Now that i'm tired in the brain. my muscles are cold, and i'm sleepy, all the injuries and stuff seem to have awoken and sort of reminded me of their presence. i don't know what this means but, yea em stupid knee and back is like squeeking at me telling me not to forget about them.
like i can do anything to make them feel better.
stupid improv thing for An left me with a hurting scapula and a bruise on my forehead!!! hahahahahaha and i'm silly enough to realise it(the bruise) only today.
I'm so proud of Jenny, Ivonn, Zuyou, Yan Hui and Yong Xin!!! I think they are just stunning doing chinese dance. i am their newly made fans =)))
Ivonn, i've thought about it already and i can tell you now: Jenny's first solo is my fav! =P hahahaha if you wan constructive feedbacks ah... hmmmmm.. tell you again =P
I'd have had a perfect day that day if not for that row of kids behind us. But ITS OKAY. forgive.. and forget..
but they changed me as a person, cos i am secretly super determined my kids will not behave like this next time. i'll make sure they learn to respect fellow audiences, performers and theatre, that they learn to love people enough to think about them first.
then again, i might have disturbed people around me with my bad mood, so makes me equal as them, come to think of it. haha!! =P
help out at daddy's store today was crazy. the crazy amount of people. the crazy amount of fishheads. the crazy amount of walking around with chillis and chopsticks. the crazy amount of on-the-spot math and accountancy. =P
happy tmr! =))
puii-
2:17 AM
Thursday, August 28, 2008
i hate all the nonsense rules. i hate paper work.
i hate it how i can't take X ray just because i can't sign your stupid consent form for whatever reason, just cos i'm under 21.
now i still don't know what izzit.
and i must wait till dunno when... -_-
this is stupid. they wasted my day.
but thank God its not as pain right now. =)
puii- zzzzz.
12:14 AM
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
i'm getting worried. i got this swell/growth thing on my right wrist, and its been hurting on off for the longest time. and i've been putting off the doctor trip for the longest time =P haha.. these few days its been hurting badddd and its grown bigger!! =((
i cannot tahan already. i must see a doctor about this to find out what izzit.
hopefully its just a random thingy that's got no much probs la.
puii-
7:36 AM
Monday, August 25, 2008
CONGRATS!! All who just graduated from SOT =) So happy for yall. So gian for me. I really really really wanna go for it next year mans... =P
I miss Albert. No, really.. I secretly super love his perf lab class now cos the choreo is so cute =P
I got into lyrical jazz for oschool recital! =P so exciting and so stressssss... mannn =P
I love pointe class today with yaling =) she's so cute.
I got new idea for collab! =) i'm happy now. Now i need phrases. =P
I need fast typing fingers and fast thinking brains for collab journalssss.
I need tighter, stronger, FASTER muscles for ballet =P hahahaha..
Camera is one of the best inventions yet.
Which reminds me, i'll load the photos i owe some other time.
Longgggggg day tmr. Collab till 6....
Oh ya, i haven't contact my collaborator about my piece. =P
and i haven't write that poem that i want recorded.
and i haven't officially start reh with my dancers.
and i feel so insecure still about my concept and idea.
and i feel so inadequate about choreographing, teaching and crafting a dance.
and i feel so scared to tell people what i really want.
and i don't know how it will all turn out.
but its not "I" that matter, so, it doesn't matter =)))
Ephesians 3:20
My God is able.
Service with pst Alex Abraham was gooddddd
I just watched a panda give birth on the tv.
diissm.
still.
ask.
think.
imagine.
ha ha ha ha ha.
puii- flower in the rain
9:01 PM
Monday, August 18, 2008
i am an easy target to brain wash. i am an easy victim of propaganda.
now that i realised it, you won't have such a easy time anymore to try and psycho me (hopefully)
hahahahahhaahhahahahaa.....
ANYWAYS, big yay for aaron for helping me get my oschool teeeee! =)) YAY i finally got new yoyo shirt la, like, after my WCO shirt. duhhhhhh..
actuallyyyy i saw alot of nice shirts nowadays. =P i gottta eat alot lesser than i do now, and take lesser cabs, to be able to have a bigger selection in my wardrobe =P hahahahaahhahahaa...
KO Night semi-finals was great! =) Cant wait for the finals!
