Sunday, February 25, 2007

Wee!! my 400th post!! okay, lame.

Chingay's over!!! and i'm still surviving okay. it was a time of self high and self entertainment. i havent had such a dramatic two-days before. A million tons of things happened la! It was such action packed times. I'm suppose to be aslp now~ going service tmr. =)))

But it was bz two-days too. To all whom i nv replied their msgs or answer their call, sorry ah =P

Fill yall in with the details next time. Took tons of pictures!! Will load soon. so you can see that ice kachang costume. HAHA!!

Before i go, here's a vid of some sicksick nicenice dancing. thx aw!




I'm addicted to Avalon's songs =)))

Oh and lastly...

HAPPIE BDAE AARON AW JIA QUAN!

Puii - I miss my princesses!

1:55 AM

Friday, February 23, 2007

i survived chingay so far. so drained of my strength, energy and peanut butter. i'm like dead tired now. but since i'm still not slping just yet. might as well just blog. haha.

my MSN nick : chingay is about self entertaining, and self entertaining is tiring.

Immediately someone from my same chingay gang MSNed me and agreed! HAHA! See, i'm not the only poor soul around. hahahahaha.. it was moments of self high and inside jokes among whispering girls that keeps us going. If not we'll be like flat batteries. Hahahaha~

Seriously. i hate the costume. Hahahaha~ its the most fugly fairy wear i ever seen. it look machiam like ice kachang pls.

and YES, i'm a FAIRY in the chingay thingy. yay be glad, i'm not a mushroom.

i'm sooo dead tired. i'll faint on bed probably. will update when i survive this chingay period.

DUN turn on the TV on sat, lest you vomit out all your stuffs. Be warned, i was TRAUMATIZED when i saw the costume. HAHA! =P

oh i rushed down after chingay prac, was VERY late for ryan's class. so i wanted to watch from outside la.. ryan saw me, and called me to join in, when its like 15 more mins to end of class kind? it was seriously the faster ever that i can learn ryan's choreo. HAHA achievement!! =P

okay i'm tired. DEAD tired. zzz.

Puii- stoning. stoning. stoning.

1:02 AM

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

mood spoiler mood spoiler. thou art mood spoiler. thou spoilerth my mood so much muchie.

Now i so so so understand why people say there's just some people you'll find hard to love. perhaps Chingay's a chance for me to have a bigger heart to love people like that.

I complained to the whole world about the "injustice" i felt. I was about to complain again here when i wrote another letter to God.. i sooo needa learn to love people all over again. I pray, let this Chingay be a chance for me to learn to have a bigger heart, to be more Christ-like. To learn to love people that seem sooo impossible to love.

"God.

How come got people lidat one? How to tolerate this kind of person?

Jesus. I'm sure you've met such people. Can you teach me how to face them? how to love them? Can you teach me to have a bigger heart for people like this? Lord i know its wrong of me, but still! I feel so bullied, so crushed. Yet, cant utter a word.

How, lidat?"

His unconditional love. it is selfless. it is humble. it is loving. it is forgiving.

I want to learn to be selfless. I want to serve mankind. I want to be a priest and serve society. I want to cast the ME ME ME aside. Just be a willing soul to help out puiman. SELFLESS.

Cast your pride aside. Learn something out of this. Put down all that high-and-mighty. Though he's unreasonable, you gotta show respect for higher authority. Stop calling people shiny head and just give in. Learn to be humble. Didnt you hate pride? This is a good time to cast it down. Yes, this is a good time to learn to step down from the high seat you placed yourself on.

Have some love for poor souls out there. He probably have seen enough black faces to paint your whole house. Be a kind soul and show him this world is not as bad as he thinks (or as bad as he had made it to be) Have some love for him la~

Forgive all that unappropriate-ness. Forgive all that rudeness. Forgive all that offensive stuffs and irritation. Forgive and forget puiman. Forgive and forget. Holding on to unforgiveness. You aint gonna hurt anybody 'cept yourself. you gladly know that. so, let go and let God.

i'm sure there's reason for allllllll these.

FORGIVENESS(defination) : Letting go of the pain, and letting go of the right to get even.

i am still human imperfect. Give me time God. I'll learn to have a bigger heart this year. i'll learn to love. You loved Your disciples, even when they abandoned You. Let me knowof, and have, this unconditional love. So many people i've offended, so many have offended me. it just shows how imperfect this world is. Yet with all these imperfection, i want to strive for excellence in life.

Even if i HATE this, let me do a good job. Let this black face dissappear. Let me be able to smile at him sincerly. Let me just get over with Chingay and move on.

A shoutout to all who endured my complaining. Manman, Proj O peeps, classmates, etc etc(all those that i didnt mention)... thanks a million, no two millions. You guys made loving people an easier job, cos yall showed me love exists =) THANKS! Now i know, a listening ear works better than chocolates =)

Okay~ lighter stuffs.

A day of bai-nian-ing. Fun fun day. Had a great time catching up with old time peeps. We've all grown soo much i just realised. We've grown from lil girls to older girls. HAHA! Those were the days, primary school uniform, nerd face, BIG specs. Hhahahaha i cant stand those old time pictures pls. Hearts them much! Old penguin and HY. They rock my world la~ =)

Didnt get to see Mrs Goh today =( cos of some mis-comm. Nvm la.. will get to see her some other time one. (dunno when though) Haha~

Thanks Kenny and Serina!! For inviting us over for atime of fellowship during CNY. So fun so fun with em ppls pls =) Played sooo much intellectual games till i got a headache. HAHA! =P

I love baby ANGEL =))) She's soooo cute pls! =) Chubby boo boo! *look at plankie Cal* hahahahahaa~

Fellowship with them after that. Kinda emo-ed myself a bit, which i totally dunno hw. But they still made me laugh much. hahahaha~ =) I LOVE RANDOMNESS!

Because of YOU! i've got this ice box where my heart used to be. Wah realli very cold ah~ HAHA!! =P

love You Abba.

Puii- picture perfect world.

1:37 AM

Monday, February 19, 2007

Just came back from a midnight movie~ (well not JUST, but.. yea) Was a fun fun first day of CNY! =)))

Morning morning. Woke up REAL late. Mum and aunt already come back from church already. hahaha~ woke up, ate CARROT CAKE =) and prepared to go out.

Since we got no relatives to visit, we were wondering the previous night where we'll be going today, first day of CNY. So my cute mum suggest we go ZOO!

5:43 AM

Sunday, February 18, 2007

Happie happie chinese new year to all! =))) This' prolly one of da best CNYs for me. I just love this la.

i'm dozing off right this moment actually, cos the plan's to stay up whole night today. you know, for longevity of our parents. Well i dun believe in that of cos, its just... FUN =)

A big big surprise to all. I actually cleared my room (tgt with manman) and we got the room to look pretty neat =) so not used to it. oh wells. now everythings' nice and in place, it seemed weird. hahaha imagine the mess before.

