the flesh and blood of love

Thursday, October 22, 2009

yesterday's lunch was a romantic escape with june baby to bugis! =D it was so damn shiok la.. going to bugis and eat mos burger for lunch, still can do speed shopping and then run back to school in the rain! =) so damn romantic. hahahahahahahaha.. we were like idiots. =P laughing to ourselves while running. hahaha..

at least, she ran and i walked very fast. haha. i'm just unhealthy, not like june.

well, objective was to look for costume for hsien fa's piece. cotton on so so should just sponser lasalle dancers cos we are basically wearing their stuffs almost everyday, for class, after, and for costumes. hahahahahaha... sports people get adidas and nike, we get cotton on =)

randomly bought "couple shirt" with june too. hahahahah.. so random =P

YAY ye pi leh can come for esplanade showwww!! =D

haha she heng she cannot join us for dinner after that. me and june will drag her to yoshinoya =D

school is so damn tired. i entered another zone of emoness already. i really don't feel like dancing anymore, i feel so damn tired, even tho i've been so damn slack. i really dunno how people like june and lulu does it. i really dunno how to push myself so hard like them.

they can still dance so much with their injury and tired body. i only whine.

haha i suck.

i have my own pain in all the various joints, but thats prolly nothing compared to theirs. and i'm the one whining. hahahahaha very sensible.

yesterday in albert's class we really just zombied out the whole lesson. even learning new exercises also with blank faces. i can't even focus on what i was doing, or where i was, or where other people were and stuff. hahahahha we prolly will kill each other if there were more people..

but albert's exercises are just so niceeeee =P

but i really don't feel like dancing anymore. for like a day or two la at least. but that gotta wait till weekend. damnnnn.. =(

esplanade show next week. still worried about IF. or rather, IF after tuesday's child and loretta's piece. dunno will die anot. and the quick changes, and the hair.. hahaha jia lat la dunno can fast enough do so many things not. try so many times full run still not very sure. hai.. scared sia..

but for now, the five minutes seem like a long enough break to rest, not sure about transition. hahaha.. hopefully can la huh..

i need bottles on both sides of the door, and quick change masters to help me =D

especially from tuesday's child to loretta's. last to exit, first to come on with An. hahaha how to change in time! =P

am excited about dance fest tho. looking forward to go back to that greenroom look alike studio and take nice nice pictures there =D

thing is, we dunno who we're dancing for. hahahahahahahaha.. its gonna be an unknown audience, and that suck.

june dance so nice! i really feel very touched watching her solo =D got goosebumps one. damn nice =D

i want to drink milo.

i'm so tired and i miss dar. everytime i feel tired i miss him. he will help me massage my shoulders and let me hold him. he will try to make me laugh when i'm sad, and do the enthu bassist face =P he will be there to tell me capybara san is there dancing beside me too when i want to give up =D thats so damn sweet la =D heehee~

i love my baby, so much =D

so sweet of him! he bought me lego the other day!! sweet surprise! =) we had damn alot of fun building it together and playing it. hahahahahaha so fun so fun! never had so much fun in a long time. so cute of him la.. =) aiyo i miss him so much already, that cute face =D

mr big! mr big! mr big! =) the concert was so damn nice, tho dar don't believe i had a great time. hahahahahaha.. took alot of pics and vids tho i thought not suppose to. but the concert was a blast =) all my homework paid off listening to all those mr big songs! some i'm not that familiar with but the band is awesome =D

dar, i really had a great time! =D

singapore fans cheer like this: mr big.. mr big.. mr big.. we want more.. we want more..

hahahahahahahaha...

puii- capybara kiss =*

4:40 PM

Friday, October 16, 2009

You're the bravest of hearts, you're the strongest of souls
You're my light in the dark, you're the place I call home
You can say it's all right, but I know that you're breaking up inside
I see it in your eyes

Even you face the night afraid and alone
That's why I'll be there

When the storm rises up, when the shadows descend
Ev'ry beat of my heart, ev'ry day without end
Ev'ry second I live, that's the promise I make
Baby, that's what I'll give, if that's what it takes
If that's what it takes

You can sleep in my arms, you don't have to explain
When your heart's crying out, baby, whisper my name
'Cause I've reached out for you when the thunder is crashing up above
You've given me your love

