Saturday, September 30, 2006

*typed on 29th sep, forgot to post*

First thing first, thanks loads to sweetie THERESA!! You would never imagine how your mail impacted me =) Blessed to have ya as fren babe =) Yea~ everything's gonna be ALRIGHT! =)

It's like the dance exams season. Tomolo is project o's first exam. We're all pretty stressed up by it, but my dear princesses~!! Fear not =) for everything's gonna be ALRIGHT~ =) Jia you jia you yea? =) I believe we all CAN and WILL make it through. LOVE LOVE =)

Next week's my assessement week. Monday's contemp. Ricky added a ton more stuff to remember. Poor arms poor legs, the aching wont stop. The aching wont stop.

Ballet, hai~ dun think there'll be assessement..think will be like the other time, she just ANYHOW give marks~

How can a person with 6 months ballet training get the same marks with one who trained since young?!

Nvm.

School life is starting to turn into a routine. Everyday it's wake up, rush out, try to catch the bus, if not CAB. Dance dance rest dance dance rest. That's how my days are nowadays. It seem so no life sometimes. I dun go out, i dun wear normal clothes, i dun even watch tv and all now. I DUN EVEN KNOW KFC GOT NEW STUFF!!! I'm totally a dance freak now, that does nothing but dance all day~ Well, it's not that that bad in a way, cos i get to dance everyday and all..but yea's now becomin stagnant. It's like everythin just stopped suddenly.

Stagnant is a weird feeling.


Anyways, that aside.

Yea, tmolo's proj o exam. need 65% to pass. I realli wanna pray hard that everyone of us will go forth tomolo and dance for the glory of God. We'll all make it. Yes. We'll all shine for God =)))

All these pracs for the past few months, tomolo's the day we show what we've learnt. Scray thoughts keep coming but yea, today's cg praise song tells us EVERYTHING'S GONNA BE ALRIGHT. So yea, confess with faith positive thought. =)

For my choreo, i still got one more eight. I'm more worried about freestyle. Cos when i get nervous (like the other day) i'll just keep locking and all.

Oh well..all i can do is
pray and prac
pray and prac
pray and prac

Puii- dancing off.

1:55 AM

Thursday, September 28, 2006

I'm just glad my life's filled with loads of wonderful things.


And all i want now is a new pair of legs =)


Puii- too tired to blog~~

1:38 AM

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

11:38 PM

mayb i should smile more. mayb it's just bothering me too much. mayb i should really just LET GO and LET GOD.

yes i should smile more.


Aint much to blog today.


Think i broke my record today. I laughed 10 minutes straight WITHOUT STOPPING. I'm so amazed. And it's roflol kinda laughing. Yea ROFLOL~ oh dear i must have looked super ugly. Irritating princess taped it down -_-

Saturday's proj o exams. My choreo's coming out fine i guess..the rest are all mixing music. i'm just using one song. well..i think i still got quite some to choreo. It wont be like last time. I dun wanna freak out again =P


Seriously, i don't feel like smiling.


Dad's away for the week. Went HK settle the house thingy. Called him early morning just before he left to talk to him a lil. =)))


During prac, we were doing the "praying hand" position..theresa played a super super nice song. I was listening and doing the exercise. In a moment, tears just welled up. It was as if God just spoke : I'm always here. In good times, or bad. I'm always here. Even in times, you feel so alone, like you cant go on anymore, I'll be there beside you, whispering "daughter, I love you."

It's like God just gave me a big big hug, telling me it's okay. He sees all things, He knows all things. It's okay, it's okay..

before the world begin
you were on His mind
and every tear you cry
is precious in His eyes

because of His great love
He gave His only Son
and everything was done
so you would come

nothing you can do
could make Him love you more
and nothing that you've done
could make Him close the door

because of His great love
He gave His only Son
everything was done
so you would come

come to the Father
though your gift is small
broken hearts broken lives
He will take them all

the power of the word
the power of His blood
everything was done
so you would come


What else do i need? nothing.

Puii- draw near to God and He will draw near to you

12:44 AM

Monday, September 25, 2006

I could choose to blog about usual, what-happen-today stuff...but reading my sis blog changed it all. And yes, i cried again. i cried like a broken dam. my heart cries for just one thing. one thing...



Today's the end of the marriage seminar~Yes i got no marriage to worry about, but lookin at the nearest married couple in my life, i just feel....sad.

I haven seen my parents holding hands. It's like a dream that seem so so impossible. It's almost a fantasy, a pie in the sky, a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow.

I haven even seen them smile to each other. You know, just smile? I'm just glad they aint fighting. I'm just glad they aint ignoring. But yet, there's no smile, no joy between them.

Every lesson of marriage seminar, i mean who else can i think of? Lookin back, i wished they had known all these things i've learned. They wouldnt be so far apart. There wouldnt be this stupid wall they built between themselves.

It strikes again. Conflicts between them cuts my heart. It's all over that house in hong kong. My mum's giving up tryin to voice her opinion. My dad's too tired to move on. They just walk off, hurt, confused, hardening their heart to all these. They just went to their own room and closed the door. Leaving me and my sis outside. Sad. Lost. Heartbroken.

Laying hands on those doors. I wish the two doors can become one.
I wish both the physical and emotional wall between em both will just crumple down. I prayed hard hard hard. I prayed that the Holy Spirit will come and bring back the connection once again.

I had always imagined them smiling again, hand in hand. I wanna be able to see it. I wanna pray it into reality. God is a God of possibilities. Impossible to Him is non-existance. To Him ALL things are possible. I wanna see that wall come down. I wanna see those hands joined. I wanna see their genuine smile once again. No sorrow, no stress, no tiredness across their faces. Just joy. Just love.

Lord, only You can make it happen.


*pray*
Lord, let Your river of love flow. Let Your love saturate this house. Wont You soften the harden hearts? Wont You mend what is broken? Lord You wipe away tears, You heal the hurts and bruises of the soul. Your unconditional love, Lord i long to see in my hm. Can they fall in love again? How i long for that day to come. It seem so far. It seemed so so far. Lord no matter how impossible it may seem, i wanna trust that NOTHIN is impossible to You. Lord, You are a God of miracles.

I need a miracle. We need a miracle.

And i imagined again, them saying " I do."

Puii-


Sorry for the emo entry. I'm just...

I love my parents.

*praying*



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Congrats to Daniel and O Crew for getting into Overdrive finals~

(no mood to blog)

nites world.

1:10 AM

Sunday, September 24, 2006

New blogskin~!! =))) Love it loads.


Today was slack day. Didnt have class. Suppose to meet em early for prac but I WOKE UP LATE!! =P

When i reached, they were slackin still -_-

Worked on our own choreo today. I onli have 4 eights now. Around 10 plus secs. And we need one minute of choreo *stressed*

A day of slackin. A day of laughin. A day of fattening food. Food like KFC. =)

Service tomolo. Finale of marraige seminar. Overdrive semi finals. Woohoo, tomolo's gonna be a blast =)

Puii-

12:43 AM

Saturday, September 23, 2006

I feel dumb right now, but i actually cried reading my sis' blog. Please, you cant argue your way outta this. I've got the best sis in the whole wide world =)))

i LOVE yeung sinman!!! =)))


Okie~ that aside..

Today was kinda slack, didnt have class in school, but got the showcase thingy, to dance our performance prac piece to the dance department. Was OKIE~~~ la..i buang into someone at the beginning part =P

YES black tights =)))

Nua with my class girls..suppose to go with them for steamboat as class outing sorta stuff..but yea, left early for oschool.

I got a shock when i reached oschool la. ALL OF THEM ARE WORKIN ON THEIR CHOREO!! and i remember nuts about it until i saw them with the ipods and headphones all. So yea, stress puts me to work. Out came my phone and headset. Think i'll be dancing SOS(rescue me) by Rihanna. Started choreoing a lil, turned out to be rather jazzy. Well, it's not jazz totally, but it's definately not hip hop. So i dunno how to categorize it =)

Class was fine. Knees' givin me probs. Cant kick well, cant stay on releve and all. but i still so love Ryan's class. I mean, he pushes you to where you cant push yourself to be and all. Hmmm..if you know what i'm sayin. Well, mayb it's just me. =P Never mind.

Cellgroup was cool. Theresa led praise and aaron led worship again. *sing*

Sermon was PRETTY short. Less than 5 mins =) After that was drama time. Laughter filled i should say.

Short day. Tiring day.

I feel like i'm just living life. Not like i'm in some adventure kind. It's just living it, letting everything pass me by. Not trying to grab hold of anything at all.

It's all slippin through my fingers.


Lord~ i need that excitement within. I need that motivation to push me on. I need a new surge of something from within. It's all so stagnant, it's scary.

Lord, i need Your river. Your water. Your anointing oil. I need a drink from Your well once more.

Hide me in Your love. Bring me to my knees.
May i know Jesus, more and more?

Puii-

1:57 AM

Friday, September 22, 2006

I hurt my kneeeeee~!!!!!!!


That is like a bad bad BAD news. Cant do jumps in ballet class today, cos knee was hurting. So went aside to stretch. Was twisting my leg around when it went "krak" and my face frost. Yes my itchy hand made it worse.

It hurts without me touching it now. ARGH~!! i need healing to my knees =(

I lost my pirouette today too =(

Got bad bad scolding from teacher today. i so so cant focus in class. I cant even count the mistakes i've done in class.

Today is a bad bad day to dance =(


Well, it wasnt such a bad day though. Had my daily dosage of laughter =))) i'm glad enough to forget all the =(.

In contemp class, there's this movement that we're suppose to imagine oueselves as arrows shooting stuff. Our teacher told us to shout an animal that we're gonna shoot. Tiger, elephant, T-rex and polar bears. You name it we have it. I was thinking all the time "zebra zebra" until the girl right in front of me shouted "ZEBRA!"

I'm like, oh no oh no, what am i gonna say?!?!?! Just then, an animal came to mind, and i shouted, half laughing, "PENGUIN!!!!"

The whole class laughed.

The teacher asked again so i shouted even louder. "PENGUIN!!!!!!!" He told me to change to a more aggresive animal. So i screamed "SHARK"

Such a coincidence, the next girl was gonna shout shark la!!! She shouted SHARK! anyways, and the teacher was like "you wanna fight with puiman ah? why shout shark? shout something else!"

Guess what she shouted?

"LOANSHARK!!"

ROFLOL MAO BBQ!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMGWTPBBQ. It was so so so so so so SO funnie please!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA. CMI. She's just so cute la.



Had lyrical hip hop today. Oh man i so so LOVE it la~!!! Ryan danced so nice la~! *envy*

Got the proj o exam list thingy. Need 65% to pass. Know what? There's choreo and freestyle. I need great faith. I shall confess, NOTHIN is impossible. and as theresa said, impossible = I M possible =)))




here i am waiting
abide in me i pray
here i am longing
for You

hide me in Your love
bring me to my knees
may i know Jesus
more and more?

come live in me
all my life
take over

come breath in me
i will rise
on eagle's wings



yes Lord, it is You.



Puii-

2:46 AM

Thursday, September 21, 2006

Changed back to an old skin, cos the latest one had probs. =(

I like that skin better. =P

Cant tag at my tagboard also. Sinman installed some antivirus or security thingy that doesnt allow me to tag~!!!! AT MY OWN TAGBOARD~!!

Sorry to all that tagged. I cant reply =( Mayb a change of tagboard will help. MAYBE.

Went for Ee Ching's class anyway. Rested whole day, was feelin much better than in the morning. Didnt wanna miss class too cos proj o exams' comin soon.

Did some turn turn stuff that i learn in school. Did her choreo. She extended it. Ends with a grand jete. Woo nice. I almost twisted my ankle while landing though. Doin grand jete with socks is deadly. HUR~ =P

and yes i'm so so so happie. i finally can do DOUBLE PIROUETTE~!!!!!
Mayb i can do it tomolo still, mayb i cant. but who cares? i'm gonna cheer, cos at least i can do it for today =)

*a step closer to you, my dear pirouettes =)*

School tomolo. Lookin forward =))) Well, mayb except the choir part. I so wish i can give it a miss.

No street jazz this week. Ryan's taking us for lyrical hip hop. Sounds woah.

It's late. I should be sleeping. That shy penguin lady asked me for breakfast. HA~

Puii- a cup of milo.

1:23 AM

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

SELF-DECLARED SABBATH

A day off school to rest my super aching body. I cant even walk properly in the morning. A day to rest my poor poor mind. It's collapsing soon with all the lack of sleep and post-colonialism theories.

True enough, i slept like a log the whole day. It wasnt till 3 plus in the afternoon before i woke up. Slept pass my alarm at 2pm. Guess i realli am tired. But yea a day's rest did help. Thank God for the good long sleep =) I feel replenished. Just that "absent" in my attendance. Well, i'll worry about that some other time. *hee*

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I seriously hate it when people tries to drive the idea into my head that it's all my fault i'm what i am right now. That i have what i have right now, it's all my doin. So what if i dance whole day and get all these pains and aches. I really hate it when people tries to send any tiny suggestion that i've made a big big BIG mistake by choosing to do what i'm doin now. I mean, give me a break. A hint of suggestion for me to turn back and be NORMAL drives me nuts. They may not have said it out, but you can see it in their eyes. They still cant get out of that box they're in. They still think dance is a waste of time. They still feels i'm being the kid that i am. They still think i'll wake out of this fantasy somehow. That i'll eventually go back to the NORMAL life that they're living.

I call it a bore, not a normal.

I mean, i'm sorry for sounding so harsh, but it really irritates me. It's as if they can have their dreams to pursue but i cant. It's like they're always the right one and i'm always in the wrong. It's like they so cant trust in me. When i'm tired they defiantely aint the ones i'm gonna go to for support, for encuoragement. Cos i know all i'm gonna find is DISSAPOINTMENT.

Yet God reminded me...

Me : GOD! Look at what they've done to me. *pointin to my hurts and all*
God : My girl, look at what I've done for you. *pointin to the cross*

*prayin*
Lord teach me to forgive. Teach me to forget. Teach me to be like Jesus.
amen.

Puii-

4:00 PM

It's just two days and i got a million things to say. Cut the story short. It was tired. It was fun.

First things first. Result wasnt what i expected. I'm gonna ask my teacher about it. Well, aint that dissapointed but, yea, i'm gonna ask him about it. At least for pointers of how to improve and stuff. I aint gonna stay with this kinda marks please. =P

First day of school was horrible. My muscle felt like bricks. A week of break from ballet and Graham, it's all gone man. I so needa catch things back.

Elizabeth said my ballet improved though =))))))

Madness dance prace with my princesses @ SMU. We go crazy after dancing and had weird names being called. Chewisa(Chewie + Theresa) Capui(Calynne and Pui) Nikhye(Nikz and Khye) Kenwan(Kenneth and Tian Wan) etc etc...hahahha it's so funnie la~! Took loads of vids too with khye's vid cam.

Lookin at the vid of myself, i feel i dance so ugly =(

PUSHING ON FOR BREAKTHROUGH.

Today was fasting day for project o. Seriously think we should fast longer. But yea, praying for breakthrough for everyone of us, that we can pass our exam =))) JIA YOU PRINCESSES =)))

School was okay, just that i almost vomited in ballet lessons. Was too extreme i guess. Loads of jumping stuff today. Giddy spell hit me way before lesson ends.

Suppose to have test/quiz. Studied at night, in school..in the end, after 30 mins of waiting, we were told lesson was cancelled. GREAT. All that studying for nothing. Well i didnt study much too cos i cant understand a nut of what her notes says so..=)

Calynne + Chewie + Theresa = Shopping queens. Or it's just me. Cos they can realli shop. I mean, i'll probably doze off or something if i'm out a day with em on a shoppin trip =P

The first food that entered my empty tummy was beef noodle =))) *slurp* i'm filled to the brim after that.

More dance today. Led stretching. Did some stuff. Think they thought it was torturous? =P I dunno..that you've gotta ask them. Hey this is nothing k. Wait till we do pretzels =))))

Feel these two days was good prac. I get to see how ugly i am and tried to change =)))

Tired to the core
but my passion's still burning strong

I so should be sleeping now. Nites all =) I so so lazy to blog so..ha~

Puii-

1:55 AM

Monday, September 18, 2006

Interent had weird probs just now. Couldnt sign in to msn, cannot even load yahoo main page. It miraculously recovered somehow. =P

Praise God =)

Saturday~
Didnt feel like dancing at all. Cant get anything =( Was feeling kinda sickly actually. Didnt do good in Gin's class. Hmmmm...better build up my health. Cant go on being sick, then cant dance and stuff.

Leave sickness till after exams, better still, after 9 months =)

After class till night was spent playing Citadel. Daniel's new card game. Pretty cool. Intellectual game. Got my brains workin so much i got a massive headache by the end of the day =P

Sunday~
Woke up late. Due to soft ringtone, i didnt pick up any of Theresa's call. She called three times though. =P
Also, my alarm clock was the dopest please. I set last night alarm clock to 6.45, in case i sleep back after Theresa's 6.30 call. Know what i discovered in the morning? My alarm was set at 6.45 PM -_-

Praise God i managed to wake up at 7 plus.

As usual, couldnt get floor seats. Dunno how the people chiong one. We came early to line up also useless la. End up wait for Charlie terrace. Not bad, we got a pretty nice view. But they like gonna quarrel with another cellgroup la. Scary. =P

Service was cool. I love "Secret Place" =)))
Sermon was dope too. Nearing the end of the marraige seminar~~next week's finale~~ =)

All the adults had something on. Left us project o ppl only for fellowship. Marina Square's Long John Silver. Bad service =( But well, i still love long john =)))

Off to Esplanade, Mrs Field. What else? Citadel time. Played till sian. Went to wait for Overdrive to start =)))

We all kena aaron's disease.
Uh!! Aint it funky!
roflol mao bbq
omgwtpbbq
My~~~~DOLLAR lies over the ocean~
Uber micro!
So you think you're like pro and stuff?
Uh! You like that ya?
roflol at joo~!!

I'm like speaking some nonsense =P

As usual, waited for a million hours before it started. Ocrew and Daniel both after the break.

As usual. I screamed like mad. =))) The vids i took are better to be watch muted. =)

Oh man you gotta scream right now. Cos both Ocrew and Daniel got into Semi Finals. I mean what's there to scream about but that man? So so so proud of them. Talk about burning the floor. Please?!?!? They totally FLAMED it!! =)))

To Ocrew and Daniel. We'll always be your loudest supporters =)))

Lazy to blog much. Suppose to be asleep now.

YES~! School tomolo =))) Results' gonna be on NOTICE BOARD!! Scary =P

Puii- My~~~~~ DOLLAR lies over the ocean =)))

1:13 AM

Saturday, September 16, 2006

I woke up to find a pale swollen face staring at me in the mirror. My mum said i'm having fever. How come she knows better than me? =P

I look like i gained 10kg now -_-

One week holiday's over. Days without school, how nice =P
no early mornings
no stuffing stuff into bag just to rush out
no worrying that the train will go slower than usual
no cabbing to school(which cost a bomb)
no praying hard that teacher is a lil later than me
no "lower hipbone", "pull up from your hip flexors", "eyeline up"
no running to bag for a sip of water
no waterfalls of sweat
no floor barre
no contraction
no spiral
no "twinkle twinkle little stars"
no semiotics
no roman and greek theatre
no watermelon and green tea
no chatting sessions at M

Okay, i'm missing school already.

One week break, doesnt seem much like a break though, cos it's still dance everyday~~but i get to sleep more, so i'm not complaining anymore =)))

Well, just some random stuff. Cos internet's kinda boring in the morning. I just feel like bloggin about my swollen face, that's all =P Gin's class later =))) lookin forward.

Puii-

11:23 AM

Ryan's class is so like my school classes. Did tendue and glisses stuff.

As Theresa said, i danced with ms swan eyes -_- I'll open my eyes WIDE OPEN next time while doin across the floor =)

And the normal stretching and physical training body conditioning stuff =P Torturous as ever. Well, as times goes by guess we're all getting stronger. We can still jump around like monkeys after his class =P

Weak ankles.
Weak knees.
Weak abs.

Lots more stuff to work on. Gambatte!!

Oh man, can you believe it? Project O's exams' in one week plus time. Hints that Ryan and all dropped. The madness crunches, tendue and glisses, pirouettes, chaines, etc will be tested. AH! Stressed to the core.

*prayin hard* let us all pass this exam =)

Bible quiz~~~ today's one is alot more chim. You certainly cant find those answers in the kids bible =P

Cellgroup was good. Sermon's almost same as last saturday's. Communication is the key of life, and in this case, the key to your marriage.

After that was practical~ Ha! We were paired up and handed a slip of paper with some stuff to talk about. Paired with my fav plankton =))) Had great fun chatting with her. Hee~ *loves loads*

In life it's always like work work work, busy busy busy. We hardly set time aside to sit down and chat. Nice time to catch things up with my plankton =) Though i see her almost everyday, but it's just dance dance dance. Oooh how i miss being noisy. =P




As the deer panted for the water
So my soul longs after You
You alone are my heart's desire
And I long to worship You

You alone are my strength
My shield
To You alone may my spirit yield

You alone are my heart's desire
And I long to worship You

Puii- what can this world offer? When all i desire is You.

2:09 AM

Friday, September 15, 2006

HAPPIE BIRTHDAY CHEWIE HAMMIE~!! =)
Wish ya a wonderous and fulfilling year ahead =)

Okie okie~~ now for some QUICK updates of the fun fun day before i head for bed, which i should have done long long ago, cos it's like almost 6 in th morning? =P Okay, before you start to nag. I'll go on =)))

Suppose to finally drag my feet to Sembawang to make my student ezlink card. They told me in the system i'm under both NYP and LaSalle, so had to call some hotline thingy to tell them to update dunno what stuff. -_-

Translink hotline is so cute. They got this on hold music, with this voice that says " You call is valuable to us. Please hold the call" Like trying to psycho us not to hang up -_-

Went meet em at PS. By the time i reached they've finished eating. Never mind, i got to eat my Subway~~ =) Italian B.M.T!!!


Thanks to sweetie Theresa, we reached way tooooooooo early for class. Ha~! Never mind, we still love you babe =) Had a crazy time chatting with em princesses and Ryan. Below is his message on the o-cafe notice board.
















It reads : Prosperity is not about having millions of dollars. It's the ability ot bless and give!!!
GIVE ME YOUR MONEY!!!
oldman!=)

Hahahha, that was pure spasm. We laughed like mad at his dope jokes and all. He's a solid pack of entertainment please. I mean, he's funnie to the core.

Carol's class nice today. I feel my legs shaking like volcano after warm up. Her choreo is, as usual, SUPER NICE~

The empress was super princess today. Ask the project o people about the washing leg thing. Think they'll know. HA~!

Celebrated Chewie's bdae!!! =) Though she just finished crying and stuff, but yea..HAMMIE~! We all love you =))) Happie 18th *grins*

Thanks Theresa for reminding me the WHOLE DAY i still cant go club, still cant watch M18, etc etc. Never mind, i'll treat it as the jealous complains of an OLD lady =))) Hee~~

Revelation : All of project o are afraid of cockroaches. YES ALL.

Puii- It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.



****Love never fails.

2:25 AM

Thursday, September 14, 2006

Changed blogskin, as you would have notice. Looks nice =) But the html thingys are so messy and all..i spent like a million hours to add in all the stuff..

Other than that, my yesterday was spent in lala land. Was watching tv when i fell asleep in some point. When i finally did wake up, okie i was half awake. My legs was totally numb as in it was like rubber? So i practically fall to the ground the moment i tried to get up. And know what? I fell asleep on the floor, till my mum comes home =P

Guess it's the med i ate that totally knocked me out. From time to time i woke up a lil and was trying to get up cos i'm suppose to be out of house for Ee Ching's class at night. But i always didnt have enough time for me to get up, yes, back to lala land i went.

By the time i did pull myself up, i almost ran out of house cos i thought i'm gonna be so so so so late. (I slept for hours by now) Thank God i looked at my phone first before i did anything else. Nikz' message saved me from a wasted nervous breakdown. Ha~

Ee Ching's class was cancelled. I got more time for my double pirouette =)

I was still lookin at my phone, and the next moment i knew, i woke up again. Some point in time i fell asleep AGAIN. And yes, i woke up, and fell asleep, and woke up, and fell asleep. The cycle continued till my sis called from downstairs to ask me what i wanna eat. Ha~ Was dragged out of bed by her to swallow the dinner she bought. It was 10 plus at night. 0_0

After dinner was a sleep till dawn. Actually i slept till 10 plus. So yea, i slept like a pig yesterday. Well, i would call that a long-awaited rest. =)

Feeling quite lazy these few days. A long sleep did help =) I'm ready to dance somemore!! =)

Puii-

11:46 AM

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

Went school yesterday. Had performance prac~ was stuffed with choreos and routines and countings..i did well by not confusing myself =)))

The dance's pretty nice actually..though first look at it, you'll feel it's weird. We needa walk with our feets on the ground. Nice~ =P Cal and Theresa say look like nutcracker, Ger say look like geisha. hahah!

Got ballet evaluation after that. Was pretty okie actually. Elizabeth said i have good facilities for ballet, but dun have the strength to use em. So just have to train up the muscles and stuff. =P

Next week ALL our results' are gonna be pasted on the NOTICEBOARD! *stressed*

Went SMU prac again. Had crazy time with Chewie. David say we can film the "Crazy Korean Girls" version two. Thanks rabbit goose, that's so nice of ya. You're a nice lady.

So jealous!! Alot of them can do double pirouette!! Ha~ i can do it last time though. Now cant le..dunno why.

fear= no faith= no vision = will not happen=)

Okie...i shall have faith. Pray and prac.

Watched little man with em proj o peeps and xyz's frens. Hilarious show that made us laughed like mad. Know what? MS SWAN'S IN THE MOVIE!! As in the real person. She's so so totally normal please. I cant imagine how she do the Ms Swan thingy. And yes, they said i acted in the movie. -_- (cos they call me ms swan)

Load pics and vid at multiply. To see the episodes of "the silliest things" bt Project O and the nutcracker-cum-geisha dance, proceed to http://puilovejesus.multiply.com

Ha~

Puii-

12:51 PM

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

Went see doc. Got throat infection. -_- He said it's worse than the other time. Well, i felt worse the other time though. =P Got med and stuff..wasnt as ex as i thought. Ha. Got MC and stuff. Yea.

Went down Dhoby Ghaut. Wanted to give a skip to the filming thingy with Dewei, cos wasnt feeling all that well. But couldnt, yea so went anyways.

Saw my proj o princesses at SMU~ didnt feel like dancing, but they got me goin somehow. Got up and danced a lil =) Nice nice, dancin with em people =)

Jen and Ger came so late la~ hahaha..*complain complain* Dewei and gang reached before them la! Hhaha..

Well, the filming thingy is for their project, so we'll be seen by his lecturers. Said if were good might even go on TV mobile. Hope it's not that good =P *opps* =X

Well i dun think so la.. =P

Anyway its a film about dancing stuff..so was suppose to intro and answer those questions they shoot loh..how long you've been dancing, what's your inspiration to dance, what you've got to say to those who just started. Had a nonsense time please. We were quite stiff beginning, wasnt real comfy in front of the cam. After that our rara self came in and we had a crazy time doin nonsense stuff. Ha~ if i can get the vid will show you all =) *that is IF i get it*

By the time it's finished it's like 10 plus la~ Got a free drink though. Ha~ always be glad to help ma..hope they do well for their project =)))

Alone in my room today. Sis' out for cg chalet. Ha~ i get to use com all night =) But well, i rather have my piggy =)


Lovely are Your dwelling places
Thirsty I come after You

Jesus my joy
My reward
Your love's restoring my soul

Now I'm Yours and You are mine
And from my heart a song will rise

I love You I love You I love You
I love You I love You I love You
I love You I love You I love You
And my heart will follow wholly after You

Jesus there is none beside You
Righteous Ruler of the earth

Nations will come and bow down
Name over all names
I sing You praises
And all that I can say to You is

I love You I love You I love You
I love You I love You I love You
I love You I love You I love You
And my heart will follow wholly after You

Puii-

1:11 AM

Monday, September 11, 2006

zzz.

suppose to go school for makeup lesson. wasnt feelin all that well so didnt go. but later still NEEDA go out. hai~ can i stay home?

zzz.

i wanna sleep whole day.
i'm hungry.
i watch phantom of the opera for the whole day. rewatching and rewatching i mean. =P

zzz.

Puii-

4:06 PM

Congrats to Danial and O Crew @ the Overdrive!! =) Nice dance there on stage yea? Burn da floor!! =)

Went support em @ Esplanade yst. We all wore O School shirt la! =) Look like some gang goin for fight. HA! but it's so cool la. =)

Ha~ we look so cool man =)

XueHui, Carol and Gin! Hot ladiez =)

Daniel da locker, Ha~

Saw loads more other groups. Some are v nice, some are...=P

Had a great time seeing all the diff teams dance, also alot of pointers the judges gave. Saw alot of diff stuff. Quite an eye opener i should say. Well, it's not everyday you get to see so many groups performing and all. Nice =)

Yea~ both Daniel's solo and O Crew got into quater finals. So happie for them =)

Sas~~~ (those who went will know what i'm talkin abt) HAHAHHAHAH!!!

Puii- *lazy to blog*

10:17 AM

Saturday, September 09, 2006

8th September 2006~~

Today is official crying day. I cried like mad today. Thank God my eyes isnt swollen or anythin =)))

Well, trace the story back to thursday. Didnt attend class, just sat through. I'm so glad i did, cos Ricky was in such a BAD BAD mood. He was scolding whole day. Made a few girls cry and stuff. he was like, real strict with a capital S. We were all wondering what's wrong with him and stuff. It was so not like him to be so...weird. Well, he's been this strict before, but that day was just different.

He went up for meeting during performance prac. When he came down, he sat with me and Alison and started mumbling he had a bad meeting just now. Then some more mumbles, then he said HE IS LEAVING, then he walked off.

Yes. I looked blankly at Alison. She did too. What does LEAVING mean?

We werent to ask. Cos we'll be told about what's happening only tomolo. (which is today)

Cut the long story short.Our dance dep. head is leaving LaSalle and a certain guy "P" is taking over.

Alot of the seniors cried like mad.

Well, i didnt realli feel much, cos a lesson a week with the dance head aint gonna cos tears in my eyes. Though he plays a lil part in me gg LaSalle, but still..yea you get the point.

In the end, my teacher said they aint crying becos the dance head is leaving, but becos P is becoming the head. You know what? I seriously think that guy's got a childishness problem. I mean, hello? you're an adult? Stop doin childish things like biting the hand that feeds you and back stabbing stuff.

I mean, it was a tough battle between childishness and maturity.

We went for class after that. Know what our teacher tell us? "Oh not only the dance head is leaving..i'm leaving too." So that's what he meant, that he'll be leaving us too. In a state of shock, almost the whole class cried. Not just because they leaving, but they're leaving us with this "P" guy. From what i heard, this guy's childishness is just limitless. I mean, so so insecure, always trying to impress the whole world, pushing himself up the ladder, and if it means dragging others down, he wouldnt mind. A guy that practice VERY severe favouritism. He teaches the students to jump around like monkeys and keep saying "Good!! Good!!"

No wonder the seniors cried.

Well, it might seem like no big deal to others, but it's like the whole dance department's gonna be in the hands of a childish person? What's gonna happen to us all with all the good teachers leaving? I mean, will we end up graduating from LaSalle being jumping monkeys? You know, the feeling of helplessness of hopelessness sets in for that moment. It's like, our future in LaSalle is so uncertain now. We're all thrown on a boat with a destination we know not of. One and a half hour's lesson we spent crying. Lost, between the fight of adults. Lost, in a world we're so new to. We're like babies in dance school, just starting to learn everything. Now it's like we're abandoned.

Wont you feel lost too?

Some of my classmates talk about going NAFA or overseas. But i seriously dont know what to do. It was at this moment a sentence came into my mind.

"What to do when you dont know what to do?"
Pst Kong's preaching came like rushing water. His faithfulness to those who love Him. I need to start having a bigger faith. I needa trust in His love.

In the midst of tears and hopelessness, i trust in You.


Think i cant hide much with my face. The moment i saw Cal and Chew they asked me " Are you okay?" So i looked very not okay. Ha! Result of crying too much i guess. Are my eyes swollen?! Hope not =P

Ryan wasnt free to have class. Carol took class instead. Did alot of plie, releve, forced arch stuff. My toes and ankles are hurting like mad way before we got through the exercise. Well, i'll call that gei kiang, but yea, i so wan to train my ankle, cos it's so weak i cant even stand on releve without wobbling.

Partly due to a emo day in school, i feel as if the devil came right beside my ear and challenging me. While doin all the exercise, i suddenly feel like crying. There's this irritating voice telling me i cant do it. That I cant dance afterall. This path is too hard. I should turn back. Why should i endure all this pain and stuff. I shouldnt have danced in the first place.

I so so felt like crying. But i pushed the thought away. I decided to listen to God's voice instead. Pushing on the exercise, pushing the tears back, i wanna dance for God.

Cellgroup was so so so so so good. Bro Kenny said it's gonna be a long sermon, so we got a chair with a table =) Sermon was about the same as last week's service sermon. But was so so good. Bro Kenny shared alot about his family and stuff.

God is Abba Father to the fatherless.

It so so struck me. it's not like i've got no father or anythin..but it's the love of the Father. I cried like mad. God brought me to that place again, as He did in service last week. I came back to this door, with this chair, sitting there crying. He brought me back to tell me:

even if the whole world dun wan you, even if your parents reject you and ignore you, I wont abandon you, I wont leave you.

O Lord Your tenderness
Melting all my bitterness
O Lord I receive Your love
O Lord Your loveliness
Changing my unworthiness
O Lord I receive Your love

Bro Kenny prayed for us. A key came from heaven, and opened the dam again. I cried like a baby. Was so so so so touched by His love. Perfect love, faithful love, everlasting love, unconditional love, Father's love. Thank You Jesus. Thank You Abba.

Cellgroup aint just the place we have fun together. It's a time of life sharing. Thanks Carol for that lil chat. I feel so much better saying it out. =)))


He is your greatest Audience.

Puii-

2:57 AM

Thursday, September 07, 2006

I need leg insurance.

Mayb i force it too much. My legs are kinda starting to fail me. Knees are starting to hurt. Ankles are so so wobbly i cant even balance on one leg. Muscle are aching like nobody's business. What's more? They keep saying i'm using the wrong muscles. -_-

My legs are so so so so tired. I dun feel like standing, i dun feel like walking. No i dun wanna move them at all. But yet i wanna dance. I wanna do some ballet, contemp, hip hop, street jazz. Legs!!!! Be well soon, so i can dance without restrain.

You know, i feel i dance real lousy these few days? Like, mayb partly cos i didnt get enough sleep or somethin, but i realli danced lousy. Well, must be due to my legs i guess. Today was a clear example. Or i should say a clear confirmation that my legs are realli giving me trouble..

Did some pas de bourre stuff and did a piroutte. I could do right pirouette super nicely. Like no sweat~~ i can still balance for quite long before landing. It was the nicest pirouette i ever done please. So i thought, today is the day man! i finally got that "feel" back kinda stuff? Ha! Till i did the left side, it was a total BUANG man. I cant even stand straight on releve left leg, much less turning.

What ended me up this way? My hurting left ankle. I got weak ankles to start with, so it's real straining holding in releve. Think i tried too hard and strained the joint or something. It's hurting even when i'm doin nothing to it. Argh!

My knee, i've got no idea. It just started hurting.

Muscles. Always aching fullstop. It's a dun-needa-be-asked question. I have muscle aches everyday~!

I feel so tired everywhere it's like no amount of sleep will help. My brain tried to help though. It was kind enough to tell my stomach to stay hungry so i'll eat more to have some energy. Well, didnt realli help much but, thanks anyway brain. I ate alot, THANKS to you. I think i gained back all that i've danced off these two weeks la!

*You're my feet when i cant move on*


So so so wanna keep on dancing and dancing. My legs are stopping me. I dun wanna sit through class. I wanna do Graham technic. I wanna do contractions and spiral. I wanna do tendues. I wanna do glissades. I wanna do jetes. I wanna do performance prac. I wanna dance with the barre. I wanna do all the weird weird choreos. I wanna do the twist head shake leg thing. I wanna do the fifa kick. I wanna do the crawling "the ring".

Ignore me. I'm just blabbering. Think tiredness drives me nuts. I should head for bed. I should rest whenever i can.

I should I should. If only I could.

Puii- *prayin for painless knees and ankles*

1:08 AM

Sunday, September 03, 2006

*i wanna be a tree in Your garden*

Many are the struggles in life. We're all trying to grow up, learning to survive. Ain't there just times you feel life is just so difficult? Yet Jesus prayed that we'll not be taken from the world. The battle between maturity and childishness, we've all been through. A descision, a choice, a step that will take us further down either side of the crossroad. It's not easy walking this path in life.

We're just like seeds, trying to grow out of the layer of soil above, struggling to breakthrough. Yet when we break through above the soil, we may not grow just as well as we thought(as in, if we were plants) Lack of sunlight, danger of being eaten, etc...it's not easy trying to grow.

*i wanna be a tree in Your garden*

Jesus prayed that we'll not be taken from the world, but that we'll be delivered from the evil one. Under His wings, we grow. His leading, we follow. I wanna walk the path He set. I wanna grow the way He want.

I wanna be a tree in God's garden. A big beautiful tree. Not a weed, that will harm that which God has planted, that'll spoil that which He made. Not grass, that's weak and deemed useless by man, being trampled on the ground. Not even a flower, easily destroyed. I wanna be a sturdy tree in His garden, will roots that grows deep into His word, nourished by the flow from His river, branches reaching out to His love. Safe from the winds of adversity. I'll grow in His house.

*i wanna be a tree in Your garden*


Imagine me without You

As long as the stars shine down from heaven
And the rivers run into the sea
Till the end of time forever
You're the only love I'll need

In my life You're all that matters
In my eyes the only truth I see
When my hopes and dreams have shattered
You're the one that's there for me

When I found You i was blessed
And I will never leave You, I need You

Imagine me without You
I'd be lost and so confused
I wouldn't last a day, I'd be afriad
Without You there to see me through

Imagine me without You
Lord, You know it's just impossible
Because of You, it's all brand new
My life is now worthwhile
I can't imagine me without You

When You caught me I was falling
Your love lifted me back on my feet
It was like You heard me calling
And You rush to set me free

i can't imagine me without You*****

10:18 PM

Saturday, September 02, 2006

Ricky Sim scolded us all like mad today..think he did it on purpose..lil stuff also scream..we're all so so STRESSED up, no one was smiling at the end of the lesson. So girls were driven to tears. Oh man, he was so so fierce today.

But performance prac was okay..were suppose to dance with the Barre.
Came with a weird concept kinda stuff and put in all the choreo.
Tot we will have a hard time, but in 20 mins time we've already got 9 eights=)))

Got to see the other groups' choreo too. Some were on Barre too, some had the yoga mat thingy to dance with. It was so interesting lookin at all the different interpretation of a same item/object.
Well, that's the interesting part about modern and contemp dance, i feel =)

Ryan's physical training!! Mayb i'm not trying hard enough. Dun realli feel much by the end of the lesson..except my arms, due to the "praying pose"

I so should try harder. *hrmp!*

Had bible quiz before cellgroup. Girl vs guys. Nice eh? ha~ Had alot of interesting questions la, like whose the father of King David, how many children did Jacob have, name the twelve disciples, who is the first king of Israel...stuff lidat...was so fun can?! Hahahah~girl power!! We won hands down, 39 to 10 =))))


U.R.Y.
i live for You
all that i am
all that i do

my heart beats with You
and each day i wake
i think of You

You are why i sing
You are why i live
everything of me
i place at Your feet

You are why i love
You are why i give
everything of me
belongs to You

i live for You
You are my God
You are the truth

You're all that i need
my soul it longs
for more of You

This song is just spinning in my mind. I so wanna sing it out LOUD but i'll freak the whole world out so i shall just sing silently =P

It's bro kenny's birthday yesterday..so we celebrated for him just now..he told us his thinking about birthdays. He was saying, birthdays are the celebration of your birth, the celebration of your very existence. So if your existence have no significants, what's the point of celebration? So when we celebrated for him, it makes it more significant, cos he plays a part in our lives.

What a way to look at birthdays. It's not just cakes and presents. It's a celebration of your existence.

Photos' loaded, milo drank, yawning, aching everywhere...i better head for bed. Gin's class tomolo. Cmon, let do some isolations man~! =P

Project O peeps! If you all have the songs they use in class can load to the multiply site? =P ThankieS!

Puii-

12:46 AM

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with dreams, with dance
with love

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