Thursday, November 29, 2007
never-ending, be my song.
It was two pretty happening days, first two days of holidays!! =) hahahaha. thats probably the greatest news this year beside the Gospel and the knowing that we're still alive, and that the next breath i'm gonna take is still gonna be free! hahaha =PI've been re-reading all my Max Lucado books. seriously, other than the words that the Father gave, no person's words touches my heart like his. I laugh and cry and jumps into the whole thing whenever i read his book. and gosh, how powerfully his words are crafted. so painfully true are the things he wrote of.
and yet, so beautiful.
Rest from the burden of a small god. Why? Because I have found the Lord.
Rest from doing things my way. Why? Because the Lord is my Shepherd.
Rest from endless wants. Why? Because I shall not want.
Rest from weariness. Why? Because He makes me lie down.
Rest from worry. Why? Because He leads me.
Rest from hopelessness. Why? Because He restores my soul.
Rest from guilt. Why? Because He leads me in the paths of righteousness.
Rest from arrogance. Why? Because of His name's sake.
Rest from the valley of death. Why? Because He walks me through it.
Rest from the shadow of grief. Why? Becase He guides me.
Rest from fear. Why? Becasue His presence comforts me.
Rest from loneliness. Why? Because He is with me.
Rest from shame. Why? Because He has prepared a place for me in the presence of my enemies.
Rest from my disappointments. Why? Because He anoints me.
Rest from envy. Why? Because my cup overflows.
Rest from doubt. Why? Because He follows me.
Rest from homesickness. Why? Because I will dwell in the house of my Lord forever.
After carrying the luggage of life, the burden, the baggages, i know we'd long for one thing. REST.
The Lord is my shepherd;
I shall not want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures;
He leads me beside the still waters.
He restores my soul;
He leads me in paths of righteousness for His name's sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil;
For You are with me;
Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.
You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies;
You anoint my head with oil.
My cup runs over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me
All the days of my life;
And I will dwell in the house of the Lord
Forever.
Yea when i see Max Lucado in heaven i will thank him. and i will thank God for this gift of words. oh his books is like light.
Okay, more about the day! =) Had much fun~ though i still went school yesterday for Hazel's rehearsal, but yea thats okay. it was fun though! =)
hhaha i even brought them to my dad's for lunch! =) i was wondering if they had enough to eat la. hope it was fun for them, cos it was for me! =) haha adeline and the rain!! =P
my dad is so cute. =)
didnt want to go oschool actually. i havent really bargained for more muscle aches from all em turns and jumps actually. but well, i went and did class anyway. hahahaah. i had much fun with my funny dancing peeps!! =)
Met that stupid old penguin after that for a cup of tea and nonsense chat. this is gonna sound so sad but i do kinda missed her a lil, cos i havent seen her for so long can. haha!
Classmate fun today! =)) Celebrated a VERY early christmas, with gift exchange and all, cos Jessica and all are going back for the holiday soon! (Jessica left like today la! =(! ) hahaha.. Quite dumb la actually. we practically spent most of our money on chocs sweets and gingerbread man! *look at Ivonn* hahaha.
thanks Alison for em candies!! and Jessica! hope you like the chocs! =)
was suppose to accompany FISH BEST FRIEND Theresa for Gin's class at night. But i got giddy while reading Han Nolan's in the NLB. so i went home after that. haha sorry FISH! =P hope you had fun in class!
i'm gonna stay home tmr and do some little nothings. GET MY HAIR CUT (finally) and mayb go for a jog or swim after that! =) and then!! head home for an aircon and nice books to read time with my cola flavored pushpop!! =)
Holiday is love! =)
Hahaha since i started the random hello thing with Alice when she tell me to mention her here, another friend did so and okay, here's the random hello!
Hello Trip! hahahahahaha..
okay that was like.. weird.
oh and. Hello Alice! hahaahaha..
I've been in a very hyper mode these two days. i want to do every everything that i havent been able to do during school term!! i want to finish reading all em books on my shelf. i want to start getting into the habit of swimming/jogging. i want to catch up with my Bleach episodes!!! i want to move my pen again and write em little nothings. i want to start figuring something to do about my room. i want to have more time for daddy and mummy. i want to do too much things in this one month!! =))
i want to celebrate CHRISTMAS! My bestest Friend's birthday. =)
puii- i serious AM going to cut my hair tomorrow, no matter how ugly it'll turn out. (hopefully not though)
10:14 PM
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
grateful
You cant imagine how HAPPIE i am, REALLY am right now, that the semester is finally over, that exams are over and done with, and that holiday has FINALLY arrived! =Pthough my sem was like what? 15 weeks only?
but i tell you.. it was probably the most painful 15 weeks i've been through. more so physically. i havent had such bad aches and stuff before. and to add on to that, i didnt slim down at all this sem =(. hahaha, due to overeating must be. DANG! =P
contemp was okay i feel, not like good good or whatever, but managable. then again, i dont really want to care too much, even the fact that I (in face the whole class) pretty much screwed up the ballet exam this morning. lets put the blame on two things. the 3 days break since last friday, and that superly-duperly-overcold aircon this morning in studio that caused our muscles to cramp even before we move. hahahaha..
so yea. ballet's quite screwed. but hey! i know i've improved since the start of sem la! for me, that's achievement, and thats enough for now. =)
but one day. one day i pray i can dance ballet like evan, like hazel, like all em crazy muscles and pretty arms. ONE DAY! (hope that "one day" comes though. ahha!)
okay enough talk about school.
had much much fun during the outing with classmates today!! first time we had a everyone-present outing! so fun fun fun! haha watched the movie Enchanted! it is so nice and funnie! =) Perfect light-hearted show right after a stressful exam. Coolmax!! =)
(sings) I am dreaming of a true love's kiss~~*bicycles come crashing* HAHAHA!
and Gelare trip was crazy!
took many pictures too. Go facebook or multiply to find them =P
i'm going sleep now. i got a very packed first-day-of-holiday! =) i'm gonna wake up early to jog, then morning breakfast with mum at tiong bahru. afternoon meeting Ger, and night.. Oschool love! =) Yayness. No more pointe shoes for a while! =P HAHAHA!
oh and, you cant understand how destressing it is for me to dl music from multiply. hahahaha.. =P
puii- i wanna drink green tea.
8:53 PM
Sunday, November 25, 2007
Last two steps to FREEDOM
Okay, tmr and the day after marks the end of everything (not really, just the semester). Happy that we could finally put an end to this tough tough tough semester~!!and i blame it on my lousy ballet dancing. hahaha.
tmr's contemp exam. tuesday's ballet. after that is Enchanted movie trip with classmates! =) Wed's Early-Christmas Celebration still on? i havent buy present lei how. =P HAHAHA!
i am pretty happy and excited about everything now, now that things are settling down again. surprisingly, i'm not as stressed up for all the practical exams! =) thats a good thing perhaps (i hope)
so by the way, i had wanted to spend some part of my two days weekend break to prac a lil. but i spent most of it watching lousy channel 8 shows. well, the most i did was try to prac my attitude turn and double en dehors for pirouette exercise.
hai~ i took out my theraband but didnt use it
hahaha.. so i kinda slacked past the two days.
Pst Tan's msg is cool =)
ouch! i just scraped a million skin cells off my left arm against a wooden plank beside my dad's bed. dang it hurts! =((( thank God its just skin injury.
two more days of sleeping in parents' room! =) dun wan the strong strong aircon to catch me sick right at this moment now.
OKAY. i dunno what i am typing right now. guess that is a sign. i need some pls already! =) NIGHTS WORLD! pray for me and my class. pray for all the people in my faculty. pray we dance well well well for the exams coming week!!!! =)
oh, here a random "HELLO ALICE!" again. haha hope you see this! =P
puii-
10:36 PM
Saturday, November 24, 2007
Fithos Lusec Wecos Vinosec
too tired to blog.but i cant tell you how how how happie i really really REALLY am right now that this horrible semester is over. hahahaha~ =) Just exams left and WOOHOO!
the feeling of having no more homework due is LOVE!
blog tmr la. hahaha =) YAYNESS to long long sleep!
puii- thanking God for everything.
1:04 AM
Thursday, November 22, 2007
end of week 15 YAYNESS!
Happie happie yesterday! i think i didnt say, but i totally enjoyed my evening spent with Ger Ger GER at Miss Clarity Cafe! =))) Nice food, nice place, good friends, nonsense chats. i love love love love love that lil escape from frowns and muscle aches! haha..
To the left is the map to this cafe!! for those who were asking me about the location. hahaha..
5 Purvis Street #01-04 Singapore 188584 Tel: 63394803
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INVITATION!!! =) Tomorrow, 22 Nov 2007, apart from being my official last day of school, it is also our informal showcase at LaSalle. Its at the biggest dance studio you can find on first floor, 6pm (i think). Do come if you're free! I think it'll be quite sad if we have a show, but no one to show to! hahahahaha! =P
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So as i have said, tomorrow is the last day for official lessons!! =))) YAYNESS! Hahahha.. putting the anxiety for exams aside, we can say a temporal goodbye to muscle muscle aches and stuffs! =) hahaha.. after that, the company class..the informal showing.. long long day tmr but, i'm believing it to be fruitful! =)
and i pray, let me recover by morning.
okay. i'll be a lil random from here on. bear with me. haha!
just a lil sidenote from tuesday. i love alice, jenny and wendy's choreography!! i cant imagine our class doing all those nonsense choreographing la! i think they are sensational! =)
and JUNE!! i really am so gan dong every time i watch you dance Waltz of the Flowers!! =) so cute! =)
Ivonn! Last albert's class tmr!! HOW!!!!!!!!! hahahaha..
i am craving for a bucket of warm milo. and sesame ball from Er Yi Min tau huay!
Improv class was fun today, both fun to watch and do! The contact improv was really looking so good good good now! Fit to be put on stage i am sure!! hahaha.. and that freestyle improv was real nice too. That grid game was FUN-NESS! =) Ice cream! Lasalle! Ice Cream!! Lasalle!! GREEN! Spongebob! Flamingo! hahahahahahaha nonsense stuffs la. Very fun last-improv class. i love my class for the trust we give each other, and for building such a condusive environment for each other to grow in improv. remember our first improv class? we cant even do that sound scape thing without laughing at each other!! haha!!
look how far we've come in just 15 weeks!
so much reflection to do. overall, i guess we should all feel so so sooo proud of ourselves, regardless of how we actually performed. the very fact we survived so far, the very fact we learned something new, the very fact that we have changed as a person and dancer is what matters! =)
i am still lovin pst Ulf! hee! watching him online right now. YAY YAY YAY! i wanna read his new new book! =)
okay, i am off to write my actors' credo now. so stupid la.. last homework due, and its got nothing to do with what we're doing. HAHA! =P
puii- oh herbal mutton soup!
9:54 PM
beef mozza-tofu ROCKS! =)
i am officially in the countdown mood already!! =) strictly speaking, it is just 5 and a half more days to go!! super duper looking forward, though i am SURE will miss the company during holidays. hahahahahaa.. not to mention.... never mind *cheeky smile* HAHAHHAHAAHHA!!!that was a joke, okay? =P
anyways. i am so supposed to be doing improv assignment, one of the last few things to hand in for this sem!! (hurray!) but i totally dun feel like it. i think i wanna wake up in the morning to do, just that i dun think i will have the discipline to.
and i got a mountain of things that i wanna blog about. about this book i am reading. about how torturous school was in this last lap that we're running. about the level 2 choreography exam. about how excited i am to watch oschool recital. about how i am craving for beef brisket hor fun and herbal mutton soup. about how ee ching's class was so fun but so tiring. about how i see myself right now in dance. about life. about whatever. about how TIRED i am right right now. i think my muscles will just die if i go on like this any longer!! hahahaha =P
thank God it is my inner thigh that's cramping up, not my quads or whatever muscles that are suppose to be smaller. HAHA! =P
my neck's having cramps from all the ballet. what's with all the looking over, upper back thing. and that MORE MORE MORE MORE! hahaha it seriously is cramping! never bluff!! hahaha =P
okay, i shall retreat to lala land for a while. shall return with renewed strength to do my fav homework. TATA world! =) i see you when i see you. and i will THEN blog about all em things i wanted to..
puii- oh lemonade.
1:19 AM
Monday, November 19, 2007
He chose the nails.
Service with Pst Phil was sooooo good =) dang his painting is sooo nice too! i love both of it. well, both is quite diff from what i thought. but its so nice =) thank God for such talents, and thank God we got a chance to witness it! =)a random poem that caught me just before i went for service. oh other than the bible, i think Max Lucado's words touches me the most!
He splashed orange in the sunrise
and cast the sky in blue.
And if you love to see geese as they gather,
chances are you'll see that too.
Did He have to make the squirrel's tail furry
Was He obliged to make the birds sing?
And the funny way that chickens scurry
or the majesty of thunder when it rings?
Why give a flower fragrance? Why give food its taste?
Could it be
He loves to see
that look upon your face?
You know, we wouldnt have known the difference, had He made the world black and white. if there wasnt music, dance, paintings, fashions, nature..etc. we wouldnt have known the difference. He gave so much more, more than we need. we dun need colours, taste, soothing sounds to survive, yet He gave them.
i look at the art pieces, astonished. He gave me eyes to see such beauty. He gave me a chance to see such beauty. He gave such talent to this world, this fallen world.
imagine when we get to heaven.
i trust my Lord, He is a good God. His gift of love, starts from this very breath that i have, ability to see, to feel, to experience so many wonderful things!
He is good. my God, He is so good.
The diadem of pain
which sliced Your gentle face,
three spikes piercing flesh and wood
to hold You in Your place.
The need for blood I understand.
Your sacrifice I embrace.
But the bitter sponge, the cutting spear,
the spit upon Your face?
Did it have to be a cross?
Did not a kinder death exist
than six hours hanging between life and death,
all spurred by a betrayer's kiss?
"Oh, Father," you pose,
heart-stilled at what could be,
"I'm sorry to ask, but I long to know,
did You do this for me?"
dang i'm loving this book all over again. Holy Spirit my friend, come touch my heart once again.
puii- "I did it just for you"
3:07 AM
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. ARISTA.
yes i know i am suppose to be doing anything else BUT blogging right now, and i am aware of the time now. i just need something to wake myself up, so that i can continue what i am suppose to be doing =)and i hoping ranting some whatevers might clear my mind abit.
a lil explaination: i'm awake at this kinda time (when there's school in like less than 7 hours) doing my looking at dance essay, and that irritating ballet assignment that we were suppose to do. dang i dun even think i have enough time for everything even if i stay awake whole night.
i think i only have enough time for one =(.
my looking at dance essay needs a major revamp, after hearing all em suggestions last week at the presentation. i am totally like re-doing the whole essay, which i spent the whole sem doing -_-. i'm suppose to redo in one night now! hahahahaha..
okay i am to blame la okay. i was soooo stress by friday that i decided to give myself a lil self-declared break on saturday. i spent the day doing lil nothings, met Val sweetie =), saw jacky, huat and ter at the channel U beatbox comp, went home and watch tv. nothing but slack.
it was therapeutic no doubt. but it left me with huge consequences. now i am facing it. all my fault can?! hahahahaha =P
okay, now i am listening to some head banging songs to keep myself awake for the night. coffee's useless on me!! dang. i wan some starbucks now! =P hahaahhahahaha..
HERE WE GO! into all the earth!! =) SOMEWHERE I BELONGGG! HAHAHAHAHAHA!
so.. a to-do list before i go suffer again.
19 Nov Perf Lab Assignment
19 Nov Looking at Dance Essay DUE
19 Nov Looking at Dance file compiled
19 Nov Ballet Terms assignment
19 Nov Rehearsal for Informal Showing
20 Nov Actors' Credo
20 Nov Sports paper (yes i havent hand in =P)
20 Nov Acting Finals (prepare props!!! =P)
22 Nov Improv Last assignment =)
22 Nov Improv file compiled
23 Nov Informal Showing
(Last day of school!! =))
26-27 Nov Final Exams!
i think thats it la. tell me again if i missed out anything. hahah i shall add on to that vicious list. okay!! back to doing em endless assignment in this (literally) RESTless night. thank God i have Ivonn staying awake with me too. Chats with Ivonn + Head Banging Song + Lousy Coffee = Hopefully sleepless awake night. hahahahaha =P
goodmorning all you people. i pray the day be gracious to me. YAYNESS for mondays. dad's home home for dinner =)
HAPPIE BIRTHDAY NICK!
haha there's really ALOT of November babies man!! hahaha..
puii- Koda Kumi keeps me awake now.
2:25 AM
Saturday, November 17, 2007
ARISTA.
Dang the day's over already. hope its not too late to say....HAPPIE BIRTHDAY THERESAAAAAAAA FISH BEST FRIEND!! =))))
hahahaahaha.. she turn 20!! big 2 big 2!! Theresa Yee Chun Li. HEE!
my inner thigh and left ankle hurts like mad man.. and my arms.. and my back.. and my neck.. and...everything actually..
hahah i am off to go grab some rest for my poor body. meeting val val val sweetie tmr to support jacky and huat, those two lousy chicken pies!! =)) YAYness for that first! =)
Oh, today is Weiye a.k.a Shu shu's birthday!!!!!!! HAPPIE BIRTHDAY!! =)))
dang.. is this the birthday season? HAHAHAH! =P
puii- that torturous next week. C'MON come at me! Muahahahaha =P
HELLO ALICE! hahahahaha..
12:46 AM
Thursday, November 15, 2007
i love Your house~~~
i am quite happy by the end of the day. chats with my fav and dinner at BK lifts me up!! hahahahhaha.. =)))oh, today is Yong Wei's birthday so.. in case he ever stalks his way here (hahahah..) CHER!! HAPPIE BIRTHDAYYYY!!!! =) haha old liao lo.. young/childish at heart. hahahahahahaah =P
funnie lunch trip today. i bought mixed vege rice. was trying to ask the auntie if that tub of curry is vege or chicken. so, half ignoring me, she put into my box of rice BOTH curry vege and curry rice. oooookay i thought. mayb i should add some other vege to neutralise it or somethng. HAHA no chance pls. she immediately said "no more liao right?!" and closed the box -_-
what the pink blue black purple green and red! hahahahahaah..
thank God the curry's not all that bad. if not i think i would have to give up my lunch altogether! =P
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i shall not focus on the negative. i still love albert's class though he scolded me bad today. haha! really!!
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Hello Alice!
(haha.. this is the promised, random hello =P) haha!!
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improv today was so funnie..and soooo tiring! goodness!! hahaa.. we did alot of fun fun fun stuffs!! =) and i wrote this here just to remind myself next week when i would try to rem what we did today.. and write my journal based on that. HAHHA! =P
i'm uber thirsty nowadays. i've been craving for alot of nonsense drinks. like ice milo.. fruit punch.. bubble milk tea.. green tea 1.5 litre =))))))
okay i should stop my nonsense. tmr marks the end of the second last week!! =))) last last last lap GOOOO! =))
puii- secret garden i love.
p.s. Hello Ivonn! hahaha.. =P
11:18 PM
two steps two steps.
here i am just before i go to bed, worrying about everything in my life right now.i guess someone's just not happy i've been doing what i am doing. and someone's trying to stop me from doing what i am suppose to be doing.
dun you dare stop me. i will bind you with my ballet shoes. come after me with your fiery darts, i have my shield of faith!
okay.. so i should stop worrying too altogether.
sadly, but true. you got me here. i cant stop worrying right now. especially ballet. i answered ivonn with a conviction so so so so strong in my heart that i believe my every every other subject would definitely score better than my ballet.
tell me that is not worth worrying.
if only worrying would make it better. if only muscles grows like bean sprouts. if only strength comes like buying a pushpop or pork floss bread. if only one can be a ballerina just overnight.
if only my double pirouettes(es) will come like this packet of vitasoy that i just drank.
puii- oh if only ballet comes as easy as sleep. HAHAH! =P
12:14 AM
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
two more two more weeksss!!
YES i survived the (probably) deadliest two days of the rest of the semester, other than finals for exams of course. hahaahha.. i finished all my written papers alreadyyyyy!!! =))) now just left looking at dance presentation tmr, the rest are okay la i guess. hahaha..have been so so tired, trying to dance with all em viruses and phlegms, coughing coughing coughing. dang my muscles aint listening to me. then again, i guess they never really existed. HHAHA!! =P
How on earth am i gonna go take my ballet exams lidat man. the barre exercises just became insane madness once we went on pointe man. hahahahah.. oh what a joy to hear the grinding of my ankle joint when i fell off pointe (Ewww..)
Dance history was madness. Hahaha.. dance science was okay la. Thank God they are over already anyways. hahahahaha.. two big loads off my mind!! =)))
Oh, and Acting class today was stupid. hahaha!!
we were suppose to prepare for this rehearsal thing for next weeks finals. i went in unprepared can!! when Aaron started off, i was still like, OMG!! what am i going to do!! hahahaha.. came up with something, kinda crappy idea. hahahaha.. amazingly it still can work. yay~
OKAY! enough of blogging. now i'm suppose to go prepare for presentation tmr!! byebyebye!
puii- i wan cheese and sausage pancake! =P
8:30 PM
Monday, November 12, 2007
arista.
please pray for me if you see this. i cant believe how sick i fell over the weekend, when it is soooo near the finals.i was so sick i couldnt get out of bed today =(
dance history exam later. and i havent finished studying. seriously i couldnt get anything into my brain with this heavy flu and headache thing man. i need an elixer. i need phoenix down. hhahahahahaha.. =P
Sickness BEGONE!!!
puii- Jehovah Rapha.
12:30 PM
Sunday, November 11, 2007
Louis XIV. Marie Taglioni. Jules Perrot. Diaghilev. Balanchine.
i just got home not v long from the TCC study trip with Ivonn. man, i tell you all the history and science notes can kill la! hahaha had much fun with that irritating girl though. now i'll always remember the toilet of TCC at boat quay. HAHAHA!!! =Pits a pretty dope place to chill (and study-_-). v nice!! haha the stuffs are nice too, the drinks and food all. i had much trouble getting the bean bag to do what i wanted though. hahahaahaha..
and i just fell sick =( it got worse on the way home. its must be that beauty nap on the NR. hahahaaha!!! =P
i think i'm gonna lose my voice and my nose. i better hurry and find med before heading to bed. YAY to Pst Ulf tmr!! =) i love love love love him man!! yayness~~ WEE!
puii- fusiform. pennate. bi-pennate. multi-pennate. radiate.
2:29 AM
Saturday, November 10, 2007
hair pulling madness.
my weekend i have sold to homework and studies. only a tiny escape on sunday morning for my fav fav fav fav fav pst Ulf!! =) HUGE YAY for that. Gonna study for dance history and dance science later, monday and tuesday's the final exams. Dang, when i'm so blur about everything. especially dance history!!! ARGH. i think i can just die.and i need to prepare for Looking at Dance presentation on wednesday. need to write up the sports paper and actor's credo, and prepare the thingy for acting class' finals.
There's like a thousand and one things due.
10 Nov Study Dance Science/History
10 Nov Do Ballet Homework/Writeup
10 Nov Performance Lab Journal
11 Nov Finish Dance History Essay
11 Nov Finish Sports Paper
11 Nov Prepare Acting Finals
12 Nov Dance History Exam
12 Nov Essay, Ballet hmwk, Perf Lab Journal DUE
13 Nov Dance Science Exam
13 Nov Sports paper DUE
13 Nov Rehearsal for Acting's finals
14 Nov Looking at dance Presentation
15 Nov Improv Homework
16 Nov Performance Lab Journal
17 Nov Finish Looking at Dance Essay
18 Nov Finish Actors' Credo
19 Nov Looking at Dance Essay DUE
20 Nov Actors' Credo DUE
20 Nov Acting Class Finals
22 Nov Rehearsal for Informal Showing
23 Nov Informal Showing (last day of school)
26 Nov Ballet Final Exam
27 Nov Contemp Final Exam
28 Nov my FAVOURITE day.
and all these are just school stuffs. dang. i cant cope anymore. Daddy, i need some help over
here la! Creativity Ability and Productivity!!!! (CAP) HEE!
i'm dead tired now, no amount of sleep can measure up to it. i need some food right now, but Sinman's not back yet. i'm having a real nasty sore throat from yesterday's whatever. it just randomly appeared can!! haha.. irritating. The body's sore and tired like nobody's business.
Okay, stop complaining Puiman.
Meeting my fav(s) later for school works. I seriously need to go buy some chocs.
puii- (sings) darling i love you~~~ *look at June* HAHAHAH!!
12:44 PM
stressed; HELP.
i am so stressed i can just die. i've been having those i-wanna-cry moments these few days. i hope 28 Nov is tmr. i marked, my fav day for now. =)i'm so sorry cellgroup. i totally MIA-ed from the botanical garden picnic thing. i was soooooo stressed and caught up with homework that day, PLUS i had to practice for ballet exam, and waltz of the flower audition -_- i seriously thought i couldnt survive this week.
and talking about the waltz. i thank God my ankles are not injured till now, the rate of me falling off them the way i do. hahahaha.. one day, one unlucky day, i am sure i will just crack and twist something inside when i do my usual sickled fall from on pointe. hahahaah..
waltz of the flower = good way to burn calories.
i sweated like mad today la! haha hsien fa + albert + waltz = happening friday.
cut long story short. i got home 1.30am via night rider. guess why i came home so late?....i was doing homework with ivonn at a Mac near school -_- so late till i had to catch night rider can. actually we wanted to stay longer, to finish up the ballet barre exercise write up. but i cannot take it liao. ahhahaha..
okay i cant take it anymore. nights world!! =)
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Daddy, give me courage. show me Your surprise in this grave of hope. show me Your sparkling eyes as You prepare something special for me. show me that smile when You see me pulling on the ribbon. tell me i can make it through. with my hand in Yours, You will lead and guide me through.You will help me in times of need (and stress).
puii- and Daddy do You know? i love You i love You i love You.
2:36 AM
Thursday, November 08, 2007
i need a brake.
I think i'm going blind soon. my eyes have infection again from the stupid contact lens again. =((( big time badness. somemore its soooo near finals now.it hurts to blink man. i shouldnt have kept it in today for ee ching's class. should have taken it out after dance history la. dang i totally forgot about it. now i'm suffering =(
there's a lumpy thingy just beside the iris now. it is soooo irritating. =(
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on a happier note, i finally got to chat with ger ger ger ger ger today!! hahaha. cos i was at Kopitiam buying papaya, saw a group of people out of the corner of my eyes that might be project O and all. but wanted to rush back so didnt go see them la. messaged ger after that, and it is them! haha.. so i got to meet her, thank God i havent board the train yet =)
took the train towards punggol with her. took a bus back from seng kang after that. i seriously treasure this time i had with her la. nowadays, i rarely have time with anyone for such a light hearted chat. it is indeed so precious.
talked some little nothings anyways. and of course, about dance too. Ger had always been such an inspiration to me. to many others too i'm sure. looking at her, i would tell myself "i CANNOT give up. no matter what, i just cannot." this girl's passion stirs me up. okay i'm ready for more ballet class now =)
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Ee ching's class was fun. and i still couldnt turn. yes even jazz turns i cant do a nice single please. what more ballet turns. my knees just keep giving way, my ankles just twist out of balance. now what can i do about that?!
But it was still fun dancing with em peeps. Theresa and Aaron's monster claws!! hahahaha!!! =P
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Lastly!! i just felt like sharing a video with you all. amazingly nice dancing!! it's just jaw dropping to see her dance, how her movements grows even when it stops.
puii- i love papayas.
12:11 AM
Wednesday, November 07, 2007
traffic jams = waste of time, money and effort.
In school right now.. i'm so bored. i just wanna come here and vent my frustration about the new ERP system thingy. it totally caused me to be late for school and miss class for nothing -_-as of monday (5 Nov) ERP systems have undergo changes. i only know of the CTE situation. haha heard from the cab driver just now. he was saying they increase the ERP charges, in hope to reduce the badness of the jams in peak hours. haha they totally made things worse.
not only did they increased the price, but they extended the time too. so last time ERP morning finishes at 930, now it is extended to 11. People who normally wait till 930 now thought that it wouldnt make a diff, since they are still gonna pay. so they came out earlier. add ons to the traffic.
AND!! to add on to that. normally by 10, at most 1030, CTE should be quite clear already, no more super jams. now! because they are still people who waits for the ERP thing to finish before going out. the jams are extended all the way till 11 plus!!! can you believe it? almost lunch time and there's still jam.
and when things about the ERP are bad enough.. there's the rain -_- now i know why hsien fa will be late for class.
so, we pay alot more, and is getting around even slower. i sometimes SERIOUSLY feels like going to learn motorbike. i cant stand being stuck in a jam and watching em bikes just goes on like there's no jam!!! argh!
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so i'm in the library now, trying to make full use of this stolen escape from class (again). Dang i better go read em ballet terms and stuffs, so i would not be as blur in ballet class.
i just realise how things are collapsing all over me. i hope this semester ends like... tommorow.
Just to make a list.
9 Nov - Perf Lab Journal
12 Nov - Dance History Essay Due
12 Nov - Dance History Exam
12Nov - Ballet Exam Writeup
13 Nov - Sports Paper Due (Acting)
13 Nov - Acting Finals Rehearsal
13 Nov - Dance Science Exam
14 Nov - Looking at Dance Presentation
15 Nov - Improv homework
16 Nov - Perf Lab Journal
19 Nov - Looking at Dance Essay Due
23 Nov - Informal showing
26 Nov - Ballet Final Exam
27 Nov - Contemp Final Exam
For now.. i mark 28 Nov 2007 as my favourite day.
puii- so so so stressed up. =(
9:05 AM
no wonder.
i think this time, i would most prob be right about it again. i was always right.but, lets hope i'd make a mistake for once ya? lets just hope i can be so so so wrong this time.
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Tadah!! i survived the day! =) dang, i seriously thought i was gonna die in Acting class. we had to tell a story pls. hahaha everyone told fairy tale basically. i love wendy's story though =) NICE ONE!
and i told the princess and the pea. hahahaah
I sometimes feel its not i dont wanna work hard for ballet, i dont know how. and i dont know how to work with someone who dont understand how many many MANY things are going through my mind with every every single step i do. turnout, point foot, knees straight, head position, arms port de bras, back straight, pull up on hip....etc etc etc. i think i can go on all night. how can i work with someone who dont understand how i am trying to fulfill all these mental to-do list with every single step i take, and at the same time, i had to rem movements, the quality, the timing, the accent..etc etc.
how can someone who dont understand this come and tell me i'm not working hard enough.
okay, i admit i should have prac-ed more and stuff. hahahahaha. BUT i really am trying my best in every class! just that my best was not what you wanted. i am not to blame of course. but my marks are at stake. HAHA! nice trade huh?! =P
YAY to albert's class tmr =))) i seriously missed him. HAHA!
and tmr's a half day for no reason!!! yay to that too! =) and one more yay to oschool trip tmr for ee ching's =)
watched a bit of choreography class of level twos. i love some of the music they chose, though it was all quite on the same line. haha ivonn was so cute doing that dance, though i seriously could not see what they were trying to portray. love alice and ming hui's choreo tho =) didnt get to see all of it =( had dance science.
puii- boo to ballet tmr. HAHA!
12:23 AM
Monday, November 05, 2007
tell him.
i hate mondays for their bad traffic. i guess thats is the REAL reason why people get monday blues. HRMP!!anyways! felt quite slack today, especially perf lab. hahaha didnt really danced danced much. i was quite energetic though. jumping around like some monkey -_- hahahaha..
June and Ann did looking at dance presentation today! Dang! i'm soooooo stressed now. i'm so afraid i'd have not enough things to say man!! hahahahahaha.. better speak SLOWER and DRAG my points =) plus the research process thingy. hope can drag to a 10 mins la. =)
Got to meet GERRRR (and Jasmine too =)) to pass her the TBG shirt. she wanna borrow. haha. but THE POINT IS! i got to see her cute face!! =) Go go go go go project O!! Jia you and all the best for you all de exams tmr and on wed!!! =)))
After that, the plan was to go home,
and theresa spoilt it all!!
hahahaha.. she randomly messaged me if i wanna go for Daniel's Hiphop Two. 've been wanting to go for his classes again, so i went, since not much hmwk to rush today(for once).
and his class is the love!! hahaha i finally found an outlet for my energy kept in for the whole day. hahahaha. soooo tiring, but SO FUN!! =) he said he'll load the vid on youtube. lets hope he wont load the one where i totally forget that step, and he was standing like, in front with the cam. HAHAHAHA!!
thank you daniel for the snack stuffs!
P.S. Theresa, i'm totally not MORE bimbotic than you PLEASE. you bimbo queenie fish!! hahahahahaha =P NEW NAME!
it was a nice escape from ballet and contemp. it was fun to be bouncing and all that again =) BUT! tmr, it'll be back to the main stream. FOCUS! at least till exams finishes! hahahaha =P
can you believe it, i'll be having theory exams next week already!! dance science and dance history. Dang, tell me i'll be alright.
puii- many hearts for oschool =)
11:16 PM
Sunday, November 04, 2007
Its gonna be a brighter day, Brighter Day!!!
Arise and Build today was sooooo good!!! =) though its so little that i can give, i believe it'll be like the five loaves and two fishes in the Master's hands. when i give in faith, He'll multiply it to feed the thousands!by the way, Five Loaves and Two Fishes by Corrinne May is nice!
Had a random performance thing at Sinman's company D&D. such a noob thingy man. hahahaha. i was laughing at myself while watching the vid. but well, at least it was entertaining (i hope?) =P quite lame la the whole thing. but we got to eat for nothing (well, not really nothing)
It was Huat's bdae that day!!! (2 nov) Happie birthday!!
Next day, Ivonn dropped a random call and tell me she got me tickets for a random performance, which i know nothing of. hahaha so i said okay la, since i got nothing to do, and i didnt feel like rushing assignment on saturday evening.
but!!! first thing first, we had an important mission at hand before that. hahahaha.. cos it was Jessica's birthday that day!! (3 nov)
we looked around Toa Payoh, nothing. so we went down Bugis earlier to go pressie hunting. hahaha we were so gan jiong the whole time la. Ivonn la!! make me gan jiong only. hahah we decided on a watch and a card for her. Ivonn wrote the thing upside down la!! hahahahahahaha!!!
Ivonn spotted Jessica looking at watches that time, so we decided on a watch!! =) BUTBUTBUT!! when we met her.. we saw a new watch on her hands -_-
OH NOOOOOO!!!!!!
but still hope she'll like it la. can alternate if she like. HAHAHA! =P
after that, Jenny come fetch us to National Museum for the show. i reached to know it was a indonesian contemp dance. man it was so so so so so so so good!!!! =) i havent really been into cultural thingys, mayb except chinese. but it was really something so fresh! =) nice!
oh!! Jessica's friend is inside too!! she's sooo dang good la~!! =)))
after that, it was like.. 10? we were cafe cartel to celebrate Jessica's bdae =))) hahaha hope she enjoyed herself la =) so cute she. heehee!
i'm home early today, so i can finish everything in time. suppose to go and watch those nonsense basketball tournament thingy to write a sports paper for acting class. so dumb right!??!?! not like i dun like sports, but to write a paper about it?!
Thank God they never tell me go watch soccer though. AHAHHA!! =P
okay, so this was just to fulfill my blogging craving. i shall go on with my Looking at Dance essay now. Final draft tmr before the actual paper!! ARGH!
puii- plugging into Kirk Franklin! =)
4:04 PM
i guess i know how a mousie feels.
when it is peeking at the stew.
i guess i know the honey bee's mind.
the love for flowers it cannot hide.
i guess there's somethings worth holding to.
things that are true and real. and true.
i guess there are things we hold as precious.
as dear as the hidden treasures.
i guess you wouldnt understand if i spoke.
all i ask is for you to look.
look at everything around you.
and know the world is still beautiful.
puii- listening to Mister Cellophane - John Reilly
3:48 PM
Thursday, November 01, 2007
Music flooded.
Kaili showed me this vid. it is so OMGOSH cute!!!!!! =)))))
STILL rushing assignments. Dang, when will this end. =(
Puii- night time treats.
11:51 PM
thank God for what I have. =)))
Joe showed me a video and I dont wanna dance anymore!!!!!This is Blake McGrath. and this vid is ulti sick man. i tell you. OMGOSH how can this be humanly possible!!! hahahahaha i wanna learn that one leg roll over thingy! seemed like his trademark though. he always use it.
and his pirouettes and nonsense turns. DANG! i dont wan to dance liao la.. HAHA! =P
Goodness i'm still quite shocked from watching it. hahahahaha.. suddenly albert's class seemed alot easier. comforting in a way la huh! hahahahaha =P
Ee ching's class today was fun with all em peeps! =))) so long never danced with Thes and Cal already!! Haha i love the jazz choreo, though i can never nail the double pirouette following into the hand hand hand hand thing. HAHA!
Calynne Tay Kai Ning and Theresa Yee Chun Li found the bimbotic side of me today. DANG!
i miss GERRRRR!! =)
Ballet today was painful. Especially pointe.
Yaling's ballet tmr!! MAJOR LOVE! =)))))))
okay!! back to rushing improv journals. dang! i miss early night sleeps.
puii- parents' away = can sleep in mum's room =)))