Sunday, September 30, 2007
break my heart for what breaks Yours
i'm very happy today!for one, i was so blessed by service today. the songs, the sermon, the offering, and that altar call at the end. i feel like i am ten thousand steps closer to God =)))
Hillsong's new album is SO NICE! okay i'm so going to put that on my wishlist. HAHAHAHA! i love that song we sang today.
oh yes i remember how You found me. how You saw me. You are my freedom. You are the reason for everything that is. was. and will be. You are the reason for my smiles and tears. You are the reason why i live, why i love, why i dance.
You are the reason oh Jesus. =)
i asked God to show me, what breaks His heart. He showed me how He is so near to each and every person. so close. yet, not every heart is open for Him to enter. and He stood outside waiting. waiting. waiting. waiting....
He is such a gentlemen. He stood as close as He could, and stayed there. He could have well broke His way through and conquer our heart. But He didnt.
I could see His heart, yearning to be in every person's heart. i cried, at the fact that there's still so many closed doors to Him. i cried again when i saw the altar call. those doors are finally opening up to Him. oh joy flooded me.
break my heart for what breaks Yours.
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i went to see sinseh about my knee today. he was saying its some soft bone shifted or something. anyways he shifted it back, so i'm suppose to rest it now. =)
thanks Ivonn dear for bringing me there! though i just now dunno wan to trust you in the directions not. HAHA!!!! =P
after that me and ivonn went on a wasted hour trip on bus. we didnt know the bus had a double loop. so we took the wrong loop and end up in the same place after an hour -_-. thank God it finally got to the right turn and went to toa payoh as we had wanted to. dang! i coulda reach earlier then go eat zhu jiang man! haha!
steamboat with my loves!! =) though there wasnt much people, but i had much FUN! =) yay! old school arcade rocks la! hahaha!!
Geraldine Liu Mei Jun is so cruel. she can bear to throw live prawns into hot boiling oil, just because she like grill one better than boil one. hahahaaah!!!!
Calynne Tay Kai Ning is lousy, cos she made herself full with all the ready cooked food, too full for all the steamboat stuffs!! hahahahaha!!!
Chen Xiao Xian, as usual, the mummy!!! =)
Hahaha~ its been a while since i last ate steamboat, (second time i ate it outside of house), hahahaah its fun seeing the girls siaming spluttering oil and screaming at moving alive prawns! hahaha!!
I still love old school arcades. we got to play photohunt and bishibashi! =))) hahahahhaahah!! wanted to psycho plankie go play parapara. but.. NEVERMIND! i shall not sabo myself. hahahaha. =P
GER!!!!!!! THANKS FOR THE SWEETS! =)))) you'll never know how encouraged i feel eating them!! =) i'm sooo sure you have a heart so much more sweeter than 10 packets of that =) i love you TIGER! =)
i thank God for a day of fun and refreshing. i thank God for the invention of aircon that stopped me from fainting. i thank God for late night chicken nuggets from sis! =) HAHA!!
puii- where would i be without You here in my life?
10:51 PM
Saturday, September 29, 2007
Sunflowers for Alfred Roy
Now you're shining(Shining like a)
Like a sunflower up in the sky
Shining like a sunflower up in the sky
Thank you for forgiving, hurtful things i've done
As a child, adolescent or woman
Thank you for embracing, a flaxen-haired baby
Although i'm aware you had your doubts
(I guess anyone would have doubts)
I guess anyone'd have had doubts
Please be at peace, Father
I'm at peace with you
Bitterness isn't worth clinging to
(Clinging to)
After all the anguish we've all been through
Thank you for the mountains
The lake of the clouds
I'm picturing me and you there right now
As the crystal cascades showered down
Strange to feel that proud strong man
Grip tightly to my hand
Hard to see the life inside
Wane as the days went by
Trying to preserve every word
He murmured in my ears
Watching part of my own life disappear
Father, thanks for reaching out
And lovingly saying that
You've always been proud of me
(I needed to feel that so desperately)
I needed to feel that so desperately
Now you're shining like a
Shining like a sunflower up in the sky
(You're always alive inside of me)
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i cannot tell you more about how i love this song now.
puii- miss cellophane no more
10:51 PM
my kitty brush dance!
My knee hurts real bad =(((( i need a sinseh/physio. IVONN faster bring me go see doc!! hahahahahaah..Zone meeting was =)))) the presence of God was like 10 metres thick. hahhahahaha. we were like swimming in PVA glue or something. it was nice =)
i got so into worship.. that i forgot about my knee. i knelt down and OUCH.. and i stood up again.. so paiseh. hahaha!
YAY!! Shu shu send me alot of cute cute bleach stuff. GOT HITSUGAYA! =))) hahaha.. iBankai.
stores over 1000 petals
iBankai
hitusgaya toushirou! =)
omgosh SO CUTE!