When your smile like the sun that shines through the pain
That's why I'll be there

When the storm rises up, when the shadows descend
Ev'ry beat of my heart, ev'ry day without end
I will stand like a rock, I will bend till I break
Till there's no more to give, if that's what it takes

I will risk everything, I will fight, I will bleed
I will lay down my life, if that's what you need
Ev'ry second I live, that's the promise I make
Baby, that's what I'll give, if that's what it takes

Through the wind and the rain, through the smoke and the fire
When the fear rises up, when the wave's ever higher
I will lay down my heart, my body, my soul
I will hold on all night and never let go
Ev'ry second I live, that's the promise I make
Baby, that's what I'll give, if that's what it takes

If that's what it takes
Every day
If that's what it takes
Every day

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Really too tired to wake up for dance today. woke up middle of the last night and felt my muscles all shivering. hahaha my muscles are like, spelling fatigue to me.

loaf bread loaf bread loaf bread from four seasons =)))

dar forced me to go for the lecture after class, last class for the week since we half day today =)

dar is so sweet =) tho i so wished he kidnaped me somehow to somewhere else, but i'm glad he sent me straight to school and ignored me =P hahaha..

hope the wound won't leave a scar =( its real bad, and damn red right now.. feels swollen. dar say might be infected. damn he sure know how to scare me. hahahaha..

excited to face coming weekend =) i wanna have a good time before i go back to school and dance again with my tired muscles. hahahahahaha.. weekend weekend weekend!!! =)

maybe i really should choreograph something for thesis. well, have that tiny bit only.. hahahaha gotta expand on it soon la if not i'll never do anything abourit. hahaha.. kinda stressed about thesis now that semester is ending. hope i won't be tripping over my own leg by the end of it. =)

dans fest dans fest dans fest soon!! =) buy tickets buy tickets!! =P

dar is so cute =) and i look ugly. damn. =P

i got craving for roast duckkkk =)

puii- pour que tu m'aimes encore

4:48 PM

Thursday, October 15, 2009

when a nasty rope grabs on to your leg, you just feel like pulling it and snapping it in two, get rid of it, cut it or burn it or something like that.
and i was stupid enough to not cut it away so long ago..
when a nasty rope refuse to go away.. its the worst thing.
now the rope's done more damage than it should, to me and itself.
the rope was stupid for thinking that by not letting go maybe it will get something in the end, or keep something.. i think the rope think it could.. keep something it was holding so hard to.
i really shouldn't, but i hated the rope for not letting go of what is mine.
a rope has two sides, and the rope had things on both ends.. something old, and something new. and it made such a weird choice which to let go and which not to.
mine.
the worst choice ever.
mine, since so long ago..
and its dumb.
i thought i didn't want to spoil the rope so much.. i didn't want to snatch from the rope.
now the rope don't have anything. and left me blistered ankles, but that'll heal, and i'm good again. and i have what is mine.
i thought i was nice to the rope, but the rope didn't budge.
sometimes.. i don't know what ropes think. then again, they don't have a brain so there goes the thinking.
and when i became a little angry, the rope thinks i'm evil.
rope don't know when it's best to let go. maybe the rope think blisters will drive me away, then it can keep what is now mine.
rope don't remember i was nice at the start, until rope start giving me blisters.
but it couldn't. and i didn't go away. i kept what is mine safe in my hands and embrace so rope won't hurt it.
at the very end i decided to be nice to the rope again and let it just go away. i wanted to give it some blisters too but... if it comes back, i will be very very bad.
rope is gone, its departure so long overdued. well, it knows where it should go...
mind you, the rope was hurting me first. you just don't know it...
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wahhhh school is soooooo tiring really. and its only thursday. i swear i cannot move a muscle anymore in the dance kinda way. its not even aching its just numb and tired. hahahaha.. tuesday only and i felt the week is long. and damn it was so long really!!

lucky for half day in school tomorrow, thanks to deepavali =)

the scratch on my face is looking bad =( i dont want to look like pirate! =P

puii- too tired to dance already lahhhhhhhhh =P hahaha..

