Tuesday, October 30, 2007
just one elephant. ONE!!!
i stand in awe.so amazed.
totally changed by Your presence.
forever.
everything.
i look into Your eyes.
i see a glimpse of what,
i always wanted to be.
let me be changed.
let me be changed.
in Your presence.
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i'm so tired. i hope i can be super woman for a week, and survive without sleep and food, so that i can finish all my work in time, AND to get slim enough for ballet exam.
dang i feel everything closing in.
no more MCs for me for this sem!! if not i think i'll suffer for my grades la. =( ARGH! i shouldnt be blogging now. BATHE FOOD AND ESSAY!!!
puii- oh so stressed up.
9:32 PM
Sunday, October 28, 2007
i just ask for five
service was =)))i will change my thinking. watch me world. i'm going ahead from here..
puii- to start : crunches and push ups.
7:34 PM
Saturday, October 27, 2007
161 - 120 = 41. HAHA!
today was SORTA a more fruitful day. at least i didnt spend my day eating med and SLEEP all the way.. till it was time for the next dose of med.at least i got to do some homework.
i guess all that resting past two days worked. i'm feeling a lil better today. still very tired of cos. but yea, better. i PRAY i dun get sick anymore till holidays. if not, i think my results will seriously suffer. i think they will just CUT my grades like no body's business. =(((
i suddenly feel so demoralized. i feel i'm not just stagnant, but i'm utterly lousy. i seriously cant stand being at where i am now. i must go somewhere. i must do something about it. i cant stand dancing like this anymore. i think it's time i got my eyes opened and see the truth. i need to improve like, BIG TIME, to be there.
dang! and i can say i am a dancer. HAHA i feel like laughing.
okay. cut the complain. to take that step forward, i shall go do 100 crunches now before i go sleep. BYEBYE!
(when i was SUPPOSE to do those crunches -_-)
puii- fly me to the moon.
11:52 PM
Friday, October 26, 2007
We live in Singapura!
i've got two days MC, so i stayed home today too. i feel so knocked out by that med. man this feels bad =(i spared myself some time to do alot of thinking these two days. i had to readjust, refocus and renew my mind for the last lap of this year. i dont want it to go wasted. i want to finish the year strong.
i saw an old vid of me dancing in my first sem in LaSalle. oh how i've grown(i hope) hahaha.. it was quite funnie looking at myself dance then. i seriously hope to see a vid of me now. i want to see if i made any progress. i was trying to look for a vid where we did Marta's piece. surprisingly i couldnt find any. i havent load it anyway. dang! now i lost it =(
twice over. all over.
how come i keep forgetting?!
lunch soon. then med. then (most prob) sleep again. oh gosh. thats how i spent yesterday. i fell asleep on daddy's bed, almost causing him to have to sleep on my bed for the night. i still cant believe he climbed up my double deck bed and could be comfortable.
YES i saw vege for lunch!! =)
pls pls watch this! hahaha!! i laughed like mad. sang by hossan leong. really very singaporean lah~ HAHA!
puii- three new tiny koi fishes.
1:29 PM
a reply, so overdue-d
i know i had to reply.its not too hard, right?
yet i couldn't find the courage to.
you understand, do you?
leave that summer.
altogether.
i ain't sorry for the choices i made.
if i had a chance, it'll all be the same.
i'm happy today, you should be too.
i mean, what's life with that face all screwed?
my friend, listen.
we ain't distanced.
stuffs we've wrote, written, and are writing.
why let the bad things be the only ones surviving?
listen, please listen, we've got to move on.
the past ain't worth nothing for us to hold on.
what's the past, anyway?
a child being led astray.
there's a friend out there who needs to know this. we're still friends. no matter what happened, we should've long forgiven and forgotten. let that summer go already!
this is why i hate history.
puii- a moment of silence.
1:24 PM
Thursday, October 25, 2007
Jehovah Rapha
Officially sick =( beloved mummy was so sweet to let me sleep in, instead of pulling me out of bed early morning to the doctors. i feel like my head's a bag of rice or something. i cant walk straight. hahahaha. imagine i do class like this. i'd just die.=( i hate medicine.
spent time loading up photos to my multiply. some are so overdue. well, i better load them up first, in case my com crash and i lose them again.
i've been driven crazy lately by ballet. i dreamt of june june doing waltz of the flower, and i woke up searching for ballet terms on internet. my legs are hurting from ballet.
i LOVE ballet. i LOVE ballet. *must overcome =P*
going out to see David Ow again (the doctor). hahhahaa i miss his nagging. (ya right) i'm tired. i wanna sleep. =(
puii- dang sicknesses! BEGONE!