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that was yesterday. i couldnt post it somehow..
i went to meet Val sweetie today!!!!! so long never see her man. missed her sooooo much! =) thanks girl! i love meeting you out of food and chit chats! =)
after that.. i wanted to go swim one.. but.. stupid woodlands swimming complex wasnt open for some reason. i peeked in and every thing is done, all the renovations. just that there's no p-p-l there. =( dang! spoil my plan and wasted my effort to walk over. hahahaa..
went library instead. borrowed Mutts! =))) soooo cute la. its a dumb comic with silly jokes. oh so CUTE! =)
okay.. back to cinderella mode. i'm going to wash and fold clothes and stuffs =)
puii- dog kisses - 5 cents. HAHA!
2:12 AM
Friday, September 28, 2007
yes to WEEKENDS!
this is the confirmed info of my performance at esplanade =)))In My Father's House
LaSalle dance faculty showcase
13 October 2007
Saturday
Ticket Price : $10
Time : 6pm
i'm not sure how many tix they selling per show.. i better get some tix for my parents first =) hahaha =P
i hurt my knee bad bad bad again in Albert's class today. it was alot better yesterday, so i did class in hope that it could survive. nope. it didnt. DANG! i missed that super nice Level 3 combi!!! =( and albert look super shuai doing that phrase. *look at Ivonn* HAHA!
think i better go see a sinseh before the performance. if not, i doubt i can do the performance loh. hahahahaha =P
i'm finally going to see my cg darls. havent seen them since last week. =(
WEEKEND LOVE! =) i'm going to meet VAL SWEETIE tmr!! like finally la!! haahaha havent seen her for like ten thousand years. =P
okay i'm going to head out for prayer meeting at JW! =)
puii- melvin tan spells I-R-R-I-T-A-T-I-N-G.
6:10 PM
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
cinderella
thank God for good results!!! =)my contemp result was one of the higher ones in class. pretty encouraged. =)
thank God for everything going so smoothly in school. thank You for Your empowerment and encouragement.
argh. i'll do something about ballet. haha~~
dang! i hurt my right knee real bad in Albert's class today. i dun even know what did i do to end up this way. i've been limping whole day. finally got home to get my knee guard on. feels a lil better now.. gonna put some old people oil on it and give it a rub. hope it'll get better by tmr so i can do something about my ballet. hahahahaha~
OKAY! i'm gonna go off to wash clothes and mop floor.
puii- clicking knee joint
8:25 PM
Monday, September 24, 2007
Jehovah Rapha
creatine kinase level go DOWN!puii- health oh health.
11:39 PM
=)))
iMMA SHiNE!puii- i will make it.
9:10 PM
BANKAI, you sick bug!
i'm up and blogging at this nonsense hour, cos i just send an email to my lecturers about my absenteeism from school. also my homework.PLUS i cant go back to sleep now cos i'm suppose to go down and see doc in like half an hour.
so... here i am at 8.30 AM writing all this nonsense. =( i feel like bankai-ing all the nonsense flu bug and virus on this earth. hahahahahaha..chire, senbozakura kageyoshi.
puii- go away you stupid medicine.
8:29 AM
Bleach spoof = Detergent
below is bleach talk. if you dun watch bleach, it'll probably be boring.. haha =Pwhen i am free. i seriously wanna write out a bleach spoof. shu shu and my bleach-talking has reached a point of nonsensicality. if it really happen, it would be funnie. i will name it Detergent.
imagine...
-kenpachi manage to know the name of his zanpakutoh, and obtains bankai. better still, he becomes a vizard with bankai!!
-byakuya becomes a hollow/vizard.
-ichigo became a hollow instead of a vizard, then aizen uses hogyuoku on him and make him an arrancar
-hitsugaya's zanpakutoh renamed ice dragon (okay nothing interesting)
wah~ soul society no chance!
and.. suddenly, pure breed hollow or shinigami is so lousy. it pays to be mixed. HAHA!
bleach's theme song will change. totally change..
i will bankai you.. bankai you wherever you may go...
puii- okay back to reality/mugging.
12:45 AM
Sunday, September 23, 2007
nu flavor songs i want
yesterday was a short escape. a short escape from school, dance and muscle aches. and yes, escape into bad bad sick bug's embracethus i didnt go service today =(
stayed home to rest. think i got drowned in phlegm or something lidat. haha..
today was the facing of reality. i'm back to rushing (alot of ) assignments and meeting deadlines. Lord, teach me this nonsene journal thing. haha!
yes, also to face the reality of dance, i did crunches before i doze off just now.
sinman's in genting. i got the room to myself =))) haha!!! i miss you pig!
i feel like talking random..
let me enlighten you to one fact. only two places in Marina Square sells hair straightener. Gain City and John Little.
there was just somethings i refused to believe. yet they are true. what can i do about that now?
i'm suppose to be mugging and chionging my journal and essay drafts. who cares.
i got many cutest besties on earth. (except Mabel Ng Min Er)
library books due, like today. i'm suppose to get out later JUST to return my books. haha irritating.
i wan campbell soup like.. right now! =(
I MISS MY RANDOMNESS! chew chew went shanghai already. hope she have fun!! =)
my lousy earpiece spoilt. i cant hear song to school. okay listen...
bleach 141 is such a boo. C'MON! get to the real stuffs!!! get to all that hollow dying and bankai-ing stuffs!!! like its my business who Inoue chose to say goodbye to. ARGH!
chao da bread X 6
i wan chocolate. crunchy chocolate. i wan Crunch ice cream.
i need a new file. my old red one is bursting from all that over-stuffing of notes. dance history notes mostly.
i'm everything i am, because You love me. =)
puii- i love talking nonsense.
