Saturday, June 30, 2007

ooki na furu tokei

i asked i asked i asked. speak wont You? speak loud and clear. open my ears that i can hear.

i asked. i asked. and i ask again.

bad(flat) hair day. hahahaha.

i wanna get that "Let's laugh" book!!! hahahahahahahahahaha!!! cute sia Dr Peter Wagner.

and it struck me. i saw a lil. i hear a lil. but i'm still asking. yea still asking. so stop asking me. =)

OMGosh JJ Lin's new song's da dope! =)

and you still can make me very happie today! =) *psst! JJ's 5th album, Xi Jie ^^ *

hahahaha okay i'm suppose to sleep now. tata world!

puii- learningagape.

11:39 PM

Friday, June 29, 2007

to love. live loved.

and i finished a wonderful book today. A Love Worth Giving =))) it was like, jaw-dropping good. kneel down, hammering chest and crying good! i'm ready to go out and love someone, everyone =)))

haha gonna write about it some other day. pretty tired sia. though i slept like alot. =P

got some stuffs to ponder about. alot of stuffs. a chat with Daddy before i head for lala land! =)

and YES! did i tell you? i finally got to serve CHOIR! ehhhhhh i think i did. anyways, YES i am soooooo glad. i was their "lost sheep" please. think they got the wrong contact number or something. aahahha so i retook my vocal test, got my ICs and helpers contacts. and YES i'm serving in choir again!

choir prac was awesome fun (sorry a lil late ah..now then say) haha~ went with Thes darl. we did, and sang the impossible. CHOIR SPEED LEARNING!! hahaha~ we learned like uber alot of parts all at one shot. and guess what. the Hallelujah Chorus from Messiah written by Handel. Yes that all famous Ha~~~llelujah song. Woah i tell you that the madness la! hahahah.. it was hard to catch. hard to reach. hard to remember. a song with 200+ years history. ROAR it was great fun =)

THES got pulled out by Ally to sing in front of the choir that time!! I think she was super super thankful sopranos was singing the melody. but watching her out there was FUNNIE =P































my days are fun, and my hand is held. and i thank You for all that =)))

What is that sound
Ringing in my ears
The strangest sound
I've heard for years and years
The sound of two hearts
Beating side by side
The sound of one love
That neither one can hide

The sound that makes the world go round
The sound that makes the world go round

What is that sound
Running round my head
Funny i thought
That part was long since dead
But now there's new life
Coursing through my veins
Because there's Someone
Who'll make it beat again

The sound that makes the world go round
The sound that makes the world go round
The sound that makes the world go round
The sound that makes the world go round

What is that sound
Ringing in my ears
The strangest sound
I've heard for years and years
The sound of two hearts
Beating side by side
The sound of one love
That neither one can hide

puii- livin' loved!

11:21 PM

open my eyes.

she doesnt deserves this. what's with getting out even when she's weak in the knees and fainting, just to get those BEAN SPROUT to fry all em bee hoon that NOBODY bothers to eat.

she could do with a lil more love, at least make an effort and drink some tea?

puii- offer some love. and peace.

10:45 PM

i love china

swim swam SWUM! =)

went that same pool with ivonn darl to swim again!! haahhaha ya like we just went on monday please. and so sad!! the swimming complex canteen thingy NEVER OPEN! my gosh i so so so sooooooo wanted that mee siam and hot milo please!

but we were very guai okay. we kept swimming. and playing of cos hahahahaha. we did nonsense things like trying to pose on the pool floor, and did the *june action* in the water!! =P hahahhaahaa we were so nonsense.

but we SWAM! we really did! =)

and YES! today's sun is sooooooo much bigger!! my gosh my FACE! yes yes that faye wong look. Grr!!

slacked around hougang with ivonn(mai ya tang). we were both drifting off and 'floating' already. the swim so drained us of every last bit of energy! haha! so we were walking around, kinda zombified. we walk funny. talk funny. act funny. we were soooo self entertaining. haha!

then i became alone. at 3 plus. when my choir calltime is 7. wtpinkish long time. took the longest bus that'll get me near expo. so took a UBER long bus trip to bedok first. 4 plus. walked around, even watson, sinma, supermarket. YES the vege and meat section too. i was THAT bored.

and it wasnt till 5 plus did i realised i coulda find somewhere to sit and read -_- but ivonn say i'll doze off anyway. quite true. haha~

made my early early way to expo. spent FOREVER to do makeup. dilly dally. ka jiao chew and aaron a lil. then head for choir.

see how SAD it is when you got NOTHING to do?! omg now i pity the lost. lost in life. not knowing where to go, what to do with their life. just living. living. living. no, just existing.

how SAD. time to pray for them =)

sooooooooooo long never serve choir le please. sooo long that there's people who thought i was new there -_- hahahaha i'm in choir for like YEARS la. muahahahahaahahahahah heritage. HAAH! =P

prayer meeting left me with no voice and a full heart. prayerful. contended. thankful. joyful. yep two things decreased, my voice and 'me' =)

WISHLISTTTT!! (for anyone who wants to make me UBER happie) :
JJ Lin Jun Jie's new album. XI JIE!! Out on 29th June(meaning today) wahahahahahaha!

puii- yawn all em tired muscles away!

2:40 AM

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

that funnie Prairie dog

omg this so made my day a happier one. i laughed like MAD. realli!! =P

puii- hahahahahaha~~

5:06 PM

do we make you proud.

my days are getting bore-der. and yup fruitful-ier. this holiday's gonna have a lot of swimming, hiphoping, balleting, pointe pointe, theraband, crunches(hopefully), reading, revelation-ing, praying, praying, eating(as lil as possible), and hk-ing!! =)

yes i'm going back HK again! =P

okay, not very looking forward. got that oh-so-dreaded shopping thing. and all that please-please-please-stop eating. oh dun mention that i-miss-my-bed thing. hahahahaha~ Tho i get to eat plane food and take lots of picture. =P

i am so freakin my parents out by not sleeping at night. i think they'll send me to the docs soon or something. hahahaha~ i thought they would have gotten used to it with every holiday that comes. apparently there aint no changes. haha~

decided to join suntec dance with projo and a few other peeps. gonna be fun! (i hope) hahahahaha~ will be la will be =)

i miss em trainings with project o already =(((

YES choir prac tomorrow!! like F-I-N-A-L-L-Y!!!!! Hahahahahahahahahhahahahaah THES! BAN MIAN!! =)

puii- hunting for songs.