5:40 PM

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

i'm feeling so so so tired nowww.. really damn tired. i can't feel my legs today, the whole time... so, make jumps feel like nightmare. the shock i get from all the landing that hits my lower back is so scary.

can't believe how june and all danced all these time with that kind of pain..

my knee feels weak. so does my ankles. and my muscles are probably dying by the day.. hahahahahaha..

it just always hit us doesn't it. the big big wall that hits you; makes you not feel like dancing anymore, just because you're so plain tired everyday..?

haha maybe my mind is weak. i give up on certain things easily. i got no ambition maybe thats why i never push. i just want to dance and that don't really ask alot of my determination or what right.. 

ahhhhh i'm just weak. i really am. so now how? hahahahahaha.. i really dunno..

i'm so hungry now. really so hungry suddenly. i told dar i was a little hungry only but actually i just realise its alot hungry. but dinner can only be after 8 so bread for nowwww =)))

nice killiney bread. yes after telling dar i dun wan their bread.

my face hurt. An scratch my face. we got into a cat fight because we were jealous of each other.

hahahaha okay that's not true.. it was accidental la but my face's ruined for now. hahahahahahah.. i cant wash my face properly.

but i still look CUTE. hahahahahahah... RIGHT RIGHT RIGHT!! =P

An got her retribution, she bit her own tongue while biting on pearls in bubble tea. hahahahaha..

okay, shouldn't be laughing.. shouldn't be laughing.. =PPP

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhahhhhhh got albert's class tomorrowwwwwww.. i'm so so so tired to do our own exercises. now still must do level 1's exercises. i always thought we could rest while they do. hahahaha fat hopes.

okay bread time, before all the butter disappear.. i continue later with my blabberings..

and i'm so excited ebird is moving to lamma island =D i miss Hong Kong so so much. all the FOOD............. O_O 

puii-       need a vacation =D

5:32 PM

Monday, October 12, 2009

sorrydarforeverythingidothatmakesyousad
cannotpromiseitwonthappenagain
butpromiseeverytimeyouresadilltryeverythingtomakeyoufeelhappier

yes, capybara kisses =)

andyesyesyesiloveyoubabymissyousomuchnow

knee that kid knee that kid! =)))

cantwaittoseeyoulatercutiesweetiepie =)

puii- i wanna drink many many milo again =P

12:57 PM

unspoken.

12:56 PM

Sunday, October 11, 2009

and yes the green eye monster never really disappears in the story. forever haunting, lurking, waiting to pull your leg and make you fall just when you are not looking. monster is jealous of all of life's goodness; not that monster can't get their own, monster just want yours, or monster'll take yours from you if monster can't have it, by whatever means.

the green eye monster will never realise that monster are not the ones with the happy ending, but the princes and princesses. until the day monster can turn into one, monster will forever remain a sad sad monster.

monsters don't think. monster don't realise who really did mistakes. so monster harm good people and make them sad. monster capture the princess in a cell where she can't escape. monster keep her there.

at times, the princess might sleep, and dream about freedom. about her life with the prince, singing in the woods, counting the flowers, and the birds and squirrel friends. she thought it was all real. but the monster had to wake her up, and show her monster's big green eyes.

in the green eyes, the princess saw herself. and feels sad. and on the monster's face is stolen happiness, stolen, stolen.

and the prince is at fault for all these, because he didn't appear till this last minute. ain't these stories always like that. only when the princess is in distress will he appear to save her.

but when he did, its always magical.

as the cell breaks, love and forgiveness grows, exponentially. you thought there could never be any more love than this. and this is where happily ever after comes, because the prince and princess will never want to lose each other again...

and what is left of the green eye monster? hurt and cut by the prince's mighty sword, his determination to protect his princess, and his love that sent him here in search of her.. the monster remains sad; even sadder.

what's the point for the monster? no point at all.. if the monster had spend more time doing something that will turn it into a prince or princess, then monster might see a happily ever after.

but no stories go that way... and there shouldn't have been monster in the first place...



