairy tale
'Cause she wasn't like, the other women at the well
Her life was full of pain, hurt, rejection
Her loneliness she didn't want to show
But Jesus saw the desert in her soul

Drink from this water
Drink from this water
And you will never, you'll never thirst again

Drink from this water
Drink from this water
You will never, you'll never thirst again

Ooooh
We all search for something
To fill us up inside
But it's only an illusion
You know a True Love's hard to find

But I'm here to tell you there's one place
Your thirst is quenched for ever more
You will never leave empty disappointed
You will find what you are looking for

And oh Jesus will meet you
At the place of every need
And only He can make the wounded whole
And make the blind man see

So touched. so touched.

Puii- i'm gonna dance in the river, yeah~

2:27 AM

Sunday, April 29, 2007

wishing to teleport...

Sorry the tagboard came in a lil late. i was figuring how to fit it in.

and GOSH i overslept and is SUPER late for service. gonna watch online =(((

Puii- let all i think and say please You Lord.

10:12 AM

Bring love. Give love. Have love.

Changed blogskin again! =P Just felt the previous was kinda kiddy. Candle and stuff, with cartoon flower. hahaha~

and about this blogskin, i am NOT emo. (look at Chewie and Calynne) hahahahaha~ inside joke.

morning's video shoot was good. for talentime 07. hahahhaha the Represent Crew. =) vote for us, call 1800-REP-CREW. =P

the afternoon was.. haha.. interesting. (look at cal. chew. choons.)

went watch NYP production at night. srsly they should just let FBodz do the WHOLE show. SERIOUSLY. =P sorry to sound rude but.. hahah.. you know la huh =P

PROUD OF MY PROJO DARLS! Yall flamed da stage and burned us audiences. Without yall, we'll probably zzzzz in there =P

Nice day. nice recovery from the previous day's emoness. see, i told you its the rain. hhaha~

*i'm tired. i wanna sleep. thats why my blog's discounted.*

Puii- forced to compete. come ah!

12:33 AM

Saturday, April 28, 2007

Changed blogskin in the middle of the night. Gotta get up in around 4 hours. Ha~

Went for a looooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnngggggggggggggggggg walk just now to the weirdest places in woodlands =P. Felt much better. Mayb that was all i needed to do =))) A total retreat. to pure solitude. nope. no people. just me. that silence. and God =)

and i realised one more thing. if there ain't no love out there, then i will be the love. =)

puii- a better person. with much more looovvee~

3:41 AM

Friday, April 27, 2007

what do you have, o life, that captured me so? that grabbed me away from my Beloved. so much more time i spent with you, o life, than with my Beloved. no its all wrong, its all wrong. oh Beloved, come fill me once again. without You oh Beloved, i grew wild in disobedience, and i drifted even further away. Lord, o my Love, i'm sorry. Lord, o my Joy, i'm sorry. o Lord, o Lord, wont You once again forgve me? so many million times, again forgive me?

where am i? what am i? is life meant to be so lost?

can i ever be strong again? can i smile even more? will i lose my laughter? oh what a terrible thought.

world. how small are the things you see.
world. how far you've dropped to the bottom of the well.
world. how blurred are your glasses.
world. have you really actually seen anything?

i, for one, need my eyes opened. what i saw, was so small so small. what bothered me, was so small so small. i just feel that this life is gonna get alot greater than this. Bigger. Better. no not that tiny playing around. no not that merry-go-round and stuff. time to grow up. to get some things done.

i suddenly realised how short life is. i suddenly realised i haven't been doing what i need to get me there. i realised waiting ain't gonna get me there. i realised time wasted, is time lost. forever. i realised how much a little girl i am. i realised how much i need to grow. i realised life ain't gonna be a bed of roses, so we are suppose to be roses out there in this dark dark garden of humanity. a garden lack of love, care and concern. an insensitive world. a never-listening world. a never-caring world. i realised how much i want to make a difference out there.

i want to be a tiny candlelight.

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Sorry for all the emoness. it must be the rain. it must be the rain.

Puii- bring love.

4:48 PM



























































































































Some stuff me and sinman did. Hahaha.



Puii-

4:24 PM

If blog is a place to vent. This place would be like.....