1:31 PM
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
look, over there.
i'm having a major headache now. its killing me. thinking if i wanna go school tmr. i think i might just die with this head now.i already feel like dying. hahaha.
i think God saw me feeling down. He sent alot of angels to me to encourage and lift me up today. i'm feeling thankful, yet afraid. i seriously dont know how am i gonna manage.
saying "No!" to the spirit of fear. no fear no fear no fear! (mai kia mai kia mai kia!!!!!!!)
i'm tired. i'm gonna go slp. let tmr worry for itself. =p
puii- talk to me sunflower.
11:50 PM
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
plie. tendu. adage. rond de jamb. fondu.....
shall drop by for a short ranting session before i start my dance history crap. (haha)somewhere between ballet class today i have decided not to base my self esteem on what others(he) say. i am who i am, and i know what i can and am capable of doing. i dont need someone to come and judge me and my passion in dance. i think, someone who just dont understand me, dun have the right to speak into and about my future and my being here, doing what i am doing now. i dun think i should feel disheartened and just give up everything just because of one person's demeaning words. i dun think i should be defeated just being shoot by one arrow.
i dun think i'm gonna give up in a short while. so sorry to disappoint YOU. i wont give up just because of what you say, if that is what you're secretly wishing for.
i know i'm trying my best to improve. i know i'm working hard, harder than ever before. its not my fault i dun have all the know-how; thats why i came to school anyways. i know i'm doing what is right. dont come and condemn and judge me just because you're better.
you are SUPPOSED to be.
so this is my short rant.
i'm so tired! but now is not the time to complain(tho we still do alot). to my flowers, let's chiong finish this sem first la!! =) we can one!!!! JIA YOU! UNITE!
puii- i LOVE ballet.
9:44 PM
Sunday, October 21, 2007
busy
Service was so good today! i couldnt stop tearing at the many thoughts that came. oh how God love His people.how He love his people. =)
i was especially touched by the vid with Sun. goodness, the tears of the kids.
currently trying to rush out my assignment, (which always seem never ending) i think if my semester was any longer i could die. all these paper work, PLUS all that dancing. our ballet teacher is already setting the exam stuffs with us already. C'MON believe in yourself more! you can pass one okay puiman? hahahaha...
i'm so tired. i feel so deprived of fellowship. i didnt go for the potluck at ryan's house cos i doze off while typing homework -_- so stupid. ARGH! stole some time for myself to have a lil escape here to type my little nothings.
man.. i'm craving for chocolate and grilled beef. SABA FISH too!! oh salad salad SALAD! the things i think of when i'm stressed. hahahahaha.. thats why i can never get slim enough -_- hai~~~~~
kk, heading back to my essay thing. i'm secretly still quite hungry, but i ate alot already! i think my mum will freak out if i went to get more food.
okay~! TATAs! =P
puii- Dance and fashion are two common areas that function as outlets of expression, with a stylish, individualistic outfit, or a unique piece of choreography.
11:24 PM
Saturday, October 20, 2007
as it dies, it lives.
havent been able to use the com for so long man.. either too busy, or the com's spoilt.i was so very tired. i think the past week was the hardest yet since this sem started. and i know its not gonna get any better till school finishes! =( dang! hahahaa..
i miss my darlings!!
there are things i should prepare to give up, for what i'm trying to pursue. there are things i should do right now, if not, i'll never get to.
and there's that essay i must go to the library to research on right now, before going for albert's performance!! BYEBYEBYE!
puii- fashion and dance as outlets of expression.