OKAY, now i'm wide awake again. A pretty MOTH appeared in front of me just so suddenly, i got the shock of my life. the distance between us was prolly just 10 cm or something? Shucks, i almst could kill it just now. ROAR.

Never mind.

Okay i'm like REAL tired now, i think i'l give the staying-awake whole night thing a miss this year. i'm gonna let that moth off provided it wont come and bother me again. i'll get something for my tummy before going to bed. and i just realised, i didnt sleep much last night, thats why.

anyways. HAPPIE CNY PEOPLE! =) may it be a fun time of celebration! will update more tmr, when i get more slp =)

;picturePERFECTworld.

Puii- yes it died. yes it'll eventually die..

2:55 AM

Saturday, February 17, 2007

a new blogskin for the new year~ so i "springcleaned" my blog too now. Hahaha~ =P

A blissful morning spent with family. I love such days =) We get to sit together and laugh at each others' jokes. We get to eat together and admire the fountain thingy dad just set up. We get to make carrot cakes together. We get to go CNYshopping.

I love times like this =)

Packed my room quite a bit. Now i cant get used to it cos everything look sooo neat. I'm weird. HAHA! =P

*ps to ah gal : you gotta be strong girl! =) will be praying for you and your family*

such a pretty day. =))) a song to Him.

love unfailing
overtaking my heart
You take me in

finding peace again
fear is lost in all You are

i would give the world to tell Your story
cos i know that You've called me
i know that You've called me

i lost myself for good within Your promise
i won't hide it
i won't hide it

Jesus i believe in You
and i would go
to the ends of the earth
to the ends of the earth
for You
alone are the Son of God
that all the world may see
that You are God
You are God

Puii -
toLOVE;and be LOVED.
toGIVE;and be FORGIVEN
toBLESS;and be BLESSED

2:15 PM

ShowStopper? Nah, MoodSpoiler.

Not that i want to badmouth him or anything. But he is seriously too much. I just realised i've got nothing against going Chingay. Its his attitude i cant stand. People like this teach us to be careful when we go outside. People who ABUSE their authority.

I heard it from classmates. Of how he talked to them. I feel its so inappropriate of him to use this kind of tone of speech please.

Further more, he used threat on students. What the pink.. is this what he should be doing?!

And i heard aaron got it bigtime from him today. He told him he needa go down mediacorp for some dancefloor thingys. So HE said v strictly that this kinda take part in comp need go thru him first, and that by right aaron cant take part without his permission. The best part is..he say cos of this, he has e right to drop him outta e course and don tell him promote to next level!

I was totally pissed off upon hearing this, i immediately went to the LaSalle student portal and read ALL the school rules and policy stuffs. NOTHING states that a student must inform the program leader for permission to take part in outside school events and competitins. Somemore he has no direct rule over us. So where's he's right to do what he claimed to be able to do? Sure he can, but definitely not the by-rules way. i mean its just a performance, and you're spoiling our future just becasue of such an event??

This abusing authority thing. I find it VERY hard to swallow.

What's more? He mentioned my name in his speech to the class.

he said 'abt wad pui mun has mentioned, we are NOT short of pple.. it's just that u guys have promised to commit and so you all will'

Then why are you desperately getting us to fulfill this commitment to a totally non-studies related event? somemore he said 'don be mistaken, u guys are NOT doing me a favour by joining chingay but cos u want to be part of it'. by saying that is outrightly puttin words into our mouth pls. cos i didnt wan to be in it in the first place. it was a feeling of OBLIGATION that we agreed that time to volunteer. Now its hindering us of our more-important stuffs. he dun see it as a favour? then he can gladly do without us what. so what's all this crap abt us MUST commit to it?

if he had a nicer attitude i might go. but this is really too much for me to swallow.Why must we suffer under your self-proclaimed reign? Why must we suffocate under your claws? Why cant we have a voice of our own?

and all i can do is complain in my blog. i feel useless pls. cant even speak up for myself. though i soo dun like him now i still must bring myself to freaking smile to him in school. its all so fake. its all so intensified. its all so threatening. i hate this.

heard that yong wei want us to go. cos sometimes, doing things we dun like to, we'll learn something out of it. i've already learned something. there're just people that's so hard to love.

What a big diff between them two. I've seen the best and the worst of a human today. What a day of learning. Learning to appreciate nice people. and learning to love irritating people.

*look at Jesus* how can i learn to love this kind of people!?!?!

i dun want to be rude to those above me, but yet i dun want to subject myself to stuffs like this either. Ask me if i'm going Chingay, i'll say i dunno. Got till Wed for me to decide.

He's a total mood spoiler pls. I was happily preparing for CNY, totally into the holiay mood already. stuffs like this had to come and disrupt everything. ROAR!

lidat how can i xin gan qing yuan go chingay? and it'll be a lousy performance, cos i sure black face and stuff to him.

ARGH!!! i need Your big heart Lord. I need Your unconditional love.

*teach me. teach me how to live. teach me in Your ways*

Puii- so it'll still die eventually. i see...

3:31 AM

Friday, February 16, 2007

Springcleaning~

Didnt go sch again today. Think marks are sooo gonna be deducted like nobody's business. 1% for a day. Now i got 2% deducted already la. Haha~

Got back my ballet results yesterday. Was grateful that it turned out alot better than i expected.

Actually passed my ballet with a same mark as my contemp. The moment i got my results i laughed a little. Cos there's comments written there. There's alot of columns of diff comments and the teachers will highlight that which we're in. I've got one highlighted until the column "Outright fail" So i thought what izzit and looked down.

"No demonstration of appropriate personal artistic expression with dance technique."

Hahaha~ i laughed to myself a little, cos i know that is my greatest flaw in ballet. When i get busy thinking of where my arms and legs goes, i forgets about my expression and dance quality easily. Quite happy that i've got two under the "good" column =) I wasnt expecting that, i thought i would have done a just-pass kind.

Had a tiny talk with Elizabeth. (Thank God for encouraging teachers) She commented i have a talented body, and i must push harder to go upwards, to improve in both technique and dance quality. She also said, that i shouldnt become proud because of the fact that my body is good for ballet. Cos a proud dancers wont go far in the end. I totally agreed with her. Cos i hate pride too.

Read in Khye's blog about Daniel. I feel i need to push myself to get there too:
when daniel was starting out overdrive ..
he saw his potential and he forsee his winning of overdrive..t
hat why he was always forcing him to really break out of his limits
and true enough daniel worked hard for it and he clinch the title..

I needa work hard hard hard. I dont wanna dissapoint Elizabeth and Yong Wei. I dont wanna dissapoint my peers. I dont wanna dissapoint my parents. I dont wanna dissapoint myself and all who believe/ed in me. I dont wanna dissapoint God. I've got what it takes. I wanna make it happen.

