Sometimes you make me so angry I dun even wanna talk to you.

Maybe I'm too selfish to demand my ways. To please others and not you instead. Maybe I'm selfish that way. I'm sorry.

But I'm angry too. I dun think I am wrong.

Maybe you just need someone that do everything your way.

If you'd come and hold my hands, everything can be resolved/dissolved.

puii- too bad for me then

Kay la huh it's not so emo like I dunno where I am. Just wanted to do a quick update to my blog from the middle of nowhere along a big expressway going from Guangzhou to Shen zhen. I'm feeling a little sleepy so gonna catch a wink later. Day 3 of the trip and I'm so tired already! You won't see this till much later tho. When I finally find some wifi connections. Till then, I'll keep on my role as the tourist. Hee!

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Though the world is so full of a number things,
I know we should all be as happy as
But are we?
No, definitely no, positively no.
Decidedly no. Mm mm.
Short people have long faces and
Long people have short faces.
Big people have little humor
And little people have no humor at all!
And in the words of that immortal buddy
Samuel J. Snodgrass, as he was about to be lead
To the guillotine:

Make 'em laugh
Make 'em laugh
Don't you know everyone wants to laugh?
(Ha ha!)
My dad said "Be an actor, my son
But be a comical one
They'll be standing in lines
For those old honky tonk monkeyshines"

Now you could study Shakespeare and be quite elite
And you can charm the critics and have nothin' to eat
Just slip on a banana peel
The world's at your feet
Make 'em laugh
Make 'em laugh
Make 'em laugh

Make 'em...
Make 'em laugh
Don't you know everyone wants to laugh
My grandpa said go out and tell 'em a joke
But give it plenty of hoke

Make 'em roar
Make 'em scream
Take a fall
But a wall
Split a seam

You start off by pretending
You're a dancer with grace
You wiggle 'till they're
Giggling all over the place
And then you get a great big custard pie in the face
Make 'em laugh
Make 'em laugh
Make 'em laugh

Make 'em laugh
Make 'em laugh
Don't you know... all the...wants..?
My dad...
They'll be standing in lines
For those old honky tonk monkeyshines

Make 'em laugh
Make 'em laugh
Don't you know everyone wants to laugh?

Ah ha ha ha ha ha ha
Ah ha ha ha ha ha
Ah ha ha ha ha ha ha
Ah ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha
Make 'em laugh, ah ah!
Make 'em laugh, ah ah!
Make 'em laugh, ah ah!

Make 'em laugh
Make 'em laugh
Make 'em laugh!

问世间、情为何物，只教生死相许？天南地北双飞客，老翅几回寒暑。欢乐趣，离别苦，就中更有痴儿女。君应有语，渺万里层云，千山暮雪，只影向谁去？

横汾路，寂寞当年箫鼓，荒烟依旧平楚。招魂楚些何嗟及，山鬼暗啼风雨。天也妒，未信与，莺儿燕子俱黄土。千秋万古。为留待骚人，狂歌痛饮，来访雁丘处。

Exactly how many straws are there? Will there ever be a "last straw"?

Sometimes I get so upset I dunno what to think.

And right now, I cannot feel anything but the stinging, cooling feeling in my eyes... Yes I'm very emotional right now, and I feel so damn weak and vulnerable and useless and alone.

I hate it when I'm so emo. I hate it when I cant even bring myself to smile at people. I hate it when I can't hide my sorrow, because it's so overwhelming.

But then again, maybe I shouldn't complain so much because everything is my fault.

I feel like going into a dark and empty studio and dance/cry my heart out...

Puii-

Sometimes, one small mistake is all that matters.

Sometimes, one small flaw spoils everything.

Sometimes, i just feel like giving up and keep all my flaws to myself.

Sometimes, I just want to be alone. It's much better than having someone with you all the time, but you still feel overwhelming loneliness.

Maybe I'm just a fool, a clown.

I'm sick of trying to please everybody....

Puii- who will be willing to do that for me for a change?

I dun want to have to try and do everything to know it was all useless, all the time.



And some times I do get very tired.

I do wish sometimes, that everyone (including me) can be read like a book, and every problem solved with a formula. No guessing, no mistakes, and maybe finally some results.

Some smiles or laughs.

Puii- it's hard...