3:07 PM
Thursday, October 18, 2007
yay to yu pian mi fen.
i am suppose to be doing my reports now. ah heck, let me slack a while (like i never slack enough)the past week was kinda a drama. how exciting was the production week, and of cos, the production itself!! well, of cos i was overjoyed when the whole thing is over. rest, finally. (i thought)
now its all back to essays and assignments! (alot more in fact, to make up for the weeks before) i'm so dang tired from all the writing writing writing.. PLUS my stupid com likes shutting down on me. i totally felt like feeding it to my luo han fish.
i sorta have a loose left kneecap know. came from ballet class today. dang i hate it man. i now walk with a tiak tiak tiak in the knee with every step. this is bad la. =( to think that it is finals in a few more weeks.
i need a drive-through to satisfy the needs of my muscles and joints. i need some glucosamine and sinseh. ahahahaahha =P
update more next time. TATA!
puii- improv improv improv homework!!! =(
12:24 AM
Sunday, October 14, 2007
Lotto
i pray this week be over soon. i pray this semester ends like.. tmr.thank God i'm done with dancing for this week, (except if we have company class tmr) i'm so dang tired, i almost oversleep into the bus parking lot again. =P
but i'm so glad, my mum and aunt came watch me today. and val sweetie!! =) and of cos ivonn and junejunejune! =) so sweet la all of them =) i was so touched. even when i only dancing one piece they still come and support. =) so nice of them. ivonn and june even bot toy flowers!
took quite some pictures!! =) quite alot with Gigi and all. dunno whose cam was there as well. haha! =) will post everything up soon la. when i got time.
had fun with the esplanade company today. jia you for tmr guys! =) ALL THE WAY! =)
okay i'm gonna go wash everything up and sleep. dang i miss my bed.
puii- sunflowers. roses. a penguin. and a red monster =)
12:10 AM
Saturday, October 13, 2007
i'll look at the sunflower before i go out =)
in two hours time i'm gonna head to the esplanade. to be real honest i'm not very excited. okay ya a bit la. but not like, happy, excited, cant wait for the whole thing to start kind.i pretty much wan it to end fast. haha.. =P
still, i want to do my best. i dont want to let anyone down. i dont want to let myself down too. i want to be the best that i can be =)
so, i still gotta iron my top before heading out. there's nothing much to prepare for really. i made sure my cam batt's charged =) PICTURE TAKING!
i feel so lethargic. i'm gonna get myself choc later =)
okay. byebyebye! free then blog again la.
provided i can finish my mountain of homework in time. =P
puii- week 10/15!!
10:21 AM
i want to be like a sunflower.
i am so tired. forgive me for being so tired and quiet the entire day. i couldnt find strength to crack lame jokes. hahahaha =Pi dont know why am i so tired today too. i think its accumulated la. i (secretly) wish for a hug actually. haha! =P i think i'm stressing myself up. and i didnt realise until i almost cried in ballet just now cos i totally cannot get the combi! and everyone else could! hahaha.. aaron still can tap me and say "eh puiman. you look really stressed lei. dun stress la." haha! i seriously felt like kicking him away man. =P HAHA! i was SO STRESSED can.
but i think it'll be okay after this week. =)
it was fun having all these rehearsals and show runs. it was fun seeing everyone get anxious over costume and make up and hair. it was pretty nice dancing in Esplanade's rehearsal studio too! =)
i'm just... tired and stressed. haha =P
DANG i was so embarassed. i was so tired i forgot to que the lady to fade the music off to change track. screwed up big time. so embarassing! =P gosh..
Met Val sweetie at her school to pass her the tickets just now =) YAY i got to see her. =) haha she's so cute pls. =) so nice seeing her, though it was just for a while. =)
Cellgroup darlings were so cute today =) as they are always. i love my proj o girl gang=) and XIAO XIAN WASNT THERE! haha..
chewie so cute today. she wanted to buy me chocs for two times! and twice she forgot about it.. haha.. =P so CUTE! *pinch chew face*
cellgroup was nice. =) it was a prayer meeting. hahaha me and chew ended up praying two VERY long prayers each, cos we took two whole topic each. hai~ my england.. hai!
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if i were to start counting my blessings this past birthday season for me, i think i wouldnt be able to stop. thanks so much for all you sweet darlings out there =) i dont deem birthdays as special, but you guys made it special. THANK YOU! =)
can i be bias and say a big thank you to AH GER here? =) She made my birthday so so so so so special this year! =))) she not only gave me a pressie and card, she also gave me a big big stalk of sunflower!! i was so shocked and happy =))) GER! thanks so much man. you're GOD-SENT! =)
everything that yall have done meant so much to me. i know i'm loved =) i must know i'm loved!
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i yearn to be just one step closer to You, oh God.
puii- all for Your glory.