7:21 PM
no i dont want to remember.
Heels kills. always remember that!!*
First thing first...
CONGRATS to Bevan and Grace. Praying that you would have a blissful marriage and a wonderful journey ahead together! =)
I LOVE CHEWIE'S DRESS! so cute please! aaahahahaahahaha haiyo so cuteeee *pinch chew's face*
The wedding was so cute! and the speech part was so touching man. me and plankie was so lousy. we almost cried! (when it was really none of our business. haha!)
SALAD! =)
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Mummy's pretty today!! haahaha. i'm proud of her.
yay we went to pick Xiang Si Dou (dunno what izzit in english.. love beans?). so fun pls. i used to have all these bottles of Xiang Si Dou. i like how these red lil beans symbolises love and concern, and could touch people's hearts when they receive a bottle =) i love the beans itself. so cute and pretty =) haha used to pick these up with my mum and sis last time when we were REAL young. its nice to do it again =))))
i love Mummy plenty! =) and i love the lil thingys we always do together. =)
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Headed to Esplanade after that to watch Ivonn, Yong Xin and Zu You for the Moonfest thingy. They are so good!! =) so cute la all of them. ahahahaha they did all the ethnic dances, and i love them all! hahahaha so different to see them doing chinese dance compared to those stuffs in school. IVONN LOOK SUPER CUTE LA! haha she look like she really just came down from the mountains. haha!!! Yong Xin's solo fish dance is so cute also!! omgosh the whole thing is just so cute la!!! hahahahahaha..
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after that. i got killed by my heels. i even complained to plankie calynne. we agreed that the inventor of heels is such a loser and secret woman-hater that wants to just see us suffer for "beauty"s sake. yes heels invertors are such losers like Melvin Tan (hahaha.. we were talking about him and Barney, his best friend) HEE!
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puii- i am hungry. very hungry.
1:26 AM
Saturday, September 22, 2007
<333
i missed the point just a little.i dont want to know your piece Choreographer. i want to know You. i dont care if i flung in this life. i dont care if i go out right now and ten cars run over my legs and i cant dance ever again. i dont care if i contact some unknown disease right now and die a painful death. i dont care if i cant pass my papers this year, and i cant graduate even with a diploma. i dont care if all of life's badness falls on me.
God, please know. no matter what comes my way. i just need to know Your hands are in mind, and You're not going to let go. thats all i need to know
i want to know You Almighty. know You even more like never before. i want to know You now as my Encourager. God You see all that discouragement and fatigue. You saw all those thoughts of giving up. Yet You believed in me, and You encouraged me to move on, grow strong. You helped me so much along the way. i couldnt thank You enough.
i want to love You. with all my heart i want to serve You. like a slave with the ears pierced to the door of Your house, i will never leave You. i wont turn my back. i wont go back to the world. through dance i saw how i hate it, sin, death, snares and everything bad. i hate it. i fought it, real hard. i was angry at the devil. no God i will still come back. after all those fights i will come back with news of victory. the continued victory of that of the cross.
the devil cant win. he's a LOSER.
i want to thank You. i can never thank You enough. i cant find words to express my gratitude, or speak of the way i feel toward You. to me... You're just too good to be true. yet i'm receiving all these goodness and love from You. so unworthy, yet Your mercy is upon me. Your mercy that endures forever.
forever.
i want to shine. i hate this darkness that engulfs. i hate the world pulling me back, telling me i'm just as lousy as they are. yes i'm not all that good. i'm not good at all to speak. but don't bring me down you stupid devil. dont you dare bring me down. the further down you try to pull me, the more i'm gonna rise up. the more i want to get away from you. learn some dance terms, this is called counter-balance.
i want to shine. i am going to shine. He made me to shine. a light. a salt. a city on a hill. yes i have a destiny.
i know i shall fulfill.
i want Your rest. i want Your peace.
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i cant explain how it felt. it was a mighty river of Love that swept me off my feet. its was a gush of peace, and an assurance that everything's gonna be alright.
i know with His hands in mine, nothing can go so terribly wrong =)
Today was love!!! cos its the last day of the week!!!!!!!!!! OMGosh so looking forward please. but still my weekend's already fully booked even before it started. saturday's eventful, sunday's church and assignment rushing. ARGH! essays go away! hhahahaha~
tmr.