The venom clamours of a jealous woman poison more deadly than a mad dog's tooth.
--William Shakespeare


and besides, nobody likes the monster in the story. well, except of course, monster friend.


and now its happily ever after for the prince and princess. and the childrens cheer.


i like happy ending despite how mean the story could get. it always ends like this, so it feels safe for me =)


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i'm a lousy story teller. i probably lost you by the second line.. never mind that.. hahaha..

i dunno why my muscles are still aching so bad. well not like aching damn bad, but its like the muscles are never really recoving. hahaha that's damn sad.. i walk only my shin there the muscle also pain. hahahaha sian..

and dammit.. its monday tmr alreadyyyyy =( days never pass by as fast as weekends. hahahahaha..

*

boyfee, i love ya to bits. =) many many capybara kisses for you =* =* =*

thank you for everything =) you're the sweetest thing on earth!! and the cutest =D

puii- and don't forget: the happiest life sentence =D


If we practice and eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth, soon the whole world will be blind and toothless. - - Mahatma Gandhi

5:20 PM

Thursday, October 08, 2009

Heh~ i had the happiest and sweetest birthday yesterday =) happy 20 to me then~ hahahaha dun even feel entering the 20's club thing cos i've always felt old. haha hf was so shocked when he heard i'm 20... only 20.. he thought i'm like 28 or something. hahahahaha..

thank you mummy and pig sis~
thank you schoolmates, and flowers! and leaf =D

and thank you darrrrr~ soo so so damn sweet of you. hahaha still, the oldest things are the most romantic =D

haha and everyone that send stuffs on facebook and sms~ hahaha had those like randomly throughout the day. hahaha so funny..

and then today i went back to school and got so damn tired. i'm drenching shirts everyday, like by the classes.. i feel like a sweating oven every class. its especially bad in the D studio, because the aircon is so damn strong, and makes me feel like i'm breaking cold sweat.. hahahaha sian man still must dance, then feel cold, then so hard to breathe cos the air is cold...

point is, i'm tired la. hahahaha..
iloveyoudarrrrrrrrrrr<3
puii-          i love love love love you. you're the sweetest thing thats ever happen to me =D CAPYBARA KISS for you :*

3:54 PM

Sunday, October 04, 2009

i was bored so i changed my blogskin again.

well, i just find this ultra cute =D hehehehe..

and anyways, i load all my photos up already, yes including all the convocation and stuff. hahahahaha sorry it took me so long la huh.. hmm now i shall leave the tagging to professional taggers like An and all =)) hahaha..

okay maybe i'll just tag it.. a while later la i'm tired now.

stupid diarrhea + headache is ruining my life la. i really feel like dying now. i constantly need rest, and that's bad =( i didnt even eat anything wrong.. i thinkkkk.. haha i guess the headache was enough to kill me, but there had to be up and down release(if you know what i mean).

damn.. my low treshold for pain. hahaha..

i just spoiled my necklace, second time wearing. haha so lousy =P

okay, i just realise i'm blogging nonsense again. shall go back to youtube and continue watching ellen's sitcom =)

puii- what do we eat later? ...what can i eat later? =P

4:51 PM

Saturday, October 03, 2009

I wish a falling star could fall forever
And sparkle through the clouds and stormy weather
And in the darkness of the night
The star would shine a glimmering light
And hover above our love

Please hold me close and whisper that you love me
And promise that your dreams are only of me
When you are near, everything's clear
Earth is a beautiful heaven
Always I hope that we follow the star
And be forever floating above

I know a falling star can't fall forever
But let's never stop falling in love

When you are near, everything's clear
Earth is a beautiful heaven
Always I hope that we shine like the star
And be forever floating above

I know a falling star can't fall forever
And let's never stop falling in love
No let's never stop falling in love

*

iloveyoudar. happy rather belated 10 months =) sorry i always pek chek you. i love you one okayyy! =) songforyouaarmianiloveyou=)

puii- <3

5:27 PM

its zhong qiu, and i'm doomed to be bed ridden for the rest of the day. damn that sucks =(

puii- all viruses should die =)

4:41 PM

Friday, October 02, 2009

i had a headache that made me cry =( and i'm still having it now.. maybe half of it =( and now i feel so damn cold =( and my nose is like a tap =(

damnnnnnnn...pain.

actifast didnt work as fast as it should.

ahhhhhhhhhhhh its coming back the headache.. got a feeling its gonna be like this for the whole dayyyy..

someone kill me please =P

sorry dar =P

few more days to happiest day in the year! =P hahahaha..

puii- feel like dying =(

6:02 PM