12:16 AM
Thursday, October 11, 2007
hgasktlhwalthastiogjhdasjgwaklejthsjhfsklthsjdhafklsthwe DANG!
dang. i am so tired......got to spend some chatty time with shu shu and na na yesterday. haha. was so fun talking to them la =))) i got home REAL late because of that though. haha thus i was super lack of sleep today. i got home at only 3 plus in the morning la!
i was so dead in the morning. thank God Ivonn got chocolate at home. she took her bro's one and give me. hahahaa.. i felt alot more alive after that. chocolate makes me high =)))
i seriously think its BALLET that is making my legs so fat can. i havent been doing ballet for quite some time, and felt my legs getting a lil smaller. TODAY i took Yaling's ballet, wah super pain can all the muscles. somemore it is those that shouldnt be aching.
ya ya i am using the wrong muscle. ya ya ya whatever.
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i'm gonna stop blogging cos my sister wants the com. you dont have to SHOW ME you had a bad day. like YOU bot the com. GRR.
puii- i'm too lazy to quarrel with you.
9:08 PM
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
hurting lips.
school i love! cos i get to see my darlings today =))) haha. i'm aching all over from the yoga class yesterday. haha and to think that i thought it was a tummy ache yesterday. well, in some way it does have something to do with my lousy stomach. well.. forget it.YES! there wasnt acting class todaY! dang! that wasting-time class. hahahaha.. all we've been doing is run around like kids playing some dumb games. -_-
dance science felt like sec school bio class. haha.
dinner with Jasmine girl @ Causeway point Sakae! hahahahaha we really ate ALOT can. =P and we were sooooo full after that i think we kinda regret eating so much. haha. we couldnt even stuff down the mochi thingy!! =P
but it was fun eating with her la. haha the last time i went out with her was like a thousand years ago.
i had much fun! =)
tmr is more love! haha morning is albert! our bittersweet class. very bitter. very sweet. hahaha! and at night, oschool with my loves! oh no! i havent decide what to wear for LADIES CHOICE! =p dang i think i'll just look weird. HAHA! =P
okay heading off to bed to ohmmmmmm... and prepare for albert's GO GO GO!!*push very hard* and YOU STUPID AH! NO BRAIN IZZIT?!?!!!! tmr =) hahahahah!
puii- oh KFC, i miss you..
11:35 PM
Monday, October 08, 2007
and i'm more than blessed
my tummy's giving me huge problems now. i think its indigestion. dang! like.. what did i eat la! haha..i was never so anxious, like i was this morning. so many times i was late.. today was the most gan jiong one la. haha.. i was like.. oh no! they are going to leave me! how on earth am i going to find the stage door and how on earth am i going to get the stage pass?! haha..
but somehow i did. though i arrived 10 mins late.. i somehow managed to catch up with the group.
the rehearsal studio's quite beautiful really. i never knew Esplanade had such a big studio can! hahah.. and its all glass and stuff.. so we could look out at the Marina Bay.
i dun like the floor though. its so hard. and YES it is so torturous to do Tammy's yoga class on that floor. haha!
than again.. her yoga class is crazy la. its is SO HARD to do!! i was sort of twisted in some weird position, and hurt myself by crashing my shinbone into my forehead -_- so pain can! argh! =P then again.. it was quite fun la.. challenging myself. haha.. its better than that petite allegro that i can NEVER get.
okay. i can finally get to see my dancing darlings tmr! =) haha i missed them today la! didnt see them whole day. haha. TEH O BENG! =)
puii- the Sun and the sunflower
9:25 PM
Sunday, October 07, 2007
because You love me
a peaceful birthday =) a tiny worry about my homework that is due tmr. but thats okay. i'll rush it out after dinner =) hahaha..an official increase in age. actually it doesnt have much effect on me, since i look old enough -_- hahaha.. but well.. at least i can donate blood now without parents' signature =) haha!
OKAY! a tiny nap before anything else. i'm so tired! *pray* let me dream of SUNFLOWERS! =)))
puii- SALAD! =)
6:38 PM
He'll gif u Sunflowers! *thx GER!* =)))
i thank God for a reason for celebration. an excuse to bring friends closer together once again. i thank all who remembered my birthday. thanks for all the calls and smses and everything! =) thanks to all my friends, even if you dont remember, for being just who you are, real and true, for being my friend =)i thank God for all the blessings.. the presents and everything. really there shouldnt be any reason to receive them, except the fact that i was placed on earth this very day years ago. just that.. and you guys found enough reasons to bless me with so much. i am so grateful =)
i thank God for the fellowship. i miss nonsense chats with my pri sch gang. thanks for that choc fudge cake and fruit tarts from PRIMA DELI and of cos. that pretty wallet =) seriously i missed you girls. i guess there's just some friends you'll keep for the rest of your life.
i thank God for Your peace that comes on this day. Your peace that surpasses all understanding. Your peace, an assurance, that everything's going to be fine. cos You are a good God.
i thank God for this day. this day that he's made. i thank God for conceiving me in His mind even before i came to this earth 18 years ago.
i thank God for my 18 years on earth. its just gonna get better as it goes on =)
puii- grateful birthday.