Bevan and Grace's wedding!! =) congrats!! =)
Mummy's choir performance @ City Hall =)
Watching Ivonn sweetie's perfomance @ Esplanade =)
By the time these finishes, the day's ended already. so actually i'm only left with sunday to finish up my homework.
tell me i wont die!! hahahaha~
i'm gonna go sleep right right right now to recover from this Albert + Hsien Fa day. haahahahaha. i kinda regretted wearing my Bloch instead of Leo's for ballet today. haha!
puii- thank You for the flower. its really pretty =)
2:44 AM
Thursday, September 20, 2007
its all wrong.
My 555th post!!! hahaokay that was so random.
I was reading 2nd project O's blog and everything. i saw how encouragement does wonders. i saw how love brings people along and over every hardship. i saw how true friends stays right beside you. i saw hardwork (which i didnt see in myself). i'm ashamed. i shall go do some crunches after this entry.
if any tired dancers cross this page, i dont have any words of wisdom or anything. i can only say i was tired, and AM tired too. but the first love for dance keeps me going. when you are tired, think of a time when dance made you smile. you can go a lil further. =)
yes these are words for myself. i pictured myself smiling silly and dancing, nonsense twirls and happy jumps. i dont have an excuse to not believe in myself when Someone does. yes i can go a lil further tommorow =) SCHOOL I'M COMING! =)
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its all wrong. the directions' all wrong. we forget steps in this dance of life. we miss the music. we skip a leg and swing our hands too fast. we head towards the wrong partner and kick someone down stage. this dance of life. its all wrong.
the Choreographer's probably having a headache. Hahahahhaha..
enlarge my language. let me know your piece oh Choreographer of life and everything.
I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.
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Daddy i hate leaving shelter. i hate leaving the umbrella of love You put above me. i hate going out there and fight. i hate pulling out all the daggers and swords people plung in. i hate being pulled down when i finally stood up from the last fall. i hate to be engulfed in darkness.
i want to shine.
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papaya craze! =) mummy knows me best!
puii- imma shine!
10:50 PM
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
papaya milkshake!
mentally i feel i am growing fast. i see things differently. i scare myself with the things i write for assignment. i never thought i would have thought of all those stuffs.mayb i'm becoming cleverer =))) hahahhahahaha
i had to give oschool a miss =(((( stupid assignment.
i'm tired. i want sleep =))) hahahahhaaha~
puii- no perf lab = LOVE! haha~!
11:52 PM
i feel like eating chicken wing.
6:33 PM
1500 words essay. 1500 words essay!
Saw this dumb thing on dumb Mabel's blog. i'm home early.. not going out soon. and i dont feel like starting on my homework yet.. so i shall be dumb for once and do this stupid thingy =) hahaha~1. The phone rings, who do you want it to be?
Well, i dont really like it ringing. But if it did, i'll hope my mum and dad would call, telling me food's waiting for me at home =)))
2. When shopping at the grocery store,do you return your cart?
No, i dont return it. i bring it home, and collects at least 10 of them. then i send them off to Penang via an illegal speedboat. DUH?!?!?!?!
3. If you had to kiss the last person you kissed again, would you?
My mum, yes =)
4. Do you take compliments well?
No i spill them a little sometimes. My hands get shaky taking compliments. Ha.
5. Do you play Sudoku?
No i'm not an officelady.... no.
6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness would you survive?
If i could survive whatever left me alone in the wilderness, i guess i'll do fine.
7. If your house were on fire, what would be the first thing you would save?
Duh, me. and my life.
8. Who was the last person you slept in the bed with?
My pillow, and Dorothy the black ant.
9. Who do you text the most?
Ivonn Yip Jia Zhen, June Lau Xiao Yun and Theresa Yee Chun Li. hahaha..
10. Favorite childrens book?
Ladybird's
11. Eye color?
Mine's brown. I like it weird. Like grey, and green and everything. no not red. ha.
12. How tall are you?
163cm
13. If you could do it over again,start from scratch, would you?
This quiz? No. i wont do it again.
Start everything over.. hmmm nope. i guess even if i'd known all the steps of my path, i'll still walk on the same road.
15. When was the last time you were at Botanic Garden?
like... a thousand years ago.
17. Where was the furthest place you travelled?
Singapore. No i'm not kidding. I came all the way here from Hong Kong. Yes to me thats far okay.
18. Do you like mustard?
Mustard's okay... ya its okay..
19. Do you prefer to sleep or eat?
Now... sleep.
21. Do you miss anyone?
I miss EVERYONE.
22. Can you do splits?
Almost got killed because of it.
23. What movie do you want to see right now?
Blood diamond. Hero. The red shoes(or something lidat)
24. What did you do for New Years Eve?
I dont remember. serious. I think i was at home being a loser and nua-ing.
25. Do you think The Grudge was crappy?
I wouldnt know.
26. Do you own a camera phone?
Yea, i stalk people with it.