I SAW the post-ego dance company people, together with the rest of the cast of Yellow Monkey at Victoria street kopitiam after helping out at KO night. DANG i got sooooo excited i called Ivonn immediately. that stupid dumb dumb was dancing at huay guan so she didnt pick up my call. hahahahahhahaah.. other than when Bon was in singapore, i think the rest of them never saw me go gaga over like that before. HAHAHAAHHAAHAHA!!
well, thats cos i found another Bon, Korean and contemporary style =P HEEE!!!
But well, the whole table of them was just amazing amazing la =) and Melissa!! =) she's so cute as ever. hahahahahaha i think their collaboration with the korean dancers are just so cool mans. wish i could have such chances in the future =P HAHA wishful thinking.
Alison has been talking about going learn Korean la. =P dangggg makes me so gian.
Btw Yellow Monkey was the show that i went to watch, with all of them dancing in it. it was just freaking amazing, the concept, the sets, the collab, the DANCING. mannnn...
well, of cos there are parts where i totally dun understand, and others that i misinterpret. but that amazing dancing! oh man i just love how they all used their bodies in such beautiful ways =)
Sunday : Dr. Peter Wagner is SO CUTEEEE!!!!! =)) He's the cutest old man i've ever ever seen. He's got the cutest laugh, especially that when he is JUST about to say a joke. hahahaha SO CUTEE =P
But his topic was on like, warfare, which really strike something in me, reminding me of a word that i have heard, but have neglected.
time to pick it up again. Go Pui Mian! =)
Pui Mian ROCKS!! =) *look at cal*
After that went for oschool recital audition. dangggg i'm so sad about the fact that i cant dance with em lovely darls again this timeee cos they are busy. PRAYING PRAYING for a chance to be on the same stage with all of them again!! =) My randomness. My fish. My plankie =))
Audition was cool! =) Stupid Ter keep psychoing me, make me so gian to go for House audition also. but decided not to in the end. i cant cope anyways if i manage to get in. i think la. what with all that choreo-ing and dancing for other people in school. i just hope to get in, and hope to do my best for it la. i'm just grateful there is such a platform for me to still keep in touch with hip hop and jazz; just a little at least. so hopefully i can get in la *get to my knees and pray* =P hahahahhaah!!
Yay!! i got to see Val sweetie today finally after so longgg =)))) Hee!! cant wait to meet you out and chat over meal, love! =)
Daddy burned his leg and face bad bad bad =(( but he's still going to work =((( and that weird aunty just randomly stopped coming to work for him already =(((( big big mega bummers.
and i don't know how and what i can do to help him along, to ease him of the tiredness and stuffs that he has. =((((
God i thank You for protection over my dad, cos it could have been so so so much more worse, and he could have ended up in the hospital instead. so really really thank God.
And i pray, God, protect me =P
Injury counts: 1, 2, 3, 4... =P mannnn..
puii- okay, back to thinking about collab.
9:06 PM
Friday, August 15, 2008
my neck is hurting from albert's perf lab
but it is serious so fun! =P
and i now got many many many things to think about over my choreo. i dun think i'll be able to slp tonight! or mayb i can, on the contrary.
so NIGHTS =P
puii-
11:02 PM
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
i caught a bad bad bad flu last night. =( now i can't go out. i'm so sad.
puii- flu flu go away!
6:08 PM
i'm feeling very tireddddd =P so so so tired physically. but i'm really so excited within, i want to dance all day longgg with a invincible body.
i got so many ideas in my head i cant put them in line. i wish i had super sonic memory to remember all the random ideas i have =P
i'm so glad i got a tinge of hip hop today, despite the aches. i really love hip hop, i really do =)
i feel like doing something stupid to break myself out of my comfort zone. i should film myself doing something stupid and post it online. =P HAHAAHHAHHAHA!!
i still got to distill the seven functions of performance for performance theory. =PPP
i hate wearing contact lens.
i want to dance well. dang well.
i want to chiong myself. i want to push the aches and injuries aside. i just want to dance right now.
i want to wait. i want to walk away. i want to run over. i want to jump. i want to run. but its not important anymore.
right now, i want to dance.
puii- da:ns.