2:13 AM
Saturday, October 06, 2007
candle on a cookie! =)
Three more hours to 18! actually, the occasion itself doesnt excites me.i just feel so blessed to have an excuse to meet up with all em darlings whom i havent been seeing for like... SO LONG!
and! its an excuse to get presents and ang bao =))) HAHA!!!!
okay. after today i can officially donate blood without my parents signature. a YAY for that first =)))
i'm gonna head out now for a VERY late dinner. and to meet my stupid ancient darlings since primary school =)))
puii- oh birthdays.
9:05 PM
Israel.
YAY to today for being a good good day. mayb oreo and milk breakfast really works! =))) hahahahaahahah..Fetched mummy and daddy at the airport just now. oh man you cant imagine how i missed them la! =) i was smiling away to myself even when they havent come out from the gate there. haha! so nice to see them again since 10 days ago! =) hurray they made it back before my birthday =)))
ate lunch with mummy after that. i miss chatting lil nothings with her. she's just sooo cute. =) she got her hair done, colour and curls, for only 10 sing doulers can?! hahahaah!! i also wan!!!!
cellgroup was love! =) hahahaha so fun the game!! =) and so tough! its a chim-mer version of charades i think. ahaha got props somemore. so cute la =P DANG! the guys won again! hahaha..
carbonara for cellgroup refreshment. and its real good! =))) thanks xian and khye. =)))
and YAY we celebrated my birthday today! hahaha. thanks to theresa all the surprise wasnt there. but the present really did shock me!! =))) SHE REALLY WENT TO GET ME THE NECKLACE! the Land of Israel Necklace!!
i saw it and i was like OMGOSH!! i screamed la! hahahaha.. thanks thes! i really really love it la.. i was just taking all my necklaces out to find a suitable chain for it la. hahaha. yay i can have my love on my neck all day now =)
it is sooooo beautiful =)))
i got a bdae cookie too! =) with my name written on it. haha so cute la xian =)) PVI. HAHA!
ahh.. the necklace just reminded me of something so sweet. that God is my shepard. He will watch over me like He watched over the land of Israel. He calls me His child. He's blessed me beyond what i can ever ask for.
now who can find another God that can love like this?
it just reminds me how loved i am. not only by God, but also by all those around me. who took enough notice to know all the little things in my life. to really be there for me always always always. i know there's people i can depend on.
then again, i dun wanna depend on people. i wanna lean on God.
AH i just love Israel la. hahaa i pray some rich people will just bless me with a Israel trip! HAHAHAHAHA!!
no la. i'll start saving up. seriously saving up so i can get myself Israel-wards asap! =)))
PLUS theres building fund soon =) oh the excitement in the air! =P
YAY to long long chat with Thes. i havent chat with her for so long la! =) hahahaha..
okay i'm suppose to go choreo now. helping sinman in her company D&D dance item. haha~ goodbye blessed day. may tmr be just as nice =)
puii- the celebration of nothingness into being.
1:54 AM
Friday, October 05, 2007
Jehovah Nissi
i've cooled down now after a night. so has the keyboard. i'm gonna go prepare now to go pick daddy and mummy up =))haha never go school. wasnt feeling well in the morning. somemore i think today not rehearsing my cast. so i think i go le also never dance one.
oreo and milk for breakfast! i didnt know it was so =))))) hahahah.. okay. oreo and milk breakfast shall be the start of a good good day! =)
puii- Baruch Adonai/El Shaddai
12:43 PM
dang.
don't blame me for spoiling the keyboard. and yka t.hanyk, ykou i now t.ykpes liyk,es t.hies't.l(that was.. ya thank you i now type like this.)
dang t.o t.hinyk, i waes' happilyk es'inging awayk jues't. nowt.l ies' a phones call es'o har/dR?A dang ykou call homes esvesn if ykou'r/es br/inging a nor/mal fr/iesnd r/IGHt.