27. Are you a cheerleader?
Nope. I cant do that nod my head and smile brightly at the same time thing. hahahahahaha~
28. Whats the last letter of your middle name?
My middle name is CUTE, so that's E =) AHAHAHAHH!!!!
29. Are you hispanic?
Yea yea i'm her-panic and your-panic too. DUH like i'll know what's "hispanic"
31. Do you like care bears?
Not really. They're kinda stupid. I like Elmo and Spongebob. PATRICK THE STARFISH! =)
32. What do you buy at the Movies?
Comfort and entertainment. sometimes... sleep.
33. Do you know how to play poker?
Yes, with explanation.
34. Do you wear your seatbelt?
Unless a cop's staring at me.
35. What do you wear to sleep?
I wear orchid petals and orange peels. DUH.
36. Anything big ever happen in your CITY?
My arrival!! XD HAHAHA! =P and yes. the increase of bus fares.
37. Is your hair straight or curly?
It's a bun right now. Hahah~
38. Is your tongue pierced?
No. and i wouldnt try.
39. Do you like Liver and Onions?
Yea i like it as much as garbage and fish bones.
40. Do you like funny or serious people better?
Funny. But serious people are okay too.. i dont hate you. really. =P
41. Ever been to L.A.?
Hope to. One day. one day =)
42. Who is on your mind right now?
Louis XIV. Calynne Tay Kai Ning!! (your stupid face just came across my mind. OH PLANKIE!)
43.any plans 4 tonight?
(suppose to be) Oschool-ing
44. Whats your fav. song at the moment?
Elliott Yamin's =) and JJ's <333>45. Do you hate chocolate?
Never. People that hates chocolate have their cute-o-meter cut by half! *look at Nikz* Hahahahahaahahhahaaha!!! =P
46. What do you and your parents fight about the most?
The conflicting defination of freedom and weight problem. Haha.
47. Are you a gullible person?
Yes. I got cheated to eat a mouse tail and spider leg once. No i didnt.
48. Do you need a boyfriend/girlfriend to be happy?
If i do, i'm such a sad person. but no. i am very happy =)
49. If you could have any job what would it be?
Grass cutter. No, a dancer =)
50. Are you easy to get along with?
Yea pretty easy. i GUESS. =P
51. What is your favorite time of day?
Lunch Time. Break Time. Dance(not technique) Time. Home time. Alone-with-Daddy Time. Bath Time. Bed time =)
52. Are you generally a happy person?
Yea i'm very happy. =) By the very fact i'm breathing right now, i am happy =)
and YES Mabel you are so right. this person that wrote this crap thing cant freaking count. ahahahahaha~ i got soooooo bored by the end of the whole thing. Yes i regret doing this also. HHAHAHAHA! and i dunno wanna go oschool or not!! i'm suppose to finish so many assignments asap!!! hahahaahahah.
Okay. i'll see how much i can finish, then i decided. byebyebye!
puii- fashion + dance. and Jules Perrot!!
5:42 PM
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
glucosamine. metatarsals. anatomical position. SCIENCE!
School is fun so far =) thanks to em babes!! =) hahahaha they made the day alot faster and fun-ner! =)Ran the Esplanade dance with the main cast for the first time today. oh man, i was soooooo stressed up la. Its like i havent done all the formation and coordinations with them at all before, and suddenly i'm suppose to perform the whole dance like i was there in the prac since time begin. Thank God it went alright. i was able to remember (almost) everything and tried not to look afraid. and yes, SOFT. hahahaahha~
they were all helpful people =) million thanks to all the dancers in the piece ^^
Haha we had ACTING CLASS today. yes ACTING. so lame right!!! why on earth must we have ACTING CLASS?!! ahahahahahah~ well, the Harris guy aint all that funnie and entertaining. but the class was fun enough for some self-entertainment so we survived okay. the level 2s had much fun asking the teacher nonsense. haha!! =P
DANCE SCIENCE EXAM!! i tell you, my class is such a kiasu bunch really. hahahaa~ i look at the paper. duh we studied sooooo many other stuffs and its not out la. we practically swallowed all our notes and only puny lil things came out. it wasnt all the easy anyways, but i guess i managed alright la =) sure can pass la.. hahahaha~ (later fail.... opps! =P HAHA!)
i love science, so thats fine. next week!! dance history exam!! i can just DIE!! ahahahahaha!!
okay. i just finish sewing my ballet and pointe shoes. i'm gonna hit my blanket pile and wake up early early tmr to finish up my homework due TMR! hahahahahah.. life in school is a combination of muscle aches and rushing assignments.
puii- tmr = albert + hsien fa. (that means.....DIE)
11:10 PM
Saturday, September 15, 2007
You ask me who do i
i havent hated anyone like i hate you. you make me stand and watch in awe, how God's creation can fall soooooooo low. i'm amazed how much the devil can get at a person, and into a person. you behaved like the devil to us. scorns and insults you freely gave. you despised us.i despise you. my tears of angry will show you i am made of something different.
and don't you despise that. i dont need a teacher who has given up on me. i dont need more discouragement in life. i dont need you to tell me to give up. yes i give up. i give up on listening to you oh mighty mighty whatever. you make any ounce of respect i had escape fast. you make me hate your craft. and you.
give me a chance. give yourself a chance. dont make me hate you any further. i hate hating people.
dont make me kill you with pointe shoes.