The more i dance, the more i realise how insenitive i really am with my own body. My shoulders are good examples. I always got this tensed-up-shoulder thingy in class. That day, i was on my way to school, thinking about class, and i suddenly realise my shoulders are tensed up, very tensed up. so i relax them, and tried to keep them relax. I realised how hard it was for me to keep them relaxed. i was too used to them being tight.

That's why in class the most often-heard sentence for me is "Relax your shoulders" haha~~

Soumya's class. I saw the worst of my classmates. sleeping in her class like there's no tommorow. HAHA!! =P I tried to listen, but maybe it's the frequency of her voice, i ended up dozing off too. =P

Went eat at Marine Parade there with the girls. And chatted like nobody's biz. Haha~ literally everything under the sun. The subjct somehow goes to funnie bus rides.

June : Wah~ everyday on bus 12 ah, behind sure will have a group of people playing songs frm their phone out loud. TECHNO music. Wah~ like so high can? i cant evn sleep la~ like on the verge (of being high) liao *laugh laugh laugh*

Ivonn : Last time the ez-link just come out, i'll tap the card at the front, then go behind tap le then sit down one. Got one time i going interchange, two stops only lei. so i tap front le go behind tap again. Then the uncle shout "XIAO MEI!", so i looked back at the mirror. He looked at me through the mirror and said "You never take bus before ah?!" I was soo paiseh la!!! I diao-ed him and walk off

Me : That time i took bus that runs on expressway. The bell spoil, so it kept ringing. Suddenly the driver stop the bus, ON THE EXPRESSWAY, and walked up. There was a group of malays sittin beside me and my frens, the driver just pointed at them and shouted "Stop that ah i tell you all!!!!" very loudly. The whole bus stunned please. Hahhaha. Cos in actual fact they didnt do anything. The second time the driver came up, the whole bus shouted back at him. "NOBODY PRESSED THE BELL!!" He's like, "realli ah? *hesitate* dun let me catch you ah", so we all "REALLY LA!!!" Hahahahha so funnie pls. So we(and the driver) had to tolerate the constant "ding dong" all the way from tampinese to woodlands. HAhA!! =P

Forgot who(think is June) : That time i was sitting upstairs of a double decker. A pretty lady walked up elegantly. Behind her the uncle ran up and shouted "Eh you never tap card ah!!!" Hahahah~ she look SO paiseh.

And alot more la. All the nonsense bus experiences. Hahahahah~ =P

Went expo after that. Almost fall asleep in the food court and throneroom. I was bored to tears alone.

But service was good =)

Psy Derek preached about rships.

4 negative attitudes that destroyed relationhships :
1.Selfishness.
Number one cause of arguements

Antidote : Selflessness.

2.Pride
Pride comes before destruction.

Antidote : Humility
Humility is the foundation where compassion comes.
So get rid of the stinking thinking.

3.Insecurity
It restricts us.

Expressions of insecurity:
a. We fear exposure.
"What if someone knows the real me?"
b.We fear rejection.
Rejection is pat of life. Yet because f that, we withdraw and uild walls around our heart.

Antidote : Love
God knows we're inperfect, yet in all that imperfection, didnt reject us, but love us with an everlasting love.

4.Resentment
You can never change the past, get over that hurt. Dun let it get you down in life.

Antidote : Forgiveness
You MUST frgive others
Unforgivenes/Resentment doesn't hurt anyone else but yourself.

Forgiveness : Letting go of the pain, and letting go of the right to get even.

Was sooo touched by the whole message. As pst preached, flashes of stuffs came, all the rships in my life. Kinship, friendship.. everything.. Some of which i so should just let go. I thought i did, but when i revisit those spots in my heart, its like a half-healed wound.

I gave it all to Jesus last night. All of it. At His feet. And i prayed, i wan to love others the way He loves me. I wanted His unconditional love. I want to love myself more, and not to be so self-reprimanding all the time. How can i love others when i hate myself? I want a bigger heart. A bigger heart, fuller with love.

Okay, that was yesterday.

Woke up, changed for school. Hesitate awhile before going to change back out. My legs' like hurting when not moving it la. Iced it for quite a while the previous night. Didnt really help. So i msged Yong wei and some of my classmates tt i'm not going school (oh no, my marks deducted again!!) while iceing my legs again.

I prolly have the best teacher on earth la! Yong wei gave out a set of notes to the rest of the class today, so he ask if i would be able to meet up with any of my classmates to get the notes. After that he say he want to come drop the notes at my mailbox. ALL THE WAY TO WOODLANDS LA!! Goodness, i was so paiseh, i suggested he pass it to Carol then i go get from her at the custom before she go back to msia. He insisted in comin himself.

After that i heard from the rest he went to pass to Trev too, and even wanted to go MSIA pass notes to carol cos she nv come too.

*jaw drop* he's seriously an extinct good man la. From school to my house, plus he need to find my block. Think it took him quite some time. Yet he still say "As long as you read the notes during the holidays i won't mind going down." and "most importantly is that the notes are useful to your dancing"

Goodness, he should be awarded the "go the extra million mile award" or something. All the inconviences, just to pass us the notes so that we will benefit from it. *Appreciate it many many* He's such a good to the core teacher pls.

Spent a day home, trying to make my leg better. Apparently its still the same. *shake head* Haha~

Had to walk out a bit in the evening, cos had to help mum take stuff home. Had a little escape from springcleaning my room. Haha~

I miss my bgirling princesses. It must have been a fun class breaking with KH. Haha~
I miss plankie.
I miss FISH.
I miss randomness.
I miss mummy xian.





Found these on Yong Wei's multiply. Inspiring~~


Puii- off to continue springcleaning.

4:25 PM

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Buang-ed legs.

I think i pulled muscles EVERYWHERE pls. walking now is an agony. hahahaha

that shiny head IRRITANT decided to ignore my nicely planned explanation of why i shouldnt be in Chingay. he like totally dun wan to reply me pls?! i'm gonna search for him in school and shoot that bazooka into his face. Muahahahahahha =P

Okay enough nonsense.

That monkey guy didnt come today. we ended up slacking in class. hahaha. cam-whored. did nonsense stuff. all the fun fun times are when teachers' (and some other) are not around =))) Pics will be loaded soon.

Yong Wei's class scared the hell and peanut butter out of me. I'm suppose to do a headstand in his choreo. PLUS our legs are suppose to plie and beat and split IN THE AIR while balancing on our HEAD.

Goodness. Mayb after this i can do a head spin. HAHA!!! =P

I totally buang-ed my legs today. All the pain areas are aching. all the normal areas are starting to ache. i feel like some old lady that cant even carry her bag properly. haha~!

Ee ching's class was soooo sad today. only 3 proj o turned up la. me aw and xian. hahaha.. we're like the three pathetic souls that had a totally lousy valentine's day la. HAHA~

V day v day~ walk outside and you see all the roses and chocs and teddy bears. and a totally unromantic thought came "the florists and 7-eleven stores must have earned alot every year during this season!!"

Okay so random. i know.

kkkkk. i better go slp now. needa wake up UUUBBEERR early tmr for school.

GOODNESS! i'm getting back my ballet results tmr!! wont be good youg wei said, so i dun expect much. its just that. hahahaha gan jiong.

Puii- You are my world.

11:39 PM

Laughter; the best medicine.

made my day(night actually) and made me laugh half my irritation away~ thanks choons!!






Puii- laughing away the ROAR.

3:11 AM

okay i need another 10 bars of choc and a million hugs now. HAHA.

pure irritant la. he's worse than a trillion ms swan combined.

i find it hard to calm myself down now. i feel so kena bullied la~like. ROAR.

if he dun allow i'm gonna MIA loh.. like wtp la, i cant go srv. i cant go cg. blah blah. yes i love singapore, but not THAT much. i love going orchard,but not in mascots. i love you matt, as i do to all mankind, i jus dun like the way you handle things. ROAR.

i need venting. i'll try screaming into the pillow later, they say it works. i've stuffed chocs. they seem to lose effect. no i dun feel like sleeping at all though i'm freaking tired. =(

if only i can send this to him.

"not like i asked to join chingay. but i did anyway, giving you face. now you change it into such a ridiculous schedule, and expect us to turn up. and to correct what you said, i commited to the initial schedule, not the new one, so i dun see an obligation to go.

plus there's no school rules like "thou shall go for chingay lest you DIE".

and why izzit that some of them get to have a freedom of choice? if they can escape from it, i dun see why i must be faithful to this "commitment" thingy that no one else is following. from what i know, none but two from my class is gonna turn up for your practices craps.

to be utterly honest. i'm not interested in chingay la."

if only i could send him THAT.

i think i'll just die if i did.

so i needa phrase that WHOLE thing nicely. cool.


thanks, i just realise my school fees' not paid yet. haha.

Puii- stuffing chocs. stressing up.

12:45 AM

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

ROAR. thanks ALOT.

i'm gonna not-friend ********, chingay and that Irsih company for 5 minutes. cos **** die die dun let me siam chingay.

Lord, i need an excuse.

It's like pure dumbness pls. First we're kinda like forced to go, and the timings are ridiculous. on top of that we're missing classes JUST for that dumb chingay thing. that, never mind, i tolerated and agreed to go for that CHINGAY.

Now, without informing us or warn us AT ALL, they changed ALL the timing, nothing much la, just that its ALOT WORSE than the previous one, and i'm suppose to be some nonsense fairy and ladybug thingys till late in the night. I'm gonna miss school, i'm gonna miss oschool pracs, i'm gonna miss cellgroup, i'm gonna miss service, i'm gonna be stupid and appear on TV in some nonsense mascot.

Tell me i'm gonna survive this.

Like ridiculous pls. I was kind enough to send an email trying to CONVINCE my way out of this very-unwilling-but-must-fulfill task. And wrote like UBER long la. And he replied me like just 3 sentences. -_-. i feel like kicking people now. ROAR.

Like, its not like those people in my class that's just going to MIA on prac dates right? Heartless creatures that wants me to be ladybugs and mushrooms. thanks ALOT.

ROAR. i'm sooooo irritated now i'm gonna think of a REAL GOOD reason why i'm not gonna go. But, most likely he'll win loh pls. I can see it. Me being forced into a green jumpsuit and lady bug head. i see it comin pls. Like he's the BIGGEST what. what have i got to say right? People with AUTHORTY. ROAR. You call this mutual understanding between lecturers and students? pls, i'd rather you give me more soumya's class than all that nonsense.

ROAR! *irritated*

Okay, i better stop, if i continue i'll really head off to his office first thing in the morning with a bazooka.

Done complaining. Happier things now~ (though my good mood was totally spoilt)

i got to have a little escape from ballet and techniques. i finally got to bounce after DAYS. haha~

thank God for angels in my life that made me laugh like mad =)
*look at F4s* CAI SHEN DAO! *deng deng deng deng deng*

thank God for chocolates and songs.

okay, my mood's like totally spoilt. i shall go think of how to reply that shiny head.

Puii- ROARed.

11:23 PM

Monday, February 12, 2007

A lil something out of my hmwk~

I promise to blog, then stop surfing net, and go do homework. i PROMISE.

School's probably the biggest mood killer around. School starts, my tired face comes back. But still, i get to DANCE. i'm not gonna complain.

Just a little something i wrote for my homework, report stuff. Hope it'll bless you dancers out there(if you are, that is)

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Every dance step we do, its like a language. When we dances, we dance in faith, believing that this is the way we want to communiate with the audiences, that this is the message that we want to send across. I always believe that dance is the most honest language one can ever learn and speak. Body never lies. People can read things from the way we dance.

Learning steps is like being equipped with words, how we express it is a whole issue altogether. What we speak with a swing of hand and bend of knees, be it joy, pride, anger, hope, etc, its all from our hearts.

Therefore dance like you're speaking. and not just do steps. There's no life in just steps alone. Be it any form of dance. Dance it all out like you mean it. Dance is not just about techniques, but also that which is inside of us.

"Unless you feel that you must live with music, and that music can say more than words, that music can mean more, that without music we're not alive. If you don't feel all that, don't be a musician"
------Issac Stern, From Mao to Mozart.

Likewise for dance. =)))

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Okay. I'm done blogging. Gonna write more stuff into my journel!! =)

P.S to choc lovers. Dark chocs satisfies your craving alot better than milk choc. =)))

when the whole world turn
to walk away
leaving me down and disheartened

when my heart is hurt
by their words
that's coming like swords and daggers

(the love of the Father~)

when my heart is broken
i'm helpless and lost
tears filled my eyes and my soul

the love of the Father was all i could see
the love of the Father put a smile on my spirit
a light descend from heaven
upon my life

it filled my heart
wiped of my tear
"its okay.
I am here"

He heals (my broken heart)
He saves (my sinful life)
He loves (me as i am)
He adores~


That song brought me through, and made me love Him more =)))

Puii- you are my desire.

edited. i just rem. i got back my results =) pretty good =) i'm two marks away from a "good mark" hahaha~ so i'm like a "high average" now =) i just gotta jump a lil higher in that monkey class~ =)

i'm finally done with all the journel things... FOR NOW. hahaha.. wait till the new stuffs come in. i'll be busy writing again. SLEEP PUIMAN! School tmr =)))

and maybe. DANCE with Thes darl and the rest =)

Puii- agape'o

8:10 PM

Sunday, February 11, 2007

Swollen eyes.

blah blah blah. that's all you know to tell me.

HAPPIE 21ST JENNIFER LEE SHI HUI and CHRISTOPHER GOH KHOON XIAN!!



Jenni-HUA! Many blessing for you in this key-wearing year~ =) Millionloves. Hope you like the pressie =))) You've been such a sweetie and blessing to my life =)








Chris!! Happie 21st~! You;ve changed from a center parting guai kia to a groovy moving dancer!! Blessed to know ya~ and.. Happie bdae!! =)





















Happie 21st yo-yo people~ =)))


Went saturday service~ after so long. haha. and service was great =)



A new dose of creativity. I want my dance to enter the pearly gates. =)




quarreling with you just gives me swollen eyes and ROAR attitude.


*off to make hongbao lanterns*



Sinman and all left for thailand. i'm left alone at home with parent. hahaha~ com's all mine till v day!!

ps. sorry plankie!! =P

Puii- swollen eyes.

10:32 AM

Saturday, February 10, 2007

Take me deeper.

Yes i heard. A word from heaven. A woman of prayer i'll be. Lord, lets fellowship =)))

So blessed by CGM today. Just, so blessed =)

I shall no longer feel intimidated. Why should i hold the words of man in my heart? why should i remain hurt? Indeed i seek the opinion of only One. and i dance for only One. Words of man shouldn't have brought me down the way it did. Time to let go and move on.

Even if the whole world say i dance ugly, or i'll never make it in dance, today i made a descision. i couldnt, and wouldnt, care less.

Before i got into lasalle was the most painful time. Dance was almost like a torture. Endless words that came like swords and daggers. It was like half the sky falling upon me, bringing me down with it. Its an impossible dream, the world told me. It was like an army ready to bring me down.

It all made me doubt myself. My heart's cry was just to be able to dance for God. Yet nothing seems to show that to be possible. Being the low-self-esteem creature i claim to be, i lost trust in myself. i didnt really believe i could do it. I told people about it, but i never really had faith that i'll actually ACCOMPLISH what i had dreamed.

Perhaps residues of that remained. Mayb that's why i still doubt myself. People ask me what i really wanna be. And i always answered them some whatevers. Truth is, i got a goal in life, not knowing if i'll ever make it.

God took my hand today, and brushed off that doubt. As Jalene prayed for me, i felt God speaking. And i asked Him "Lord, will You dance with me?" Body never lies. Dance is the most honest language around. Therefore i want to speak dance to God.

Every fear and doubt was washed away. I stand before Him bold. I know with Him i can DEFINITELY do it. Man's negative words? *talk to my hand* Not to ignore comments by others, those are good. just those harsh words that bring you down. *kick* em aside. Just listen to the voice of the One.

If you're discouraged today. take heart. you're not alone. and know what? a greater One above gives the best encouragements you'll ever find, and ever need =)

When we feel like we're burn out, the solution's not to dance less. but to PRAY MORE. wow that impacted me so much. Thanks Jalene. =)

Take me deeper Lord, in love with You.
Hold me close in Your embrace. I want to know You and love You more. How can i be satisfied at the outer court. Even the Holy Place is not enough. Lord i want to enter Your chamber. I want to see Your manifested glory.

take me deeper. very much deeper.

i'll learn to take things easy. i'll learn to grow up. i'll put aside my childish ways. i'll be a mature son(daughter) of God.

Puii-

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balleted. contemped. bboyed. by the end of the day my legs are seriously pain. =(

can you believe it? i learnt chair. and other nonsense stuff. hahaha. wtp.

one desire.

Puii-

1:54 AM

Thursday, February 08, 2007

The lil things that we do...

From Jem Chua's blog. a long-ago entry. Re-read it. and decided to post it here.

One Valentine's Day a group of believers called New Generation in a College in Sweden had an idea of demonstrating God's love to all the students in their college, they would paste hearts on the locker of every single student in the college.Initially they wanted to put messages like God love you or you have a purpose in God but the principal did not allow anything with God in it however they could put messages like Have a Nice Day or Happy Valentine's Day.

Undaunted the team went ahead and on Valentine's Day all the lockers of the college had a heart on it. After 2 weeks the leader of the team received a letter from a girl who had planned to commit suicide on that very day, she shared that she had a messed up life, a broken family and a boyfriend who cheated on her. She had already prepared the pills and planned to end her life after her return from school.As she was walking to school that day she though in her heart if today I would receive a sign that life has a meaning she would not go ahead with the plan. anyway she thought nobody has shown me that life has a meaning.

As she walked to the locker area she suddenly saw hearts on every single one of them, the words on the heart on her locker was "You have a meaning in life" she walked over to every single heart on every single locker she saw messages like "Have a nice day" but hers was the only unique one with that message. That was the sign she was looking for.

For 2 weeks she pondered over it and decided to pluck up the courage to ask the leader of the group what was it they had which she didn't have. She joined the group made many new friends who showed her that her life had a meaning andeventually gave her heart to Jesus.

Imagine what would have happen if the group was not sensitive to the Holy Spirit and didn't paste the hearts. One action can make a world of difference. That's how much God loves every single one of us.

The little things that we do.. be a kind person today =)))

Puii-

8:54 PM

I want to dance la~~~ *stare at legs*

ROAR. I'm so deprived of dancing. i cant believe i'm forced to stay home and nua the whole day. i cant even walk properly please.

My shin hurts. My ankle hurts. My knees hurts. My achilles tendon hurts. My muscles are aching like no body's business. My arms i cant lift up for more than 5 secs before it starts aching. ROAR lousy legs. Hope some rest will do it good. =(

Now that olive in my class' gonna nag at me with her high and mighty talk again. Great.

*stare at legs* i want to dance la~~~ can you be a lil more long lasting? hahahaha~ i cant believe how easy it was for just a few jumps stuff to get my legs down.

Okay, enough of my nonsense whinning. hhahaha

You know, i suddenly feel like studying body anatomy. Borrowed a book from library on anatomical stuff in ballet techniques. I'm deeply interested la. =) All them science terms, how i missed you!! Oh i was such a science freak =P

Reading about muscles and bones open my eyes to what teachers are talking about in class. All the alignment. All the muscle usage.

One day when i cant dance no more, i wanna be a physio for dancers.

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God showed me how people are touched by His common grace. He showed me how He draws man nearer to Him.

From a malay friend's blog, she wrote :
I love earth, sun-kissed horizons, the dense of forests, the smell of flowers. I love animals and i love the mysteries of space. The Creator is an artist, in all of His glory.

A girl, not Christian quoted the bible in her friendster :
Love is patient,
love is kind.
It does not envy,
it does not boast,
it is not proud.
It is not rude,
it is not self-seeking,
it is not easily angered,
it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil
but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects,
always trusts,
always hopes,
always perseveres.
Love never fails.