dun t.esll mes t.wo br/aines' cant. r/esmesmbesr how angr/yk i waes' t.hes ot.hesr/ t.imest.l
don t.esll ykou t.wo br/aines' cant. r/esmesmbesr/ t.o call mes t.o es'ayk es'omest.hingt.l
dont. t.esll mes jues't. bescaues' myk par/esnt.es' ar/es not. at. homes ykou can go t.o t.hes yk,it.chesn and My FreAkING rOOM t.o lovesyk dovesykt.l
comes on ykou ar/es not. yk,ides' anykmor/est.l haves es'omes cones'idesr/at.iont.l mind ykou i dont. mind ykou having a boykfr/esest.l i aint. jesaloues' esit.hesr/t.l
PLeaes'es t.hinyk, about. ot.hesr/es' t.oo ykaR?A i got. a lifes out.es'ides of ykour/es't.l i dont. nesesd int.r/udesr/ees' dies't.ur/bingt.lt.
i am sorry i vent so much. i dun hate you, really.
puii- ykou jues't. mayk,eses' myk lifes alot. har/desr/
i got alot. of happi t.hings t.o blog about. ones. i got. alot. t.o t.hank God for.
12:24 AM
Thursday, October 04, 2007
black and white
i'm so tired (again)i hurt my knee (again)
i bet i cant get up on time tmr (again)
life's in such a (bad) repetition that i'm starting to feel weary. i need a little escape into something that excites me. today Ryan did just that =))) Broadway is so fun when you're spastic!!! =) hahahahhaha
i'll tell you a secret. i'm quite sick of school, especially when it's project week, and a supposed holiday. PLUS i have to take the same class with all them pros. SO VERY PROS. and make myself feel so lousy about myself. ahhaha.. this is ARGH!
there was one part in yoga, we were relaxing on the floor. tammy told us to reflect on class just now, and immerse ourselves in one happy thought about ourselves. something good we have done in class. haha
sadly, i cant find any.
its really so sad. but i know i'm improving everyday. everyday i can catch a lil more. i can do all the combi's a lil faster. everyday i am growing a lil more. i guess its that frustration that is getting at me. i have everything that can bring me there, yet i'm not getting anywhere near.
LORD GIVE ME A SIGN!
*ps. THANKS xian for letting me know you love me no matter what! =)*
on a happy note, i got to see all my darlings today at oschool!! haha we got to broadway together, to a song from Hairspray. it was so so so so fun!! =) haha.. but after that my knee hurts. but that is another story. haha..
i super missed dancing with all my crazy dancing buddies. i miss them all la~!! school's consumed me man. i think i seriously need more FELLOWSHIP =)))) hahahahaha!!
YAY! Daddy and Mummy's coming back on Friday. i'm going to see them in two days time!! =) Hope they had a good trip there. bet they eat alot of good food!!! food that i totally missed!!!!
ROAST GOOSE!!!!!
okay i am so dead tired. i am going to finish my teh C and go to bed. nights world. please pray for my knee if you have time for me =) haha.. i'm trusting God that nothing major will happen to it till the Esplanade show finishes.
By the way, GRAB YOUR TICKETS FAST! i heard they are going fast, and they are not selling alot of tickets. haha..
puii- flutter
1:27 AM
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
Lord God of Abraham.
i guess my body haven't comprehend a fact, but i am SO VERY TIRED! hahaha~ i just realised how tired i am when i almost missed my stop on train, and MISSED my stop on a bus home. hahahaha~i feel i'm doing lousy. not good enough to make it in time for the Esplanade show.
dang i hate it, but i'm discouraging myself again =( I MUST STEP UP AND STEP OUT OF THIS! so pls.. at this time, dun say i'm lousy even if i seriously am. give me some time to stand up again..
i think the company classes are wearing me out. it is obviously something out of my reach. and i'm sorry i'm forcing myself everyday to make it. to look like i am not falling all over the place. to look like i can at least keep my legs untangled.
i am TRYING.
there'll be victory in the camp, at the shout of El Shaddai.
and DANG! i hurt my knee again. it was feeling better these two days. no pain, no nothing. today i hurt it again i think.. its starting to have that zzzling pain inside again. haha IVONN! bring me go see sinseh! =)
i'm going to eat my Crunch Ice Cream and make myself happy =))) haha!
puii- busted knee. again!