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that was just... an irritating person.
HELLO! haha~ i'm pretty much in a sleepy mode right now. after all that heavy dinner and soft drink!! haha i feel like diving into my blanket pile!! =)
i'm so sorry all my darlings. havent had time to meet up with all of yall to catch up and have plain fun and chit chat sessions! dang i'm missing out on so many thingys going on man. argh~ =( =( school's totally consumed me. i even went school on saturday!! argh! hahahahahah~
oh btw. just a lil news. i'm (most probably) gonna perform in Esplanade with my school for the Dans Festival thingy. One of the nights la. hahahaah~ i got to be an understudy for my classmate and yea, we perform a day each. =)))
of cos am happie! but i'm pretty stressed up man.. =( cos i havent learn anything, ANYTHING, till today. so.. i'm suppose to catch up before the whole performance thing. AND a new choreographer's coming in next week. AND i'm gonna start Acting class on Tuesdays.
save me from all these. give me 100 hours a day, and let me sleep through half of the day.
everything's so packed. i don't even have enough time for myself. to recharge. to rest my aching, going to die body. to take a breath before going back into this whirlpool of nonsenseness.
God will save =)
i'm into Max Lucado's books once again. Oh God's love. =)
puii- stop telling me lies oh sunflower.
9:38 PM
Friday, September 14, 2007
kid
grow up.
if you want friends, BE A FRIEND.
the way you keep complaining about life aint gonna bring you friend. the way you shut yourself up behind banana trees and flagpole aint gonna help. the way you hate yourself is gonna make people hate you. the way you hate others.... i dont need to say anymore i guess. your self pity wont earn pity from others. and i'm such pity is not what you want.
i'm not scolding you. but think about it. well, i dont think you will geddit. i dont think you will ever know why you dont have any friends that will stand by you.
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sorry. some angry rants.
HAPPIE BIRTHDAY CHEWIEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!! =) I LOVE YOU RANDOMNESS! I hope you have a great great great birthday! and i pray you have a great year ahead, greater and better than the previous!! =)
SCHOOL SCHOOL SCHOOL! =)
puii- dance critique killed me.
6:23 AM
Thursday, September 13, 2007
the blood song
School made me feel alive!!! =)but i'm soooo tired i got no more strength to do anything else. i am going to ignore the world for the night. talk to me again tmr.
puii- BARREL JUMP!!!! =P
9:34 PM
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
zzzzzzz.
Am going back school tomorrow!! cant say i'm REALLY looking forward to it. PLUS i'm having contemp assesement. ARGH!i feel fat at home. i'm stuffing myself with food and med everyday.
finally got to meet up with that old penguin. chatted nonsense with her as usual. hahaha~ so long never catch up with her. so nice la! she's working in a zoo. like so fun. hahaha~
back to school. back to rushing assignments!
puii- when MC runs out.
8:48 PM
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
thank God for justice
its never too late to apologize. give these burdens to Him, He'll take them away. even if your path seemed set, there's no turning back. know, please know, there's a better future waiting for you to say Yes to.
surge of stuffs.
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I re-watched Chicago! Omgosh still so nice la~ =))) but i missed the Funny Honey and Cell Block Tango parts cos the vid couldnt load =( but it was still v nice v nice! =)
Med made me drowsy, PLUS i've got TWO meds that cause drowsiness. hahahaha~ i fainted through the day la! =P
Val sweetie's off to Malaysia since yesterday (haha i forgot to write yst) Hope she have a safe and fun trip! Girl!! meet up soon soon soon when you come back okay? =))) MISSES!
Ivonn called after school to say the presentation was okay. hahaha~ thank God. =P Got MC for tmr too. think i'm gonna stay home still.. see you girls on thursday!! =)
i feel like sleeping again =P
puii- zzzzzzz.
9:01 PM
go away lousy dreams!
I just had a very bad dream last night. about missing school and everything. my "class teacher" even gave me a home visitation just because i missed ONE DAY of school. haha EH it was scary okay. it felt like a nightmare.. but when i woke up......... it feels stupid.
anyways. this morning i made that dream come true, and didnt go to school. some gastric and flu bug got me. i'm at home now drinking milo and munching carrot strips. hahahahaha~
SORRY JUNE AND IVONN! i left you girls to do the body type presentation alone =P SORRY!
i'm gonna bleach my morning away. mayb i'll do dance history after lunch =)))
puii- go away polysilic III susp.
10:01 AM
Monday, September 10, 2007
one more step
One more step through the gate, out of this scary, pretty garden. As much as i want to stay, i cant. i cant bear to see that ugly fruit that is growing. i cant bear to see that dying sunflower.i cant bear to see all that darkness, no light.
