Tuesday, September 30, 2008
by nurture or nature, we are all irritating people. we always like to complain and say stuffs about others. but more often than not, others'd have the same probs with us.so what's with all that whining and talking behind people's back? what's with the secret cursing and backstabbing? it all boils down to how we are, by nature, by nurture.
so, shut up puiman. everything you feel like complaining and whining about, other people are probably dying to say about you too. because we are human, imperfect. stop the cycle. stop complaining today =P hahahaahhaha..
on a happier note. i love omar's class today la! =) ohhh i love the jump roll jump roll combi! =)
yay to tmr!! =)) i'm gonna meet hua, val and ger! =) soo cool la! i feel so deprived. like i havent been out to chill for the longest time. well, thats not true, but it feels like it. hahahahahah!! =P
i'm still very worried about choreo =( i need to change things, but i dont know how! =( and i need transitions between sections. i need to expand my movement phrases. i need a short jump combi =P i need fresher ideas =P
Random: June look super cute today. but so off to be in a dance class. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! =P oh and reminder to self: laugh at Ivonn when i see her next time. =P air in the mouth, air in the mouth~~
lyrical jazz recital training yesterday was crazy tired! =P hahahaha cos we normally only mark some parts. when do full out ah, jia lat man. =P ahahahaha dead tired at the end of the day(literally)
and i missed my last bus yesterday because calynne and theresa cannot read chinese. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHH!!!
oh oh! street jazz on sunday was fun too!! onto second song already. aiya, everything is like, so fredy. hahahahahahaha.. slow song, fast song, doesnt matter! hahahaahaha he just got a way to fit his style of moving into all the diff kinds of music la. hahahaha..
cant wait for recital! =)
ah hua's jete is like super mario. SO CUTE LA! =) hahahahahaha.. made our night, TOTALLY =)
i'm feeling very tired!! i target to sleep at 9.30 latest. zzzzzzzz..
puii- new hair =)
8:29 PM
i don't like it, how people give themselves different labels, and from there, escapes from responsibilities and realities. true, we are what we are. but still, because of what we are, don't we need to strive to be something more?is where we are right now sufficient?
if it is, for you, then fine ah =P hahahahahaha.. i'm sorry we differ in view, and i don't get what you're saying, not like i want to tho =P HAHA! =P
and i dun like biters. serious dun like.
Yay~~ sweet val send me songs for recital training! =) now i can prac the new parts =P
i'm super worried about choreo right now. cos i face this stupid block again.
i'm so tired.
i'm totally lacking of sleep.
i should grab something to eat, change, and go sleep already.
puii- red. scarlet. crimson.
1:04 AM
Saturday, September 27, 2008
my hair is gone! =P hahhahahah i'm having mixed feelings about it. i'm preparing myself for a season of laughter. =P i'm thinking of what clothes can i wear now after the haircut. =Pi think its okay. =) i just need to get use to it, and try to carry it off.
i hope =P
no faults to the haircut, its just my face =P hahahaahahaha..
puii- service tmr! =)
6:34 PM
just came back from hosp, picked mummy up =)earlier me and my dad went chinatown (to get some hair stuff), and taka to get some titanium necklace thingy. hahahahahaha so fun la =))
ohhh i love walking around chinatown.
so, after that, went back to hosp to pick mummy. went to ths lotus pond beside the building. was so pretty!! the flowers are really so so so nice. well, as they say: 出污泥而不然。serious elegant la =))
and it was so so fun with my parents cos when we were about to leave, some pigeons came and look for us to get food. being the animal lover that she is, my mummy couldnt resist getting out her biscuits and sharing it with them.
by the way, by SOME pigeons, i mean this...
we were kinda freaked out. hahahaha but it was serious fun =))))
HAhahaha.. this is the last dumb pigeon that followed us, thinking it'll get more food than the rest. so funnyyyy =P
Home now, with a towel around my head, cos my dad is doing some stuffs to my hair. hahahahahah i serious look like some 村姑 now. danggg =P hhahahaha..
which reminds me of something i need to do.... I LOVE CHEW YEEEEE!!! hahahahahahah..
okay, gonna wash this stuff off my hair already. =P
puii-
3:48 PM
i miss sit-alone-and-think-nonsense times. serious do. i miss having the feeling of random ideas.i overslept on the bus again.
the bus uncle didnt see me, so didnt wake me up when the bus reached woodlands just now. NORMALLY some kind soul would have tried to call me up, and PLUS i was freaking sitting at the door seat la! fsdfjsklrjasldkjaxksf irritating people. ANYWAYS, when i woke up, the bus wasnt even driving into the bus park!!! it was driving OFF to God-knows-where, some other big vehicle car parks i suppose. hahahahahahahah.. imagine i didnt wake up, totally. i'd be screwed man.. i dun even know how to go home.
so this is for me and other bus takers. wake people up if you're alighting at the last stop and you see them still sleeping. it was freaking scary to wake up to a bus with lights off-ed already.
dangggggg i was so sleepy. even at the hosp just now. hahahahhhahahaha.
connect group meeting today was so good =)))) ah hua is so so super cute man! she thought of a brand new game!! by herself!! and its pretty good, if you set the boundaries right. hahahahah she is just so so so so cuteeee! *pinch her face* hahahahahaha..
ryan preached about the tests of God. and i believe we all had a paradigm shift in our thinking to trials and blessings!! was so so good =)))
RANDOM: Actually, cheese donuts are really really not all that bad.