12:11 AM
Monday, August 11, 2008
Service was awesome yesterday, except the fact that i REALLY had to go SOMEWHERE when it was gonna end. =P but yea it was really good.
some random things from service yesterday
i went church early, i even saw the queue!! but i couldnt find any seats =( but this random brother came and offered a ROW while i was chatting with alice =)) heh hehhh..
i like that Abba Father song better in chinese =P
jun ji looked so emo when singing praise song.
and i had a flag fight with daniel while singing stand up for singapore =P hahahaha stupid stuff.. national dayyy!!
which reminded me.. i spent national day slacking and sleeping all the way till evening before going to my dad's store to helpout. and he got a new worker!! but the aunty's kinda slow and stuff.. so i prob still have to go back and help out mayb sunday or something, when the crowd starts coming back after the ghost festival. there's like.... a drastic drop in customers this weekend!
the ayam penyet @ bedok north serious rocks! =)
had many many many time yesterday between lunch and dad's store. so i didnt know what to do. stupid eddie psychoed me to go bishan and sou(walk around). we saw this stupid shirt at op with a nonsense cartoon of the earth and the words "Save me. I'm Cute." HAHAHAHAHH!!! CRAZY IDEA!! SIAO ONE!! =P
after that!! we randomly decided to watch money no enough 2. it was SUCH A IRRITATING SHOW. it made me cry madnessS!!! =( but its nice la, serious nice. really so so nice. i want to love love love my mummy and daddy alot more =P
after that i emo-ed my way to dad's store. we had fish for dinner. HAHA!! =P
i finally got to eat durian yesterdayyyy!!! after so longggg!! =))) million thanks to mummy! i didnt expect she's remember my random comment on that! was so so so glad =) hee, had our daily dose of laughter at daddy's room after that while they had joy torturing me, and massaging my aching muscles. =P
i got a lump on my right wrist. its aching again again again. more fierce this time. hope its not something badddd =((( i've been wrapping it with some medicated oil these two days. hope it'll get better.
the oil is kinda red in colour, so when we just wrapped the first layer of bandage, it look like i just slit my wrist or something. HAHAHAHAHAH!!!! emo kid!!! =P
today today was such a random holiday off school. but i'm glad we had it. =) i watched mythbusters again! =) after soooo long! couldnt afford the time (and effort) to watch them while feeling SOOO tired =P
mythbusters' gotta become a weekend only thing again =P
gonna go fb later. choreo-ing some stuff for khye. which reminds me of one thing, i cant wait to hear about their mission trip! =))
you're probably getting bored, as i am, so.. i'm gonna go prepare to go out already!! i just realised i forgot the choreo already! =P
puii- W.S. G.E. S.I. triooo! =)
5:04 PM
Sunday, August 10, 2008
puiman is getting very excited about service tmr.
puiman wants a lap top.
puiman is excited about the trio she is about to choreo!
puiman is hoping the pain in her right wrist would go away soon.
puiman wants her own room.
puiman is sleepy now.
puiman is suppose to go sleep already.
puiman want to be at expo earlier to book seats, even if there's fewer people =P
puiman is loving songs from lamb.
puiman especially loves the song, b line.
puiman is praying to God over the thorn in her flesh.
puiman is feeling breakthrough coming.
puiman's back got a lil hurting feeling
puiman wants to carry her backpack instead of the side bag, all for the sake of her back.
puiman's backpack just wont close; the zip is spoilt.
puiman is happy daddy found a new worker.
puiman loves monday for being a holiday.
puiman's hip is better already after a day of rest.
puiman is missing people, alot alot of people. you you you you you.
puiman is praying for harvest. arista.
puiman wants to read the bible now. so.. bye
puii- 30
1:57 AM
Saturday, August 09, 2008
If dreams meant anything, its pretty clear that You spoke, and is speaking. But i'm gonna be cautious and guard, give me time to sit back and see. Cos i don't trust dreams just yet, i have them everyday in the most nonsense of fashion. I labelled it under bad dreams for now.
Well, not that bad really.. so, yea...
* * *
school's really fun, but i'm really aching and sore and tired physically from first week. PLUS i feel so stupid to have injured myself again in albert's =(( pulled my hip and hurt a lil of my back. hahahaha dang that was thursday, then friday i didnt dare do his first exercise for the level 3 =P hahaha dunno he will secretly angry inside not =P
its just so weird today i couldnt sleep later even when i wanted to and could!! I woke up at 8 plus feeling WEIRD, i thought it'll be afternoon already. so i slept back. then....
10.15am -_-
but well, i'm awake now, worryingthinking about stuffs. that stupid bad dream, and my collab choreo! =P hahahahaahahaha..
OH OH! China's olympics started yesterday~ and Ivonn kept bothering me over sms about how good good good the opening ceremony was.
and its SERIOUS DANG GOOD! it was so spectacular, and the scene was just so majestic.
i think its dope. serious dope.
and i'm glad i went to cellgroup yesterday =)) i cant tell you how glad i am. i was really tired yesterday i REALLY felt like a zombie, i couldnt find strength for expression! =P it wasnt even emo; its passed that. hahahahahahahaha.. but i went cellgroup anyways, cos when i thought of lifted hands in that circle of people, i just felt i got to go man, no matter how tired or sickly i felt.
and man was it good...
thank Serina for praying for me. it really hit somewhere deep deep deep within my heart. one that i've already planned to settle it my way, to bury it, to keep it down, so it wont hurt so much anymore. but i feel God saying, if you're gonna hide it, then how am i gonna use it.
so God, i'm still gonna bury it. but as a seed, i'll bury it in good soil. i want to nurture and water it. i want this seed to grow. God break me, and make me. Break my pride, break my strongheaded-ness.
You are Lord. and You reign.
=)
your helplessness is your biggest asset.
puii- b-line.
10:26 AM
Wednesday, August 06, 2008
PUI MAN IS LOVING SCHOOL VERY MUCH =))))
Pui man is also very soreeeeee
Pui man is happy happy happy to be dancing
Pui man should be going to sleep right now
Pui man is feeling guilty because she couldnt give up her seat to an old uncle just now on the bus cos she couldnt get up, thus making the uncle to stand veryyyy long. she is very guilty.
Pui man is in love with Japan and Korean dancers, she thinks they are the dope =)
Pui man wanna learn punking, she wanna know if any kind soul willing to teach her =P
Pui man hates random comments on youtube, she just deleted one.
Pui man loves that Mohawk dancer guy. In the "dance" way. SO SHUAI! This is like Bon, Korea version, contemp version =P
Pui man is feeling good, and bad, but good. still very good =)))
Pui man is gonna love tmr very much.
Pui man never knew sore-ness like she does now. Its a whole new level, she must learn to accept it.
Pui man is starting to love ballet again. Well, there's not much kinda dance that she dont like. Really. Believe her.
Pui man just finished her dinner, and is going to sleep now. She hopes her insomia is going away already.
Pui man love sermons in MP3
Pui man is back on glucosamine.
Pui man LOVES 小聚会. Super ALOT of love.
Pui man is going to force herself out of the living room and onto the bed. She wishes you goodnight =)
puii- a waiting seed. fig leaves.
1:03 AM
Monday, August 04, 2008
SCHOOL TMRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
puii- tadah!
12:56 AM
Friday, August 01, 2008
whatever this is, I LOVE IT and i'd kill to dance like them!! =)))
they call it soul punking. OH MAN SO NICEEEEE. so free, so happy, so cheeky and so lady! =) a bit not me but, serious la whatever that that that is, duuuuuuuuu i love ittt! =)
went back school school school today. actually i serious am quite looking forward to school term!! =))) i just got a feeling its gonna be gooooood =))
By the way, they made LaSalle look like some primary school carnival with some "party ribbons" and dancing air balloon people and milo vans. hahahahahahahah man so cute la =P i couldnt resist taking pictures. post it next time la =P hahahaha..
shopping with flowers! =) missed them so so so so much really. especially JUNE! she practically disappeared the whole holiday!! hahahhaha =P so nice spending time with them.
initially, tot i had to make my way down to NYP, in the end i no need! =) so i could go watch the Korean perf with flowersss! =) am really really really so glad i could make it!
they were making fun, how i am like the third solo guy, with all the nonsense face and whacky idea. i didnt tell them, but he is secretly my fav out of the four solos we saw tonight! =P
NOW they will make fun of me. hahahhahahahaah.. but i serious think he dope la! =) if dance is a language, he spoke the loudest and the clearest. i likeee =)
cant wait for costume shop aunty to come out with her halters!! =)))
i've been watching alot of dance lately. all sorts of dance. makes me feel like i badly wanna dance too!! =P SCHOOL!! =)