Hot weather!!! Almost drove me nuts. So hot so hot. Should pick this kind of day for a swim!!

I hope I hope I get to eat chicken gratin with pesto sauce later! :P

I got weird cramping pain on some small muscle under my left eye. It's threatening to cramp up everytime I try to focus on sone (eg. Typing these words on the annoyingly small keypads) Maybe my vision is failing cos I squint too much while looking at the iPhone.

Always feel strain on the eyes playing games or surfing on this damn thing.

I'm blogging now just cos I'm on the bus abs I'm bored and the boyfriend have iPhone for entertainment (no need me anymore). Which reminds me. I actually do hate these technologies sometimes. True it makes the world a smaller place, now that we can know of things happening at anywhere in the world at any time, but we all have excuses now to avoid even the kind of conversation/interaction needed to break awkward silences.

Sitting in each others' company in silent is quite beautiful. Have the same thing with a couple of smart techy stuff and bam goes the wall that isolates everyone from everyone. Yes I too am a victim/guilty. I hate it when I ignore people (unintentionally) because I'm playing sone stupid game on my phone.

Anyways, by the time I got to typing this part, chicken gratin is no longer an option cos of the long queue. But we finally get to try Barcelos! Shall see if it taste as nice as it smells! :D

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I want my own rabbit hole to jump into.

I want my own talking smiling cat.

I want my own adventure.

I want my own wonderland.

I feel like I've been hit by a ton of bricks. I got a headache from hell that refuses to go away. For two whole days now.

It hurts so bad I feel like crying again.

Bahhhhhh I hate it when I feel so weak and there's nothing I can do about it.

Yes I caught a moment to rant here cos I managed to drag myself to the toilet and wash my hair. The evaporating water is distracting me from the pain for a while.

I just wish this headache will go away.

On another note, I've been thinking up some long term plans for myself. Hope I get somewhere with them. Too many things swimming in my head right now, together with the pain.

Worst part is, I can't escape to dreamland cos I've been trying so hard to sleep the headache away. Now sleep left me and I'm alone. I have to face this freaking headache on my own.

Pleaseeeeee just go away!!!!

Puii- oh no it's all coming back to me now :(

Puii- burrrr....

Boo! Why Lakers lose again to Miami!

Weird uncomfortable feeling/almost angry or hateful(same as that which I feel when I see evil people do bad things in hk tv serials) sets in...

Nooooooooo...!!!!!

Puii- c'mon LA!!!

Long story short, everyone at the noodle place escaped from the dangerous attack of the high voltage electric lightbulb, by just a LITTLE bit! Like really, just a hair.

Too much excitement for supper. Haha..

Puii-

Cute dog for adoption!

I've been tied to the door. I cannot go in, nor come out. Everywhere I go is where the door is. Wherever I go is neither in, nor out.

Sorry to those I left behind, and those waiting ahead. Looks like I'll be here for awhile.

Puii- someone tell my heart..

So cute the kitty cat!!! Cute bright big green eyes, super active when chasing bugs and random flying mail. Even pull mail out from letterboxes that's slightly ajar!

So cute.. Why can't all animals be so lovable?

Or rather.. Why can't we have the same love for all animals?

*

On a different note, I've been watching Andrew zimmer's bizarre foods again and I have a weird urge to try fried tarantulas(big black hairy spiders with poisonous fangs). They saw it taste like fried soft shell crab!

Well I might not be able to stomach a whole spider, maybe just one leg:)

Poof!

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Haven't seen a millipede in ages! Don't know why, but it brought out the kid in me when I saw it (yes, note to self: no longer kid anymore.) felt slightly happy. Haha.

suddenly missing younger days... (something only done by people who's feeling age.. hahahaha..)

days in hongwen; playing catching, running randomly in the field, monkey bars, the 50 cents canteen food, the jackfruit tree growing behind the drink store.

woodgrove; the crazy gang that i love (and miss). everyday buying a bottle of ice lemon tea and 2 chicken nuggets. running around the WHOLE school like we own the place. p5 camp. awwww...

i wish i can go back to those times, times when i won't be scared to pick a millipede up in my hands and wonder about everything =)

Puii-

Heh.. Trying a blogging app. Hope it works, then I can chitter-chatter with myself here when I'm bored! Kay.. That's all I'm here for.

Time to check for this post online!

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