Perhaps i'm being over sensitive. Though probably not. Mayb fishes are the only animal around that has loooove~ =P hahahahahahahahaha~

Suddenly i'm lost. Was that what i've looked forward to? Was that what i fought so hard for? Hmmm.. mayb it all aint worth it afterall. mayb i shouldnt try so hard. yea what matters most? my Love. my Joy. my God.

i see how home-alone is so much more precious. i see how fake and disappointing humans can get. yet i still see a glimpse of love, in the midst of all the unkindness i've seen. yes i believe, there'll still be a place, where joy and sorrow meets.

i should do some expectation management. lest i get UTTERLY disappointed. =)

puii- out of sight. out of mind.

4:02 PM

Thursday, April 26, 2007

Holiday seriously has never been this precious. this looked-forward to. Last few weeks of school was a period of realisation. realised where i really am in dance. realised who really loves me in class. realised what good teachers do. realised how dark it really is outside. realised how fake humans can get. realised i've stepped into murky waters, without really knowing. realised how unprepared i am for finals. realised who's real, who's not.

FINALS totally freaked me out. Ballet, small mistakes here and there. Biggest fault, i look very angry. Hahahaha~ everything went well until the grand allegro(big jumps), i suddenly feel like fainting, eyes blurred. VERY blurred. couldnt hear. couldnt see. couldnt think. i soooo panicked i looked at Ivonn "Ivonn, i'm fainting!! How?!!!" Then she panicked with me " Huh!! Huh!! Keep jumping!!" Hahaha~ which i still dunno for what. i tried to continue with my purple-and-blue-polka-dotted eyesight.

Ivonn said after that my face and lips was GREY. Gosh i wonder how that look like. =P

Anyways, i was realli very very bad at that moment. I was soooo worried, i heard a random "GOD HELP ME" within, while trying to gain normal-ness. i was so damn scared and freaked out please. realli VERY freaked out. tot i could endure through the whole exam before i faint away.. i didnt get to do the Grand Jete thingy.. the last exercise. Shucks man. wasted. i spent so much time trying to work on my shoulders for that. haha~

But then again, i would have done badly if i did it. hahaha =P

After the exam i was like nua all over. bits of kindness from my classmates =) appreciated. they all came and ask if i was okay. think i scared them badly. =P i just retreated myself aside. =P

I grabbed whatever sugar and energy i could for contemp. sugar water sugar water. and more sugar water.

contemp was okay. melissa and albert sat in. ha~ stressed. was sweating like MAD before the whole thing even started. something must be seriously wrong with me. lucky its the last day. ha~ =P

theory papers was.... haha.. to pass it is a miracle. =P

After that i was sooooo drained i couldnt take it. home i went, in case i faint again and stuff. ROAR i hate a weak body that falls sick all the time =(

Thanks Choons(David) for the million dollar sermon. its so good i'm gonna write some here.


7 Unbreakable Laws of Promotion

RESPECT
Favor is the mysterious desire another has to help you achieve your dreams

INITIATIVE
Initiative means doing the right thing without being told

HIGHER STANDARD
Raising your standards eliminate those who don’t regard the importance of the business

PROBLEM SOLVING
Your value in life does not come from your race, color, or creed, but by the problems you’re willing to solve for others

You will only be remembered for the problems you solve or the ones you create

MOTIVATION
The moment you enter the arenas of life, passionately pursue what your contribution could be, never what your reward should be

SUBMISSION
Submission is the willingness to bow your knee before men in order to satisfy the requirements of heaven

SOWING AND REAPING
Never judge your life by the harvest you reap, but by the seeds you sow


Excellence is the attention to detail that gives rise to superior performance which leads to promotions in this life

Puii- aint no love. no love. yea no love.

7:12 PM

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

EXAMS tommorow.

Praying. for wisdom. wisdom like that of King Solomon. i wanna be clever, if only for tmr.

EXAMS!!! oh let me die. HAHA!!! =P

Puii- when failure is not an option, madness is.

8:32 PM

I've confirmed a fact with Theresa. Guarantee plus chop. One very truthful truth.

Ryan

is

a

monster.

Proof is the vid below. How freaky can one get?