Was at oschool area, and heard the stupid F1 cars buzzing about. my sis was telling me and my dad how loud it was and i didnt believe her.
it was FREAKING loud.
i was at chimes area okay.. and i can still hear those VRRROOOMMM sounds. hahahaha beside the tracks?
equals DEAF-NESS
Today today today marks the end of week 8 alreadyy!! so so fast!! few more weeks is the Esplanade show, then informal showing, then exams, and i'm left with only one more semester in lasalle!! so so so dang fast. i wish i would be able to grab onto this shaky ground while everything is moving so quickly.
i serious feel omar's piece is so beautiful. but i still dunno what izzit about. hahhahahahaha..
i need a haircut soon soon soon. i'm getting back that "lang zi" 廊子 hair. hahahahahaha.. and i hate how its starting to curl all over already!!! mayb i should cut it real short. or mayb i should cut it back to the same.
argh, i cant decide!!
i just want some nonsense funky hair. hahahahahaha..
tmr tmr tmr mum might be able to come back already! =P cant wait! =)))
puii- Puiman fed two kitties on the way home today.
12:46 AM
Thursday, September 25, 2008
puiman wanna cut her hair hair hair! =P now now now!! =Ppuiman thinks the current big issue about the milk from china is so kuazhang. but yea, kinda scary too... for the love of teh (C) beng... *day dream* =P
puiman feels empowered when she can explain some asset and finance stuffs to daddy this morning, all thanks to cellgroup last week, when kenny explained it all to us! =))
puiman is praying for mummy!! for her to get well, and for her to have a peace of heart. puiman prays for angels and the Holy Spirit to be with her tonight tonight tonight and tmr morning =)
puiman loves Omar's choreo, especially the wall phrase! well, she don't really geddit. but its just nice la! =P heee~~
puiman just realise how little time there is left to finish her piece =P she needs to take the bus more. she want fresh ideas, and more comments. tell her in the face, anything.
tell her everything~ (ms swan voice)
puiman cant wait for recital recital in dec! she loves all the rehearsals =)
puiman is never ever ever gonna wear her chingay shirt again because of Aaron Then Yeow Leong. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!!!
puiman was craving for green apple juice yesterday, and got it today. she feels very blessed =) haha in a tiny tiny way =)
puiman suddenly misses chatting with many people. many many people. if you here, and you think you may be one of them, you probably are. =P
puiman is supposed to meet up soon with so many people. jasmine lim for sushi buffet. mabel ng, steven toon for la teh. jennifer for pizza. valerie and hua for random going-out trip. aiya so many people she havent been seeing. she's feeling guilty. really! =P heh~
(she hopes her fav month can be the solution)
puiman loves yall!!
puiman wants to dance hip hop. now now now!! she misses hip hop so so much. serious!
puiman still loves mythbusters, and wish she is awake enough now to watch one ep without sleeping.
puiman is looking for dark/dull red balloons. tell her if you spot any.
puiman is looking for laptop too. tell her if you know of any good ones to get =))
puiman is re-reading Just Like Jesus, and is still so blessed by it =)
puiman thinks her blog is getting boring =(
puiman (I) can only imagine... =))))
puiman feels fat. =P hhahahahaha..
puiman wants to go and bury herself in choreo-ing =P she really want her choreo to speak, tho she's pretty sure it'll never speak anything to herself, as she had hoped. =(
puiman wants to grow grow up.
puii- praying for mummyyy! =)
10:51 PM
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
i think humans are weird, they can just stand in front of some animal and discuss about which part taste better, and how should we cook it.. well, not like the fish or what can understand, but its so mean, and so sad..okay, so much for watching and enjoying tv =P hahaha..
MYTHBUSTERS!! =)))))
I love project week cos there's no essays to rush to hand in. hahah =P but still, i should start on some so i wont be rushing that much for the weeks to come =P
Collab showing today today today!!! =P Was sooo scared about it la. hhahahahaaha lucky i managed to squeeze myself in to show it first!! no need to feel gan jiong after everyone else have done =P hehehehe.. FINALLY got to hear more comments from Melissa. =P cos the other time not much time la, so she couldnt say much also=P
and its so cute we're both using balloons for our pieces. heh~~
Hello Melvin Tan! Is this font size big enough for you???? =P HAHAHHAHAHAHA..
i feel so sleepy suddenly. =P zzzzzzzzzzzz..
puii- b line.
10:46 PM
Saturday, September 20, 2008
i'm feeling very dehydrated these two days!! =P must be friday la, sweat sooooooo much the whole day. cant seem to drink back the water =P serious danced alot alot yesterday, everyone did =Peither that, or all my muscles have really becomed "water meat" and i get tired easily. =P hahahahaha..
yay! i'm happy cos finally got some music from the collaborator guy. needa fix the dance into the music now =P hai got another showing on wed. so stressed man.. dunno how it'll turn out also. hopefully its okay la =P i just scared it come out no link to the original theme. =P that would be baddddddd =P
oh, i just remembered. i need to get more balloons for monday's reh and wed's showing =P hahaha..
yay to service tmr!! =)) i cant wait! =)) cellgroup yesterday was so good! miss that bunch! okay i'm gonna sms them now and go slp alreadyyy =)
i found the lyrics to my FAVOURITE SONG =P i'm happy now. k nights!!!
puii- i can fly. but i want His wings.
11:42 PM
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
=(i want to be feeling alot better.
8:39 PM
Tuesday, September 09, 2008
i got a ton of emotions, a portion of emotions that i want to choreo out right right right now. but i just don't have the liberty to. and i cant bear to, i cant get myself to, i cant start to.. well, i can feel it, totally feel it. its like right there pressing on my heart. its so much. its heavy. its overwhelming. but i cant choreo to it..."its the heart afraid of breaking, that never learns to dance"
and its such an irony, when my choreo concept is supposed to be about the opening up and sharing of oneself, when i still cant let go and give of myself, good and bad. its weird how i'll never feel good enough for people to worry about my worries, to feel my burden and heaviness and sadness and all the things close to my heart. its weird how i'm trying to tell my audiences "you should open yourselves up" when i am so shut down and shut off.
maybe i'm just being proud. so very disgustingly proud.
if love truly can take off the mask that we know we cannot live within and yet fear we cannot live without, then right right now, i need love more than anything else.
maybe i should force myself out of my comfort zone. and do something extraordinarily uncomfortable for me. maybe only by that, then i'll have my breakthrough. i need to do something about it. i need to learn to tell my own story. i need to speak up, speak to, speak dance.
okay, i shall go and choreo to that now... =P i hope it will go away soon soon soonnn..
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i'm serious so interested in Dunhuang dance now, cos i feel its really pretty. its just grand and elegant la. so nice~ =) haha but i don't think i can ever pick up Chinese dance again ah =P it'll turn out looking just like my ballet now =P hahahhahaha..
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random dinner trip with chew aaron choons thes and cal today!! serious so random.. hahahaha but i'm really glad that we got to meet! =) had so much fun chatting with this bunch =)) I LOVE YALL! =)
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i got to meet sweetie Val at Oschool today!! =)) such a pleasent surprise!! =)) she's cute and sweet as ever. hahhhahahaha =))
nice meeting the rest of my recital mates today =) but i feel so weirddddd cos they all know each other.. and i don't really know know all of them.. so, hahhahaha trying to blend in still. hopefully after some time will be okay ah. actually not as bad as i thought it'd be la =P
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acting class tmr. dang =(
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collab showing tmr. dunno how it'll turn out. but i can sense alot of suggestions and confusion already =P hahahhahaha.. we'll see howwww =P
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i'm very tiredddddddddd. i dun feel like doing anything. =P i shall go slp now. nights!!
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love is the light that truly glows
in the hearts of those who know
its a steady flame that grows.
puii- baang baang BAANG!
12:50 AM
Saturday, September 06, 2008
KO Night last night was a BLAST!!! =) haven't screamed so much for ages! and all the teams are serious dope la! =)) it was all so so so good =))and i think all the oschool staffs are all so so happy that its over! =P hahahahaah..
lovely seeing all my pwetty dancing babes! and guys too!! =) it always feels like i haven't been seeing all of them for so so so so long!! =(
hahahahaha mayb thats cos i see my classmates so often, making it seem like i'm meeting other people alot lesser =P hahahaahahah..
Hilty and Bosch is serious DOPE. =))) They are so so so so good. They are... just good la. =P
Had many many fun!!! =)) Pictures up on facebook =P
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my collaborator for collab class only contacted me back like the day before =(((
hai~ so sad =(
i'm having so much fun in Jessica and An's rehearsal. So different la! =P
i'm stressed. cos recital training is starting =P
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i needa go out soon to my dad's store to help out again =P
i hope he gets a new helper soon.
i'm sad i cant go to watch suntec dance today =(
but it okay, i get to eat something new for dinner later =p heee!!
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somethings wrong.
very wrong =(
puii- dreams.
2:06 PM
Wednesday, September 03, 2008
i hate smoke.actually, there's alot of things to write. but i feel too tired to write much =P
collab class today is love! =P
i got a new wrist band. and that lump on my wrist is nothing to worry about so =))
i'm hungry right now, cos i havent really had dinner yet
An's reh tmr.
My reh tmr. =P
Dang.. i havent tell them i change time. =P
okay i'm tired. i'm hungry.
i'll eat and rest a while, and go slp =P
ministry was love! whats with all that fellowship time man! =)) dope! =)
puii- zzzzzzz.