4:56 AM

Monday, June 25, 2007

to Project O, with love <3

A vid for my loves. my peeps. =)

puii- YES I SWAM TODAY! =)

11:08 PM

Sunday, June 24, 2007

i love Project O

i am okay =) thanks for all em messages that yall dropped.

perhaps its just those days you want to spend alone.

everything's okay too. no worrys. realli =) i'll get a hold of myself. i'll stand normal tomorrow, i promise.

oh by the way, yesterday marks the end of project O. had our exam! was pretty okay i guess. we all tried our best i'm sure, with all that freaking out and lack of practice.

i'm proud to be in Project O =) not for all the fame (if any) it'll bring, but all the things i've brought out with me, it'll be safe with me forever. things i've learned, and seen, and got a hold of. i believe we've all received something, and we've all grown, to be a better dancer, a better person. yes still imperfect. but we're all going on to perfection =)

Let the pictures talk. Talk about how this past year has been. Yes project O's been lasting for a year now, cos we had lotsa stuff in between and all. Come, lets walk through the year again shall we? Forget all our faults and conflict we had, forget all the quarrels, black faces, attitudes, giving up. Lets just look back at how happie we were.

and how we've all danced together. and stayed together.

[i decided to change it to a vid. so, scroll up for it =)))]

Yea so.. here's a song i picked. a song i hope we could sing together. =)


Don’t lose your way
With each passing day
You’ve come so far
Don’t throw it away

Live your story
Faith, hope & glory
Hold to the truth in your heart

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and i

When we are out there in the dark
We’ll dream about the sun
In the dark we’ll feel the light
Warm our hearts, everyone

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
As high as souls can fly
The clouds roll by
For you and i

i love you all. really. <3

puii- if we hold on together.

11:51 PM

cos i had a bad day

I shouldnt be saying this, whats more with praise and worship going on in another window. i know i should be in church singing. i know i should be smiling and cheerfully joking around as i always am doing.

but how long has it been since i last was driven to tears. when was the last time i was this upset?

maybe i'm seriously asking way too much from you all. but, an SMS of concern aint all that much to ask for right? At least something as simple as a "you okay?". Am i asking too much? After a sleepless night worrying, even if you don't give me a hand and wake me up, at least ask me? When i'm not appearing, and not contacting anyone, and when i said i'm not going for service. Are SMSes so hard to send out?

Today my love tank runs empty. and i'm not surprised it would.

Am i expecting too much? Mayb yall think its not that big a deal, and its all my fault that i didnt appear for service. but that fact is, it's not that i cant freaking wake up, but i'm so freaking tired of everything. i'm freaking tired of concerning, and not being concerned. i'm freaking tired of hugging, and not hugged. i'm freaking tired of empty speeches, empty promises, empty words.

words that cuts in times of need.

words that say you'll be there, but you're not. words that say you'll love, but you didnt.

and i'm sorry it might sound unfair. cos i do receive concerns sometimes, and you do care deep down. but do you know? at times like this, concern that comes too late looks even more discouraging. its like coming to my rescue only after i stop breathing.

it hurts. alot.

i am guilty too. we all are. just that i'm the victim this time. for once let me sulk. for once let me vent. i'm so freaking tired.

and its not because i didnt freaking sleep last night, so i cant freaking wake up today. who would've known how tired i am, how i want to sleep. but who then again, would've known how i spent my night, waking up, worried she would have a nightmare. worried that she wont be able to rest well. who would've seen how freaking angry i was with the devil, searching through tons of books in the middle of the night, fighting the devil the best way i know how.

who would've known how freaking tired i was, yet i don't dare sleep. every movement and sound she made i sat up straight.

how tired. and no helping hand. no one to just try and wake me up.

how dissapointing.

and i thought yall would understand, and would care enough to just ask how am i. even if you don't know why i'm not in service, couldn't you've asked if i was sick or anything? must i be assumed to have overslept? must i?

i was trembling, yes crying hard. i didnt want to go out and face people. i know i'll flare. big time. super emofied today. perhaps i'll stay outta contact for the day. i'm way too upset.

thank God for being there. if not i would've broke down even more. thanks for being there for me. thanks for loving me as You always did. You might have had a bad and tiring day, but yet You chosed to love me. You are, indeed, love.

"That which man has emptied, come to me, and I will fill. Come to me, and I will give you peace, and joy, and rest. I love you child. I am always here beside you. This is not a race you're running on your own. Always remember I'm there to hold your hands and walk down every step of the way."

That which man has emptied, He will fill.

and He is love. He is love.

after sulking, puiman, go back to loving people. Yes you still need to love people fervently.

puii- learning, to love, to expect lesser from people.

10:18 AM

i commit again

Father, if its the price to pay, then i'll gladly pay it. for this cause i was born.

i'll pay the price.

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I needa buy a slap-o-machine and put in front of the devil. slap the brains outta him. cut of his legs that he cannot run around and do nonsense stuff. feed him ten thousand boxes of chips and chilli, and end him up with an eternity of sore throat and lose his voice, so he wont be able to speak those nonsense stuffs to people's heart. he deserved to be kicked left right up down, put into a (big enough) blender and......... yea.. it'll just get grosser, so lets just stop here la huh.

to ____ ______ : face the consuming fire.

puii- sleepless night.

1:59 AM

Saturday, June 23, 2007

2 more minutes.

i am tired. nope not just physically. i guess thats what it meant. a life of fighting. fighting fear. fighting angry. fighting all that would make Him sad.

i need strength. my punches and kicks arent as hard nowadays. mayb thats why the devil's being increasingly irritating.

i need strength.

i'm tired of doubting. i'm tired of encouraging everyone else except myself. i hate it when i say it and i do otherwise. i hate it when i cant just love myself a bit more.

okay. stop being emo puiman.

puii- Your DNA inside.






had a great time with my fellow representers and some dance peeps at Xclusive Party. some dance reachout thingy under YZ zone. we were mad. =) and i laughed alot. i think my voice's gone all hoarse now.

okay that sudden rush of emoness makes me tired. i'm going to have a chat with Him and go sleep =)

PROJECT O EXAMS (postponed to) TOMORROW!

i could die.

puii- then again, i wasnt really livin.

4:19 AM

Friday, June 22, 2007

i wasnt really livin'

Okay. people's gonna kill me. but i ended up not sleeping.

not delibrately though. suppose to wake sinman up at 5am, cos she was suppose to go airport send people off. so i stay awake la. then by the time i woke her up, remembered i'm suppose to help my dad do up a namecard thingy. so hahaha i worked till the sun came out. and kena scolded again -_-

i also not sleepy whatttttt~~~

anyways. i am so proud i got such a creative and fun and cute dad =)

oh. holiday's probably driven me crazy, up the wall bored okay? know what i did yesterday after stoning for sooooo long?

i re-played neopets -_-

HAHAHA!! like so ridiculous. but yes i did. and i felt like i went back primary school or something. =P

ROAR why cant i do more clever stuff like doing some crunches for my poor(growing/extending) tummy =P

Never mind. now i'm a lil tired. think i'll go slp in a while

Rep Crew performance.
7pm today @ Riverwalk(Clarke Quek). Tell me if you wanna go, tag, email, sms all can la =))) HEE! =)))

puii- driven, up the walls, across the ceiling.

9:23 AM

Thursday, June 21, 2007

good morning.

exams was postponed. dang! so i got real excited for nothing. hmmm my plan of swimming was shattered once again. thanks to that very very long supper with mabel the penguin. now i wont be able to get up in time for a swim. hahahaahaah~

got home near morning. mum almost killed me. =P but i still dun understand what's there to worry about, since i was at the kopitiam downstairs with tons of eyes watching over me. dun worry, robbers dont stop by for coffee.

plus, it never realli gets quiet over at my place. there'll always be someone around. walking and stuff. mayb woodlanders are just weird, or prone to have insomia. hahaahhaahahhaa

i was amazed. how negative i can get when i'm with negative people. oh change me! =P

okay the sun's way out now, its uber bright outside. i better go find my bed before my mum's chopper do. =P

puii- feeling spastic and retarded =)))

7:23 AM

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

where do we go from here

To Daddy God:


Tmr's Project O final exam already. A lil anxious. A lil excited. A lil reluctant. It is, afterall, our last exam, marking the end of Project O.

And yes i haven't got an answer yet. Should i stay or should i go back?

To my Proj O darls. All the BEST tomorrow! I know.. so unprepared.. so unsure. But lets just all do our best okay? =))) Lets all be strong finishers. We have, afterall, grown so much through this nine month(or longer) together. =) Well, don't know how many of you will still stay in DN1, but just wanna say no matter where we are, if we're together as a team or not, i'll still love yall! =) Those times we danced together, remembered and appreciated!

puii- remember remembering.

4:35 PM

there. there. why were you.

You would tend to want peace and harmony. prefer to let others initiate action and resolve problems. are quiet and indirect in their approach to most situations. are usually cautious and calculate risks carefully before acting.

"They are generally well liked because of their mild and gentle nature. Other people will tend to see them as being patient, calm, thoughtful and a good listener."

You are usually socially passive. quite frequently have an affinity for things, machinery and equipment. are generally comfortable working alone. frequently have a tendency to be analytical and once they have sorted the facts out they communicate them in a straightforward direct way. tend to take little at face value.

"They may well have learned and developed good social skills but they only bring these into play when logic dictates such tactics"

You possess and display a mixture of the traits and behaviours associated with both "having the ability to deal with the task in hand and to do routine work with patience and care" and "enjoying stretching yourself intellectually and physically". A well balanced mix of the best of both ranges.

"Unlikely to be 'extreme' types."

You are independent and uninhibited. resent rules and restrictions. prefer to be measured by results and are always willing to try the untried.

"Free in thought, word and deed, they long for freedom and go to great lengths to achieve it.They feel that repetitive detail and routine work is best 'delegated'."

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Did one of em personality test thingys. Well, it might be true, so i thought i'd just post it up. =P Pretty interesting eh?







a random find off the internet.

oh i was just telling theresa i JUST realised how useful the internet is. hahahhahaha~ just google it, there! answer =) HAHAHA i couldnt believe i was sucha noobsandwich that i didnt.. nvm.. =P

Had a fun time out with Ivonn today. haha as usual we talked alot of nonsense stuff and did alot of nonsense things and ate alot of nonsense food. hahahahaha~

Ballet with my favourite people! (and others whom i have no idea who) =P

Cher was so irritating! Always ka jiao people pls! Haiya, i also know i got fatter during the hol(due to NONSTOP eating) hahahaha~ keep saying our FLABS and MACDONALD(meaning tummy) hahahaha~

where got people stand beside me during grand battement and say "if you kick me you die ah" one?!?! =P

and i dont geddit. are we misbehaving in ballet class? or are the others too serious. hahaha~ *look at ivonn and june*

I WAN TO SWIM!

There was an irritating bug/insect thingy that flew to my ears and SQUEAK(or buzz) very loudly! TWICE!! omg i got the shock of my life. i quickly covered my ears with my trusty headband =)))

and a long walk with You was comforting. how long has it been since i last walked with You? no wonder i love You. quality time. (physical) touch. touching the deepest of my being. You hold the key to my heart =)

and Cal! key to the heart of the heart. AHAH!! =P (inside joke)

i know i wont be alone. never has. never will. i know the path ahead will be hard. but i know in my hand, is always Yours. =)

puiman will stand up and walk everytime she says a joke. becoz "the lame shall walk" =P

okay i realli gets VERY random when its late.

puii- in love with instrumental.

1:49 AM

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

yes tell me a story

I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
I'm hearin what you say
but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down,
but wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around,
and say...

It's too late to apologize,
it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize,
it's too late

I'd take another chance,
take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart
needs a beat
But it's nothin new

I loved you with a fire red-
Now it's turning blue,
and you say...
"Sorry" like the angel heaven
let me think was you
But I'm afraid...

It's too late to apologize,
it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize,
it's too late

I'm holdin on your rope,
got me ten feet off the ground...

and no. its not too late. its never too late, He says. if you'd stretch out your hands, He'll grab. He won't let go. its never too late to apologize. i'll be praying for you. whoever you are. =)

okay. just a surge of stuffs.

nice celebration of daddy day! =) finally decided to eat at Dian Xiao Er @ Causeway Point. Well, as usual its hard to please these four difficult customers(meaning us)'s taste. But there's this uber cute and nice aunty working there. She works there everyday except Wed cos she needa go church(glad to hear). HAhahahaha~ so realli nice.

i loved daddy by buying him a bottle of cool hebal tea and writing a cheapo card. my sister loved him by treating him(and the family) dinner. my dad loved us by getting us a digital cam. 0_0

totally unproportionate love. HAHA! when can i be the one giving digital cam?!

i got this HUGE craving for salad. thousand island. olive oil and lemon. black pepper. salt. sugar. vege vege VEGE! omgosh. =(((

spent some time doing up my stats counter and imeem thingy. and dl-ing songs ah. by the time i realise it.. its near morning -_-

actually. i had alot i wanted to say. but i forgot. =(

oh yes oh yes oh yes we both oh yes we both oh yes we both reached for the gun the gun the gun the gun oh yes we both reached for the gun for the gun

OMGosh! i found JJ Lin's new song on imeem. but its not out in market yet. sounds nice enough for me to buy! Lin Jun Jie!! *faints*

tell me a story. about that galaxy far away. and what happen to the grandma of that tiny lil ant. sing me a song. counting 1, 2, 3. saying A, B, C.

cook me some stuff. make me cereals.

mayb the later it gets. the more random i am.

puii- i love daddys.

4:23 AM

Monday, June 18, 2007

fathers' day

Dang! i just found out woodlands swimming complex won't reopen till Aug. Where can i can i can i SWIM?!

i love my dad =)

i'm sorry i wasnt a good enough daughter. and i wouldn't say i've tried my best. with those late-coming back and always not at home. i guess you're like uber irritated and stuff. but i thank you for being so strong. for doing so much for the family. for loving us no matter the circumstances. for giving us a complete, happy family. though we all flare and quarrel at times, i know we still love each other =) thank you for being such a great daddy =) i hope that herbal tea works better than those fans! =)

okay now i'm suppose to translate into chinese, without all those mushy stuffs.

now.. what is "uber" in chinese -_-

Happy Fathers' Day! Hope yall had a nice time with all your daddies. Mine's working, so gonna celebrate tmr =)

and... what was i gonna say?

oh. i wanna write out a list of stuffs to complete by the end of my holiday =) in preparation of the new school term, and also, the road ahead =))) mostly PT and BC stuffs. working towards a stronger, healthier and fitter puiman! (sound like some commercials) -_-

sometimes its so much easier to love a perfect God, than to love imperfect people. or i should say.........

always.

and HOW LONG MORE will you say things that you don't mean?! how long more must i tolerate with fake speeches?! how long more must i be deceived?! how long more did you think i would be in the dark?! how long more do you wanna hide?! was it all a lie?! was it all just for joy peace and laughter? if thats how it is, then lets have war.

puii- laughing realli loudly at theresa's hanyu pinyin blog. =P

1:25 AM

dashing forth. emerging.

i have a destiny
i know i shall fulfill
i have a destiny
in a city on a hill
i have a destiny
its not an empty wish
for i know i was born
for such a time as this.

hammering in my head. and i know its true =) and i thought Fathers' day is suppose to be a time of giving pressies to God. i got one instead. an assurance, from the highest heavens. a comfort. i'll be under His wings. He'll guide me through. That which He said for me to do, He has already done it. He has gone before me. He has empowered me.

Now world. watch me. =)

puii- like a volcano erupting.

1:03 AM

Saturday, June 16, 2007

another day

Spent my day slacking at home. ROAR. if only i could go and meet my proj o darlings. =P

11:36 PM

flu flu go away!

Feeling somewhat better. =P Mayb someone miss me la~~ thats why all that nonstop sneezing for the past 5 minutes. hahhahahaha~

ROAR i think i need more cooling stuffs. like very heaty =(((

i think i should be sick more often (okay, not literally..) cos i'll have more time for stuffs i've always been pushing back. yesterday i finally started reading a book i've bought for like....years? hahahahahhaa~

and...

why do they hate Israel so much?!

puii- all that injustice. =(

2:20 PM

Friday, June 15, 2007

sick of being sick

A dose of weird med, big bottle of jv hua cha, a big apple, alot alot of sleep, and all that prayer cures. i'm feeling somewhat better. guess i'll need a dose more of med and milo to feel totally better =)))

shucks i missed cellgroup. i miss all em DN1 peeps. haha

Flu flu GO AWAY!

i've decided in between bites of apple and sneezes. i'm gonna say sorry to those i've been unloving towards. and i'm gonna learn to walk in love =)

puii-

11:00 PM

some stuffs

Saw this on Kezia's blog. Hahhaahaha, like pretty funnie eh? =P



Btw.. number 7 is so totally not true. =P

puii- sick of being sick.

3:15 PM

and these few days...

's been a surprisingly busy week. i thought i would be slacking it away or something, since its after Emerge and TBG and everything.

Still got some stuff i wan to do, but cant this week. mayb next week i'll go.

Met with some friends i havent been out with for a year plus two. Hahahaha such a weird reunion. But it was fun too, catching up with each other. OMGosh they are total psychotics. They fed me like there's no tommorow at Yuki Yaki. When i have ballet class after that la~

Thats why i kept holding to my stomach during class. Not that i have a tummy ache or what. hahahahahaahahaha omgosh i tell you, that kind of fullness.. is beyond joy and satisfaction. realli BEYOND, and over the board. hahahahaha~

I enjoyed ballet-ing with my fav girls! =) Though we are always doing funnie stuffs. But i miss CAROL!! haiyo, like so long nv see her. Faster F4 UNITE! zoo zoo zooooo!!!! =)

Wed~ went Ee Ching class. haiya, that construction worker look alike guy didnt come. was so funnie last week. HAHAHA!! i tot this guy was coming in to fix some lightbulb or something. then he suddenly join warm up!!! so sorry la.. but it was realli very funnie. hahahahahaha..

and it ws ee ching's class that made me realise its time for some serious swimming. =P

today. suppose to prac at SMU before going lyrical jazz. but that same security come and tell us we "cannot dancing" there, hahahahaah~ so we did him a "flavour" and left before he could catch us doing all em across the floor stuffs. hahaha~

i think i need a pair of proper dancing shoes. Nike is not nice to dance in la~~ =P hahahahaahhaa.. mayb should get something more comfortable and more gentle on my feet.

God bless iTunes and Podcasts. i can satisfy my craving for the Word. and YES i love Joyce Meyer. she rock my itchy mouth like pushpop =))) I found a sea of sermon, so i jumped in and swam. Goodness.. =)))

okay. bed time!

puii- life in the spirit.

12:38 AM

Thursday, June 14, 2007

love builds up - joyce meyer

A person walking in love edifies and builds others up, and dont get up every morning just wishing someone will cheer them up. They make it their business to make someone else feel better, even if it means laying down their lives, and going out of the way.

Just because you dun feel like being sweet and nice, doesnt mean that you are relieved of the responsibility of being so. You need more discipline to be nice today, than yesterday, cos when you're tired you just want to be left alone. love is not a feeling. its a choice! You have to decide to do things for others, and you have to decide to love your enemy, to decide to do that which is hard for you, to edify and lift others up. to choose to walk in love.

we're glorifying God by walking in love.

God has put some poeple in your life that He wants you to just love them in the wholeness. When you cry "but i need somebody to love me..." well how do you get what you wan? by giving away what you need. if you need someone to compliment you, go compliment somebody else. if you need someone to appreciate you, go appreciate someone else. if you need someone to show you special attention, go show special to others. sow your seed and believe God for a harvest!

money's not the only thing God is asking us to give away.

we are created to be loved, we are not created for rejection. to feel love, to feel right. you're not suppose to feel wrong all the time. the first thing God give upon salvation is RIGHTeousness to replace our wrongness.He that knew no sin became sin that we have obtain His righteouness.

If you are love-starved. and is a mess, and need someone to love. Go to God, not people.

You cannot give a person in your life the responsibility of providing you with feelings of self worth. You cant just demand it out of people and leave God outta it. run to God first. run to God. my personal happiness is not others' responsibility. i cant look to others without going to God, to find love.

oh, and.. love never fails.

puii- agape.

3:12 PM

kicking the devil.

the devil attacks.

nightmare came, and disrupted my peace. and i had two very very very bad nightmares in a row. not coincidience...

yes i woke up quite trembling. it was all too vivid. those anger. those false hopes. that SNAKE. those death. that choking fear.

and i laid there trying to shake those stuff outta my head. so i on some random worship songs from my phone, didnt work. images flooded my mind. so i got up and watched some vids in my phone, i thought some new images would push those older ones aside (i didnt know what i was thinking) hahaha~ anyways so i was watching Represent's vids. then the next vid was my little nephew and relatives in China. after that, a vid in China, a flag raising, with the China national anthem playing at the back ground.

i love China, (and all em nations). walking in the streets, all i see is a love-starved society. lost. realli very lost. and YES i walk by, uttering a small prayer for em. Yes i love all my relatives. i long to see the lost come back. i keep praying, and i know it will happen. those waves, those hands, those lights.

and a voice came. and i'm pretty sure its from the devil. in that second dream, there was a magician, with a snake. a snake that knew the purity of ones heart. and people gets tricked to go with them, and is killed, in the name of being unpure at heart. blah blah blah.. and it wasnt pretty. it wasnt kind. the scorn. the lust for blood in those eyes. God i hate that. i hate that devil.

and yes i was watching those vids of China, a voice spoke. "i'll attack. i know something is gonna happen but i'm not gonna lie aside silent. i'll strike, and what will you do? what CAN you do? it'll be the same in that dream.. you'll watch on, and you cant do anything.. you'll see those you love walking towards me. and yes you cant do anything."

"i'll come and steal your peace, kill your joy, and destroy your life. what CAN you do about it?!"

i was angry. very very angry. and yes i HATE that devil.

"Will you, in spite of fear, have faith in Me? Will you, though you hate conflict, live a life of war? Will you pray, for those you love, and I love? Will you fight, despite feeling so small and helpless? Will you rise up, and become My warrior in faith, in prayer? You know something is gonna happen, and will you make it happen? Will you stand in the gap? Will you, knowing you'll face more attacks and tribulations and temptations and accusations etc, still stand against the powers of darkness? Will you still stand by Me? Will you fight, this fight of faith, this fight in the spirit? Will you walk this path, filled with arrows?"

why should i let fear grip me. i'll stand. i'll run. i'll fight for this cause. i'll fight for those i love, and those He love. i'll fight the fight of FAITH. i'll pray up a storm. i'll build up others with love. where there's no love, i'll bring the love, i'll be the love. i'll do my best to make the world a better place.

"So Jesus answered and said to them, “Have faith in God. For assuredly, I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, ‘Be removed and be cast into the sea,’ and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that those things he says will be done, he will have whatever he says. Therefore I say to you, whatever things you ask when you pray, believe that you receive them, and you will have them."

puii- rom 12:12

1:23 AM

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

excitement.

i'm excited.

1. i found WCO's blog. tho its in jap, i sorta can read abit.

and all they blogged about (and what i can understand) is the weather and dance. hahaha~

2. i heard a dumb version of Avril Lavinge's song. Girlfriend in Mandrain!!!!! OMGosh its so funnie. reall very funnie.




3. (main reason) i prayed, and know something is happening =) i saw waves, i saw hands, i saw light all over over, it was a wow. something's gonna hit earth, and yes its not a stone from outer space.

okay i gotta head out of house now if i dun wan to be late. =)

puii- ballet at night! =)

12:35 PM

my angel gabriel

i think i'm in love with Lamb.

I can fly
but I want his wings
I can shine even in the darkness,
but I crave the light that he brings,
revel in the songs that he sings
My angel Gabriel

I can love
but I need his heart
I am strong even on my own,
but from him I never want to part
He's been there since the very start
My angel Gabriel
My angel Gabriel

Bless the day he came to be
Angels' wings carried him to me
Heavenly!
I can fly
but I want his wings
I can shine even in the darkness,
but I crave the light that he brings,
revel in the songs that he sings
My angel Gabriel
My angel Gabriel
My angel Gabriel



and oh. TBG is officially over. and YES i got to see my far far VERY far away shuai ge again! =P hahahaha took a pic with WCO! cant wait to get it from Uncle Ben Ben Ben.

AH! a pic with BONNNNNNNNNN HAN SUM(from very far away)!! he rock ah!! like totally =) and cal plankie got a pic with her dommie-poo dominique. hahahahahah we were both behaving like xiao ah lians chasing some stars, jumping around when we got a pic with them. hahahahaha~




and to theresaFISH. shohei looks nicer on stage =))) HAHA! though he's one of the nicer looking ones in WCO.

okay. so my day was spent slacking. then fainting(hahaha). =P tmr gonna ballet!! like finally. hahahaha oh no, i sense the muscle aches, and drying throat, and throbbing heart, going to die, going to die, crawling out of the studio. hahahaha~ then again, mayb it wont be all that bad. =P hahhahaha~

've been reading on pointe shoes. well, i'm gaining in knowledge, and not strength. hahahah~ i better go train up my irritating ankles if i dun wanna twist and crush it or something.

and i'm amazed by something i saw...

Ways to cushion the foot in the Pointe Shoe:

Lambs Wool: It may be old fashion but it still works great! Use to pad entire box area, or just a wad makes a great toe spacer, or protection for a pressure point.

Ouch Pouch: Firm Thin pouch works great.

Gaynor Minden Cushions: Used to adjust size of shoe and are glued inside of the shoe.

Kleenex Tissue: Used by some advanced dancers. Just one layer over the toes and into the box it goes.

Siao one.. hahahahaahaha!!

okie la heading off bed. if not i'll wake up late again =P

puii- body. mind. soul.

3:02 AM

Monday, June 11, 2007

TBG i love!

TBG is (unofficially) over. just left two more sessions of master class. today was the dope.

Service and prayer meeting made my day. i prayed till my voice gone off a lil. literally shouting. hahaha. but it was a good one. =) i know revival's gonna come. inside. outside. out there. everywhere =)

there is no higher calling
no greater honour
than to bow
and kneel before Your throne

after that was TBG concert. was running around. and around. and all over over over. cant count how many times i ran all over the place. okay, i can have some hope of slimming down a LIL. =P actually i like running around, feeling busy. even if i dun realli get much done. hee =P

yes sold osch shirts. WCO shirts. blah blah. suppose to help with tickets collection and stuff. =P nvm.

O Crew was the dope. blew my mind away. like... away..

and then.. and then..

i missed alot. but it was pretty good on a whole.

shucks i missed ground scatter crew la!

WCO! WCO! WCO! they are the roxors! they took us all and we went with them. tell me one person that don't love them to bits now. ahahahahahahaha. whats with those nonsense locking, popping, hiphop, yes pure jaw-drop. and omgosh BONNN!!! so shuai! (from far.. VERYYYY far) i coulda faint when he did his solo man.

okay i'm a lil kua zhang.. -_-

but it was realli very good la. or.. what i actually caught la. was watching a lil, looking back at the booth always, or trying to see in between the curtins, or missing the whole thing altogether. roar TBG i love<3

tmr tmr tmr is last day of TBG. two master classes.

and YES after that i needa go back to my ballet and contemp. cannot nonstop hip hop ah. haahahahaha~

puii- there is no higher calling. no greater honour.

1:17 AM

Friday, June 08, 2007

.

i'm hungry.

my irritating com was weird yst. couldn't load friendster and multiply. came online see if today can. YES can already.

okay.. so lame.. lidat also wan to blog.

i'm realli hungry. very hungry.

puii- HS. JC.

12:36 PM

TBG! TBG! TBG!

in the boundaries of holy love and fear.

i was listening to pst Ulf's ancient messages, and i realised how much much much i miss him, seriously. His contagious laughter, nonsense joke, utter honesty in preaching, most of all, that smile, that hope, that closeness with God. it sorta rubs into all the people that met him. yes a person of influence.

1:09 AM

Tuesday, June 05, 2007

<3

I just realised how hard agape is. so hard to learn. so hard to do. lesson 1 and i failed. nvm! i promise to do better for retest =)))

and so sweet of that FISH to let me know, i'm not alone! =)

its just so hard, when you know you're correct, yet so accused, and still, you need to love.

its just so hard, when you're crying real hard, you cant make a noise, and still, you need to love.

its just so hard, knowing you must love, and yes, that you MUST love, you need to love.

its just so hard, facing all that silence, and still, you need to love.

but still. it was so so so much harder for my Lord Jesus, when He faced all that rejections and scorns. yet in all that hardship He could love. I need to learn. to learn agape.

puii- love never fails.

9:40 PM

represent.

this the actual comp day. sorry ah, starting already got mistake =P hahaha~

its been quite a long way i would say. good or bad are those times we spent, it doesnt matter. what's important is we all gain a lil. lose a lil. as iron sharpens iron, n hope of making each other a better person.

how we've moved so far. i thank God.

11:49 AM

Monday, June 04, 2007

god's gift

Many are the funnie things that my babes do. they made my supposed emo day a lil happier =)))

Theresa is feeling tired. says:
pui
Theresa is feeling tired. says:
ask you
Theresa is feeling tired. says:
what's
Theresa is feeling tired. says:
li gong xue yuan
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [4s] says:
poly
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [4s] says:
haha you very lousy lei
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [4s] says:
HAHA
Theresa is feeling tired. says:
ohhh
Theresa is feeling tired. says:
what sia
Theresa is feeling tired. says:
hahahahahahaha
Theresa is feeling tired. says:
no wonder i say how come sound so familiar
Theresa is feeling tired. says:
hahahah
Theresa is feeling tired. says:
i watching the chinese show on tv
Theresa is feeling tired. says:
den they say li gong xue yuan
Theresa is feeling tired. says:
ahahahahahahhahaha
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [4s] says:
hahahahhahahahaah
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [4s] says:
time to learn chinese!!!
Theresa is feeling tired. says:
i know lorrrrrrr!
Theresa is feeling tired. says:
ahahhahas
Theresa is feeling tired. says:
what do you call jc in chinese!
Theresa is feeling tired. says:
i know lor!
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [4s] says:
hahahahaha you know?!
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [4s] says:
wah amazing sia
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [4s] says:
is what?
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [4s] says:
haahahahaha
Theresa is feeling tired. says:
yes lor
Theresa is feeling tired. says:
i not stupid one can
Theresa is feeling tired. says:
i tell you
Theresa is feeling tired. says:
its called
Theresa is feeling tired. says:
xue xiao!
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [4s] says:
...............................................................
Theresa is feeling tired. says:
its true lor
Theresa is feeling tired. says:
you have to admit its true
Theresa is feeling tired. says:
ITS TRUE
Theresa is feeling tired. says:
ITS TRUE
Theresa is feeling tired. says:
ITS TRUE
Theresa is feeling tired. says:
ITS TRUE
Theresa is feeling tired. says:
ITS TRUE
Theresa is feeling tired. says:
ITS TRUE
Theresa is feeling tired. says:
ITS TRUE
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [4s] says:
ya its true it true
Theresa is feeling tired. says:
ITS TRUE
Theresa is feeling tired. says:
ITS TRUE
Theresa is feeling tired. says:
HAHHA
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [4s] says:
HAHA
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [4s] says:
YOU NEVER STOPS!!!
Theresa is feeling tired. says:
yes i never stopS
Theresa is feeling tired. says:
hahahahahahhhahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahhahahahahhaa
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [4s] says:
...................................................................................................
Theresa is feeling tired. says:
and i will never stopS
Theresa is feeling tired. says:
coz its in pural form
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [4s] says:
eh what sia~~ my eng not good la~~~~
Theresa is feeling tired. says:
hAHAAHA
Theresa is feeling tired. says:
omg
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [4s] says:
HHAHHA
Theresa is feeling tired. says:
hahahahahahahahahhahaha
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [4s] says:
you're soooo irritating
Theresa is feeling tired. says:
ehhhhhhhhhhh
Theresa is feeling tired. says:
hahahahahahas

Funnie are the people i know.. hahaha~


CHEWIE.
haha. hug hug hug hug hug1
CHEWIE.
millions of hugs
CHEWIE.
HUG HUG HUG HUG *gone mad*
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [(F)4s]
HA! HA! HA! HA! HA! HA! *gone mad also*
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [(F)4s]
HAHAHA
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [(F)4s]
HUG *ha!!* HUG *ha!!* HUG *ha!!* HUG *ha!!* HUG *ha!!* HUG *ha!!* HUG *ha!!*
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [(F)4s]
hahahahahahahaha!!!!
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [(F)4s]
so psychotic la we all
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [(F)4s]
=P
CHEWIE.
LOL!!!!
CHEWIE.
yah lah
CHEWIE.
then ended up peiseh
CHEWIE.
people think we siao
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [(F)4s]
HAHA
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [(F)4s]
ya sia!!

Yes, very funnie are the people i know.. hahaha~

Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [(F)4s]
yay i rock your rainy days like umbrellas =)))
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [(F)4s]
and i rock your emerge like bangles and wristbands
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [(F)4s]
i'm getting more and more nonsenes
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [(F)4s]
STOP ME!
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [(F)4s]
i rock your dance trainings like mirrors
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [(F)4s]
i rock your wedding like shark fins
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [(F)4s]
i rock your dinner time like fork and spoon
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [(F)4s]
okay
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [(F)4s]
i rock
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [(F)4s]
HAHAHAHHHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Calynne [ 3 K's in Life ] Kristos Khye Kosmos
-.-
Calynne [ 3 K's in Life ] Kristos Khye Kosmos
kuku leh u!
Calynne [ 3 K's in Life ] Kristos Khye Kosmos
hahahah!!
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [(F)4s]
hahaahha i should blog about this
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [(F)4s]
so the whole world can punch me in the face
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [(F)4s]
ahahahahhaha
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [(F)4s]
i rock your blog like tagboard!
Calynne [ 3 K's in Life ] Kristos Khye Kosmos
hahaha!!!
Calynne [ 3 K's in Life ] Kristos Khye Kosmos
u rock my shoes like socks!
Calynne [ 3 K's in Life ] Kristos Khye Kosmos
u rock my pool like cues
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [(F)4s]
no.. i rock your shoes like shoelace =)))
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [(F)4s]
and i rock your pool like water
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [(F)4s]
HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA
Calynne [ 3 K's in Life ] Kristos Khye Kosmos
u rock my world like paris!
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [(F)4s]
okay~~~
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [(F)4s]
lidat also can
Puii ; 2003. 2007. and i say again. [(F)4s]
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Calynne [ 3 K's in Life ] Kristos Khye Kosmos
haha
Calynne [ 3 K's in Life ] Kristos Khye Kosmos
of cuz man
Calynne [ 3 K's in Life ] Kristos Khye Kosmos
lols..

and yes i love em darls. they so made my day a happier one =)

puii-

11:51 PM

emerged

now what can i say?

tell me one person that went for Emerge and is not impacted. i guess there's none. it was like a truckload of love crashed into my heart. increasing casualties, all them hatred and scorns and pride. yes they are dying. replaced with all that agape.

and yes i need more of that. more trucks to come crash into my heart. kill all em irritants. =)

Emerge's over. and it was a blast. the whole place was on fire. in water. shaking shaking. shaking. it was such a wow that it knocked me out the whole of my monday. hahahaha~

First. i love my God. not just for what He's done, or what He's gonna do, or how He helped me etc. I love my God. just that =)

Second. i love Represent. they made me learn alot. grow alot. laugh alot. dance alot. gain alot. see alot. feel alot. yes we are friends. and thats what friends are for =)

Third. i love all those who loved me. and they REALLY loved me. =) so much so much are those hugs and smiles i got. yay i'm loved =)

and of cos. i (want to learn to) love those who are not that easy to love. yes i'm learning. learning to be like Jesus. i'm learning now to roll my eyes at you first. give me time. i'll learn agape. =P

i cant believe its over so fast.

oh yes. rep crew won talentime =) am happie of cos. but still, wasnt up to that which was expected of us. still i feel, this is the best of us. given the time and stuff. yes i'm proud of rep crew. i am, realli =)

puii- emerged.

8:36 PM

like seriously..

if i ever have a boyfriend. i wouldnt wan to come home also. for what? to hear your scorns and sacarsm? to be made fun of and look down at? so what, you expect us to turn old and hagged, then you asked for grandchildren. when you asked us to stay single when we're young?! come on i'm not wrong. i know i am not wrong. the prob lies with yall. where got parents lidat one!?!?

i hate it. when you accuse me. i hate it when age makes me the wrong party. i hate it when all you say is correct. i hate it when you say its all for my good, when it isnt.

at least friends makes me happy. i know i love you. i know i love you. but can you love me a bit more? just a bit more, to accept me for who i am? i had enough of pretending. i had enough of tryin to be the best i can in front of you. cant i be who i am? cant i be?

these tears who will see? these tears who will wipe? i know. not you.

and how can i chat, laughing with my frens on net, while crying the whole time?

puii- i need a hug.

8:25 PM

Sunday, June 03, 2007

letters to God.

i was struck by awesome Love tonight. i was comforted, encouraged, touched, loved, very very loved. i am new. "I" am dead

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Like a little girl with her piggy bank, i bring this little "all i have, all i am" in my tiny piggy bank, coming to the Father, wanting to offer something from my heart. what is this puny whatevers, compared to Your magnificent love? then again, Lord, this is all i have, all i am. i got nothing more to offer. i bring all. Lord, Father, will You take this "all i have, all i am"?

what else can i give to You, other than ALL of me.

Lord i just realised. "take all of me, for all of you" You first showed us what it means. what have You withheld from Your children? what have You not showered upon us? You even gave Your son! for what? for me? that imperfect, bad attitude, full of pride, lazy, dishonest, full full full of sin me? You gave Your all in exchange for my life to be redeemed. You gave Your all for our love to exist. You gave Your all so that i can know You, love You, trust You, follow You, look to You.

Seriously. what ELSE can i give, other than ALL of me?

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what pst Abraham Ku spoke of today hit me. i've been crying out, why this lack of creativity in me? why cant i think of creative things? i believe today theres a change. watch out world. i'll scare you. i'll explode with His ideas.

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2003, i knelt down in Jurong west hall, first Emerge. it was that same same song we sang today. it was that same same altar. it was that same same sacrifice. that day i knelt down, in my school uniform, sweaty, young, not knowing any better, not knowin what God has in store. yet with so much doubt, i walked up anyway, unto that altar. that day i died. that day "I" died. If there's a day you'll never forget, how you encounter God, yes that's my day. no three words had appeared so special. perhaps maybe except "i love you". that day i sang "no turning back. no turning back." i cried. i wept. i told God, i'll never leave. i'll never walk away.

2007. and i say again. that same song. that same prayer. that same altar. that same sacrifice. that same love. no, a bigger, stronger, purer love. It was like how it was for Simon Peter. God brought me back to where i started. to where i said "i will follow You". Yes that question hammered in my head. "Do you love Me? Do you love Me? Do you love Me? Do you love Me? "

Yes Lord. i love You. i want to love You the best way i know how. my imperfect love, God can You accept? God can i learn to be more Christ-like? to have that Agape love. to love You as You have loved me. and to love people.

Such an un-loving person i am. i honestly don't know how to love people. not in that unconditional way at least. let me learn, to lay my life for others. let me learn, to love people in spite of their imperfection. let me learn, to love myself. to forgive myself. to cherish myself. to encourage myself. to cheer myself on. let me learn, not to hate myself. for i can only love others, to the extend that i love myself.

Father, let the love GROW within. so much. let it overflow out of me. i want to be a blessing. i wan to be the love of Christ where love cant be found. i want to shine Your light. i want to be like a broken alabasker flask. i want the fragrance of Christ to permeate the earth.

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As you can see. Emerge has struck me. Emerge has gotten my head over my heel, for i am so in love again. with my Lord, my Abba, my Saviour, my best Friend, my Counseller, my Shelter, my Secret Place, my Hero, my Love, my All. I'm not sure if i'm emerging or not. one thing i know, i love Him more than anything else in the world, out of this world. anything that has, is and ever will exist cant be compared to Him.

Emerge got me on fire, in water, shaking, breaking, moulding, kneeling, crying, longing, loving. loving. loving all over again. whole heartedly. very much.

puii- letters to God.

1:36 AM

Saturday, June 02, 2007

i love. i love. i love God.

what else can i withhold from You. no nothing. no, everything take it. everything use it, for Your glory, for Your kingdom, for Your pleasure, for Your name to be known, for Your greatness to be show. all for You. all for You.

open up the door.
let Your rain pour forth.
forever oh my Lord.
i am Yours.
i am Yours.

what can ever stop Your love? what can ever stop Your hands, from touching, from healing, from loving, from caring? where did this perfect love come from? and how did it ever finds me? and consumes me?

i know. i said i love You. but how can one ever say that enough, considering the MAGNITUDE of Your perfect love. yes i love You. i really really do. other things i say i might not mean. but this is true. yesterday. today. and yes forever i will love You. more and more i will love You.

who says Christianity is a religion? or just a belief? no religion or belief can make one live and die for it. only a relationship can. there are people whom we will die for. one of them is definitely my dear Daddy above. life aint gonna be a bed of roses.

i want to be like the women with three kids, that all died in the mission field in Africa. an irritating old man came and ask "dun you regret about this whole thing? all your sons DIE for this Jesus you call Lord!"

i wan to be able to say that same answer. "yes i regret. i do regret. i regret not having a fourth son to go into the mission field and to die in the mission field.

puii- beyond words. seriously.

1:50 AM

Friday, June 01, 2007

Emerging.

Songs never meant that much. Tongues never spoken so loud. Tears never so fast flowing. Heart never so aching. Hands never so high. Mind, never thought that much about the lost, ever.

Emerge is breaking my mind, and expanding it. i guess i'm growing, and learning to grow all over again. yes its life changing, definitely.

I'll kill to get into the hall tmr. Sitting in the overflow area is simply spoiler. Though my fav fish was with me, we were both kinda dozing off. hahaha~

A big hurray to tmr. Showtime =)))

puii- then suddenly a touch from heaven.

1:43 AM

me

searching meanings
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