A friend drifting away from Him. Yet she still believes :
Love exists.

How people are touched by His truth. Just amazing =) His big hands! I wanna grab =) His great love! I adore. =) So do somthing nice today, you might just change that someone's life =)))

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I WANT TO DANCE! How jealous. The rest are going for Ryan's class later =(

Puii-

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i'm bored to the bones and marrows. i feel so random now.

there's this aunty that kept calling me today, when i told her she's got the wrong number. i'm kinda irritated, so i ignored her totally. secretly i decided inside, if she's gonna call again i'm gonna hang her phone.

clever me went to play with a HUGE drop of un-dried paint that still happen to be there after so many days. my itchy hands' are now painted white. thanks.

i got to drink tea and coffee and yakult today. and those roast duck and chicken skin. without mum's nagging. praise God.

i just realised i got journel due tmr.

and i just realised what a big world of dance it is outside. browse through some overseas dance school/arts schools. you'll see what i mean.

chinese new year!!

i fed my rabbit two mouthful of apples today.

my shins still hurts.

my msn kena-ed virus. how irritating.

i miss the world. a day at home makes me feel like a freak. i wonder how mum does that.

i still love RED.

i want to do SOMETHING with my hair. anything. i'm sick of swan hair. haha~

i'm like venting all the whatevers now. =P hhaahahahaha~ i'm feeling super random. and i'm starting to miss my randomness(chewie) now. HAHA!!

I want new leotards.

Now my knees hurt.

I want to finish "Drawing Near" by this week =)

I promise to at least pack my room a lil before CNY comes. i'll try to be a good girl and finish all that fruits mum bought.

i miss dancing already.

if you happen to read all that crap above. =P congrats. you;ve reached the end.

Tmr's dance day again~ ballet, contemp,performance prac, and after that BREAKING. Goodness. i'll probably break my bones or something. and CG after that!! =))))) i miss DN1 millions.

to plankie. better shop for our date on sunday =)))

Puii- ROARing.

4:41 PM

random stuff.

I cant believe it. i blogged four entries one shot.

prayers needed~ i think i hurt my leg again. =(

and to all my aching-like-mad muscles (and yours too if you have). ORH LOR LOR LOR LOR . PAIN BEGONE!

Okay, that was self-entertaining.

Ballet early morning tmr. I sense its gonna be a cab day. =(

*i need Your strength to carry on*

Okay, i better head off to bed. i needa wake up in like 4 hour plus.

had my dose of chocs today =))) i'm a happier puiman now.

Puii-

1:15 AM

A life of PURPOSE.

Jesus lived a life of purpose. Everything that He did had a purpose. When He walked, He purposed to go somewhere. When He stopped, He intended to do something. When He rested, it was to prepare for the journey ahead. Everything Christ did. Every step He took, every action He did. It was literally a purposeful life.

What, in our lives, that we're doing today are purposeless? What are we wasting time on? We often spend time doing all these meaningless things, wasting precious time. Spending a whole day watching TV, sitting in a park, playing chess, zoning out. walking around aimlessly in a mall, queueing for hours to buy ba kua, getting into sure-will-end rships, having endless cold war with people, drink and smoke our lives away.

So many things that we do. What purpose is there?

Bible calls us to be like Christ. Meaning in ALL areas, imitate Him. His thinking, actions, behaviour, character and attitude.

So if Jesus' life on earth was on full of purpose, lets aim to live out a Christ-like life. Lets live out a purposeful life. Everything that you do, let there be a purpose. When you walk, you know you wanna get somewhere. when you eat, its to fill your tummy and to build your body. when you study, its to gain wisdom, knowledge and understanding. when you run a race, you know you wanna win. when you play, you get all the rest and fun you need. When you dance, its to express, not impress.

Life is too short to be wasted. I aim to live out this purposeful life. I want my steps to be guided by Him, that i can live out His purpose for my life.

5th Feb 07 11.35 pm

Puii-

1:00 AM

Letters to God.

Got that something in my spirit. Lord i want to love You all over again. Its like a fresh love from heaven. Its like how freshly baked bread smell so nice, Your love, its fragrance fills my soul. Your Spirit came. I know He did. I heard Him calling. I'm entrusted a job to do on earth.

Father i pray, never let me lose this passion. I want to see Your world transform. I want to see the power of God. I want to see Your glory, the fullness of Your splendor and goodness. To the ends of the earth, i want to see Your mighty hands sweeping across. I want to see African kids saying grace, thanking You for the food. I want to see the Chinese on their knees. I want to see the whites with tears in their eyes. I want to see the Malays coming back to You. I want to see Indians lifting their hands. I want to see Jerusalem shining in Your glory. I want to see nations turning to Christ in a day. I want to see the world turn to You.

I want to see Your miracles. I don't want second hand information. I want first hand experience. I want to enter the zone of the supernatural. I want to see Your Spirit move.

I want to be a part of ALL that You're doing. This new outpouring of the Spirit. Lord i want it. All that is from You. All that they have. All that i lack. Lord i want it. I just want more of You.

Nothing else matter. I can die the next second for all i care, cos i know in this very second, i've got You. That, for me Lord, is more than sufficient =)

Lord I pray change me. Change me into the image of Christ Jesus. Help me be like Jesus, talk like Jesus, think like Jesus, act like Jesus. I want to be a walking Bible that the world reads. Father as they look at my life, let them see Your greatness and power manifested. Let them see Your love and GLORY. Let me be a vessel for Your work.

I want to go to CHINA.

4th Feb 07 11.32pm.

Puii-

12:48 AM

What are you feeding on today?

Sorry for the long MIA-ing. Dance's got me real drained out. I'm so supposed to be asleep like hours ago. Hecks, i've got a blogging mood today. Have been on a computer-fast. Forced to i would say. Reaching home everyday with tired legs and dead brains, i found myself heading straight to dreamland. hahaha~

So a lil updates. Proj o training's started again, @ a higher level this time. Training mostly under Ryan. Technics and stuff. Plus we're gonna do breaking too. And stuff and stuff. its gonna be fun! =)

Just that, i dont know if my poor limbs can take it. Cos just two days into this new training thing i cant even walk staircases normally. Goodness. My legs are like useless =(

So everyday, after training till night, early next morning, what a thing to look forward to. Ballet =))) Hahahaha~ well, not that i lost the passion. its just draining.

Okay, i'm starting to sound depressing..

God is my strength! =) For that goal He's set before me, i'll work hard to achieve it =))) *look to heaven*

My way of dealing with super tired body is to eat. Perhaps a signal sent to my brains by my body, "i need some energy here" so i get hungry real easy when i'm drained. Reached woodlands just now and the nonsense food at Pasamalan tempted me.

And i heard something within me..

What you're eating now, it'll taste the best to you. I had cheese hotdog, seaweed chicken and taiwan sassage. So as i ate, i felt i didnt want to eat the other two, cos the one i'm eating right now is what i like. Then when i changed food, i suddenly feel i'd rather eat this instead. Like, my taste changed with what i was eating..

So i thought. If that's the case for the natural, it must be the same for the spiritual.

Our soul gets hungry. It surely will. What we feed it is important. Cos what we acquire a taste for, we will desire. When we're hungry physically, we can choose to fill ourselves with junk food, or proper meals. As such, when our soul is hungry, we can feed it with alot of things. So i ask, what are you feeding YOUR soul today?

When some feels empty, they find activities to fill that void in their life. Some go to the pub and drink themselves silly, some bury themselves in books, some just roll downhill and slacked away in life, some get into endless relationships to satisfy the lack of love, some use dance to fill that emptiness within, some put on a fake front to hide that which is in them. However, all these will just give temporal satisfaction to our soul.

We can choose things of the world to satisfy us, or the things from above. Just like my pasamalam food, what we're feeding on now seems like all that we want, and all that we need. Yet, there is something better, something greater within reach. If only you'll reach out and grab it. If only you go forward and drink it. If only you'll be hungry enough to press in, for a touch from heaven.

That which can truly satisfy us is the things of the Spirit, and His presence.

People living a life wearing masks will never have true happiness. But in God, in His presence we can put away all fake fronts. we can be who we are.

If the presence of God has a taste, it must be salty. A taste of His presence, you'll find yourself coming back to this river to drink again. As salt satisfy, and makes you thirsty, a touch from heaven makes us pants like a deer for His living water.

"Come, drink this living water. and you'll never thirst again" Jesus said to the Samarian women in the desert. So He invites us to His river today, to take a deep gulp of His water. Cos He sees the desert in our soul.

Puii-

12:01 AM

Sunday, February 04, 2007

CHINA. <3

To all you peeps having exams now. STUDY HARD!!!!! =))) i just realised this week that next week's my assesement. ahahhaha. so yea. STUDY HARD. study smart. get good result. eat prata.

okay the last one was just....random..

Service was a wow. And a word just rang in my heart throughout.

"God, out of China, you've brought me here. Father, bring me back to China. I want to see Your kingdom come, Your will be done, in the land which i had come from. Father. Bless China."

I just feel its amazing how God take cares of little details. My coming to Singapore is not a coincidence. Being born there is not an accident. It's just amazing, seeing God put everything into place. I know someday, i'll go back to China, to GuangZhou, to Hong Kong. I want to be a blessing there.

Well, i dont know when i dont know how. But then again, since when did we now anything? Its all in His plan. Its all in His hands. His love for China, i want to catch it in my spirit.

Holy Spirit, Rain Down
Holy Spirit rain down
rain down
o Comforter and Friend
how we need Your touch again

Holy Spirit rain down
rain down
let Your power fall
let Your voice be heard
come and change our hearts
as we stand on Your word

Holy Spirit
rain down.

no eyes has seen
no ears has heard
no mind can know
what God has in store

so open up heaven
open it wide
over Your church
and over our lives

i desire.

From Theresa's blog:
No matter how weak a member of the team is, it is still equally important. Everything narrows down to one explaination, because we are a team, and one that stands together to breathe the breath of Heaven. a team that would live through the revelations betowed on us, a team that would go through every mountains and every valleys together. ONE team that will help each other in times of need, one team that worships one God, fulfills that one calling and reaches for that one goal together. One team with different personalities yet living in the same heartbeat build on prayer, Faith, unity & love.

FAITH produces LOVE which bings UNITY that creates POWER to bring GLORY to Jesus' name.

God delights in the unity of His children.

Once i heard in John Bevere's sermon, that once, he was passing by his garden. and he saw his three daughters playing together. when one falls down, instead of laughing, the other two helps her up. this stirred his love, and he joined them for a time of fellowship. he rejoiced in their unity.

God delights in the unity of His children.

Why should we turn our backs against each other? Why should we hold grudges against each other? Unity!!! My friends. A team working towards the same goal. A body of many members, leaning on each other, helping each other. Its totally not about fragmentation, but the totality of the team.

It might be pride thats working. But the truth is, no matter how bad a person in the team is, there'll always be something that we can learn. Lets all be forgiving and accepting of each other. Lets be like a family. Knock down the wall that divides.

Unite. and God will delight in it. and in all His joy, He'll enter. He'll join in. His presence will come. =)

Puii- high in the spirit.

5:10 PM

Saturday, February 03, 2007

Kill that dancer's ego.

Here i am. Send me, and i'll go. Say the word, and i'll sing, i'll dance, i'll go forward, i'll kneel down, i'll follow. Lead me and i'll follow. Lord, take my hands and i'll go with You.

It doesnt matter where, cos where You are is where i wanna be. Lord. I want to be a missionary. I want to be Your witness. I want to tell the world of what You've done. I want to share with others Your love. I want to go to the ends of the earth, to spread Your good news.

Where You are is where i wanna be.

Received something in my spirit. Our church's going up to a whole new level. Tmr will be a big blast. I just cant help but feel SO excited. I cant wait to go straight down to expo now.

I just cant get enough of it all.

A life of adventure with You God, i dont want a glamorous, in-the-limelight life. I want an adventure, a journey with You. What's the use of poishing up our names? What's with all that pride? Lord i leave it down today. I want to pick up the cross and follow You.

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I got reminded about a dancer's pride. I seriously had enough of this ego thing. I seriously don't know WHAT is there to be proud about. WHERE did all that i-know-it-all confidence comes from. WHAT's with the i'm-da-boss attitude. WHY is everyone else wrong and you're right?

I'm so FED UP with all the "you know why?" and "Come i teach you" that comes from all these PRO dancers. Well, self-proclaimed i should say.

I seriously think dancers, ALL dancers need a mindset change. There's this dancers' pride thing going around and it's starting to irritate me. I mean, just take a look at the big picture la. We're all soooo not THERE yet, and why should you go around with your head held higher than the overhead bridge, trying to boss around, behaving like you know EVEYTHING.

That's where arguements starts. When the WHOLE group insist the movement starts at 12345678, why must you die die say its 78123456?!?!?! When you're so so wrong, by common sense, you still can ARGUE. Goodness, you needa get a life. Timin wrong, Steps wrong, and still... hai~

I got nothing against this particular person. Seriously. I feel he/she is quite a nice friend. Its just that this pride thing in him/her is seriously getting out of hand and making the WHOLE class angry and stuff. What was supposedly an enjoyable training-tgt session was turned into a SHOUTING session at each other. Everybody was like "no!! mine is correct!!".

Dun dancers have ears? Cant anyone just listen to each other?

Kill that dancer's ego in me. I dun wanna be a know-it-all. I wanna be a hear-them-all. Kill that pride. I hate pride. I just want to dance, and to enjoy dancing.

That's why they say..what's with polishing up your own name? Self praising, "My turns are very nice", "I'm so much better than her seriously", "Yea i know that one! Its soo easy what?!" All these are just empty talks. People arent gonna be impressed with just what you say. Always saying that you are good, people are just gonna think the opposite.

How pride can get to a person. ROAR. *kick satan real hard* You and your STUPID pride stuff. *kick again*

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Lord i lay down all my pride tonight. In Your presence i bend my knees. What's there for me to be so proud of? What can be compared to Your magnificent glory? My so-called achievements. Without You, it'll be like worthless sand. Lord. all i need is You. all i want is You. if pride is in between, i pray You take ALL of it away. I just want to take a step closer to You.

Heart's cry : Whatever they have. Lord I want it.

Puii-

edited. sorry for all the rage and anger above. i was just, REAL fed up. =P am fine with everything. i'm just like usual, hating satan just as much =) love joo all. tmr's final srv with Pst Ulf!! Gonna get ready in the spirit to hear once again from the man of God.

11:45 PM

A new taste.

Silent screams that i couldn't hear. It was all covered by His river. The out-stretched arm was held. The hungry soul was fed. A dry heart sang. A voice cried out. A smile landed. A heart was lifted. A kiss of heaven. Wow.

Suddenly nothing else really matter to me. Everything that i've deemed as important suddenly diminished. Suddenly, i acquired a new taste. A taste for something supernatural. A taste for the things of the spirit.

It's like when you're eating a 50 cents lollipop, and you suddenly see a Godiva Choc in front of you. Suddenly the lolly seem like crap. All you want is that choc.

All i want is You Lord.

*a never-ceasing urge to hold onto the hands that bleed for my wrong.*

*hands that hold the heavens, hold my heart tonight.*

*i sing to You Lord, a hymn of love.*

the way God uses words to touch people's heart. its just amazing. how words, mere words, can cut a heart to thousand pieces. more amazingly, how words, can also heal, encourage, and reach the raw parts of our heart. gift of words. thank You Lord.

Pst Ulf came with a word of blessing to the church. He preached about generational blessings. Was sooo blessed by the word. and yep, i am BLESSED. =)

Something struck me. Pst mentioned how in Gen, when God breathe life into Adam, the first thing Adam saw was the eyes of the Almighty. Full of fire and passion. It just struck me, what was Adam's first thoughts when he saw the Lord.

I guess it was just a plain "Wow." What thoughts would he have thought of? Was it like when we first know Christ? Did he stood there stunned? Was his heart filled with awe? I just so wanna know. hahhahaha~

We often sing, that we want to see Him face to face. I desire that with all my heart. To have a glimpse into His eyes. Noah, Abraham, Enoch, King David.. all of them walked so closely with God. That intimacy. Constant fellowship. If they can have such a strong rship with God, i want it too. I want to hear His voice. I want to feel His touch. I want to see His face. I want to know Him more. I want to fall deeper in love with God.

I'd rather spend my hours on my knees than on my feet.

Puii-


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oh my back's getting worse. i cant even dance today in school. your prayers needed!! cos i got a showcase on monday, and i dun even know if i can dance not, in this condition =( pray pray pray for divine healing =)))

4:12 AM

Friday, February 02, 2007

Deeper in love with You.

I posted this on my multiply, cos dumb blogger *mumble mumble*

ANYWAYS! Heres the post. Copied it over =)))
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Seriously Bloggers need to wake up la...all the nonsense ERROR thing. ROAR!! i'm so gonna kill bloggers. HAHA!!

anyways. i got no choice but to blog here. think will copy over to my blog tmr. or something.

school was madness. YW must be mad. telling us to do nonsense ballet. my legs almost broke pls. and contemp!!! i havent had his comtemp for two weeks loh..and he expect he to know the routines. HAHA! wtp la.. but okay la..haha..

oh i ended with a pull in my back muscles, so it's REALLI hurting now, evn just a normal forward bend. i feel like some old granny now, i cant even do hip rotation without hurting my back la..nonsnese.. haha..

pray it recover fast. and my gastric. it almost got me on the way home. haha. home-cooked food saved me. =)))

We so should kick MR S.A Tan. He is SUCH an IRRITANT i tell you... i tell you everything (ms swan face and stare at satan)

okay that was random.

anyway, YA we so should kick him. hindering us. thinking his tiny tricks like this will get us down. PLS LA! get a life. Mayb he just dun GEDDIT. that our God is sooooo much bigger than him, and he is still trying to win. Lets all stand strong in our faith, and give him one tight slap with our leather-backed book! =)

*throw ballet shoes @ the devil*

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There is no higher calling, no greater honour than to bow and kneel before Your throne.

This song was running nonstop in my head these few days. I seriously am so hungry for more of Him. ALL of Him. I just cant drink enough from this river. I just cant get deep enough into His presense. I just want more. There's gotta be more than this. There's gotta be. Time for a breakthrough. Time to go beyond the veil and enter the Holy of Holies. Time to enter where others wont. Time to go deeper in love with Him. Time to draw nearer to Him. Time to go down on our knees and worship. Time to sit by His feet and listen. Time to stay still and wait. Time to hear that whisper. Time to come to the presense of God.

Perhaps i've been stepping back. I wasnt getting what i need. Now a taste of heaven got me back on track. All i desire now is a touch from God, a kiss of heaven. A glimpse of His smile is all i yearn for. and to hear Abba Father calling out to His child.

I'd rather spend hours on my knees than on my feet. I'd rather be lifting my hands than lifting my pride. I'd rather be worshipping Him than worshipping dance. It's greater than any treasure on earth. The presence, the anointing. Nothing else really matter.

A verse in my heart.
Phil 3:13-14
"Brethren, I do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead, I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus."

Constant fellowship with God. =)))

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Ryan taught alot today. Two theories.

1. Initial movement of every step
Note the initiation of steps, cos some times the hands are doing the most obvious movement, but the initiation is not from the arms. For a "fuller" look while dancing, know how the choreographer initiates the step (eg, from the chest, from the knee), cos THAT is what that determines your style. If not your dancing will look flat. =)

2. The Atomic Effect in dancing.
As an atomic bomb explodes, it has a explosion, followed by a big mushroom of smoke. This is the "impact and mushroom" theory. Especially in lyrical hip hop and jazz stuff, we need to have IMPACT in our steps, followed by the mushroom to create the "full" look.

Yea i've blogged too long. I better head off to la la land. If you can. pray for my back can? having probs dancing now =( hee. NITES WORLD!

*p.s to plankton : v day eve =)))*

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