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i can never remember how i hated the previous monday every single week. when i go to school thinking it'll be better, its not. HAHA! Stupid pointe shoes made my toes feel like minced meat in sardine tin, with a pinch of chilli.
School's fun when you teacher cant freaking know WHY on earth you cant straigthen your knees, and keeps telling you to straigthen your knees.
Stupid leg muscles, thou art WEAK. Find yourself cramping up soon. I'm gonna work you to death! HAHA! =P
But school's still fun(really fun) with sweeties like Ivonn, June, Ai and Jessica. they made school a place filled with laughter! =))) We had much fun with self entertainment today, especially in Performance Lab, learning all those crazy liftings and stunts. FUN!
I was a good girl, and bought tau huey home! =)))
i'm so tired =(
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Oh heavenly Father. see my heart and know how much i've tried. You know how hard i'm trying. You know i'm trying my best to be the best i can. you know that dream is not true. you know i'm not out to be a bad student.
I'm trying my best. really.
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puii- out of that dark garden.
9:56 PM
Sunday, September 09, 2007
amazing grace
My heart says "Cut me up, smike me. Crave in me Your word. Break me. Make me."*
あなたは
ちかくに
吐息のよう
みことば
すべてを
つくられた
あなたの うるわしさ
われを とらえ
Breathe いのちの
息吹を
ふきかけ 生かし
わが避けどころ
主の御つばさ
もとめる
今もとめる
暗闇
歌う
夜明けのうた
あわれみと
めぐみを
たえず歌う
日々 あなたを
待ち望む
主の臨在
だけを
どんなときも
あがめます
命の水の
川溢れ流れる
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奇异恩典， 何等甘甜
我罪已得赦免
前我失丧， 今得寻回
瞎眼今得看见
如此恩典， 使我敬畏
使我心得安慰
初信之时， 即蒙恩惠
真是何等宝贵
许多危险， 试炼网罗
我已安然经过
靠主恩典， 安全不怕
更引导我归家
将来禧年， 圣徒欢聚
恩光爱谊千年
喜乐颂赞， 在父座前
深望那日快现
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God is indeed good. all all all the time. His perfect love brought Him to the cross, and me to my knees. God is good all the time. God is love.
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puii- green boxes.
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go away. go so far away that i wont see you ever again. please fade off from my ear piece. its obvious you are not in the picture. tell me you will dissappear from planet earth. dont make me slap you.
GO AWAY.
sometimes, things just triggers your frustration. you cant blame me for not trying hard enough. i couldnt contain it. if i have one chance to be a murderer, i would kill the devil.
tell me again that tale of the sunflowers. and if i were to take a picture, it'll be beside that white stone chair.
puii- i want milo. i want coke light. light. light. light no darkness. =)
9:51 PM
Saturday, September 08, 2007
fade away
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The week's finally over! thank God for weekends, my long awaited sabbath! i sooooo wanted to declare this week as a four-day-week. ahahahahah~ but i went school today =P
I love my cellgroup! =))) they are all such special people whom i love, and loves me so much! they is FUN and LOVE! =) and they is werewolves and villagers and little girls and fortune tellers!! =) hahahahaha~
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["Yeah right," he thought, when he read the Bible that he was made in the image of God.]
There's this amazing guy in town, and you MUST see him!!! Nicholas Vujicic is a smiley handsome guy, borned without arms and legs. But he is totally awesome!! His smile is super contagious, and in a way it just gets you at the heart. We always say nothing is impossible, but he is living it. When he tells you life is good, haha you wont feel like life can throw anymore bad things at you no more!
i mean, come on! this is the man! without arms and legs, and he is living life with such optimism. shut up about hating yourself and killing yourself. shallow minds. i see him and i am so encouraged. it seemed like i can go and be en pointe forever! at least it aint as bad as what Nick had to go through!
click here and see this amazing man. words cant describe how much he shows God. even the man himself, he look like Jesus! hahahahaahah!!!
i was browsing through the website of his ministry, and all the pictures of him hugging people. crying people, disabled people, the hopeless, the weak. you can feel love gushing out of him. his smile lifts people up.
come with me on sunday. you'll see why he's so amazing. really. =)))
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when opportunity comes, i get scared sometimes. scared that i'm not up to it. scared of competition. scared of politics. scared of failure. all these all these fears creeps in. and i hate it. ARGH!
so i was looking at all of these, Nick came into mind. and i rem Ryan was just saying "its not about if you can do it or not. its if you want to do it or not."
