Saturday, January 29, 2011
happy days seem far sometimes don't they?
10:10 AM
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
i hate to have to do things that i really really don't wanna do, but have to do it to get by/survive/please everyone/etc.well, you should know that feeling..
i don't like to force myself, (nice way of saying i'm lazy). but its true, i really don't like to, and doing things that i don't like just brings out the sloth in me. yea like sid from ice age. hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahha..
i know what i have to do. i have eyes; i can see the happenings and the situations and whatever that's going on that dictates our lives and its quality, i can see it and therefore know what i should be doing..
..i just don't like it.
so should i be doing something i like, and die for it?
or lie to myself, and the whole world, and force myself to be something i'm not, and possibly be super rice or super successful or super fantastic (haha..)?
sometimes, i don't feel like dancing anymore, or be a dancer. "dance" is suffocating me, and mayb my love for dance altogether.. i feel trapped in a tiny box, and because of "dance" i cannot walk out, maybe 'cause of a sense of responsibility or gratitude or urgency, or just maybe because i can't bear to.
i miss that happy place i went to with dance, just dance.
puii-
7:08 PM
Tuesday, January 04, 2011
i love quiet, happy mornings.i love happy, peaceful mornings.
i love peaceful, quiet mornings.
makes me wanna just sit with a cup of tea and watch the world go by.. hustle bustle hustle bustle..
makes me wanna sigh a happy sigh and stare at the clouds, or the trees..
makes me wanna lie in his arms and count the seconds, and his heartbeat..
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don't know why but i feel kinda dreamy.. i like it when i feel this subtle happiness in my heart.. like everything's gonna be wonderful, and we're all gonna be just fine.
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heart full. stomach empty. can't wait for breakfast =)
maybe there IS a reason why my boy calls me the food mongster!
puii- thank you. thank you. thank you. for a wonderful day.