ROAR. i hate him for those super nice jumps. so gonna train to do that kite jump thingy. ROAR! hahahahahhahahhahhaha~~

Oh, "class" aint happening yet. So... haha.. assessment in two days time. After that is FREEDOM, from EVERYTHING. and the zoo trip with my flower4 =) We're gonna sing and dance to our zhu da ge, Yue Liang Wan Wan, Yue Liang Yuan~~~ HAHA!! Its a blue secret.

Back and knees' getting worse =((( I need a bag pack. Nice one. Ha~ Oh and a wheelchair. HAHAHA! =P

I'm missing the world. So missing the world.

THANKS FISH! for the precious pocky, and of cos, your looooove~ =)
and AH NIA!! you'll never know how much that msg has done =) *hugs*
Oh i miss planktelope, randomness and xian the mummy too!

heaven-blessed.

Puii- if only our dictionary dont have "complicated" and "complex". and yes "conflict" and "compare" too. Lord, but some "confidence".

12:25 AM

Sunday, April 22, 2007

Past few days was hard. and disheartened me kept asking,

"Where is that God that touches so strongly?"

and yesterday i heard,

"and where is that girl that yearns so deeply?"

it hit me. it hit me like a ton of bricks. God yearns for us JEALOUSLY indeed.

Rom 5:5a
and hope does not dissapoint us..

so i've lost hope.

i prayed, real hard today. Lord restore that hope. that i can carry on, that in this hope i will not be dissapointed.

Rom 5:3-4
Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope.

Rejoice in your suffering my dear. Not that we should thank God for the sufferings,; pain and sorrow dont come from God. Yet in all things know that God is good. was. is. and always will be. =)

Puii- my hope is in the name of the Lord.

2:16 AM

Saturday, April 21, 2007

Its not turning for the better. in fact it got sooooo bad, my flower4s cried in class today. was kinda embarrasing. yet we know we're gonna burst any moment. its just too much to bear. too much to hide. too much to contain within us. those small eyes cant contain the overwhelming feeling of misfortune and inadequecy for ourselves. no we cant hide no more. we cried buckets. oh it was so ugly =P

When you feel like crying while hearing chirpy ballet music doing all the happie jumps and happie kicks. You know something is seriously wrong.

YW's class. Lying down. "Release all the tension. This is the last lesson of the semester. Be glad that you're still here with everybody. Dancing together."

tears. if only that was true.

"Think of all the good things you've been through together. It has been a tough semester. Let go of all the bad things."

Its times like these you have you close your eyes; em overflowing eyes. Your mind filled with images fuzzing buzzing around. And the more you see, the more it flows. the tears.

Seriously. so depressed. so stressed. so dissapointed. so wronged. so. so. so. whatever.

I dont need to give an explanation as to why we cry. and really, you dont have to ask. whether was it just a concerning comment, or something else. really, just let us let it out. that one chance we could really let it out. its not like everyone can just go home and cry it all out.

When a hug is needed. It'll always be given. Thanks my flower4s. You girls are so so so precious. You'll never know how much i thank God for having you all in my LaSalle life. Truly i wouldnt survive till now without all that love, care, concern and companionship. It was definitely beyond what mere acquintance will do. you girls are what i call the go-extra-two-mile kinda fren. =) lovelovelovelove!

and i just rem. my tears started yesterday in Ryan's class already. haha thanks a million to my projo darls too. those orh lor lor and sayang la was so precious. kept in my heart =) many many loves~~

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Why must things happen this way? Why must people's face be turned against each other? Why must they always carry a knife behind those lovely smiles? Why cant we find true love amongst no more? Why are your heads held up sooo high? Compete. Compare. Out to defeat. Out to put down. Out to go right to the top. And the prize to pay? Drag everyone else down. Yes that's why you all are telling me. Thanks for that kind lesson. But i don't believe in that stepping over others thing. In your dictionary "helping others" no longer exist. What is left is fake smiles and empty words. Your kind "concern", yeah thanks.

A world of dance with no politics. i guess that'll never exist.

Its a harsh world out there. and i'm so afraid to step out now. can i really survive out there? its just school, and its got this bad. out there. out there. can we still live a life where we can fake a smile and move on? times like this, God i need You more. cos without Your strength i know i cant move on. no, not one step. discouragement, dissapointments, distrust. only Your river can wash that all away.

and Lord, is this training ground?

its so dark out there it scares us. its like nothing we can trust. mayb tears are the truest then. mayb hugs are the most comforting. i dun need no fake smiles when i know my friends are there. we hold hands. we stay strong. we always gather and says "Hu ga sha ga!" =)

Whatever it is. i think it did affect me. how defeated humans can really be. i for one, think, that God's way is definitely a better way. the way down, is the way up. But i'm gonna stay strong. i wanna be a light among the darkness. yes to bring love to all man. haha~

Such an emo day. such an emo day. such an emo day.

puii- flower4s *hearts*

1:28 AM

Thursday, April 19, 2007

"Class" is not such a good word afterall. looking at...

Watched seniors' grad show pieces today. Was cool. Totally in love with Evan's piece!!! was soo captivating and stuff. i mean you feel it. everyone feel it. you'll feel like crying after watching. serious.

but some are.......... -_-

"Class" is not the place to be. more and more so.

Friday's informal showing already!! Gosh so stressed up. First time see YW without his jolly self. Not so used to it. He's anxious about the whole thing too i guess. Anyways, today wasnt as stressed up. i tried to breathe out all the whatevers. apparently all the tension still goes to my shoulders. thanks-_-

"Class" shouldn't be like this. this saddening to stay in. this hard to work with. this much distrust. this much discouragement amongst.

Gonna, and suppose to, sleep soon. NITES WORLD! i pray i pray. let tommorow be a better day. seems like the week's taken a downward path these few days. let it turn uphill tommorow for once?

"Class" = a group that stays together, flows together, works together, live life together.

Puii- let "Class" come true tommorow.

12:28 AM

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

Probably one of the most depressing days. Those days where you need God the most most.

Since morning i was depressed. whole day i srsly feel like crying please. thank God for darlings like F4s. they never fails to cheer me up. =) God given darlings.

Mayb its stress that gets me down. 've been feeling VERY stressed up lately. was stuffing chocolate like nobody's business. and the more stressed i am, the worse i do for ballet. GOD i need a miracle. i need something more than natural arch and nice turnout legs. i need something more than flexibility and high legs.

God i hate ballet exams. it just gets me down =((( can i ever be good enough? have i caught up with my classmates already? have i made up for the years i spent not knwing ballet? am i still far far far far behind them all? can i make it through this time? suddenly i deproved alot alot this week. and its depressing to watch myself in the mirror.

depressing. seriously.

Normally by the third class i could have danced out the combi with ease. like, quite familiar la. this time.. this is the fifth class! and i still do mistakes. gosh how can?! and its all exams steps. ARGH! step it up Puiman!

Contemp's still okay. perhaps i'm too saddened by ballet i didnt realli feel like doing contemp. but the flying around combi which i love cheered me up. oh and of cos, my tribal partner, head band gang Anny. hahahahaha~ she's so cute.

After that was STRESSED-OVER-ARTS-MANAGEMENT. This is the most unprepared test i've ever been to. The whole break i tried to study. But i keep falling asleep in front of the com. During performance prac we studied too. but nothing was going in. =(

When the papers finally came. i gave a loud "wah rao". If it was all MCQ i might have managed okay. its all the short answer questions that killed me. SOOO many were the blanks on my paper. God Your mercy be upon us. Let us pass, so that we can proceed to level 1 next year.

Throughout the test i had an eyebrow cramp. was thinking soooo hard, squeezing whatever watermelon and pineapple juice outta my brains. nope i cant do half the paper. Gosh let me die.

And the "nice atmosphere" in class today added to my "happie" face. Yes everyone was "kind and sweet". Everything was "going well". And nope. no politics. no there isnt.

Thank God for darlings like F4s.









































春天的微笑

雪慢慢融化
终于想出去晒晒太阳
看见了樱花张开翅膀
代替我把眼泪落下

躺在草原上
心开始从回忆松绑
把对你的执著都放下
我尽力而为了对吗

冬天 太长
花儿要是不够傻 怎么有盛开的力量
地狱 天堂
就看怎么想

我从梦终于醒来决定把你忘了吧
每一朵花 静静开了对风雪已原谅
值不值得 都过去了
整个世界重来一次我的人生也一样

我从梦终于醒来决定把你忘了吧
每一个人都很愿意拥抱着我不要怕
爱我自己 呼吸坚强
春天的微笑让我想要再次希望

我从梦终于醒来决定把你忘了吧
每一个人都很愿意拥抱着我不要怕
爱我自己 呼吸坚强
春天的微笑让我有勇气再出发

a song which speaks. speaks.

puii- stuffing chocolates to make myself happier.

10:36 PM

this is a note from me to You.
a promise untold.
twice over. all over.
an offering to You.

Timely are God's words. Soothing is His voice. The sweetness of His touch. The wind brushes my arm. Timely are God's words. Very timely.

tears.
smiles.
nods.
for You.

I srsly cant take stress and all that crap. and i srsly cant wait for this two weeks to be over. and i cant wait to be in Hong Kong talking cantonese to all my 10-years-never-see relatives. i cant wait to get out and away from all these things. i need an escape. i feel like running away, pretending the world is without failure.

twice over. all over.

and i know God You are my Escape. my Refuge. where i run to in all the ups and down and around. the One i go to and dance to. the One i fix my eyes upon. the One i give my heart to. the One i can never love enough. the One. the One.

Abba. Abba. Abba. Abba. Abba. Abba. Abba. Abba. Abba. Abba. Abba. Abba.

Okay world. i'm feeling better. thanks Chews darl for her timely loooove care and concern =)

puii- without reserve. without retreat. without regret.

2:27 AM

Monday, April 16, 2007

and i thought i've grown out stuff like this. and pain like this. i thought i was already bigger. and no i wasnt. so wrong. i was so wrong.

cry me a tsunami.

must i go through this again? and again? ***_

mayb i'm weak. so i get beaten.
mayb i'm strong. so i get tested.
mayb its just me.
mayb its not me.

no its not me. not me. never me.

but in God i am strong.
i am strong in His strength.
got up once.
will get up again.

ready for war. ready for war. ready for war. ready for war.

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Stressed up for all the whatevers in my life. Oh gosh EXAMS are getting on my nerves. i dread all the lectures in the first place. plus BALLET. and all that stuff. ROAR i'm so stressed i've been stuffing myself with chocolate. ask sinman, she'll know. hahahahahaaha~

Tmr got TEST!!! Arts management! Praying VERY VERY VERY hard. God help me pass this. I need to pass this to go to the next year. =(

a ton of bricks.

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srsly lost all my mood to study. thats why i hate wars. it kills. even moods.

and why should i be the one stuffing chocolates? why should i build my sorrow upon others' joy? why should i put myself down to this? why should i choose banana over chocolate? why should i finish up the salad? and why should i let people build their joy on my sorrow? i must grow up. i must move on. i must keep it. i must leave it. and YES. i must study.

mayb its like the blueberry. too sweet for me.
mayb its like the cream. bubbly stuff.

STUDY.

`just as i am]]
`without one plea]]
`but that Thy blood]]
`was shed for me]]
`and that Thou bidd'st me]]
`come to Thee]]
`o Lamb of God i come]]
`i come]]

puii- a weak heart. a strong God. He still wins. He rock.

10:11 PM

Sunday, April 15, 2007

Last wed, was so blessed to be able to go watch PHANTOM OF THE OPERA! I prolly told the whole world(class) about it.. ahhahahahaha was so excited =)


























Ticket. =)

































It reads : Please be advised that strobe lighting and blank gun shots are used in this performance.

Going to watch a musical, and going to watch your favourite musical, there's such a big big diff please. i'm a big fan of phantom. prolly have memorized most of the songs in there. aahhh its just =))))))))))

Sinman and her friend (Cassandra) told us we'll be sitting 5th row. Like can you believe it?! 5th row!!!! So near stage!! So was quite excited =))) But when we went in, a lady led us all the way to the FIRST ROW! Right in front of the stage and muscian pit!!! Gosh soooooooooooooooooooo near pls!!!!! I was stunned. Sinman acutally bought tickets sooo near?! Her friend keep saying want go complain the ldy that sold them tickets. Cos she told them its 5th row. Hahahahha~ cute la..


























That's the chandelier. Before the auction scene. We were THAT close =)







































And yup, thats the orchestra pit right in front of us.

But the view aint all that good afterall. Cos alot of stuff we cant see. But nonetheless, it was good. we got to see all the tiny little details, like spluttering saliva, flowing tears, tiny exclaimations, the faces of the dancing ballerinas, soft whispers.