Yes i want to do it. and i can. =)
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I'm starting to feel drained already. Thank God its a quater through the semester! =) three more weeks to a short break, then RUN all the way till final assesement. how am i gonna survive, and make it. i dont know seriously. looking at my ballet and contemp now. i hope i've improved? (well, i cant see myself thats why)
Tiredness' getting a hold of me. i'm going to shake it off by doing some hand bangs to Kirk Franklin's! =)
btw. bleached =))) NICE LA!
puii- getsuga tenshou. BAM! =)
12:52 AM
Tuesday, September 04, 2007
sweet smile
honestly speaking. i was so discouraged by my weak ankles. the fact that i CANT even try to straighten my knees, cos everything was like shivering weak.ARGH! my legs, be strong. please be very strong one day. Be like that of Alessandra Ferri.
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i am so very blessed =) my life is probably more than i can ever ask now. no i dont wan a different life. this life He gave through His breath. one life, i lay at Your altar. i am blessed, oh God, because in my life, i got to know You, to have the honour to love You, and serve You. to experience Your agape, Your magnificient acceptance and grace. how fortunate i am to know You. how blessed to be loved by You, to be called Your child.
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Pointe work killed me. and i'm gonna be killed again tomorrow. ahaha to add to that, before ballet tmr is Albert's class! tell me i aint gonna die. like really DIE. *shivers*
Rushing assignments still. Dance history homework's due tomorrow. JIA YOU PUI MAN! if you can survive Hsien Fa's class. you can survive anything. Blistered legs, LETS GO BACK FOR MORE POINTE!
puii- living life as a sunflower.
9:35 PM
Monday, September 03, 2007
oh cute face!
babies speaks of utter helplessness.so do we.
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i feel totally fat. =( i hate the school's mirror. either that, or i hate wearing leotards. seriously black leotard DONT make you look slimmer. hahaha~
Two days break was good rest. Here we go again! First day of school and i feel like woohoo~~~ tiredness piling up again! hahah~ PLUS all them homework submission that is choking all of us.. hahahahaha.. without all these, school won't be fun.
Saw Carol darling today!! hahaha~ soooo long never see her. like a week ba. good to see her again. I MISSED YOU CAROLPUTPUT!! =)
ARGH! i cant believe time passes so fast! Next week is like.. mid term exam!! I can die. seriously die. i need ballet injections, and drink burnt ballet charms or something. HAHA!
i'm falling in love with books, copiers, and libraries. stop me.
puii- Glucosamine is an amino sugar and a prominent precursor in the biochemical synthesis of glycosylated proteins and lipids.
11:40 PM
Sunday, September 02, 2007
SMSes
I saw waves, lights, hands.*
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God is good!
Service was good good good today! Concluding service of the SOTM, and also SOT graduation! haha~ everything was so exciting la. Even at the choir soundcheck i felt excitement in the air! =)
i confess : i forgot my parts for one song on choir. HA!
The conclusion of SOTM was so good. =) Doers! Not just talkers!
and this year's SOT graduation is soooooooo long pls! congrats to choon choon, shu shu, na na, ling ling and mag on graduating from 4 and a half months of SOT! =)
Rushed down to esplanade LIBRARY again after service. met that mai ya tang. hahahahaha she wore her dory shirt again. still say wan wear that dunno what pants show me! hahaha~
i'm beginning to love libraries and dictionaries. not just for school works la. i love having my Bible and dictionary side by side nowadays =))
I'M NOT A NERD! really!
school's gonna start tmr again! oh man~ when my muscle ache just left. guess it's gonna come back all over again!! hahahaha ALBERT WAIT FOR ME! HSIEN FA I COME LIAO! hahahahah~
okay.. back to assignments. needa finish asap so sinman can have the com.
i hate MSN viruses =(((((((
puii- short hair MISSES!!
9:24 PM
Saturday, September 01, 2007
library fun!
we stomp, for good things, for bad things. we stomp when we are ANGRY. when we feel unjustified.we stomp too, when its time for church =))) we dance, we clap, and we STOMP! =)
puii- plugging in to Kirk Franklin.
9:51 PM
73% Cocoa is love!
so busy so busy! and i'm dying of muscle aches! hahahaha~ but yes, i got hands and legs, i got hands and legs, so i'm not going to complain.at least i got hands and legs.
life's been a mad rush. rush to school, rush to class, rush through all the info in my head for dance classes, rush through lunch, rush to finish assignment. MAD RUSH! hahaha~ i barely had enough sleep (except yst, cos we got nothing to hand in today) haha~
but somehow i love it like this. at the end of the day, i keep what i learned, and what i gained. i don't get anything out of slacking. busy is good! God is busy. Jesus is busy. Holy Spirit is busy, doing all their stuffs.
Busy is good. =)
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i just feel sometimes we try too hard to please someone, that we forget to love. we try so hard to make them happy, yet we forget how we can BE their joy. i try too hard in life. too hard. i need to back off and focus on the real important stuff. =)
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HAPPIE BIRTHDAY KENNY!!! =)))
Went shopping trip with theresa, for all the pressies and her mad shopping spree! hahahahaha~ if you love shopping. PLEASE! go shop with her. she's like a fashion dictionary. haha~
I still love cheesecake more than donuts. =))) *IVONN! CHEESECAKE! =))))* hahah~
puii- zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz