the flesh and blood of love

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

that driver of bus 14 better feel lucky i wasnt wearing my specs in the morning. *GRRRR!!!!*

Was on my way to school. a lil later than yesterday BUT still kinda early. Reached Dhoby Ghaut around 8.15.

So every morning i had to cross that legenary road. Why? Cos it takes FOREVER to turn green. So whenever it's green, you'll see people literally DASHING to catch it, but it turns red again.

So that's what happened to me this morning. I just got up from the escalator when i saw that green light shining. Took off, as fast as my legs would carry me. And just then, i saw 14 at the bustop. AT THE BUSTOP! So i rrraaaannnnn all the way to the bustop and stopped right in front of the bus door, expecting it to kindly open and let me in.

Guess what? It didnt.

So i knocked on the door, like some trick or treat kids. And that uncle had to get on my nerves and WAVE ME AWAY, and DRIVE OFF!

CAN YOU BELIEVE MY RAGE AND ARGH!! THAT MOMENT?! I so so want to agree with what old penguin said in her blog. Bus service is not only bad but slow.

"WE PAY SO MUCH FOR THE BUS FARE AND YET THEY ARE SO SLOW?? AND THE FARE KEEP INCREASING!! WHAT IS THIS??"
-mabel

I mean it's totally ridiculous when you're suppose to be early, but end up being late just because the bus didnt come and you have to take cab to school, with all the peak hour and ERP charges.

And THAT BUS DRIVER is so blessed. I didnt had my specs on. if not he'll soon hear from me. and my complain letter *grrrrrr!*

I had to take the trouble to take bus 16 to Suntec to catch another bus. If i were to stay on and wait for 14, i might as well wait for sunset -_-.

The rest of the day was pretty fine, just another day~
Another boring day.

Okie, i just wanted to complain about that, ha! I shall go back to essay-rushing. Nites world!

Puii-

8:00 PM

Monday, October 30, 2006

Weekends passes WAY too fast!!

Thank God, my holidays are coming. But before that, i need a miracle. Miracle for my EXAM!! Haha~

They made it sound like a mission impossible to pass this assesment. -_- Heard from my classmate that our external examiner for ballet is from SDT 0_0

And yep, ballet's a worry. But still okay la. It's contemp i'm worried about. Ha! All the Martha Graham. All the HA HA HA and contractions. Driving me (and my lungs, legs, blah blah) crazy. Imagine, aching legs and pantin-like-mad after every lesson. Am i glad we're not gonna continue Martha Graham next year! Well, sorta glad.. sorta.. nevermind.

Was suppose to study last night for today's exam. Okay, QUIZ. But it's those end of sem thingys so, no diff la. Anyways. i didnt study much (as expected) cos there aint much to study. I'm done in like less than an hour?

But i cant realli get some stuff in. Those whatever whatever theatre. Dunno what pre-production, conception and a whole load more crap stuff. So you got the point. I didnt realli understood what the teacher was teachin. Ha~

Know what's so amazing? I was the fifth in class to finish the paper. Well, doesnt mean anything about the marks, but it's just amazing i can finish it so fast, despite my blurness in the subject.

One paper down, three more to go =))) (three only?) hahaha, make it four then. Performance analysis, Gamelan, Ballet and Contemp. All the way till holiday! =)

And THANK GOD for Andy(rhythm ensemble teacher)'s baby!!! I get to skip class and do my essay research =))

AND i got to go home early for a SUPER NICE meal =)))))))))))))

Nothing beats home-made food.

I need to go on a SERIOUS diet. So i saw how much i ate today. No wonder the digit on the weighin machine is changin -_-

Okie, i'll blame my muscles, which is getting bigger everyday. =))) It's all my muscles' fault. It's getting too big =)

And yes, eat lesser = save more money. =))) And that'll go to BF.
*BF = Building Fund

Ha~ i tricked chewie with that =))) She's like 'i tot what'

Muaha.

Oh no, i'm getting random. i better stop before i start typing "ya i think it's really okay."

Puii- saying NO to chocolates. *struggle* HA!

8:59 PM

Sunday, October 29, 2006

a stolen moment for myself to blog some stuff =) so suppose to be studying for tomolo's exam. But oh wells, today's too good to let it just pass like that. =)))

YES!! A good thing happened first thing in the morning. Finally, a cabless Sunday~!!!! I actually can wake up so early to give some of em rest morning calls. In the end, when i reach expo, only aaron reached -_-

Service was GREAT. Our church's got a new ministry, some orchestra thingys. and they played REAL GOOD. Some song by Handel. It was a wow =)))

Prosperity don't start in your bank balance. It starts with your FAITH balance.

BK Fish for brunch.

Prayer meeting was awesome. It's like knowing God, loving Him, all over again. We prayed, we cried, we knelt, we sang our heart out.

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Since cellgroup on friday, i've been seeing this forest in my mind. I was sorta flying through it i suppose, with rows and rows of trees passing by me at lightning speed. Suddenly, they caught fire, and i opened my eyes in wonder.

Kneeling there today, i finally knew why.

God spoke, "How many burning bushes do I need to get your attention?" It struck me deep, and as i sang again the chorus of "secret place", tears just flowed. It's as if God's calling me by name, calling me to draw nearer to Him. So i went nearer, the whole church. We worshipped as we havent for a long time. It truly felt like heaven back there at expo.

Just one touch from heaven.

Our first calling is unto Jesus. nothing is more important. i pray none of us gets distracted. what are we apart from Him. what can we do without Him? Let our hearts desire none but Him. and yes, i wanna love Him more and more each day =)))

On that altar, where dust and weeds are gathering, i came back. On my knees, i lay everything of me down once again. those things i've held on tight too. i took a deep breathe and put it all down.

i love God.
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After that was the Vivo city trip! =) Cal and Khye went missing even before we started shoppin. ha!! and thanks to all the princesses for the temptation they brought. first shop we went to was Candy Empire.

i was SOOOO tempted by the chocs there =(((( i ALMOST bought some. yea i said ALMOST. *grr*

followed the girls while they shopped. i was behind yawning half the time. HA! Theresa and all almost killed me =P

But that place is really HUGE la! Spent hours, only finished the first level. Ha~ went to that SUPER NICE rooftop too. Cal got emo and sat there silently. like what i did at esplanade the other time. ha! still say me that time. =P anyways, took loads of pics of em. like stalking them all la. haha~ not ALOT alot actually. but it's realli nice there =)))

Conclusion, Vivo city is a great place to shop, provided you like to shop. Will take quite some time to explore the whole place i guess. If i'm ever free and alone, i know where to go =))) Normal Orchard and Bugis is boring me out seriously.

Okie~!! i so should be studyin now. Wish me luck for tomolo's exam! Oh, cant wish me luck, must say BREAK A LEG!

(That was some nonsense stuff that's probably gonna be in my exam tmr)

Oh, one more thing. thanks CHEWIE for making me laugh like a mad women. lets kick it oschool!! =)

Puii- touched by the burning bushes.

11:23 PM

Saturday, October 28, 2006

Spent a whole day in bed. Wasnt feeling too good. As i wrote in the sms to theresa, i feel like i'm on a merry-go-round. Head was spinning spinning spinning. back to lala land to escape the stars and sparks in front of my eyes.

Missed Gin's class. Missed Ben's pasamalam of clothes. Ha~

And yep, one thing down from my wishlist. mum bought a WEIGHING MACHINE! hahahahahahah


That irritating vid Nikz showed me. I laughed like mad. HAHAH!

Jas 3:1-7 forest.

Puii- sardines for dinner. ha~

8:46 PM

Your eyes' gonna suffer, cos i havent been bloggin last few days.