The part where a soldier climb out from the orchestra pit with a gun realli got me cracked up. Sinman and me got a huge shock! And he shot his gun right in front of us!!! Praise God we didnt go deaf. hahahahahaha!

And we're so near the front we cant see the part where phantom and christine was in the boat. Cos the dry ice smoke flooded us -_- It was hilarious cos opposite us was a group of formal shirt guys that was CONSUMED by the smoke. Man that was funnie. =P

What an experience! It was a fun and fulfilling trip to the Esplanade. If you got a chance, Phantom is a MUST CATCH.

All that. =) It was, is, and will still be, my fav musical =)))




























The Chandelier which swung right above our head and crashed in front of us.





























The platform thingy Phantom stood on and sang "You will curse the day you did not do, all that the Phantom ask of you!" It was just ABOVE us!! Directly!! So we cant see him la.. but it was still amazing.

It was cooool. Real cool. THANKS PIG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Puii- the Phantom of the Opera is there inside your mind.

10:57 AM

You know that kind of service that you attend, and nothing else seems to matter except that moment. Just with God. with God. You sense Him so near. His touch so sweet. You shiver. You sing. You laugh and cry. Everything just doesnt make sense, but its just all so.. GOD.

And Benny Hinn's service today was exactly that.

First day of Benny Hinn was a gentle introduction. Some polite healings took place. We all sense the presence of God. Everything was sweet, mild, silent.

But second day(today). The air was like electrified. A certain something filled the air. Some of us choir mates sense it when we got into the hall. Service started, and everything was building up. Building up to something big. We didnt know what it was, until it hit us. TOUCH!! and we were down. It was like being caught in quicksand. It was like angels catching us all and throwin us down under the power.

It wasnt as gentle as before. It was like the Holy Spirit violently impart and give unto us the things which He had prepared for us. It was like tons of water gushing down from heaven. The reality of the Spirit in that Stadium. I tell you. It was like awesome, like A-W-E-S-O-M-E.

So we were all thrown all over the shop. Slain in the spirit many many many times. Choir, us privilleged bunch. Crying. Laughing. Rolling. Kicking. We were like the most unglam. TOUCH!! and we're down again.

no Jesus i'm sorry. Lord i want to come back to You. You know i love You. You know i do. I want to know You more. I want to love You like the way You deserve. I want to come closer. So much closer. LORD. I never want to leave this presence. No i dun wanna leave. All my life let me dwell in Your presence. Forever i want to follow You. No Lord never let me go.

Thank God for His wonderous love, beautiful presence, and the sweetest touch that'll ever exist.

Puii- triple. later will be triple.

oh, i totally cant sleep. i'm high in the spirit. THEN SINGS MY SOUL~~ i tell you later will be even greater. =)

4:31 AM

Saturday, April 14, 2007

Wee!! I finally blogged!! =))) Many many wonderful things. So wonderful i forgot about life's bitterness =)

EASTER!!!!! Such a privilledge to share the stage, telling the story of Jesus. A tiny winy part in the whole drama, but what i've experienced and learned was just overwhelming. And i got to see Jesus, His love, His compassion. Nearer. Closer to the heart. My heart was melted by the whole drama. and i feel like shouting : I LOVE YOU JESUS! =)

Pre-easter
Chiong down from school, missing Soumya's and Adrian's class (opps!) Was soooo tired after a whole morning of ballet and contemp (plus it was YW's class, more tiring) Hahahahah~ Saw the stage for the first time. Wooooo nice~ =)

Saw the full costume for the first time too!! haaah we were all so excited we took pics after pics. =P

12 plus in the night. Ryan and Kenny decided to change the WHOLE HELL SCENE. So we all kinda panicked, but it was coool la~ =) i like~~

Prac was okay. Alot of waiting time cos needa wait for the whole drama to run. Was quite blur and stuff. But was okay. The sacrifice of the day: reach home at some ungodly hour at 3 plus in the morning. Wow~ eye bags! Actually can reach earlier la. but i went supper-ing with KPT gang. hahahaha.

Day one! (Friday)

Met with Woodlands gang at 8 for breakfast at KPT. Hahahahaaha, one of the earliest breakfast i've eaten. And yes, to add to the fact that i slept at 4 the previous night, who wants to eat?! Haha..

Early morning reached. Sat there and stone. Poor Nana got no one to entertain her.
Oh and i hurt my arm real bad the previous day. So i-forgot-his-name helped me wrap my arm up. Hahahaha~ =P But thank God i was able to endure. Endure.

We got real excited over make up and costume. Running around. Jumping about. Lazing around. All the way till sevice starts. hahahaha~

Standing at the Hi-welcome-to-City-Harvest spot (the main entrance la), with Calynne the antelope with our costumes one. Feel so bare. Hahahah~ plus alot of people was staring. We were trying to blend into the background as much as possible.

The video started. Ye Ee Or~ De ka voo Ah ma eh. Blah blah blah. Hahahaha~ so excited and nervous. Jump jump jump. Wasnt that good la for me. Hahaha~ i jumped jumped jumped and almost twisted by ankle. So i realised after the whole Easter. It happens EVERY service -_-

The change over to hell scene was funnie. It was like extreme makeover. Hahahaha~ first we were all cute animals. Suddenly we're like the Beggers' sect.

After that i was very very very tired.

Day two!(Saturday)
The latest calltime of all three days, and i'm late -_-. Woke up at calltime. Cabbed down. Got a big big big scare please. hahahaha~

Service two was prob the most paiseh one. I tripped Satan in hell scene. Cos i didnt see him, so i didnt siam. And he tripped over me into Jesus' embrace(hahaha) and kicked my head real bad. Hahahahaha i got a bump on my head after that. =P

Oh, and i bua off a piece of skin on my ankle. Nope havent recovered yet. hahaha~ it still hurts like mad. cant point and flex my foot cos will pull the skin. Ballet class' a torture since then.

ROAR! So paiseh!!!

Service three. I saw my face on the big screen in hell scene. Hahahahaa~

Val and Ger sweeties came look for us at the dancers' room =))) So sweet of em. Val wrote a card for me! Oh my sugar spice and everything nice =) hahaha so cute la they all!









Day three (Sunday) EASTER DAY!!!

Time check 6.04am

Reached uber early. Was soooo stone before the rest came. hahahahaha~ make up make up for the day. i could hardly keep my eyes open. =P

Last day, so i practically FLOODED my phone. hahahahaha took pics like nobody's biz.

Last two serivce was good =))) Simply miss those antelope and monkeying around times on stage. What an experience!

After service, we didnt want to take off the costume and wash off our makeup. So... MORE PICS! =P

The whole Easter journey for me was a short and sweet walk. Tiring, but fulfilling. And i feel it took me a step closer to Jesus. In my demon costume backstage, i was looking at the crucifixion scene with tears. After that i came out roaring. hhahahaha so funnie. But realli, the love of Jesus. His heart. I feel i understand a lil bit more now.

Oh to plankie : Antelope ass. I wan to wee wee X 4. acting stupid during rehearsal befor scene one. thank you for being an antelope with me!! =)

It was a period of growth. Both as a dancer, and as a child of God. So privilleged to share the stage where His name is proclaimed. Thank God =)

Puii- pics are up on my multiply! http://puilovejesus.multiply.com

12:01 PM

Sunday, April 08, 2007

Finally found time to on com. Will find time to blog about Easter again. Just dropped by to say i'm VERY TIRED, and i super need Benny Hinn and Sinseh now. Heaven knows how am i gonna survive tmr in school. Yup i'm that tired.

Nites world!! Cant tahan anymore. hahaha~

Oh i just caught Mr Bean's Holiday (kinda late though) and i practically stoned through the whole movie. Its realli not funnie la, either that or i'm too tired. Not worth the time and money lei. Some of em said it was funnie though. Hahaha~

Okay nites! =) Pictures all will be up soon(i hope) =)))

Puii- Then sings my soul~~~~~~~

10:33 PM

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

I actually survived!! It was a tough night to endure, and an even harder day to survive man. I literally dragged myself to school, and wasnt looking forward to much dancing really. Surprisingly i got more praises today. hhahaha~of cos more corrections too. Haha~ at least i got more performance quality today.

i'm VERY tired i just realised. according to sinman my eyebags and dar circles are... CMI. So she offered her eye mask to rescue my poor eyes. hahaha, so kind of her.

NITES world! =)

Invitation to all. Spend Easter knowing the reason for the season!
Friday to Sunday @ Singapore Expo. Come experience the Easter story!

And what's best? I'M INSIDE THE DRAMA(if just a lil)!!! =) Hee~
puii- Easter bunny comes with them Easter eggs.

9:58 PM

Thanks a million to Aaron Aw. Imagine how bored he must have been.. HAHAHAHA! okay i actually laughed like mad over it. its soo dumb la goodness~ ROAR.







Actually cant realli read the whole thing. but its just pure dumbness la! hahaah~ cracked me up totally in the middle of Giselle stuffs. Hahahahaha

oh and i jus realised, my neck is twisted quite bad actually. i'm feeling more and more slanted now. Jia lat.. needa see sinseh soon to PUSH it back =P

onemore.



puii- back to work.

4:32 AM

Since i couldnt start on my work yet. Shall blog a lil. Gonna be a sleepless night. or as sleepless as i could tahan. Needa do some homework thing =( CHIONG AH!!

If only tiredness was something else.
If only sleep can be like soft drink. Drink. Drank. Drunk.

And because of the homework thingy i'm watching Giselle again. Its seriously nice. Just that i cant explain why i like it, like in words you know. i cant say i know how to appreciate it. seriously i have no idea what they are doing. all those ballet ballet.. its just amazing to watch. but i cant write that and hand in right? hahahaaa~ must add in some stuffs(alot of stuffs) to make it long enough. RoAR.

I'm really VERY tired right now. Got no idea how am i gonna survive tmr. at all. i'll prob be half dead whole day.

off to fight em sleeping bugs. byebye world.

puii- send me down two miracles. and a cup noodle.

2:21 AM

Monday, April 02, 2007

Woooh~ long long time no blog. No worries i'm still kicking and alive. Finally recovered from that oh-so-irritating flu+fever+all that nonsense. Wah~ i never knew health should be sooooo appreciated. Yes mum i wont purposely get sick again(not that i did) hahahhahahahaha~

So i finally went back school. Finally got to see my ballet darlings! =))) Missed them plenty please. Especially my F4s!!! hahahhaaha~ and they nv fails to update me all the in-class jokes. i laughed like mad la =) hee! love em girls~!

Had Easter prac yesterday. =) Was v fun. and v tiring. one moment we were jumping around like mad.. the next we're sitting for hours, waiting for the rest of the scenes to run. It was fun seeing how the whole drama thing work. how everyone had something to settle. hahaha~ it was fun.

A prayer session with em drama team. Sandy was praying over the mic, so we prayed together. it was a time of lifting our lives back to God all over again, renewing our first love for Him, afreshed.

and it was all after watching the Easter story, how Jesus died for our sins. i just cant help but thank God. i thank Him for being so strong, being so brave, to live the life that He did on earth. Because He stood so strong i could be where i am right now.

wow.

we spent very long, in prayer and worship. the whole Easter team in prayer, seeking His face. it was amazing. was with fish(theresa), prayed for each other. and it just stuck me, how much more important prayer is in times like this. how much more we need prayers and to be sharp in the spirit. Sandy said something. We've watched the Easter story so many time. This year, let it not be the same old thing. Let the Spirit come and reveal something new. So we should be sharp, and not do thing and think of things in the natural way.

prayerful. prayerful.

But the drag-till-late-late part is scary la. it realli dragged till VERY late. hahaha~ cos i waited for friend's friend to fetch. by the time i reached woodlands, it was 1 plus am. Wah~ freaked out. So we decided to eat before heading home, since its already so late. hahaha~

i step into my house at 2.04am. My mum almost killed me.

i was worrying if i could wake up the next morning..shushu looked at me and. worry not la, just pray loh.

Mayb its just the thing about the things of the spirit. Naturally you'll think i needa sleep, i cant pray. But yst i prayed. i didnt sleep til way past three or something. and i woke up earlier than usual. very refreshed. ready to go. tired of cos, but alive =) i smile ALOT in ballet class today. hhahaha~

okay i feel so *accomplishment* now that i blogged =) BYE!! Off to bed to make up for yst. NITES WORLD =)

Puii- ballet ballet.

Oh btw, got back my ballet results. Passed =) Same old prob. Hahhaa~~

10:22 PM