Wednesday.
I got to see how good God is. No matter how unfair life seems, He's always there. Sometimes, people's life just seem so so so so wrong, right from the beginning. Yet, when you see it now, you know God's at work. It's wonderful.

Sometimes, we may feel life is unfair to us, what we're going through, things that have happened, it's all against us. We're like the poorest poor thing on planet earth.

Sometimes, we just feel like screaming : God!! Jesus!! Look at what the world has done to me!!!

Wanna know Jesus' reply?

"Just look at what I've done for you on the cross."

It sorta opened my eyes to see problems as opportunity to grow. Without challenges, we'll always stay as babies. In challenges we'll grow. It's all like a learning journey. In a process where everyone's trying to grow up to be the perfect person, we face lots of difficulties. why? Cos we're imperfect people.

It's really all in our mind. That's why the Bible says : "And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God."(Rom 12:2) And we all want to do the perfect will of God. So when facing problems, what should we do? As what Jesus would have done. Renew your mind.

Problems are inevitable. However, our ATTITUDE towards the problem... are we gonna face it with a negative mindset? When we're sad, we just close up. When we're angry, we just blast out. As pastor Ming said, "if you're gonna do what you've always done, then you'll be where you've always been." So today, if you wanna move up to a higher level. Change the things that you do. Do what Christ will do if He was in your shoes.

In all things, "be imitators of God"(Eph 5:1). Do as Jesus would. Our aim is Christ-likeness.

Thursday.
Very tired day. Very sickly day.

Woke up from a nightmare, with giant insects invading earth or some stuff lidat. In the bathroom scene, i had to use my mighty water spray to exterminate them. The wall was somehow filled with some white flowers thingy (probably daisy or stuff), with gross insects (bees and cockroaches and stuffs as gross) flying ALL OVER. So the ridiculous dream left me almost sleepless. It was like watching a whole night of movie. Might as well not sleep -_-

School was bad. Scolding from morning to evening. Well, performance prac aint that bad, just that the other girl with the same part as me in the other group didnt come. So i danced nonstop, for BOTH groups. Yea my head got giddier and giddier. If not for June's water, i would have felt worse. So, THANKS SWEET!! =)

Didnt dance @ Oschool in the end. Was feeling kinda terrible before class, so tried to catch a wink before class. Carol saw my half dead face and told me to sit through class. So when i'm bored, my phone takes over. Pics and vids of proj o taken =))) *heeheehee~*

Ate med. But it kinda worsen after class. Got a headache. Result of laughing at Kenneth and his GOOOOLLDDDilocks HAHA!!

I was tired to the extend i overshot on the train AGAIN! Alighted at Marsiling to take train back to woodlands. Thank God i didnt wake up at Jurong East or something. Hur!

after that was ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz......

Friday.

I hate it when things turn political. My class was suddenly split into two. Actually, its the four of us, and the rest of them. We don't really know when it started, but....it seem like the whole world just started to ignore us. Like totally? A sudden split. It scared me. Wednesday, we were still chatting together happily. thursday, they had wipe that smile off. just. like that.

In between us a thick thick wall. One silent room, with four silent soldiers, holding their positions, hoping for someone to tell us what to do. Of course, four plus the few "leftouts".

The other room. a noisy one. a room full of giggles and laughter. the room we all used to be in. we all used to chat and play together. we all used to laugh together.. now a wall separates us. their laughter came over as a sneer. it was like a palm in iour face. it hurts to see how people just change faces so fast.

We can walk pass each other like strangers. Imagine.

Four lonely soldiers. *sigh*


All the back-stabbing. All the turning-ugly.
Must the dance world be such a political one?


I pray, proj o shall have NO POLITICS. we are one. one with Jesus. we're the gate of heaven, diff from the world.


got to chat with ryan over brunch. "never do a piece of dance where nobody knows what you're doing"
it totally broke that mindset i had about contemp dance. it's like society forced a "fact" into my brain that contemp dance is SUPPOSED to be abstract and cannot-be-understood. We should never be restrained under the "reality" the world has set. For in cellgroup, bro Kenny spoke of open heaven. That when we're walking under open heaven, our source is not the world, our source is from above, unlimited power, unlimited possibilities.

Contemp should be a display of both technic and a message. Not just some rubbish trashing around. There's no such thing that contemp should be self-interpreted. It should tell something.

I was like WOW. I havent seen contemp in this manner. For so long i've fed on what the world offers. But, then again, no one spoke on this to me before. Now i've heard, i'll remember

If you're not good in technic, no one's gonna want you.
If you're gonna do stuff nobody understand, nobody's gonna want you either, cos nobody can relate to whatever you're trying to do.

Wow. Thanks RYAN! =) You're more than a dance teacher.

Physical trainin (Okay...BODY CONDITIONING) was led by Carol, cos Ryan hurt his back bad. My sweat left it's evidence all around the floor by the end of floor exercises. Yes gross. =P Pink sweat. Ewwwww~

Cellgroup was SIMPLY AWESOME. Theresa, Aaron and Tian wan just gets better. Now, no sore throat and dropped picks can stop them =)) Coool la~ hee!

Games was interesting. Bro Kenny calls it "Bible Hollywood" Ha~ we're suppose to act scenes from the Bible, and the rest of the group's suppose to guess. The first question, and we died. What's the scene? Daniel intepretating Nebuchanezzar's dream. -_- HOW TO ACT?! Hhaahha~

And i got my Bible facts wrong. I shouted very loudly " Abel killed Cain!!"
Bro Kenny said "Correct."
Sis Andrea came up and say "is Cain killed Abel, not Abel killed Cain"

HAHA! What a silly mistake. =P In that super ganjiong moment.

Building a life of glory. Keeping heaven open over us. We are the gate of heaven. Wow. I was so so blessed =)

5 things that closes heaven over you :
1. Pride
2. Spiritual Complacency
3. Ignoring the poor
4. Habitual, deliberate sinning
5. Not tithing and giving

And when heaven is opened :
1. We get dreams and visions
2. Holy Siprit can move freely among us
3. God's power will be there to heal
4. Righteousness fills the land
5. Financial blessing will come readily to us

Saturday morning.
Spent whole night loadin pics to multiply. By 4 plus in the morning, i've fallen aslp in front of the com. So i went lie a lil. But i havent even lie properly, and i've already fallen asleep. Got up around 6 to find myself having a sore sore back. and to find Sinman getting ready for woke. (mayb a lil later than 6. ha~) i bet i looked ridiculous. my legs was still on the staircase and i'm lying on my bed. well, if you can imagine. =P

So i didnt have a good rest in the end. Kept waking up through my not-so-good sleep. woke up at 7, 8 and 9. Tried my best best best to sleep back. i gave up at 10 am. i got outta bed. Like i slept only how long la?! hahahah..and i got up, continueing my bloggin and loadin of pics. yes~ i haven finish it despite workin on it all night. -_-

Anyways, i just wanna type another song before fulfilling my tummy with mum-made sandwiches =)))

now is the time
when heaven blends
with earthly saints

the world resounds
as angels sing
our God reigns

i give my all to You
i give my all to You

from heaven's throne
Your river flows
to this land

and on this rock
foundations lay
here we stand

i give my all to You
i give my all to You

pouring out this treasure You gave
in Your promises our hearts turn brave
i will arise and lay down this sacrifice
as we're building Your house on high

Arise, and build.

Puii- milo.

10:10 AM

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

a day out with piggy =)))

she said to wear nice nice out today. haha, so we did. spent our day around bugis area. shopped around and stuff. reached home with a crop jacket, earring, a beads thingy, neoprints, a mouse (for com), and aching legs.


ready to go~ (almost)



emo pics @ bugis pastamania..












a random pic somewhere. =P



finally we got neoprints =)))



my first neoprint in a million years.



those "so not me" earrings.



that nice jacket from Chris' shop



so was our day out. fun day.

what's best? its a holiday. tomolo's back to tendues and flat back. gamelan not to forget. i cant wait for tmr's class to finish..

so i can go library. and find my proj o peeps =)))

Puii-

9:29 PM

Monday, October 23, 2006

a day spent with myself. perharps just another of those low low days where you totally dun feel like dancing at all? i tried dancin at home, ended up feelin worse -_-

though this i learned something :

dance to express. not impress.

i just feel like i aint enjoying dancing no more. dancing now always have a motive behind now. to train, to prac, to improve, to be seen. it aint like last time, where dancing is just to be enjoyed. music on, dance come. now it's like....

dancing, knowing someone is watching. *shake head*

dance to express. not impress. guess it's a word for me.
BURIEDindance. aint all that good i guess.

i wanna love dancing all over again =)))


babes that got me started.


and they taught me what determination is.


lovin' dance. lovin' dancin' for God


spent my day in esplanade library. flipped the place over for hip hop books. tough job man. found some kinda no use books. alot on hip hop music (rap and all) ,none on dance -_-

just a lil on breaking

In the 1970s, Hip hop dancing started in the form of break-dancing, also known as breaking or b-boying. Break-dancing is said to be an exquisite, heady blend of dancing, acrobatic and martial spectacle.

It is a ritual combat that transmutes aggression into art. Somethings, rival street gangs held breakdance battles to settle scores.

Each segment in breaking is short, from ten to thirty seconds - but packed with actions and meaning. It follows a specific format :
1. the entry : a stylized walk into the ring for four or five beats to the music
2. the footwork : a rapid, circular scan of the fllor by sneakered feet while the hands support the body weight and the head and torso revolve slowly - a kind of syncopated pirouette.
3. the freeze : or stylized signature pose. usually preceded by a spin.
4. the exit : a return to verticality and to the outside of the circle.

Suddenly, i feel like i know alot about breaking (which i dont).

Some definations of dance technics from books i found :

Locking : a 'move and then freeze' action. it was based on the way that robots in science fiction films moved. this way of dancing gives the dancer a mechanical look. (????????? *shrug shoulder*)

Popping : similar to locking, but is made up of a series of set poses linked by swift movements. it is also called 'electic boogaloo'.

Moonwalking : this step makes you appear to be travelling across the floor on a moving walkway.

Ha~ i borrowed some funnie books.

*praying* Lord, help me start and finish my essay soon. lest i be tortured by reading all these weird craps. HAHA! =P


there need to be more hip hop books around. SERIOUSLY.




this is SO FUNNIE please!!! i laughed till beng la!! thanks to RABBIT GOOSE! =))) wahahaahahaha me and sinman lol like dunno what =P


walked around with parents after dinner. bought a block of cheese and sardine. haha~ westerised supper. is this considered post-colonialism? =P Oh no, performance analysis' gotten into my head. ha!

love CHEESE! =)

Puii- thanking God for the holiday.

10:52 PM

Sunday, October 22, 2006

my entry yesterday got eaten up by bloggers. think they skipped lunch or something. -_- mayb they fasted. hahaha~ =P

lazy to type out what i wrote yst. dun realli rem anyways. =P and yup, i re-dyed my hair =))) RED highlights. love it. =)

cut my hair too. my head pretty much like a round thingy now. CUTE round thingy. HAHAHAHAH!! =P

Okie THAT WAS A JOKE. =P

service is (as always) great. Daniel's on the announcement!!!! hahah, we screamed =P OVERDRIVE CHAMP!! =)))

Sermon was wow. (though i fell asleep, and theresa, chewie and calynne laughed at me -_-)

Stop separateing the spiritual from the secular. For it is often in the world, in our daily mundane life, that we find our purpose and destiny in life. Trying to keep the church far from the world will not help, we should be a church without walls, penetrating the marketplace, bringing Kristos Kai Kosmos =)))

it's not about building buildings. it's about building lives.

saw all my princesses' COLOURFUL hair~~ =))) nice nice nice!!

tampinese ljs for lunch.

shopped around. saw pretty necklace and rings =( *building fund building fund*

went back woodlands. stood like a nerd in front of one of the shelves for around an hour. buried myself in dance books. had a hard time trying to understand half of it. and yes, i realise an URGENT SHORTAGE of books on hip hop culture. wont someone just write some soon? =P

Borrowed two relevant books. two comic =P and you'll never guess what comic i borrowed.

return of the condor heroes (shen diao xia lu)
=)))

Emerge DVD collected. very dissapointed with attribute la!! cos dun have talentime clips inside. only got those who performed during service. got JP, audictives , febrinna and abel sim =) But cant get to see ghetto dance. i'm =(

But am glad i got hold of the sermons =)

FAITH is HEARING and DOING.


Puii- just one touch. from heaven.

7:07 PM

Saturday, October 21, 2006

dragged my feet through pass few days. so dead tired man. dun even have strength to com online. well, just physically tired and drained. these few days are one of the happier ones lately =)))

One thing is i laughed simply TOO MUCH =P Especially today. Laughing at that ancient joke of the movie I Not Stupid. I'm still amused by the fact that i can memorise the movie =))) Hee.

And yes, a praise report coming from project o team. WE ALL PASSED OUR EXAM!!! =) Praise God for all blessings He has poured upon us project o. We're indeed blessed to be chosen. We'll work hard for His glory. Project O will FINISH the race!! =)

and i finally got to know why my legs are having all da probs. I got slight alignment prob while jumping, cos i never use inner thigh, and I GOT LONG-SHORT LEGS, which after my 17 years of living on earth havin no idea about that at all. So all i gotta do is train to use my inner thigh and to learn to stand with my one long one short legs -_-. That's what the physio said la. She called us go to the pool and train too, cos in the water we only have to hold 50% of our weigh....blah blah blah.... yep. she's kinda naggy =P But she's pretty good (i guess). Ha~

i love You sweet Jesus

gone are the days of trying to live life on my own.
admit, i need God more and more.
i'm singing more songs everyday. i'm glad. =)

loveGOD.
Puii-

1:26 AM

Thursday, October 19, 2006

reached home wanting to write a super depressing blog. imperfect brain thinks imperfect thought. and when i'm alone i tend to thing ALOT. And that got me. i got realli sad and all by the time i reached woodlands.

i truly felt like i'm the most miserable and pathetic person in the world (which i totally am not)

the ways that sadness grabs hold of people. i just hate it.

it always tells me :
you aint good enough
you're tired, you cant go on
all this, for what?
you stuck in the middle of nowhere. you started, you cant quit.
you shouldnt have started in the first place.
what makes you think you can?
blah blah blah...just give it up.

negative.

i'm just glad i got a great big Daddy God. in that valley, His light shorn. i felt like a step away from losing that passion, when His song came and heal me. and yes, His touch is definately more comforting than chocolates.

Alleluia from Benny Hinn's tracks. I was drowned by His love. I was drowned in His light. I was reminded of the verse :
Psm 43 : 5
Why am I discouraged?
Why is my heart so sad?
I will put my hope in God!
I will praise him again—
my Savior and my God!

In all things, praise God.

*whisper that precious name*

I just feel so encouraged. It was like someone bringin me back to that lil girl in the past with the same name as me, on her knees, crying out to bring glory to God's name. Her one desire = Jesus.

I'd give up a lifetime of dancing to know Him as i'm known. To love Him as i'm loved. What's dance without God?

Nothing.

A run after You. A race to Your courts. I never wanna stop running. =)))


*take sadness up, crush it, throw it out of the window, into the haze*

Who can be sad with such a good God?

Kid's Prayer
*dear God
thank You for loving me,
and giving me Your all
when i grow up
i'll still be serving You
i want to know You more
i want to love You more
i'll never forget You Lord
in Jesus name
amen*

i want to know You Lord
You are a great big God
i'm young and do not know alot
come and be my all

i want to love You more
giving You my life and all
You died for me You sacrificed
i wont forget You Lord


i love You Jesus
i'll grow up knowing You
i love You Jesus
i'll grow up serving You

i love You Jesus
my life is saved by You
i'l never forget
never forget
i'll grow up loving You


my dad bought me another knee guard thingy that's suppose to be good for my knee injury that's pretty ex. not the value of the thingy that matters though, but he went through all the trouble to look for something that might help me. all the love i need. it all came in one shot. now i cant sleep, overdosed with care and concern and love =P


you know, it's like God knows i'm feeling down and tired out? He knows i'm depressed. He knows i'm having bad thoughts. But when His encouragement comes at the right time, you just know one thing. He cares, He loves. =))) With God, why would depression exist? God is the best Encourager and best Friend. With Him around, you just gotta know that all things will work together for good to those who love Him. =)))

you can be ignorant about all things. but God's love and faithfulness, this you MUST know.

When you dont know anything, He knows EVERYTHING.



Puii- in the ocean of His love.

12:17 AM

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

Monday~

Went school, totally dun feel like dancing. Cos i so so so wanna sleep. Hurhur =P

Ballet was okay. Kinda boring. Learnt some new stuff. Okie la, not that tough. =P

Suppose to have Ricky's class, but he aint free for class cos he's busy for the performance at night. Tot we got the day off. Heard there's relief -_-

Joey's suppose to relief us, (the teacher that "BACKSTAB" us) so we're like, "later dun smile ah, dun smile to her"

In the end, they made a mistake and we had a SUPER FIERCE and MEAN teacher for relief. But he dance real well la, so...haha. =P i almost slept in his class though =P

Finished lecture in 30 mins time. The guy say he finished tecahing already. -_-

Went home sleep~~~ =))) The whole class skipped rhythm ensemble today. wahahaha, Andy( the guy in charge) must be wondering where are all the dancers. =P

After a nap @ home, went Esplanade for Screams and Whispers. Never felt so stupid before, when i arrived outside the theatre studio, i realised I DIDNT BRING MY TICKET!!

I truly felt stupid. =P

They wanted to "hun" me in by bluffing our way into the theatre with a untorn ticket of another performance(which was already over, but Ann didnt go watch). I was kinda struggling with that, and wanted to leave already actually, cos like, if kena caught not so nice and all mah, but my frens just happily gave them that stack of tickets (with the other show one inside) and Keira screamed at me "Hey dun go toilet now la, go in first!!" So i was drawn back and went safely in for the performance. Had to play along and asked back "Oh, you all not waiting for Ivonn ah?" and act act while walking in. Felt so bad, but.. =P I went in already, the ticket's torn. Free seating so they wont be able to spot me. =P

"Scream and Whisper" is so so so nice. Am i so so glad i got to sneak in =P Three pieces of choreo, by ricky, jaime and paul (three lecturers in my sch). It was WOW.

Love Ricky's piece, expecially a part where it's depressing and all. I'm like so sadist. =P But it's nice =))

Jaime's piece is a film. I think cos he's not here anymore also, that's why the film thing. It was filmed in Changi Hospital. Yes that changi hospital. So the background's kinda eerie. But that dance is such a WOW. I mean, Jaime's a pure talent please. Simply captivating.

Paul's piece, i'm just fasinated by the disco ball thingy that came from nowhere. 've seen the choreo for dunno how many donkey times so..nothing special to me no more. =P

Tuesday~~

Woke up unwillingly, cos didnt get enough sleep. Studied the night before for the performance analysis crap. How to take the test when the teacher havent teached finish yet?!?! -_- Grr..

Anyways, class was usual. Got back our ballet evaluation thingy. Elizabeth say i improved =))) Wahahaha..my marks went up too. Hee~ so happie la. I mean, my ballet is realli from zero to now. So, yep, am glad am glad =))

Surprisingly i passed the test thingy that the teacher didnt teach finish. Got a lot of tikams correct that's why. Thank God i passed anyway =) I dun wanna fail any subject =P

Dinner/Shoppin trip with nice princesses. They're all my "chill pill with a small fries" (To know what i'm talking abt, watch Ms Swan at the Drive Thru)

I'm surprised my old aching legs are able to catch up to their shoppin pace. (Especially Cal and Theresa's, the two shoppin queens. Ha~) I felt like a bro man, standing outside the shop with the guys while the two of em are inside showing us shoes and bag. Ha~

I went necklace crazy.

And i suddenly realise how long it's been since i last ate cheese cake.

I need a break. Holiday come quick!! =) And yep, a short hol coming up next week. A super long weekend for me =))) Friday's half day. Monday and Tuesday's holiday. Long-awaited rest. Guess it'll be spent on acadamic writing -_-. Think i'll try writing on hip hop history.

Ha~ nice try girl, nice try. Any idea how hard it is?

Thanks, myself.

In the early 1970s, the unnamed culture known today as "hip-hop" was forming in New York City's ghettos.

Wow. Nice..

Nites world. Not sleeping immediately will result in another cabbing day. I shall turn my mind off hip hop history for the day =)))

Puii-

12:17 AM

Sunday, October 15, 2006

I shouldnt have wrote in my wishlist to have a cab-less week. Turned out that this week was the most cab-ful one. -_- Comfort and all are blessed with ppl like me around.

Anyways, woke up to a cabbin morning (AGAIN). So went to the road behind my block as usual la. Normally i cant spot any cabs, they will spot me from opposite, and will U-turn over. At this time, there'll surely be an empty cab that will come along, to snatch the biz of the U-turning cab. Normally i'll wait for the U-turning cab, cos they're already making an effort to come over my side and all. So i did this morning. History repeated. A cab was U-turning for me, another empty cab was approaching. I did what i always do, i waited for the cab behind. The uncle is so so funnie la. The moment i board the cab i was greeted with a VERY warm "MORNING" and he was like "Thank you for waiting for me hor girl." I'm like....okay~~~

What's more? Further down the road @ a traffic light, he took a pack of sweets and ask "Xiao Mei, you want sweet mah?(in chinese)"

Hurhur, dun wan.

Choir sound check was funnie. Lookin at theresa's blur face when she heard all those SUPER old songs was pure entertainment =)))

And she kept saying she's the trend setter. Duh~ =P HAha.

Praise and worship was WOW. Had guest worship leaders with us. It was awesome. We could have sang forever. Orh lor lor lor lor lor~

Sermon was good(as always). One thing that hit me.

"If money is evil, satan would have buried you in a pile of cash."

HAHAHAHA i laughed like mad.

Prayer meeting was quite a funnie time for me (though not suppose to be). Cos practically the WHOLE cellgroup was sleeping when Rev. Albert is sharing his word. I had a great time giggling at them and at pst's jokes. He's SO FUNNIE!!

eat eat eat and DIE
starve starve starve and DIE

ROFLOL!!!

The rest slept while sitting down. I slept when we stood up and pray. -_- i felt so bad =P

BK for Brunch, (at 4 plus 5 in the evening) First meal of the day. Didnt have time to eat. Ha.

The rest all wanted to go home. Went shopping trip with Theresa (shoppin queen).

So i witnessed her pro shoppin skills today. She left me going home with a pretty brown top(which she FORCED me to buy) and aching legs. HAHA! She shops like nobody's business please. Haha, nonsensical shoppin skills that i'll never have in a thousand years.

Haze left me with irritated eyes. I put half the blame on contact lens. Then again, i dun wanna wear my specs out. Ha~ =P

Wanted to go home and rest my poor legs. Shy penguin call me out go la teh a while. Went reluctantly. Wanted to eat. But ended up we didnt get to eat anything, cos either the store is closed or the uncle forget our order. ALL OF IT OKAY?!?!?! Grr.. went home hungry (okie, not realli hungry)

Before i retire to my bed, one thing to do.

Eat.

Puii-

10:57 PM

Spent monkey years to decide on what to wear to the tammy performance. Somethin not too formal/awkward to wear to cellgroup, and also not to underdress at Esplanade. Ha~ tough choice. I chose the safe way out. White top, jeans and heels. =)

Cellgroup was awesome (as always). Bro Kenny talked about purpose in life, how we're suppose to live life in view of eternity. Woahzer =) First time i wrote three pages for cellgroup notes. Ha~

Without a purpose, life is meaningless, useless. It seem tiresome, unfulfilling, insignificant and uncontrollable.

Always think from the point of eternity.
1. Get to know Jesus Christ
2. Use your time in view of eternity
3. Use your talent in view of eternity
4. Use your treasures in view of eternity

If you live to an age of 80, around 27 of your years are spent sleeping. (if you sleep 8 hours a day). So if all your time spent are classified, how will your time be allocated? Will you end up spending more time eating and watching tv instead of praying and reading? Ha~ food for thought.

Also, Daniel shared somethin so inspiring. That with the right attitude and character in everything that you do, you're sure to find success in it. That we should lean constantly on God's strength, and not depend on people. In times of need, the best thing to do : PRAY.


Went met up class girls (and guys) @ Esplanade. Found our way up to the theatre studio by following the sign board like some first-time-here tourist.

Transverse stage.

The dance was mainly in three parts. I love the first part. They were all i nred, with red lights, dancing some confusing and depressing stuff. I almost teared. But my classmates look all normal and stuff, it would seem pretty silly to be so emotional about the dance. Ha~

The back part of the dance was..well, kinda boring. I yawned at least twice. Cant realli relate though. Cos it's more like a LA lifestyle thingy (in the dance) So yea..but it's a nice choreo =)) Tammy's a wow.

My classmates dun eat like dancers too. like proj o, we eat like tons of food =P We can swallow the whole of makan sutra i think. =P

Service tomolo!!! =) Sinman say it is about God and money. So excited about it. Got choir tomolo too =))) I so so so should be sleeping by now. Gotta wake up at some monkey early hour.

Pretty lazy to blog lately realli. Much less to load pics. So you can see my multiply is like almost dead by now. Sorry for those waiting for pics (if any), will load when i find time to sort all the pics out. Hur =P

Holy Spirit
Thou art welcome in this place
Holy Spirit
Thou art welcome in this place

Omni Potent
Father of mercy and grace

Thou art welcome in this place

Puii- Holy Spirit.

1:15 AM

Saturday, October 14, 2006

DANIEL'S DA ROXOLOGY!!!! CHAMPION OF OVERDRIVE SOLO!!!! You're da man!! =)

Woohoo!!! So happie for him man. I screamed my lungs out realli. It was so so so so so so COOOOOL!!!! =) He totally flamed da floor at Esplanade concert hall la!! =)) *faint* GO DANIEL!!!

Sad though, that O Crew didnt win. But to me they're still da best =))) Love love O Crew!! To us you girls are the pro, da BOMB! You girls blew us away. You girls flamed the floor. We love O CREW!!! =)

Overdrive was so so WOAH!! Wade Robson's dancing is so so SICK la!!!!! I cant believe ppl can dance so well please. Eye opening time.

I'm bringing sexy back. YEAH!

It was DOPEST dope! =)

Puii-

2:20 AM

Friday, October 13, 2006

Never thought would come the day that i'll dance till i feel like crying. And yes, came that day yesterday. I tried too hard. I think too much. I'm far too sad and tired to do anything.

It's all in school. For a very very long time, yesterday was realli my all-out in class. My sweat was worse than a waterfall. I was panting like mad long before class was over. I ignored my knee when it's hurting. I ignored my shin too. I just wanted to pia through the lesson for once, without sitting at the side of the class halfway through. It was seriously seriously ALL-OUT.

A depressing word from the teacher's mouth, saying we're not trying hard enough. That we're lazy and slacking. That he aint seeing anything coming from us. When i'm trying the very very best that i can do. I ignored my muscle aches, i ignored all that, just to do the best for his class, yet...

End of the day he gave us a talking. Said he cant see that determination no more. Said we're losing it. Said we're getting from bad to worse. And alot more lousy stuff. We were like nothing. Nobody smile. We know we all tried very very hard. He just dont see it. I half suspect he's blind. Cos he cant see the agony on our face in his class? He's expecting imperfect humans to achieve perfection. He must be nuts.

We're only in school for two months plus la!

What's more? To be in a school where teachers will backstab you. Wow, what an eye-opener. To complain to others about our ATTITUDE in class, when we didnt show ANY attitiude to her. She's the pro man. And to think she's so sweet to us in class -_-.

Fake.

Finally had a few hours of breakaway from my emo day. Goin to oschool was a relief. No stress. No putting down. Another cutting word might push me off the cliff. I am that sad. Yes. That sad.

Ryan gave a surprise retest. Had 'class', with across the floors and alot more other stuff. End of the class he said 'okay, you all will hear of your technic results soon'

Well, i half expected that. So okie la.. i tried my best despite the hurting legs and all. To be honest i didnt feel a bit like dancing.

But oh well. Dancing with my fav peeps aint much the same like dancing in school.

I stoned my way home. Walked at 1m/hour or somethin. Took ages to reach home. Felt it was time to go see doc about my legs. So told dad about it. And he has to add a leg to it. Told me to quit school. Thanks, so kind of you.

Out of a kind heart i know. But i didnt feel that was very kind to make such a suggestion.

Dancing brought tears to my eyes. First time. I was so so down by the end of the day. I'm tired down to the bones and all.

Can i realli dance? i doubted. For a very long long time, i havent. But...

I told God. I want to dance for You. No matter how hard it is, i'll dance on for You. Words wont bring me down. I will rise with You above the storms. I'll dance on for You. I want to shine in school. If the teachers feel i'm not pushing myself enough, i'll put in more effort.

I'll dance till they see Christ is Lord.

You're the reason that i dance, with all i am.

I didnt take that step of faith into lasalle to bring myself down, to stop myself from dancing. No, to quit aint an option to me. I want to do my BEST for God.

Theresa, i want to tell you i love your blog. Cos it never fails to brighten up my day =))) As God has used those emails to cheer you up, i'm sure he has used your blog to cheer me up =)))

From Theresa's blog:
QUOTE OF THE DAY:
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate,
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
We asks ourselves, who am i to be brilliant, georgous, talented and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
And as we let our own light shine,
We unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
-Akeelah & the Bee


To encourage myself in this battle.

Puiman approaches the devil with a grand battement, step step step, double pirouette, step step step, Pas de Bourre, step step step, chaines~~. Krump to "Shake" until he drops to the floor. Pop him to the ground. Wave till he turns jelly. Do locking with shuang jie gun. Harlem shake with all the xiao li fei dao. Do a million grand battement to kick him up. Do floorwork to trip him. Win him at a crunches battle. Pranses around him and LAUGH OUT LOUD. Throw loads of ballet shoes and jazz shoes at him. Tie him up with the therabands. Scare him with the lateral T balance. PK turns to his face and give him a huge kick with attitude turn. Chaines a lil further, before turning back and doin a grand jete, landing right on his face. Shout super loudly a "roflol at joo!!" and do the victory dance with the "orh lor lor lor lor lor lor lor~

Okie that was LONG. =)))

Shut the devil away. I only wanna hear from God. =) God is good. God is so so good. He never leaves you at the bottom of the valley. He lifts us up =)))

into Your hands
i commit again
with all i am
for You, Lord

You hold my world
in the palm of Your hands
and i am Yours
forever

Jesus i believe in You
Jesus i belong to You
You're the reason that i live
the reason that i sing
with all i am

i'll walk with You
wherever You go
through tears and joy
i'll trust in You

and i will live
in all of Your ways
and Your promises
forever

i will worship
i will worship You


* [[ with all i am `

Puii- dancin on =)

2:07 PM

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Tot my knees got better. Haven had much pain for one or two weeks already. Gave me a fake sense of confidence i guess. Well, i didnt do anything much realli. Was having ballet class. All was well, SUDDENLY the pain came back. I was like "Oh no!" and went to take my knee guard. Wasnt much help anyway. By the end of class i had prob walkin. Of cos, i tried to hide. Ha~ either i'm pretty successful in hiding, or my classmates are just not observant. Oh well, save me some nagging =)))


Proj O princesses need a date out to see physio someday =)))


Had photoshoot @ Oschool =) Was told startin time is 5pm, and my Gamelan class end 530. So i rushed down by cab, to reach and see them still slacking and chatting around -_-. By the time we went in it was like 6 plus 7 la. But yea, i love those pic =))) Hope can get a hold of it. Hee =)

Ee Ching's class didnt make my leg worse though. i just cant do much in her class today. Cant walk properly, cant jump high, cant turn smoothly. I cant even hold my leg in passe. -_- Lousy legs. I so wanna change a pair.

Okie i'll stop my never-ending complains. I love my legs. I'll love it more if it aint injured and all =))


Hai~ lazy to blog realli. I'm so so so so tired. Right to the bone marrow man.. DARK CIRCLES BEGONE!! =)


I didnt know proj o princesses are SO SO SO scared of moths and cockroaches. Haha~ Aaron's face when he see that moth. Simply FUNNIE. =P Opps, sorry aw. Hee~ =P

Puii- zzz.

1:08 AM

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

Normal day. Ate Carl's Jr. Full to the brim =)))


Dug out my ancient lyrics file from somewhere. Saw so many many old songs that bring tears to my eyes. Oh how i love to sing =))) all the old old songs. It's just so different.

Sing (Your love)
It used to be darkness
Without You
I lived my life in blindness
But now I'm found

And I'll sing
Sing I love You so
And I'll sing
Because the world can't take away
Your love

Found me in weakness
Broken
You came to me in kindness
And now I live

I give my life for You Lord
For all You've done

All I need is You
Left my fear by the side of the road
Hear You speak, won't let go
Fall to my knees as I lift my hands to pray

Got every reason to be here again
Father's love that draws me in
All my eyes wanna see
Is a glimpse of You

All I need is You

All I need is You Lord
Is You Lord
All I need is You

All I need is You Lord
Is You Lord
All I need is You

One more day and it's not the same
Your Spirit calls my heart to sing
Drawn to the voice of my Saviour once again

Where would my soul be without Your Son
Gave His life to save the earth
Rest in the thought
That You're watching over me

All I need is You
All I need is You

You hold the universe
You hold everyone on earth
You hold the universe
You hold, You hold


Songs i super love~!!! Man if i'm to type ALL of it i'll probably spend forever. It's those songs that gets real deep down into you. Wow, you can never imagine the power of music and songs=) God's songs.

One more. =) To all my proj o peeps =) All da way for e sub paper!! =) hee~ This is one song we so so should sing!

I Will Go
I have found myself in You
the purpose for my life
I discover who I am
As Your spirit touches mine

Every step I take
Every move I make
You are by my side
And I will be strong
My strength is in You

Yes I will go
Where You want me to go
I will do what You want me to do
Yes I will go
Where You want me to go
I will be who You want me to be
Anything for You

When You ask me I will go
You show the way before me
In Your word I find the truth
You lead me on this jouney

Those who trust in you
Every praising You
Will find their strength renewed
They're gonna make it happen

I will trust in You
Never stop praising You
Will find my strength renewed
I'm gonna make it
Make it happen!!

Let it be our hearts' cry. Let us declare! =) We will GO all the way for God =)

Dance dance dance on.

Puii- totally in that singing mood. =)

10:36 PM

Million thankies to DN1A~!!! Sweetie them gave me a coolness jacket and sang me a SUPER LOUD bdae song in front of the whole school(or so it felt like). I'm so so PAISEH la~!!!!

After that there's some faces that i never saw before that came outta nowhere and asked "Today your bdea ah?"

Kinda freaked me out. Ha!


I sorta got a "revelation" today. Now i know where all the injuries come from. Think is the way i land from jumps. It just looks awkward. Think the shock aint released totally, due to bad landing, and sorta shocked my ankles, which affects the knee. Now my shin(front part of calf, the bony part) is hurting too after jumps. Prob identified, but dunno how to change it -_-

If only they sell spare legs.


Something i learn today : Lack of sleep drives you crazy. Explains my weird actions the WHOLE DAY. Ask my class, they'll tell you i'm super siao today in sch. HA! =P And of cos proj o @ smu. Forever crazy. We tried doin our own version of "Whinny dance". Chereographer = Theresa. =)))

Soon you'll see more of our stupid side. (to add on to what we already have. the SILLIEST THINGS episodes)


Dead tired. Dont feel like doin anything. I dun even wanna climb up bed to sleep. I just wanna stone. HA~ Ballet all over my brains now. Dunno why. All the Allegro and Adash(dunno how to spell) in my brain. Ballet shoes ballet shoes. =)) I love.

I'm gonna go dream of tutus. Nites all.

hide me now
under Your wings
cover me
within Your mighty hands

when the oceans rise
and thunders roar
i will soar with You
above the storm

Father You are King
over the flood
i will be still
know You are God

find rest my soul
in Christ alone
know His power
in quietness and trust

when the oceans rise
and thunders roar
i will soar with You
above the storm

Father You are King
over the flood
i will be still
know You are God

Puii-

12:13 AM

Monday, October 09, 2006

Woke up at some super late hours. Didnt went queue with em, wanna sleep as long as i can cos i dun wanna sleep during service. Cabbed down as expected. Ha~

That cab uncle is WEIRD la. I was on the cab, starting to feel nauseous, which i wont be normally. Was wondering why when i saw the speed meter. The uncle is going 80~~ 100~~ 80~~ 100~~ NO WONDER I FEEL SICK LA. Stop and go stop and go. Wah buey tahan. He still chat with me till so happie la. Hai~ end up reaching expo almost vomiting. There aint anythin to vomit anyway so, hurhur.

Service is cool. 'cept crazy Theresa, goin nuts over the orh lor lor lor thingy. Hahaha, she's so cute please.

Do the ridiculous, and see the miraculous.

To Chewie : You know what, i think we should do it this way instead. Unless he says it's okay la. I'll go check with her and see how izzit like first. Should be okay la. HA~

Our SUPER RANDOMNESS of the day. Saying stuff out of da blue.
"Oh ya just now i think that is okay."

Bedok Corner again for lunch. Took Bro Kenny's car there, leave in Sis Andrea's. Ha~ we're always ferried by them.

All my proj o peeps went home to slp (cept Xian), and i didnt wanna go home, cos evening gonna play badminton with cg. Nagged sinman out of her bed to shop around causeway point =)))

Bought another pressie for myself, well, just an excuse to buy stuff. A new ring!!! Finally found a nice one. Oh how i love it =))

Didnt realli wanna shop, so we went Swensen for ice cream =))) Yummy. Fattening.

Badminton next. Realised how lousy i became. Ha~ Been a trillion year since i last played. But it's still one of my fav sports =)

Mac fellowship. They chatted, i slept. Was so tired. Cos didnt get enough sleep last night. I went slept around 4 plus. Had nightmare. mare till 6 plus before i realli could sleep. So yea, didnt realli sleep much.

I got craving for KFC and Pastamania. I just swallowed a 2 piece meal. =)))

Fattening bdae season. I better get moving to burn all those fats i ate. -_-

Gonna load more pics of my prezzie tomolo. Thankies to DN1. I got a shirt and a belt. Oh LOVES =)

Suppose to sleep long ago. Change of timetable. Dun even know what time's class and at which room. Hai~ tomolo see how la. hee

Puii-

12:17 AM

Saturday, October 07, 2006

Spent a quiet birthday today. No noisy celebration. No parties. No screaming and shouting and laughing out loud. Just a quiet birthday, i like that =)))

Spent most of the day alone. 'cept morning Jeannie came over and gave a a prezzie =)) So sweet of her to come all da way to my house. Miss her la~!! Been ages since i last saw her. Yea she's cute as every =)

Spent a lil while with mum afternoon. Love her la~ *hugs*

Half a day passed rather peacefully.

Had prac with my proj o peeps. They're so sweet =) Cal gave me a hug immediately when i reach =))) and Theresa showed me the _____ they bought at a sale. Ha~ cuteness.

Prac's rather quiet too, cos alot of ppl never come. I spent half of prac time on phone with that penguin old lady. The other half was spent doin Pas de Bourre, back turn, step step, kick, step, kick, step, step step, pirouette. Haha~

Left quite early today. Around 6 and we're off. Wanted to wait for bus with Cal but, yea.. didnt in the end. HA~ we drank stuff tgt =))) Shes so cute with that RETRO HAIRBAND la!!! =P

And i still cant imagine ppl buying stuff from the airport. =P

Wanted to go home for dinner with mum. No one picked up the call so i assumed she's still aslp. I went and did the impossible. I SHOPPED ALONE!!!! Oh well, if you still dont know, it's rather impossible to hear me go shoppin, much less alone. SO it's kinda a miracle. But yea, wanted to shop for a prezzie for myself =)))

I spent two hours to find something decent to buy. See why i hate shoppin now? I mean i walked the whole of Heeren and Far east la~!!! And i only fulfilled one item on my wishlist. A BIG necklace~!!! =))) Love it loads pls. Well, not the best available i believe. But one that i like =)) Hee.

Now i know why alot of Singaporeans dress funnie. I tried looking for clothes to buy, i REALLI tried. But all they're selling all over the place are just so -_-. All i see is UGLIFIED. Nice stuff are super ex, not ex not nice. What do you expect right?

Nice clothes, where are you?!?!

Prezzies till now~

Million thankies to all. =)))

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*away*
Went to cut cake just now. a PRETTY YAM CAKE! =) So nice la~ =)
*rub tummy*
The bdae song my parents sing is still da best =))) hee~

Puii-

*edited*
Just came back home from late night supper with my girls at 515. Nothing much, just to celebrate my bdae and catch up with each others' life. I haven seen them in a million years pls. Ha~

Thankies girls for da bag =) I love it much. I wouldnt mind a weighin machine though if you all had bought that instead. HAHA! =P

I'm so so dead la. Got service tomolo. And it's almost morning now. I'll so sleep in service tomolo. Drink a ton of coffee and all before service!! I have a feeling i'll take cab AGAIN. -_-

Okie, either i slp now or i dont slp. I opt, let me sleep NOW. =)

Puii- wide awake.

11:24 PM

Woke up with a stiff neck, thanks to the four hours of sleepin on the floor last night -_-.

ITS MY BIRTHDAY!!!

Okie that was so random.

I learned alot these few days. It's probably the biggest bdae present i've gotten by far. My eyes are opened to what dance is. The thing that i do everyday, i got to see that i dont really know what izzit afterall. Thanks loads to Bro Kenny and Ryan. They taught us a great deal.

Dance is a discipline. Its a discipline to have control over your body, to make it dance the way you want it. Its about the discipline to push beyond where you are right now, to a place where you always wanna be. Determination. To learn how to dance all over again and again. Not just STEPS, but to DANCE~

When we learn to dance, pouring out everything, there wont be fear. It's about conquering fear. Fear of making mistakes, fear of not doin well. Fear cripples, and that's what happened to us during proj o exam. We're halfed paralysed or something i think. Freaked out totally. Conquering that would be our main goal. Fear stops us from moving on.

We must dance. Not fear.

Musicians got scores. Dancers got nothing. If we let fear rule our mind, we'll be blank on stage. No, fear shouldnt rule in your life. Have confidence. Have courage. Giving all out is what we must do.

Dancing aint about steps. Moves and all are like weapons. We get weapons from the instructors so we can go "fight" next time with all these weapon. But first we must know to pour out all as we dance. As you dance, evaluate yourself. Eye pleasing is the key. Dancers are like salesperson. We dance to sell. Everyone's got technics. But to shine above them all, you gotta sell yourself.

DANCE like you really want it.

All these while i felt complacent. I feel like i've been so slack in dancing. Everyday, just goin through it. Not putting my heart into it like i used to. Do i love dancing lesser now? No, i must dance. Dance like i really want it. Cos i REALLY want it. I wanna dance for God.

Under God's guidance, we will dance.

GUIDANCE = God, You and I dance.

Read this at cal's blog. It's so cute la!!!

*cal approaches the devil with a double pirouette, padaburet, left kick, right kick, right second and a left back kick.. muahas. after that, cal krumps her way to his ugly being and does lotsa krumping and whacking.. upon seeing that ugly coward being smashed like a cockroach on the floor.. cal says "roflol at joo!!"*

So i wanna write too :
Project O approaches the devil with a Pas de Bourre, back turn, two step, right kick, left kick, Pas de Bourre, two steps and a double pirouette. Krump to "Shake" until he drops to the floor. Pop him to the ground. Wave till he turns jelly. Do locking with our shuang jie gun. Harlem shake with all the xiao li fei dao. PK turns to his face and give him a huge kick with our attitude turn. Chaines a lil further, before turning back and doin a grand jete, landing right on his face. We'll all shout "roflol at joo!!" and do our victory dance with the "orh lor lor lor lor lor lor lor~"

We win. =)

Hammer up, hammer down and goes WAZZZZUP!!!!!!!! =) *loves*

And....FREESTYLE to celebrate =).

Ha~ that felt good. I so wanna do that please. Kick the devil's face. =))) Project O!!! We can do it. =) Let's do across the floor like the devil's in front of us. Let's attack and conquer! =) *loves*

Puii- lovin' dance all over again.

9:42 AM

It's an hour into my birthday right now =))) Got loads of wishes. Thanks all. You guys make my birthday a special day =)))

*organizing my thoughts*

Got back contemp results yesterday(friday), got kinda a mixed feeling about it. Bad thing is my marks stayed where it were. Good thing is i'm now one of the higher scoring in class =)) Cos everyone else dropped to the 40 plus range. Yes it's out of 100 marks. Passing mark is 40, and someone did score 40 marks. Praise to God, i got 50 =)))

And that is the highest score in class -_-. Sound kinda sad but, that's how it goes. Ha~

Proj o results was revealed. Aint so good. By God's grace (and mercy) we'll have a sub paper next week. Testing on across the floor. GAMBATTE! =)

LOVE DN1 =) They celebrated my bdae with a cute lil cake made by xiao xian. HA~ she's so cute la. It's so nice =)))


Haiya i'm too tired to blog. Tomolo then continue. Ha~ know what? Right now is 5 plus in the morning. I'm still typin blog cos i spent the pass 4 hours in front of the tv SLEEPING. So yea, just here to finish this crap before retreatin to my beloved bed. Ha~ =P

So nites all. Thanks again to all good wishes. =)

Puii- FINALLY 17.

1:02 AM

Thursday, October 05, 2006

Didnt do class today. Knee and ankle giving me probs. My classmates are so sweet. Kept askin if i was okay, and intro-ed me some physio ppl. =) Think i needa see doc soon. *hai~*

So whole day was kinda slack. Cos didnt dance at all in school and stuff. =P I gave Gamelan a miss. Too much Saron and Kenong up my brain.

Went Ee Ching's class. Was thinkin if i should dance. But i did class anyways. I cant bear not to.

Anyways, i LOVE her choreo la!! =)))


Ha~today was laughing days for the psychotic planktons =))))
I went washroom, thinkin Cal's inside. But wasnt sure you see. Wanted to call her name, but seemed weird if it were other people. So i striked off calling her name, plankton and capui. I was in the cubicle beside, and i went "Orh lor lor lor lor lor" to test if it was her. PLEASE she ROFLOL-ED la!!!!!! Hahahahahahahahha laugh till i flip la, she's so cute. makin a big fuss out of my orrh lor lor lor lor lor. HA! =P

And she said "This is so goin into my blog"
Yea it went into mine too =)))

Capui rocks!


Tomolo's like results' day. Gonna get my contemp results in the morning. Night will be proj o results. *shiver*

*praying praying praying* =)))


This' wont be in my blog if i haven read chewie's blog. Haha! She wrote she dreamt last night that she was married and stuff, got things happened, then she was glad it was a dream (or somethin lidat). HAHA! Cos the same thing happen to me too la!! Dreamt i was in the future and all. Married and stuff. Waking up felt like coming out from a freezer, suddenly realising all that wasnt true. Haha. It was funnie.


Theresa's blog is such an inspiring one. Especially that GUIDANCE entry. My eyes watered =) i love GOD =)


Guidance = God, You and i dance.


*praying*
for results.
for healing.
for world peace.


I wouldnt last a day, without You there to see me through.


Puii- i love you all <3

12:53 AM

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

Last class with Jaime today. And it's outrageous costume day~~ Hahahahah it was a fun-filled time with him. I wore my hip hop wear for contemp class~!! Hahahha, so funnie la. Jaime's one is the ultimate. Dunno how to describe it but, it was ULTIMATELY outrageous!!!! =) Hahahahah. Got all da weird stuff in class today. Gymnast leotard, latin suit, pyjamas, ballet wear with gold sequins, sweat suit. Ha~~

Some girls cried at the end of the lesson. We're all gonna miss him so so so so much. got a surprise party for him on thursday =) We're all gonna skip choir =))) YES!!! =P

Ballet hurt my knee bad today. Especially Pas de Chat and Glissades. I kinda limp on both legs today. Much better now, cos i taped em and all. =) A lil rest will do. Dun think i'll dance in sch tomolo. See how. At most for ballet i guess. No holten tmr PLEASE =))) Hurhur.

Went see XYZ at the hospital. He just had his op. Was good =) but he was still kinda blur cos of the injection thingy they gave him. But yea, praise God it went well. He got discharged today too la!!! Right after his op. Dunno is the hospital suppose to let him home so early. But oh well, his home right now i guess. Keep praying for him. =)

After that went Aaron's house. Watched Stay Alive with em, (well, i escaped the scary parts all, gore and stuff) The storyline was pretty predictable. I cant stand the murder and blood stuff. Like EWW? =P But okie la, it's a prettay nice show =))

*prayin*
for proj o's results.
for healing.

Proj O results' gonna be out on thursday. *shivers*
We're gonna pray through. Pray through it all tgt =)))

i heart proj o <3


There is none like You
No one else can touch my heart like You do
I can search for all eternity long
And find
There is none like You

Your mercy flows like a river wide
And healing comes from Your hands
Suffering children are safe in Your arms
There is none like You.


Puii-

12:02 AM

Monday, October 02, 2006

Today's contemp assesement. Was okie i guess. Wasnt as good as the first time, think my marks will drop a lil. The last sittin-down exercise especially. I totally missed the timing -_-.

My jumps was okie. Did four jumps across the floor. With a lil pain in the knee after that. Ha~

Results out on thursday~ *shivers*

This week's ballet assesement too. She'll look at overall. Hmm..hope it gets better =)))

Got back one of the results of written paper today. Got 36/50~ Ha, i'm happie enough. Cos i didnt realli study much as i dont realli understand it. Praise God =) Hee..

Taught my class to play HANDIPLAST!! Hahahaha they all went mad please. Screaming and screaming. Hitting and hitting. Whack whack whack. Cute girls =)))

Yea~!!!! My dad's back from hk =)) Miss him loads la! =)

*Gotta go mug*
Tomolo got another test, which is two weeks due. Know why?
First week : She wasnt free.
Second week : They lost the key to the room.

-_-

So yea loh, postponed the test AGAIN to tomolo. Got more time to study. HA~


Found this on Nikz' site. The five love language. Ha~ the quiz insisted i was wrong the other day during cellgroup. Oh well~ =P




The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Physical Touch.



Complete set of results

Quality Time: 11
Physical Touch: 9
Receiving Gifts: 4
Words of Affirmation: 4
Acts of Service: 2






Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz

Tot mine was quality time and words of affirmation. Ha~NOW i know.


Wooh~ gonna watch loads of performance in days to come.

13th Oct : OVERDRIVE. =)
A must-go for me. Cos Daniel and O Crew's into da finals!!!! =) Gonna scream like mad for em =)) Heard from my fren the tixs are all sold out already. =P

14th Oct : About Last Night by Tammy L Wong
She's awesome awesome and freaky freaky la!! had a relief class with her last tuesday. She's freaking jelly. Her whole body can twist around like clay. I so so wanna see her dance la! =)) Woohoo, free seating =)

16th Oct : LASALLE-SIA Dance Showcase : Scream & Whisper
By Lasalle alumni i think. Degree graduates. Lookin forward~

Got some i wanna watch too but, hai~ da pocket, da hole =P

I got craving for mooncake =)) *go out to the living room*

Nites ppl!

here i am waiting
abide in me i pray
here i am longing
for You
hide me in Your love
bring me to my knees
may i know Jesus
more and more?

come live in me
all my lifetake over
come breath in me
i will rise
on eagle's wings

Puii-

10:11 PM

Sunday, October 01, 2006

I'm blur enough to JUST realise it's my bdae in a few days time!!!

Normally i'll have a mental countdown, and feel all excited about it. Well, this year there aint any excitement. Mayb i got too much on my mind. ha~ A tired brain.

And i cant believe i'm still 16, and after bdae, only 17!!! Oh man, how come i feel like i've long passed this age. Oh well, at least wrinkles aint coming out yet. HA! =P


Munching chocs, thinkin of tang yuan(rice ball) =)

Puii-

8:54 PM

Service was awesome.


church without walls.


Super tired for some reason. Especially my poor legs. =( Got contemp assesement tomolo. Hope the jumps stuff wont kill me =P



Hee~ lazy to blog.

*praying*
for miracle.
for healing.
for harvest. =)

i heart proj o. <3


Puii-

6:54 PM

I'm gonna leave the dance exam outta my blog today.

I love em project o people. =))) They never fail to make me smile(or LAUGH like mad)

I've been laughing ALOT lately. Well, a certain joy in me i guess. =)


I used to feel being able to dance is a privillege. Mayb now that i dance everyday, it doesnt seem so special and all..

i so should change that mentality. I'm becoming complacent. I'm giving in to myself too much. It's time to push on again.


I cant change the direction of the wind, but i can change the direction of my sail.

Puii-

12:20 AM